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I Was Sexually Abused By My Mother

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 179 People

    I Wish She Would Die

    The last time I was molested by my mom was when I was 9. I told her I was too old to be getting a bath from her. She did it anyway. I know this wasn't the first time she molested me, because I knew where she was going to dry me off next. Right between my but and then my penis...
    nothing99 nothing99 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2012

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    I Was Molested And Verbally Abused By My Mother

    I felt like I was in prison for 30 years. I'm now 39. The last time my mom molested me I was 8 or 9. After that, there was verbal sexual abuse and verbal abuse. I have no feelings for my mom. I just came to the realization about the abuse about 2 months ago. I was...
    nothing99 nothing99 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    I WAS: Sexually Abused by her, SHE Made Me Wear Girls Clothes and Wet My Pants, AND -- I Was Gang-raped By 3 Guys. All This Made Me Feel I Might Be A Girl, Even Though I Was, Gender-wise, A Guy.

      < WARNING! THE BELOW STORY MY BE TRIGGERING> ​<    DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL  > All of The Info Below Has Been Personally Gathered & Researched By Me. My Source Being From 42+ Years Of My Own Sexually Abusive Hell. Wrought with Unbearable Suffering...
    Heathland Heathland 56-60, M 6 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    Yes I Was..

    Abused in all manner..physically,emotionally and sexually by my mother and her various husband’s and boyfriends.. My mother likes to brag that she started abusing me sexually as an infant, but I don’t remember that time in my life…I saw her sexually abuse...
    deleted66 deleted66 41-45, F 10 Responses Jun 18, 2010

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    At 13 Years Old, My Mother Sexually Abused Me.

    From what I have found out through years of counseling, my mother’s side of the family has had a family history of sexual abuse. I was sexually abused by my mother starting at 13 years old. My counselor has suggested that it’s very possible that I have been abused before then...
    acousticstory acousticstory 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 19, 2012

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    Stirring Things Up I want to do two things.

    I want to ask my siblings if any of them were sexually abused by our mother as I was. Why? Why do I want to know this? I know the answer is that at least some of them were. Why ask when I know the answer? Because I want to know the extent of the evil? Because I don’t want to...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Coming To Terms Late In Life

    My mother abused me during bathtimes when I was a boy. I can't remember how many times it happened. I was very young. The only time I remember clearly is when I told her I didn't want her to do it anymore. I never told anyone about it. And for some reason I can't understand, I...
    AllanL AllanL 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    This Is Not What Love Is.

    When I was a little girl, I was abused by my mother. I was so young that I didn't even have the vocabulary to explain what was happening to me. All I knew was that it was wrong and it made me feel sick inside. Everyday when my dad would leave for work, I would begin to shake...
    graychylde graychylde 36-40, F 12 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    Really Need Some Help

    I was not abused in the conventional sense. My mother used to encourage me to dance naked in front of her. Often times I would have what could be described as an erection, not knowing what it really was. She called it "the body dance". She thought it was an interesting and...
    nathan5119 nathan5119 26-30, M 5 Responses Jun 18, 2011

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    Why Can't Society Accept This Is Real?

    There are so many support groups out there for females who were abused by male relatives and no one doubts that it really happened. It only makes sense that some of these women who were abused as children will grow up to become abusers. From my personal experience with my own...
    barbsat barbsat 51-55, T 10 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    I Am Lez For Mommy

    Maybe it's because years of therapy trained me to look deeply, maybe it's just age and maturity, but lately my mind is always drifting back on my sexual experiences --or were they encounters, random occurrences -- with my mother. I am female, it would help to know. My mother made...
    christinacrawford christinacrawford 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    This is a very painful experience,

    even I am 45 years old now, the memory of the abused haunts me still. My mother is a hardcore fundamentalist Christian worker. One night I was lying on my bed, a 13 year old teenager trying to explore my sexuality. I have an erected penis and I began touching it. But my mother...
    guroarv guroarv 46-50, M Apr 12

