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I Was Sexually Abused By My Mother

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    My Mother Abused Me From 1 Year Old She Would Lick My Vagina And Get Her Self Off

    My mother started abusing me at 1yrs I remember her licking my ***** while covering and bashing my fade I could bearly walk or talk at that stage she was an extreme child molester not that common I remember her licking my ***** up to the age of 27 yrs but as I got older ahe would...
    Jasmine2050 Jasmine2050 31-35, F Jul 13, 2013

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    Really Need Some Help

    I was not abused in the conventional sense. My mother used to encourage me to dance naked in front of her. Often times I would have what could be described as an erection, not knowing what it really was. She called it "the body dance". She thought it was an interesting and...
    nathan5119 nathan5119 26-30, M 5 Responses Jun 18, 2011

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    Coming To Terms Late In Life

    My mother abused me during bathtimes when I was a boy. I can't remember how many times it happened. I was very young. The only time I remember clearly is when I told her I didn't want her to do it anymore. I never told anyone about it. And for some reason I can't understand, I...
    AllanL AllanL 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    5 Years Old.

    My mother...she did strange things to me. Of course, i was only five and didnt know any better...but i remember getting out of the shower and my mother just standing there. She looked at my ***** and said something that i cant remember...she would always grab me and touch things...
    XxKittyHasMDDxX XxKittyHasMDDxX 18-21, F 12 Responses Nov 16, 2011

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    Stirring Things Up I want to do two things.

    I want to ask my siblings if any of them were sexually abused by our mother as I was. Why? Why do I want to know this? I know the answer is that at least some of them were. Why ask when I know the answer? Because I want to know the extent of the evil? Because I don’t want to...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Why Can't Society Accept This Is Real?

    There are so many support groups out there for females who were abused by male relatives and no one doubts that it really happened. It only makes sense that some of these women who were abused as children will grow up to become abusers. From my personal experience with my own...
    barbsat barbsat 51-55, T 10 Responses Aug 18, 2011

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    At 13 Years Old, My Mother Sexually Abused Me.

    From what I have found out through years of counseling, my mother’s side of the family has had a family history of sexual abuse. I was sexually abused by my mother starting at 13 years old. My counselor has suggested that it’s very possible that I have been abused before then...
    acousticstory acousticstory 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 19, 2012

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    Sometime I think about how evil my mother is -

    was - is. I think to myself - that ***** deserves to die. She is dead so what am I talking about? How can that which is already dead be killed? It is not my mother that I want to kill, it is her evil that I want to kill. The bad memories. The nightmares. I want to expose the...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    She’s a little girl.

    She’s wearing a little dress. The cloth is faded, the hem in partly unsewn and hanging down. She’s wearing bobby socks and has little white shoes on. The socks and shoes are both hand-me-downs. The socks are permanently stained and look worn. The shoes have seen better days...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I Wish She Would Die

    The last time I was molested by my mom was when I was 9. I told her I was too old to be getting a bath from her. She did it anyway. I know this wasn't the first time she molested me, because I knew where she was going to dry me off next. Right between my but and then my penis...
    nothing99 nothing99 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2012

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    I WAS: Sexually Abused by her, SHE Made Me Wear Girls Clothes and Wet My Pants, AND -- I Was Gang-raped By 3 Guys. All This Made Me Feel I Might Be A Girl, Even Though I Was, Gender-wise, A Guy.

      < WARNING! THE BELOW STORY MY BE TRIGGERING> ​<    DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL  > All of The Info Below Has Been Personally Gathered & Researched By Me. My Source Being From 42+ Years Of My Own Sexually Abusive Hell. Wrought with Unbearable Suffering...
    Heathland Heathland 56-60, M 6 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    Why did my mother sexually abuse me

    as a child? What did she get out of it? She was brutal, evil, sadistic. She gloried in my pain. She even spoke out loud about what she could do to make things hurt more. What was her purpose? Her motive? What was she getting out of it? I am a survivor of maternal sexual abuse...
    Smilenbhappy Smilenbhappy 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    It Was My Grandmother...(Im A Girl)

    It started when I was about 4-5. I had always spent a lot of time with her, but after my grandfather passed it increased...and got weird. She started coming and picking me up telling my parents we would go to the mall or McDonalds. What she would actually do is drive us back to...
    Casidhe Casidhe 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    This Is Not What Love Is.

