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I Was Sexually Abused By My Father

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    Fading Memories.. Part One.

    This won't be perfect.. I'm writing this just as I'm thinking it.. so forgive me if things are a little over explained because I think I feel like I need to let everything out.. everything I can remember. I've only written about this one other time. I was around 15 years old and...
    SecretsHere SecretsHere 22-25 5 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    Never Knew Why

    Idk if this is even gonna help or If anything ever will but yes as a young boy I was molested by my Biological ***** doner, state it that way because he I'll never consider him my dad. It began when I was 5. I had just recieved sergery to have my tonsils and abnoids removed, and...
    Deathplease Deathplease 18-21, M Oct 13, 2013

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    Daddy's Little Girl

    It almost seems like a dream. The older I get, the more blurry the memories get. From as young as I can remember until about the age of 8, my father molested me. I was born in Morocco and was an only child. My father spoiled me with whatever I wanted. My mother worked long...
    ShyOne85 ShyOne85 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    Tired Of The World Today

    Today I see the world as a colossally ****** up place. Abused as a child, no one to protect me, I blamed myself. I grew up to know pain, ptsd symptoms. Judith Herman says that what ****** survivors cope with is actually much worse than traditional ptsd - she wrote a book called...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 10, 2013

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    Abused By My Brother Repressed That My Dad Was The Abuser Too

    I blocked out everything my dad did I have grown up thinking that it was just my brother that abused me from the age of 5 to 9 been liveing with a monster and did not evan know it because my mind was protecting me from the truth I was being raped and I had no idear because I...
    prodigygirl prodigygirl 26-30 3 Responses May 17, 2010

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    He Was My 'dad' Now He's Just A Father.

    I remember the happy days when life was innocent and sweet. He was actually my 'dad'. I'd ride his shoulders and he was always taking me and my sister to the park or fishing. We were the 'perfect' family.. Hell we even went to church. Yes we were picture perfect and to this day...
    Ejane92 Ejane92 18-21, F 12 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Dont Know What To Do, Advice Anyone Pleasre

    My biological father sexually abused my older half sister who is now 21, & is a socio path. He went to prison 10 days after i was born, he was there for 5 years. when he got out he was granted supervised visitations with me & my older sister who is autisitic, his only 2 daughters...
    sabrinababyxox sabrinababyxox 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2013

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    Can't Move On...

    My first memory in my life with my Dad is when he touched me in the bath when I was three. I told my mum and my Dad tried to drown me on the next bath. My mum said I had a vivid imagination, and my Dad who was an engineer could not possibly have done what I said. How can a three...
    Hatemydad65 Hatemydad65 46-50 7 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    Trust

    All right.  I really can't believe I am going to write this blog.  I'm actually nervous just thinking about it.  My hands are shaking, my heart is racing, but I feel like this is the right thing to do.  Let's find out...     First a little...
    ruru ruru 26-30, M 10 Responses Oct 7, 2006

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    No Memories, Am I Crazy

    i have no memories. my life has been one big blur. i feel crazy. i am a 21 year old female trying to figure life out and ever since I graduated high school and have gone to college life took a series of turns i never saw coming. I went to college on a volleyball scholarship. My...
    dazedlostconfused dazedlostconfused 18-21 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    A new word

    I always said I forgot everything because I had no way to tell, because I did not know the words for what my dad was doing to me.  I did not know what sex was.  What I'm remembering now, I thought he was using me as a toilet at the time, and I knew he was enjoying hurting and...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 11 Responses Sep 5, 2011

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    Every Secret Will Eventually Surface

    It has been a very long journey and as I look back now I can't believe I got to the stage I am now. Joining this site was the best thing I could have possibly ever done that and my partners support gave me the courage an strength. Before you read this story I suggest you read the...
    Ejane92 Ejane92 18-21, F 4 Responses May 31, 2012

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    Children

    I was sexually abused by my father since I was 3-yrs-old to the age of 9.  I did not know that most of this was going on at first.  I was awake one night and felt him laying on top of me and feeling everything that he was doing to me.  When I was 9, my father...
    simplysteph10 simplysteph10 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13, 2010

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    Stepdad, Sort Of

    I don't know if this is necessarily sexual abuse? My stepfather, who was close enough to being my real dad, beat me day and night over the simplest things. A popular tactic he'd use was grabbing and squeeze my genitals until I screamed or even threw up. He'd run his hands up and...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 13, 2011

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    My Dad Was Sick In the Head!!