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    Children Can't Tell The Difference Between Love And Abuse

    My mother hated me. She never showed love or affection, unless someone was watching. It was very important to her that everyone *thought* she was the perfect mom. She was, and is, a teacher, and all her students would say how they wished they had her for a mom. No, no you don't...
    laurendena laurendena 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    My Mommy..

    it started around 7 years old wen my dad left.. my mom started dressing really sexy.. she wanted me to look at her body.. she would say do you think mommy has a pretty vagina? do you wanna touch mommies hairy triangle? i want you to smell mommies vagina..she would make me pull my...
    justreallybad justreallybad 31-35, M 6 Responses Jul 8, 2011

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    I Was Sexually Abused By My Alcoholic Mother.

    Okay...this is very difficult for me...first time I ever posted my story about this on any site...except maybe www.ptsdforum.org. Yes...I have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) from my mom's sexual & sadistic abuse. And, by the way, if you didn't notice...I'm a Guy.My mom...
    Heathland Heathland 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2012

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    An Isolating Experience

    I feel like the only person in the world to have been sexually abused by my mother and in the manner that she did. She did it in a medical way with antiseptic cream. She was fixated between my legs. She denies it. I have a rather messed up head over it.
    thebookthief12 thebookthief12 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2013

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    It Was My Grandmother...(Im A Girl)

    It started when I was about 4-5. I had always spent a lot of time with her, but after my grandfather passed it increased...and got weird. She started coming and picking me up telling my parents we would go to the mall or McDonalds. What she would actually do is drive us back to...
    Casidhe Casidhe 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    Why did my mother sexually abuse me

    as a child? What did she get out of it? She was brutal, evil, sadistic. She gloried in my pain. She even spoke out loud about what she could do to make things hurt more. What was her purpose? Her motive? What was she getting out of it? I am a survivor of maternal sexual abuse...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    She’s a little girl.

    She’s wearing a little dress. The cloth is faded, the hem in partly unsewn and hanging down. She’s wearing bobby socks and has little white shoes on. The socks and shoes are both hand-me-downs. The socks are permanently stained and look worn. The shoes have seen better days...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Sometime I think about how evil my mother is -

    was - is. I think to myself - that ***** deserves to die. She is dead so what am I talking about? How can that which is already dead be killed? It is not my mother that I want to kill, it is her evil that I want to kill. The bad memories. The nightmares. I want to expose the...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    The Missing Piece

    I've suspected this in the past, and have had conversations about this with my younger sister, but for some reason today as I was mediating I realized that I (and probably my younger sister) were molested by our mother. I have a difficult time remembering what happened between...
    msriot msriot 26-30, F 3 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Abuse: The Gift That Keeps On Giving.

    It happened. It was my mom's fault. It's over. I went through therapy, it was successful, I've gone on to have a wonderful life. But that happened to me. Whats the worst effect, the longest to linger, the effect thats caused the most harm? When everyone else is recounting their...
    RedPeril21 RedPeril21 46-50 9 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    My Mother Abused Me From 1 Year Old She Would Lick My Vagina And Get Her Self Off

    My mother started abusing me at 1yrs I remember her licking my ***** while covering and bashing my fade I could bearly walk or talk at that stage she was an extreme child molester not that common I remember her licking my ***** up to the age of 27 yrs but as I got older ahe would...
    Jasmine2050 Jasmine2050 31-35, F Jul 13, 2013

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    I was sexually abused by my biological mother when I was 5 years old. She also took me to her "close friends", and her friends raped me. They were also abusive in other ways. I...
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    Before I share my story, I want to let people know a few things. 1) I'm comfortable enough to post this with the EP community because most of you aren't judgmental or rude. 2) I am...
    kaitybobaityxo kaitybobaityxo 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was abused repeatedly by 2 brothers who lived next door to me
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    My uncle sexually assaulted me when I was 9. I told what happened to me at 17 and the "system" did nothing. Living in a small town and able to run into a man I can hardly think of...
    gingybread123Ash gingybread123Ash 18-21 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't like to think of it. but, it still haunts me over and over. Since I am young I should just let it go ,,forgive, and hope that it will leave my mind my priest said. But...
    technozy technozy 13-15, M Oct 8