    When I was a little girl, I was abused by my mother. I was so young that I didn't even have the vocabulary to explain what was happening to me. All I knew was that it was wrong and it made me feel sick inside. Everyday when my dad would leave for work, I would begin to shake...
    graychylde graychylde 36-40, F 13 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    The Missing Piece

    I've suspected this in the past, and have had conversations about this with my younger sister, but for some reason today as I was mediating I realized that I (and probably my younger sister) were molested by our mother. I have a difficult time remembering what happened between...
    msriot msriot 26-30, F 3 Responses May 7, 2013

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    I Was Sexually Abused By My Alcoholic Mother.

    Okay...this is very difficult for me...first time I ever posted my story about this on any site...except maybe www.ptsdforum.org. Yes...I have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) from my mom's sexual & sadistic abuse. And, by the way, if you didn't notice...I'm a Guy.My mom...
    Heathland Heathland 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2012

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    Children Can't Tell The Difference Between Love And Abuse

    My mother hated me. She never showed love or affection, unless someone was watching. It was very important to her that everyone *thought* she was the perfect mom. She was, and is, a teacher, and all her students would say how they wished they had her for a mom. No, no you don't...
    laurendena laurendena 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    I Was Molested And Verbally Abused By My Mother

    I felt like I was in prison for 30 years. I'm now 39. The last time my mom molested me I was 8 or 9. After that, there was verbal sexual abuse and verbal abuse. I have no feelings for my mom. I just came to the realization about the abuse about 2 months ago. I was...
    nothing99 nothing99 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    My Mommy..

    it started around 7 years old wen my dad left.. my mom started dressing really sexy.. she wanted me to look at her body.. she would say do you think mommy has a pretty vagina? do you wanna touch mommies hairy triangle? i want you to smell mommies vagina..she would make me pull my...
    justreallybad justreallybad 31-35, M 6 Responses Jul 8, 2011

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    Yes I Was..

    Abused in all manner..physically,emotionally and sexually by my mother and her various husband’s and boyfriends.. My mother likes to brag that she started abusing me sexually as an infant, but I don’t remember that time in my life…I saw her sexually abuse...
    deleted66 deleted66 41-45, F 10 Responses Jun 18, 2010

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    An Isolating Experience

    I feel like the only person in the world to have been sexually abused by my mother and in the manner that she did. She did it in a medical way with antiseptic cream. She was fixated between my legs. She denies it. I have a rather messed up head over it.
    thebookthief12 thebookthief12 41-45, F Sep 28, 2013

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    Abuse: The Gift That Keeps On Giving.

    It happened. It was my mom's fault. It's over. I went through therapy, it was successful, I've gone on to have a wonderful life. But that happened to me. Whats the worst effect, the longest to linger, the effect thats caused the most harm? When everyone else is recounting their...
    RedPeril21 RedPeril21 46-50 8 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    I Am Lez For Mommy

    Maybe it's because years of therapy trained me to look deeply, maybe it's just age and maturity, but lately my mind is always drifting back on my sexual experiences --or were they encounters, random occurrences -- with my mother. I am female, it would help to know. My mother made...
    christinacrawford christinacrawford 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    This is a very painful experience,

    even I am 45 years old now, the memory of the abused haunts me still. My mother is a hardcore fundamentalist Christian worker. One night I was lying on my bed, a 13 year old teenager trying to explore my sexuality. I have an erected penis and I began touching it. But my mother...
    guroarv guroarv 46-50, M Apr 12

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    I can't remember my childhood, I barely remember anything that happened before I hit age 7. I've been to therapy a lot since I was in 3rd grade. I started hating myself in 3rd...
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    18 years ago my mother's boyfriend, at the time, sexually abused me. Twice. After the second time, i went to tell my mother the next morning and she didnt believe me. And still...
    Amb505 Amb505 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I remember I was young... It only happened once... I was like 3 or 4... I remember his shadow over me.. The pain, and the feeling. I've never told anyone. I'm 27 now and I think it...
    Angelrank1987 Angelrank1987 26-30, M Jul 27