    On Christmas morning when I was twelve, my dad tried to have sex with me. I cried and told him to stop, he did.  I called my mom, told her... she drove all day to get me and he was sent to prison for 16 years.  His last words to me:  "I did what I did because...
    TheOtherMe TheOtherMe 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 21, 2008

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    I Still Can'T Believe What My Father Did To Me...

    I am not ready to tell my whole story. But I do want to share what happened to me over 20 years ago, and I just remembered about it a few weeks ago. I'm still having a very difficult time accepting it happened to me, that my own dad would do something so horrible to me and...
    1 Response Feb 12, 2013

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    Lonely Lil Girl

    I was a lonely little girl, my mom was too caught up in my dad, my brother was distant, and my older sister left home when we were very young. I remember when my dad first started messing with me, I was 7 years old, during the summer, we were out of school, my mom worked in the...
    lucy290 lucy290 26-30, F Jan 6, 2013

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    Oral Abuse Sucks

    8 years ago when i was 7, i was watching Disney Channel while laying on my bed. It was just my dad and me because my mom was at the hospital sucking the doctors clean of drugs as usual. My dad came up to me and asked, " Hey Alanna, you wanna try something fun?". I was 7. Of...
    Styleslover100 Styleslover100 26-30, F 1 Response May 13, 2013

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    Why: Just Wanted You To Love Me

    Tried to fix this myself. I used to think that people who whinned about being abused was weak. I was abused and kept it to myself and came out on top, at least that's what I thought. I didn't officially meet my father till I was 12. I have other brothers and sisters but my dad...
    BJCK BJCK 22-25 Sep 19, 2013

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    I'Ve Been Suppressing This For A Long Time

    My mother and father divorced when I was two, and I was shuttled between them for summer and Christmas vacations until I was about 12. My mom told me when I was older that she always worried about me going to see my father when I was a kid, but wouldn't say why. When I was about...
    books4life88 books4life88 22-25 Jun 12, 2013

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    I Was Sexually Abused By My Brother

    I was only eight years old when my brother started sexually abusing me. It lasted up till I was twelve; the memories are hard to deal with. It has only been by the Grace of God that I have been able to move on to an extent with my life. In 1992, I ended up opening to all my...
    diamondgirl diamondgirl 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 13, 2007

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    I Should Have Never Told

    From the time I was 11 years old until I was 14, my Father sexually abused me.  I told my best friend when I was 14.  She was two years older than me.  She told me I needed to go to medical and report it.  Then she began to fill me in on STD's, pregnancy etc.  Fear got the...
    JANATOBIN JANATOBIN 46-50 19 Responses Jun 4, 2008

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    Only Once

    It was done only once I never thought it would happen to me Sure I was physically abused for 4 years But it never happened then Why would it happen now? It never occured to me that it could happen I never thought my father was that sick Yes I knew he was a sick man Having...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 14, 2011

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    Extremely Long Story But I Need To Get This Out

    When I was little, I had my dad and then there was my step dad. My mom met my step dad when I was 2 years old and the difference was always strong in my mind. My step dad was the man who lived with us, who was my two younger sisters daddy but not mine, who was the disciplinarian...
    Femmediablo Femmediablo 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 21, 2013

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    I did not have the memories

    until I was in my late 30's. I went to many psychiatrists and my sister provided enough information to confirm. I was 2-3yrs old being traded for heroin, and being trained by my father to be worth more in the trade. I learned to enjoy it in my mind in order to stay alive. The...
    what2donowthatIam42 what2donowthatIam42 41-45, F Jan 3