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    It was sickening ******* someone off and giving oral sex when I was five years old to a complete stranger in my grandfathers house...
    DavidG1986i DavidG1986i 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 10

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    It's nearly 6:30 AM here and I can't sleep, I keep going back over it.
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    H h he........ Raped me now I'm pregant with his baby😢😭😭😭
    annieanaconda annieanaconda 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    I was sexually abused by my aunt and grand mother. They convinced me that they were teaching me the ways of women. I was sixteen and seventeen and didn't realize that my org---s...
    JeanColby JeanColby 18-21, F a week ago

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    I was sexually,physically,and verbally abused for three years from 9-12
    AnasFailure AnasFailure 13-15, F 4 Responses Oct 19

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    In high school i was sexually assaulted by an old friend who could not control himself around me. It was terrible how no one bothered to help and his friends just laughed.
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I was sexually abuse by a women. I want to talk about as often as I can to receive support and grow. I want to hear others stories about same sex abuse.
    thesecrettearkeeper thesecrettearkeeper 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    You know my name, but not my story. I am strong, yet also weak. I am independent, yet also dependent. I am optimist, yet pessimist. I am many different things, which make me who I...
    SimplySecure SimplySecure 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 18

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    My mother abused me: During most of my childhood my mother didn't even really spank me or anything. However, once I hit my teens she started to become physically and verbally...
    asariblue asariblue 26-30, F Oct 21

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    at first I thought I was in the wrong until I read so many other people on here with similar things happen to them. thigh I'm not sure when to begin really it all started when I...
    babygirl102514 babygirl102514 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    When I was about 5 my cousin would abuse me. I was small at the time so I didn't know what was happening, he would say it was a game of thief and cop and I was the thief. He would...
    lunaClipse lunaClipse 18-21, F Oct 2

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    Unfortunately there is no relevant topic for this "confession" if that is what it is, but I have been fascinated by the stories of others who have been molested, particularly boys...
    curmudgeon curmudgeon 70+, M 3 Responses Oct 17

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    Still getting emotionally abused and I feel like I am allowing it by not dropping her. Is the next step that I not care what she says to me. About 17 minutes ago she pulled a "you...
    Am3917 Am3917 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to write this for anyone going through this. I want people to know that you are not allow. When I was younger my Grandfather on my mothers side went to jail for hitting...
    StarFishAndDangos StarFishAndDangos 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My stupid psychological nasty abusive mother came to me in my room and said how she could be charged with man slaughter and neglect for me staying in my room. Oh. Is that what it...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45, T 2 Responses Oct 20

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    My mother molested me twice as a child. She was lonely and horny and ****** up to do so that. Made me awaken a terrible thing about my self. Made me enjoy sex with my family...
    sontodaddy sontodaddy 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 20

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    well my dads is a ex cop and he use to beat me up over stupied **** like when I was little like 12 years old he picked my up off my feet and was chocking me for a game we played...
    Louguyz4 Louguyz4 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    as a man now aged 31 I never thought I could admit that my older sister abused me when I was around 5yrs old she would have been 16. I can barely look at her now but glad this...
    gamer3613 gamer3613 31-35, M Oct 22

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    I was 5 when my mom broke up with my and dad got a divorce and when I was 7 she moved on and started dating other people her boyfriend was very nice to me then he started acting...
    meredithcher meredithcher 16-17, F 8 Responses Oct 4

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    As much as my life might seem to the casual observer as the perfect life with the perfect parents and their perfect children, it really wasn’t like that. My grandfather was an...
    dadhereforyou dadhereforyou 51-55, M 1 Response Oct 18

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    I was 8 when this new kid Jake had moved in to my neighbor hood he was two years older then me. we would always hang out. i became close with is step dad and his mom i stated...
    godsgift1993 godsgift1993 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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