I Was Sexually Abused By My Dad

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    i am so scared to taking bath.

    .i am even scared to going to my bathroom. i don't wanna do anything like talking off clothes things...you know what i mean.. Because everything was happened at ''bathroom''
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2015

    Weirdo Dad

    "Good night, I love u dad." I leaned down to kiss my dad's forehead. I was shocked when he did something he had never done to me before. He pulled me up to the bed and started smothering my face with kisses, leaving spit all over. He wasn't kissing me like a father kisses his...
    cococutie cococutie
    5 Responses Jun 30, 2012

    I plan on providing a more detailed story,

    but I feel I need to get the gist out. My dad molested me on multiple occasions/felt me up/acted perverted towards me and my sister. One time he m.asturbated in front of me. What father does that? Certainly not a loving one. Not one that cares about others more than himself. I...
    graymoth graymoth
    22-25, F
    Apr 18, 2014

    How do I get past it?

    It was all of my childhood and some of my teen years. I am 26 years old, have no clue what it's like to have a loving father and what he did to me has molded me into a person who is terrified of many things in this world. Most of my fears/phobias are completely irrational. My...
    Sable25 Sable25
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2016

    stay alive stay strong get human lights by your

    hand with someone's help i am survivor of sexually abused by father i am survivor of phisically abused by mother i am domestic violence survivor by ex i am sexual harrasment survivor by japanese police But i alive with my faith i learn many things every day.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    It was in 2010 and i was just turning 10.

    It was on my birthday, i wore a skirt to school that day because i love skirts. Later that day i came home and my mom wasn't home nor my brother and sister. So i ate an apple and when't in to the living room to find my (step) dad was home. So i did what i normally do when i get...
    MelaanneMarie400 MelaanneMarie400
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2014

    He had the guts to put his thing inside me in

    all of my three holes at 2 years old. It was by a babysitter, not dad. I bled and yelled and he recorded it. He likes me being in pain I guess.. The videos are still online and it hurts me everyday. Once he even decided to urinate on me. Every day I feel like all I am is a toy...
    rachellxo rachellxo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2014

    i was five years old.

    i lived with my father and my mom, one night my father, Cesar, came into my room and lied next to me. i didn't think much of it, i mean why would i, thats my father, the "big hero" "protects me from all". well, he played next to me and put his arm around me. he kissed my neck...
    simplysimplelola simplysimplelola
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2016

    It's out. But I'm so glad.

    Yes, I was sexually abused by my dad. I was like, 12/13. My mom was working night shift and my dad was watching us. Everyone was asleep, except me because I was reading. As it turns out though, I wasn't the only one. After putting my little sister to sleep, my dad comes into my...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jun 10, 2014


    When I was 11 my dad asked if I wanted my mum dead and I said no. Then he said if that's true do as I say or she will die so I said I would obey his every word. He took me to the bathroom and locked the door. Then he took off his and my clothes. He has an erection. He said take...
    Yyyyyyywdcd Yyyyyyywdcd
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 7, 2013

    I woke up to sore, pink breasts

    and wetness between my legs. I felt inside of my vagina and it was looser than it should've been. I looked around for the clothes that had been torn from my body. I was very distraught. When I'd fallen asleep, the only person in the house was my father. I confronted him and...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

    Make A Wish Babygirl..

    Wow..As I read some of your guys stories, I feel as if  those memories of being a little girl come back. As if I can see them all happening right in front of me again. You see, I wasn't just sexaully abused by my father but also by my grandpa T. They both would do something to...
    HopingForABetterTomorrow HopingForABetterTomorrow
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Apr 24, 2012


    It's hard to write all of this down. When I was six, I believe, my father molested me. The first time was on Christmas Eve, and I was with him by myself because it was the first Christmas that my parents were split up. So my older sister and younger brother were both with my...
    emberlyfaye emberlyfaye
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Aug 31, 2013

    I remember I was young.

    .. It only happened once... I was like 3 or 4... I remember his shadow over me.. The pain, and the feeling. I've never told anyone. I'm 27 now and I think it's sneaking up on me. He's a better man now. I'm scared to confront it over the fear of it tearing everything apart. I just...
    Angelrank1987 Angelrank1987
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 27, 2014

    Daddy's Girl?