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    A Girl Trapped In Hell

    *Very graphic* I have vivd memories of being abused by daddy. I was only 3 years old and my dad was a marine. He was a tall muscular man who smoked cigars and drank beer every day. My mother rarely involved herself in his activities and I rarely saw them display affection or...
    SluttySara SluttySara 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2012

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    I Was Sexually Abused By My Father For More Than 5 Years

    my name is teteki , when i was a 16 my mom passed away , i have one sister and one brother , they were 7 and 8 years old . i had a responsibility to take care of them . i was so broken of loosing my mom at that age , was really sudden . my monster father start abusing me with in...
    teteki teteki 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2013

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    My Story.

    From the age of 7 i have been sexually abused by my father when my parents got a divorce two years ago everything stopped but i had been sexually abused for ten years he used to walk into my room in the night then feel me up in the wrong places he stopped for a while but it got...
    uknown12 uknown12 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    Admitting It Is The First Step

    When I was young my parents got a divorce, I am not sure how it came about but I ended up spending time alone with my father, I was very young so the memories are not really all fully developed (which I am thankful for) but I do know that he often preformed oral sec on me. I...
    embermommy embermommy 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 13, 2012

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    Stephen King Texas

    Young people died very violent deaths. It was not unusual to have evil around us. My father would call me into our only bathroom when he was in the bathtub. He would tell me to find the wash cloth and his penis would be sticking up in the water. When I would reach into the...
    hornedtoad1 hornedtoad1 66-70, F Jan 8, 2013

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    My Dad Has Destroyed Me

    My Dad was my world he was the apple of my eye. We were any normal daughter and father until i was 8 years old my brother broke his leg and he had to stay in hospital for a month the night it happend my mum stayed with him over night there was just me and him in the house. He...
    kellymattuk kellymattuk 18-21 2 Responses Jan 15, 2011

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    From My Hero To A Zero

    I just wanted 2 things from my dad:  Not to hurt me...   To love me... Unfortunately he did neither of the two.  I wish I knew what I had done wrong to deserve what he did.  I will probably never know.  I always listened to him.  I did whatever he asked from me...
    imamhere imamhere 18-21, F 2 Responses May 28, 2011

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    Share My Story.. Share My Story... No One Knows My Name But Once I Put Words To It....

    For close to 31 years I have lived with a secret, the secret of what my dad did to me. I have never talked about it, although I have been asked by more than a few therapists and more than a few of my friends, "Did your dad sexually abuse you?". It was brought up during a...
    Giggly73 Giggly73 36-40 1 Response Jan 10, 2013

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    Why Me?

    here it goes, sat behind my keyboard going to type a situation that only I and the man knows, too afraid to tell anyone. I was about 12 when it first happened, fall asleep in his arms, I was his little princess. we would watch football and I would help him do food. one night of...
    seriouslywhyme seriouslywhyme 18-21 2 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    Swept Under The Rug

    I was sexually abused by my father until I turned 18 and ran away from home. I used to be a daddy's girl until it changed, I was left alone in the house with him and he made me do things I didn't understand. When I was younger I didn't know what was happening, but as I got older...
    FallenStar91 FallenStar91 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Help Please

    My biological father sexually abused my older half sister who is now 21, & is a socio path. He went to prison 10 days after i was born, he was there for 5 years. when he got out he was granted supervised visitations with me & my older sister who is autisitic, his only 2 daughters...
    sabrinababyxox sabrinababyxox 18-21, F Jan 20, 2013

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    So Many Times

    It happened when I was four…it happened when I was 5…it happened when I was 6…it happened when I was 7…it happened when I was 8…it happened when I was 9…it happened when I was 10…it happened when I was 11…it happened when I was 12…it happened when I was 13…it...
    imamhere imamhere 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    Like A *****