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    A few years ago my dad had alcohol addiction. One night he was so drunk he crept into my room and you know the rest.
    loveVictorandDumas loveVictorandDumas 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    On Sexual Abuse I will go, with the reason I am composing this letter, this is I'm sending this missive, because my daughter who is 8, was sexually assaulted, By my 22 year old...
    IrmaH IrmaH 36-40 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was sexually abused ever since I could remember. Later on I figured out I was molested from before I was 2 until I was 12. I was molested by my older male cousin and my older...
    MgkLez96 MgkLez96 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I was sexually abused. There I said it... I've never really fully admitted it before. half the time I just think it was a really bad dream. it was about a year ago when I was 12. I...
    mackhunter1111 mackhunter1111 13-15, T 2 Responses Aug 5

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    I was sexually abused when I was 11 at a piano school for the visually impaired (my brother attended). There was this teacher who would always be upstairs where I played while my...
    Jackiebh Jackiebh 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I want nothing more than to forget it... Sometimes I have nightmares of what happened in my childhood on the outside everything seemed perfect most people looked at my household...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 10

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    when i was 13 years old i was sexually molested by my landlord he would touch me all over my body and from the ages of 14 and 15 he kept doing it until one day i asked him "why are...
    sidney2013 sidney2013 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    Never talked about it more then two or three times in my life and yesterday I just said it to my best friend and I saw his reaction then I knew I never told him that I was abused...
    Dengel85 Dengel85 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I had recently gotten out of a three year relationship when I met my current husband. He was an old friend, well liked by a lot of people. I thought I knew him. We wound up...
    breakingout2014 breakingout2014 26-30, F Aug 14

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    My father was a horrible man. He blamed me for my mothers death my entire life. My mother died after I was born due to an infection, and weak immune system. My father threw glass...
    MichelleReed MichelleReed 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    *sigh* Sometimes i hate life, my life that is. but i should be grateful that im even alive is because of God. what do you do when your older sister reads your journal, which she...
    nekokitty13 nekokitty13 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 8

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    When I started this new account i said I would use it to share more of my story. Well that didn't work out to well considering I've only posted two or three experiences about my...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    My brother abused me for 7 years. I just recently was able to find that courage to tell someone. Now I'm free from the physical abuse but I'm still scarred. It affects my life so...
    xaliroox xaliroox 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 16

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    Before, i was unable to tell this story. It was very hard. The only way i have managed to come through in speaking of it was to talk to a friend about it, then soon another friend...
    iris801 iris801 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I was raped again a few weeks ago and the guy is finally in jail. The flash backs are killing me. The insomnia is terrible. End thoughts to kill myself are running rapidly through...
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F 6 Responses Aug 2

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    He gets out in 4 years . Meaning its been 4 yeas since he went in. Half way. Doesn't feel like it. In some ways it feels like it was only yesterday other times it feels like an...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    When I was 7 or 8 my brother told me to the garage with him because it was late at night so I went and put on my shoes and went with him. When we got in the garage my brother...
    BeccaPayne BeccaPayne 13-15, F 11 Responses Aug 6

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    It happened to me twice with two different people. Both men were friends of family members. The first time i was 3. It was my fathers best friend. I don't recall much of that...
    dreamerrose dreamerrose 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    she was 19 and I was 8, at a party for new year as I was asleep in bed, she come into my bed and started to cuddle me. This felt very nice, and the smell of alcohol from her...
    robforyou robforyou 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 10

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    I've never really came out to many about what happened in true detail. I was staying at my dads for the weekend, and a family friend, Ryan was also staying. I had known him since...
    0JustABrokenGirl0 0JustABrokenGirl0 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    I used to have this dream. A haze of white and gold covering everything the entire "video" of what was happening. When I was young this dream happened a lot and I would wake...
    Astelmarie Astelmarie 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    When I was 13, I started experimenting and it wasn't until I was 15 that I ever went all the way with a boy. Like a lot of people... it was horrible but a little later... I...
    HotBoxDatRocks HotBoxDatRocks 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    I dont know the thruth anymore, I feel like ****! I hate all this. God help me. Ahhhh he told straight to my face that he did anything what so ever. My sis now says that she going...
    nekokitty13 nekokitty13 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 3