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I Was Sexually Abused As a Child

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 812 People

    Finally Telling

    I've blocked it out for many years and it's just recently been on my mind. I've never told anybody because I thought that if I never think about it that it will go away. I must have been 5 or 6, my mom and grandma went out for the day and got my older cousin to look after me. It...
    JarredRay JarredRay 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 25, 2012

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    Neighbor

    my next door neighbor raped me when i was 11. He was babysitting me and tore my clothes off of me. he degraded me (verbally), peed on me, and ****** me. I was afraid to tell anyone because church taught that this was a sin. he used for another 3 years before my parents let...
    WhereWhy WhereWhy 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    My Story :)

    I was abused when i was a child. I was around 2-3 years old. I dont really remember it, or him, and i dont even know his name. I lived in a small village, only around 1500 that lived there, and in that community everyone knows everyone and you trust your neighbor. He was like the...
    fridgursol fridgursol 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 26, 2013

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    My Experience

    When I was girl I lived with my parents and grandparents. Some day when I was 9 or 10 years old I stayed home only with my grandfather. He came to my room and saw that I was laying on bad and watching tv. He sat on my and 1 hand cach my hands and began kising and licking my face...
    ann2198 ann2198 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    When I was about 6 or 7 the abuse started.

    My mom married very young (18,dad was 30) & had my bro & me. She worked very hard & a lot just to cover most of the expenses. My dad worked freelance & at home as a car mechanic. He drank a lot & smoked weed, maybe more but I can't remember. This one night when my mom was...
    b4uslip25 b4uslip25 31-35, M Aug 26

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    My testimony, that I share with people isn't my

    whole story. I leave out a big chuck out of it. Everyone knows I was taken from police when I was four years old and adopted when I was seven. Everyone knows I was adopted into a strong Christain family that loves me very much. What people don't know is I was sexual abused for...
    ashwilkins ashwilkins 18-21, F Jan 14

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    Questioning My Sexuality

    When i was younger, i was molested my next door neighbor. i remember tha day like it was yesterday. he performed oral sex on me and attempted to penetrate my anal cavity. i was so young i thought everything he was doin was ok, now when i look back at my past, it seems like my...
    Ray326 Ray326 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 7, 2011

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    Maybe You'll Believe Me

    You'd think if a child goes through something as traumatic as this, they'd remember every detail. Every touch, every stroke, every word whispered in their ear. It's life changing. It's earth shattering. It's the darkest, most twisted experience you can imagine. But if I'm being...
    ellebrand ellebrand 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    My Whole Life Story.

    My mother left my real father when I was just a baby. I had an older brother. She fell in love with a man that had three children, a girl and two boys. My mom and step dad were in love, anyone could see that, they lived in a fairy tale. The problem is, they loved each other more...
    faceless0doll faceless0doll 18-21, F Oct 21, 2013

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    I Wake Up In A Cold Sweat.......was It Only A Dream??

    I wake up in a cold sweat crying, i do not know why I cry, cant put a memory to the route of my fears, just a place, that dark room, it makes me sick. I cry and cry till I have fallen asleep, I wake up in the morning and the events of the night do not matter. Im different when I...
    Star459716 Star459716 18-21 4 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Sexually Abused At 16

    At 16 I was sexual abused by my grandma 's husband he would touch me with When my grandma wasn't there and told me not to say nothing because none would believe and keep brive me with thing to keep quite evently i can't keep it in anymore because it was hurting me inside so I...
    strongsoulkarla strongsoulkarla 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    My Life...