    Growing up I always knew my step dad wasn't my dad. I had met my biological father when I was 4 or 5 then lost touch with him until I was 10. When we got back in contact with each other my mom was eager to make plans for me to visit him in the summer. The plan was set and in June...
    cuca2822 cuca2822
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 29, 2012

    I lost everything because of someone

    who should have protected me. My mind is so screwed up and I don't know how to cope with it anymore. I lost my childhood, my family, my sanity, and in the end I lost myself. I am healing but no one understands what I've gone through and I hate it. I'm tired of my friends acting...
    Ren10 Ren10
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    Scarred For Life...

    When I was about 5 years old my parents split up. My fathers addiction to alcohol and drugs drove my mum crazy, she had to do something to save us from him. At the time thought, I did not understand what was going on. I've always loved my father and respected him, I trusted him...
    UmNoIdea UmNoIdea
    5 Responses Apr 9, 2012

    What He Did

    do you know how it is to be cuffed to a bed for hours not being able to move or get away? or being sliced here and there bc the pain from that masks the pain of the savage beast on you I have a scar on the back of my neck from the monster because he cut me there with his...
    woundeddragon woundeddragon
    18-21, M
    4 Responses May 15, 2012

    Father Molested Me

    I grew up in a basically really nice suburb in Connecticut. My father was in the insurance industry. He molested me during my entire childhood. I mention this b/c there are stupid stereotypes around ******. Even middle and upper middle class families contain this evil. It happens...
    deleted deleted
    14 Responses Aug 6, 2012

    I found out at age 29

    that this man who molested, belittled, sexually abused, emotional abused, and who still lives in my deceased mother's home wasn't my real father....my mother kept it from me all those years, let me think that he was my father...after my mother passed, I finally told my family of...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 22, 2015

    When I was 15 my dad took us shopping with my

    younger sister who was 12 at that time. He bought was clothes. However , a month later when I got home from school he told me that he wants to buy me clothes so he was going to take my measurements with a tape measure. So he bought a note pad and a pen.so I was like sure and...
    cunning78 cunning78
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    Am I Suppose To Love You???

    I feel it. I can feel. You make me sit. You make me kneel. “PLEASE!” I beg. I can’t see. I grab your leg. You beg for me. “NO!” You start to smile. Down I go. It takes a while. It's really warm. You start to sweat. A thunder storm, The sickening wet. The smell will seek...
    noname2071 noname2071
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 25, 2012

    Godly Man - Not

    This is the first time im actually writing this down. I grew up in what everyone thought was the perfect christian family. At least that is what my father pro-trade it to be. Everyone thought he was such a godly man. But he was only that when there were people around. It was a...
    Ashestoeagles Ashestoeagles
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 30, 2013

    Daddy'S Girl

    Journal So where to begin this twisted tale of mine.. Well let me beginning with my background..I grew up in a what most people would have thought a poor but happy family with parents who were church goers and good people.. We wee raised as Jehovah's Witness and this religious...
    Mijaloves Mijaloves
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Feb 12, 2013

    i am survivor of sexually abused by my father.

    my mother and sisters always beated me up and called me useless,you are joke,ugly,nothing. ...i live alone now. flash back is killing me.. someone availble talk on skype right now?? seriously i need same company this is NOT joke.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2015

    where do you start...

    at the beginning I guess. It all started when I was 4, I can remember trying to tell my mother about it,, She either didn't want to except it or didn't understand,, at first I think it was the second but later it became the first. I endure his abuse for over 7 years, not only...
    wnme wnme
    56-60, F
    Aug 31, 2014

    When i was a very little girl,

    between 2 - 5 i think. My daddy left us. Us being me, my brother, and my mom. She worked very hard to take care of us. Therefore I never had a lot of time to bond with her properly. The only time we could be together without interruptions was as night. So me my brother and her...
    CleverSiri CleverSiri
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    So one day i was in my room changing my clothes

    and when i got completely naked my father just opened the door with no permission as he always does then he saw me naked and came to me and said my faghter has a sexy beautiful body i was like no dad get out then he kissed me and take of his clothes.... I started crying and...
    Wasafae Wasafae
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2016

    It Didn't Happen to Me, But He Did It to My Best Friend.