    My father didn't try to convince me it was just a game. He didn't covertly trick me into touching him. He just did it. One night, he randomly decided that he wanted to stick his thing into some piece of meat and make it suffer. He threw me on the ground, I lay on my stomach...
    InferiorTrash InferiorTrash 18-21, M 8 Responses Feb 4, 2013

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    Tina

    It started when I was little I ran away the streets were safer than home. I still deal with it even though I am 48 years old
    joycetina64 joycetina64 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    I Was Sexually Abused By Women & I Liked It

    I wasn't abused by my dad he just wasn't there. I was sexually abused by women. It started at such a young age I liked it. I liked the warm feeling of a woman. Their taste and later on the girls too. I still have flashbacks, but instead of having hate I have feelings of loss...
    ADirtyMind ADirtyMind 31-35, M Oct 18, 2013

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    Wow This Is Hard...........

    This is really hard for me to write... I've never been thru counseling and to this day I still am on medication for depression and anxiety as well as Post Traumatic Stress and medication to help me sleep so I can sleep without worry. :-(  The crazy part about the whole...
    TareBear TareBear 26-30, F 9 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    "Strength Is Only How Well You Hide Your Pain..."

    Every fairytale has it's own happy ending...whether it's the prince marrying the princess or the knight rescuing the damsel in distress. We all know the stories by heart...and all they seem to do is fill our young minds with an idealistic look towards love and romance.....All...
    lostinyou lostinyou 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2011

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    It Was Not My Fault **trigger Warning**

    I was, and still am very close to my father, ever since I was a child. Because my mother died giving birth to my brother, I was raised by my father while my brother was sent to our grandparents, During that time we lived in a rented room at my maternal aunt's together and shared...
    Subaltern Subaltern 22-25 8 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    One of my earliest memories are of my dad

    standing me, and my two younger sisters in a line. I was about 3-4 years old. He touched us down there to "see how healthy we are and if we're growing properly". I felt angry and confused. When I was 8 years old, I went to my parents bedroom to grab a towel for a shower. My...
    wellknowngg wellknowngg 22-25, F Jan 15

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    My Twisted Story

    I'm a college student right now, I'm 17 years old, and something like this is happening to me every weekend, my story is a little different, my dad never lived with me nor my twin brother until we were 14. He rubs my breasts and sucks them, he says he wants to make me feel pretty...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 8, 2013

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    I Hate The Way I Feel

    Hello' I was just looking on the web and saw this site. Getting to the point, I was sexually abused by my father, uncle and step-grandfather. The abuse was not done together, don't even know if they knew each other were doing this to me. It did happen during the same time...
    gemini53071 gemini53071 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2013

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    I Now Know What Hate Is.

    My Name Is Carmen Agramont. I Am Under Aged. But I Honestly Feel Like I'm Mature To Be 13. Not Only Because Of The Situations I've Been Through But Because Whatever Has Happend To Me, God Has Been Here With Me Through It All. I Don't Know Why I'm Sharing This. But I Feel Alone...
    carmen839453 carmen839453 46-50 2 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    The People I Thought I Could Trust.

    When I was around the age of 2 yrs old, my father some how got it in his mind that he can touch me. My father and mother hated eachother to death, so my father took me on these camping trips, states away from where we lived. My mother didn't care because at the same time she was...
    gakre gakre 18-21 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    My Mentally Sick Father

    I was born in Vienna, Austria in 1953. When I was about two years old my father came to New York City and my mother and I waited in Vienna till my father got established with an apartment and a job. When my mother and I arrived in New York City, my father had taken up...
    skypilotsoxie skypilotsoxie 61-65, M Jun 28, 2013

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    Ctrl, Alt, Del...

    I ache, I hurt, I hate. I'm not allowed to cry...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jan 19, 2013

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    I was about 6 when my older step brother who is about 7 years older than me, sexually abused me. I've tried so hard to block it out, thankfully I only have a short memory of it. It...
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    I lost everything because of someone who should have protected me. My mind is so screwed up and I don't know how to cope with it anymore. I lost my childhood, my family, my sanity...
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