    I am not going to write a full story; however, I want to share my poems with you and hope that they don't bring you down too much! x   What Did I Know?   I was in my room With all my toys What did I know About girls and boys? I loved my mum I loved...
    Still3Inside Still3Inside 36-40 9 Responses Apr 21, 2010

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    My Dads Friends

    It was happening happening on a regular basis at least twice a week I would have to suck them off our **** them and they would play with my **** but this one some idea I was met at school by John my dad's friend he was a bigger of the two he told me he wanted to take me for a...
    Motomoto1 Motomoto1 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    I Was 5 Years Old

    My father had many associates, mostly business. It wasn't uncommon for some of these associates to come over to our house. One of them was an accountant I think. who had known my father for 17 years. Barney had had 4 children, so my parents let him watch me. He was a very gentle...
    rumspringa02 rumspringa02 70+, F 6 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    It has been such a long time; I should be fine

    by now. Right? Wounds heal over time. Right? I keep replaying this in my head. Why me? The rapes. The stalking. The threats. I'm feeling so alone. But its been years, I should be fine. Right? I want to be alone right now, but I am terrified to be alone. I wish there was a...
    edgeoftheworld edgeoftheworld 18-21, F Nov 19

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    Even tho I am now over 40 years old,

    I can't seem to let it go. In fact, my past seems to be haunting me more than ever. I'm still angry.
    akninjarn akninjarn 41-45, F 1 Response May 14

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    I Was Sexually Abused As Child

    my name is abdel... i was sexually abused as child i got abused by an old man i don't remember who, my life is going down now, i am interesting to men... nobody from my family and friends know about me i ****** up at school because of that, i'm losing my mind... i see no future...
    abdelismyname abdelismyname 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    Sucking ****

    I suck my first **** at 12-year-old I didn't know what to do but I was taught I did not mind doing it it seemed to be okay I got quite a shock when they come in my mouth I got better as the years went on I am now very good at it and it is all down to have been doing at 12
    Motomoto1 Motomoto1 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    and I haven't even mentioned the sexual abuse I

    and my sister endured by my mother....
    Ingrid999 Ingrid999 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    First Time I Had A **** In Me

    The first time I had a **** in me it was my dads I must've been between 11 and 12 year old my man was at work and my dad came into my room I had been lying on my bed watching TV when I come and sat next to me you look at me I was certain I had on my little nighty all me to lie on...
    Motomoto1 Motomoto1 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 8, 2013

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    Abused By My Mum And Step Dad

    The abuse started when I was 12. I was at my mums for the weekend, I can remember the first time like it was yesterday. My mum was upstairs and my step dad and me were down stairs I was wearing my nighty he asked me to unbutton my it But I didnt want to so he got undressed and...
    Vespalady Vespalady 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2011

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    I Thought I Was Over It...

    I thought I was over the abuse, but as I got older I realised I was no where near ready for life. The only way I could describe what I feel is broken, I feel in pieces, damaged goods, lost in a world where no one can see, powerless, small and week. I used to be sad but now its...
    Star459716 Star459716 18-21 6 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    My Secret

      When I was six, my nephew, began raping me everytime we were in the same place. Every holiday, vacation, every family function, etc. He did this for six years, before anyone caught on. I kept quiet about it, because he was older than me, and I was terrified. I had always...
    Rogue1978 Rogue1978 26-30, F 35 Responses May 4, 2009

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    Dad'S Friends 2

    They came forward and caressed my breasts through my bra my dad watching then he came forward and said undo your bra and show them daddies **** so I undone my bra and took off my blouse and stood there naked on my top and the three of them started touching and taking turns...
    Motomoto1 Motomoto1 26-30, F Oct 13, 2013

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    I was sexually abused as a child...I think

    When I was 17, while trying to figure out why I was so scared to have sex for the first time with my then-boyfriend, I suddenly remembered that I was taken advantage of sexually as a child by someone I will call R. Recently – almost 12 years after first remembering and about 20...
    confusedseekinghelp confusedseekinghelp 26-30, F Oct 8, 2013

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    Dad'S Birthday

    Dad's birthday I was 15 an by now was used to everything and I had lots of so called uncles and on his birthday I was going to be his present He bought me new stuff to wear for the party and I got dressed up I had on a short white dress lacy design see through in places and...
    Motomoto1 Motomoto1 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 22, 2013