    So it was my first year at college I was excited. Then a few months in something happened that changed my life forever. One night I was sitting at the computer and one of my old friends logged on. I decided to talk to her because I lost touch with her for almost 6...
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2009

    He Ruined My Childhood

    I have moved past hating him since he is dead now.But when I was 8 maybe before that he molested me till I was 14.Ifelt very angry for so long then numb.and sad i cryed alot.blamed my self was i a sexxy 8 year old.i think child molesters cause most of the ills of society.if only...
    tatra52 tatra52
    6 Responses May 19, 2011

    When I was 10 my step dad

    who raised me changed me forever. When my mom nd him fought. He molested me. I didn't know it was wrong. He has **** magazines and I was I looked at them with him be said "all dads do this" eventually he began touching my below area and Said "you are not my actaully kid so it's...
    Autumnolsen4 Autumnolsen4
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2015

    It Started When I Was 6..**graphic**

    I'm Julian. I'm a 15 year old guy, and I dont really express my emotions..but I did it once before on EP and it really eased some stress, sooo.. My dad's name is Angelo. He took the place of my biological dad, and formed a bond with my mom, my little sister and I to become our...
    deleted deleted
    13 Responses Jan 2, 2012

    I had the courage to tell my mom what happened

    right before I turned 18. I told her my dad molested me and she told me it could've been worse, that he could've penetrated me. That day I lost everything I had. I never wanted to say anything because I didn't think she would believe me and I was right. Why isn't there anyone...
    TellieG TellieG
    3 Responses May 25, 2014

    Alright, this has absolutely nothing to do with

    me in any way except I have no where else to talk about this and I need help... But the girl I love had a troubling past and her father used to sexually abuse her from the time she was like 4 years old. She did not tell anyone until 5 months ago. She is currently receiving...
    mytroubledboo mytroubledboo
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 27, 2014

    I Remember

    I remember the first time he went into my skirt. It was a pretty blue skirt that I liked. We were playing and he tossed me in the air a few times. I was 4 years old. The last he caught me with his big arm wrapped around me. I remember so clearly how his cold hand somehow slipped...
    JennineMckn JennineMckn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2013

    My mom worked weekends

    so she was never home until Monday morning. I used to have terrible nightmares and so I would sleep with my step dad. One night he asked me if I wanted to play a game. Me only being six I said yes. He took off my clothes and stuck his hand in my pants. I remember don't knowing...
    ma1467 ma1467
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 14, 2014

    ok so liek my dad waz a drinkr n 1 day he

    comez home crazier then usuall (lol w/e dad u no scarey) but he grab knife he look at me, say "y so serius sun?" (Dad omg stahp wit questions) And he comez toward me wit knife and put scar smile on face but I'm like lol w/e swag yolo
    Liospo Liospo
    31-35, M
    Mar 6, 2014

    i was crying...i have been wondering this pain

    and scars are really cured someday
    deleted deleted
    Mar 8, 2015

    This is something I have a hard time admitting

    and even though I have talked about the abuse to people I trust, I never let them know it was him. 10 years after the last incident, my life is total chaos, with one disaster after another. There hasn't been any form of stability in my life and I am alive but feel so dead inside...
    shierahawke88 shierahawke88
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 31, 2014

    I've been sexually abused by my step dad.

    ... I told my mom she didn't believe me..... instead she chose him over me and acts like nothing ever happened.
    Gavyrocks Gavyrocks
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    H h he........ Raped me

    now I'm pregant with his baby😢😭😭😭
    annieanaconda annieanaconda
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Oct 9, 2014

    He would let his clients use me.

    He said it would, "seal the deal, baby". He never laid a finger on me. His "friends"? That's another story. Although, is it wrong if I enjoyed helping his clients make the right decision? Is it really abuse?
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    The Lone Cry

    Pain for years, inspired by another on EP, I too let the words flow tonight. My heart is bruised, my mind, so afraid, I have never known a life w/o fear, without guilt, shame, self-consciousness. I miss my brother tonight, gone again out of my life, lost to his mental illness...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 22, 2012

    Never show your wounds to those without any of

    their own, for they will only open them wider, trying to understand. - Rachel Wolchin Not many people can understand and those who try don't know that's it's hard to talk about it cuz ur reliving it...
    BaileyWolf BaileyWolf
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 31, 2014

    The first time I remember my dad touching me I

    was 4, I was scared of monsters so I slept in my mum and dads bed. My mum got out of bed and went into my room. I stayed in bed with my dad, that's when he put his hand down my pj bottoms and rubbed me down bellow. I snuck out of bed and went to my mum, she moaned because she...
    Tinaess1993 Tinaess1993
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 23, 2015
    Joanne181 Joanne181
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 19, 2015

    15 Years To Get Away But Not Really

    This is my first time here. I feel writing and getting feedback is the only thing that will help me now I don't know what else to do where to turn. Since I was 8 years old my father had been sexually abusing me up until last year when I was 22 and got caught up in drugs and the...
    Genesisrod21 Genesisrod21
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 30, 2013
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