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    The Reason I Became 'Mad'

    My real dad loved me. then my mom left him when i was five and married my abuser when i was 6. from age 6-15 i was abused multiple times. my mom knew and didnt try and stop it. she called me a liar. from age 16-19 it was less frequent but still occuring. then i moved out to...
    theycallmethemaddhatterbaby theycallmethemaddhatterbaby 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 13, 2013

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    Sucking Aunt

    I dont remember when it started, I just remember one day noticing it happening and not being supprised about it. I remember that she was sucking on my **** and though hmmm ok its nice. Than it seemed to happen every day. She was my babysitter, my aunt. She had two older...
    gothambatman1 gothambatman1 36-40, M 4 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    Even Though I Still Love Him.

    There is no way a person can hurt you and you still love them. Well for me my life has been a mess and torture but I will still love my brother. I was 5 when I first remember being touched by my brother who was 12. At the time I didn't move I tried not to breathe, I just lay...
    Npb92 Npb92 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    Yes It Can Happen To Boys As Well.

    It was way back in my childhood,so early in the day that I can hardly remember it but yes it did happen.It was one of the people who use to work for my dad and use to stay in our garage.Since the the garage was within our premises he had frequent acess to where we use to put up...
    Macrajat Macrajat 22-25, M 5 Responses Feb 23, 2012

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    I Am Now A Nurse & Want To Help Others

    Although I try to counsel and help others who have been sexually abused, I am myself a very private person. This is my very first time writing about this. I've only been able to tell my two closest friends, my boyfriend, and the few people I've tried to help in the past. My mom...
    angellight84 angellight84 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    Why I Can't Remember Disney Movies

    This is a long story, and a lot of explanation, thank you for your time if you read this entirely. I am 20 now, and moved back with my dad. When I was 18, and only a few months after I graduated, my father started bringing women to the house and having casual sex with them. I was...
    ambrosia93 ambrosia93 18-21 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    I Was 5 Yrs Old......

    I still remember to the day my brother was caught abusing me! It Had been going on for months..... My Parents caught my brother forcing me to suck his D***..... He is 4 yrs older then me! My parents i dont believe was harsh enough on him becuz it did stop for a while but it...
    EEYORE6 EEYORE6 36-40, F 22 Responses Sep 8, 2008

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    Hard To Talk About

    it started when i was 5 i have 3 older sisters and the yougest 1 is 5 years older than me. so i can remember being waking up with someone playing with my penis and it was very sensitive and my middle sister asking me if i was awake (umm ya) and her asking me if im ok.what did...
    besserer2005 besserer2005 36-40, M 5 Responses Dec 16, 2009

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    He Change My Whole Life

    I was 9 years old when it happened there was this worker who was in the house everyday for 3 weeks ,i entered the kitchen to grab a plate and then he popped out of no where and just started touching fondling kissing and licking me I couldnt move i didnt feel anything i felt...
    Alexandra129 Alexandra129 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    I Would Like My Life To Be Used To Help Others

    [this is a story I have in other groups I'm in, I just didn't want to retype...please forgive me anyone who may also be in them and have to see this pop up so often..I'm sorry] I will include graphic detail...simply to get my point across...or whatever you would call it. The...
    KeevaRaev KeevaRaev 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    I Need Serious Help!!!

    Before you read this I was you to know that I was not sexually abused, my boyfriend was, and upon searching I couldn't find a group that was about that, but I think for people that have experienced it, they can help me. So I have been dating Nathan, (my boyfriend) for about 3...
    Cassey568 Cassey568 22-25, T 2 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    I Was Sexually Abused As A Child

    I can remember so vividley being sexually abused by my father for 9 years. the one man i tought i can trust in my life scars me forever. The first time i was abused by my father i was 7 i was in the 2nd grade and i remember asking my dad if i could go to a friends house and...
    missnk missnk 18-21, F 14 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    By two older female cousins,

    seperately. I don't hold it against them, but I am upset that now one of them wants little to no contact with me, like I did something to her. I have good relations with the other. I guess I hold it as they were at the age where they were exploring their sexuality, should I be...
    lmtnmn lmtnmn 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    Why Me ???

    Everyday I wake up at night because of the flashbacks of the horrendous crime which happened to my body.Most nights, I cry to sleep but sometimes I get insightful and ask why me?I had always been a good girl, never committed any crime or cursed anyone, so why me?I was 6 years old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 15, 2013

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    When I Was 7..i Died

    This is really hard for me but I'm going to try..When i was 7 years old my mom was  a single mom and was working 2 jobs just to make ends meat. I would stay home with her so called step-brother and his wife at night, they lived with us after my father went to jail. I can't...
    ShayLuv ShayLuv 22-25 16 Responses Mar 26, 2009

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    Abused And Alone

    I am 20. i was 3 years old when it began. It subsided close to 8 years old. But continued in other ways. I told a trusted adult when i was in preschool. they laughed in my face and said "he would never such things your foolish for even speaking that way" got a spanking and sent...
    countrycutie101 countrycutie101 22-25, F 12 Responses Dec 17, 2011

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    I Saw My Abuser Recently

    I've shared about abuse in this group. I have this thing that I would really like to know. I saw one of my abusers. We passed each other quickly at a Safeway parking lot. I knew he still lived here but I hadn't seen him since it happened. He was/is a Jehovah's Witness. Jehovah...
    ventnow ventnow 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 1, 2012

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    It Really Bothers Me Now

    I was forced to **** a guy off when I was 7. I did it a couple of times. In between the abuse I was made to finger a girl and later in another country I had a man expose his penis to me. I use to snog my baby sitter at the time. I hate it now. Really bothering me.
    Calman1970 Calman1970 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    My Cousin

    When I was 11 I was made by my dad to **** my cousin in front of him didn't realise it was wrong till later and I had been doing it for ages my cousin was younger than me by a year and he uses to love me touching him . When he came to my school he used to try his hardest to get...
    Motomoto1 Motomoto1 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2013

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    My Secret Hell

    I can't remember when exactly it began, or when it stopped. But I remember feeling guilty, worthless, utterly disgusted with myself. I remember the lies, the manipulation, and feeling trapped. Now I know that it wasn't my fault. I was a little girl... Sexually abused by my older...
    poetrybelle poetrybelle 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    This is another time my abuser abused me in a

    new way. I was 7 at the time. My older brother was with my aunt because she was going to take him & my cousin to baseball practice. My father had a friend over as my mom was getting ready for work. I was on her bed watching a movie & coloring. Dad & his friend were drinking...
    b4uslip25 b4uslip25 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Rape

    Its 3:23 AM. I am up frequently around this time because I can't fall asleep. I am constantly reliving the abuse. When I was 14 I was raped by a 21 year old man, he took my virginity, It happened the night I was set to travel to my hometown for the summer. I chose to pretend I...
    Unicorn88 Unicorn88 22-25 Aug 15, 2013

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    Still Hard To Talk About

    From age 5 to 6 I was sexually abused by a neighbor. It started with him having me and three of my siblings over... To watch cartoons and stuff. He even took us to this park-type thing and out for ice cream. Eventually he suggested that since I was bored with my siblings at...
    Merralada Merralada 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 25, 2010

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    Disgusted With Myself

    I was sexually abused when I was 6 years old and it continued till I was 10 years old. I have blocked out my entire childhood but I still have flashbacks and wake up screaming in my pillow at night. Even though I am 22 years old now, I still sleep with my light on fearing he may...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 8, 2013

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    I Wont To Forget But Don't No How

    I cant remember what age I was but I think I was about 5 years old I cant say how it was but I thorough nothing like this could happen to me I was really afraid of him he youngster beat me and them sexuality abuse me I cry but now help me I have night mares every night I cry...
    chaz23 chaz23 22-25, F Sep 16, 2013

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