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I Was The Abuser Of You Abused Victims

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    It May Be My Hands You Blame

    It may be my hands you blame, but you are your own abuser... You are soft, weak, and slinking in your flesh. Looking out from and hiding in the naivite of your mind. Feeling the predators around you and knowing you are the prey. Some of you hide behind bravado revealing your...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 17, 2013

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    I guess I'm not. All I'm thinking about is you today and I feel terrible. The feeling in my stomach is unbearable. I really just want to talk to you.
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    I was about 6 when my older step brother who is about 7 years older than me, sexually abused me. I've tried so hard to block it out, thankfully I only have a short memory of it. It...
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    well...I wasn't an abused child...lol but my mom kicked my *** throughout child hood because i deserved it being a little punk in my day hahah just saying
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    Okay so. Oh god, where do I even start, I just have to get this off my chest. My step father and his best friend molested me when I was very young, I was younger than eight years...
    Cryingsmile Cryingsmile 16-17, T 4 Responses Jul 16

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    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 15

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    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 11

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    elegantstorms elegantstorms 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I didn't cause I wasn't I was the younger one and got experimented one, hehe
    maryworth04 maryworth04 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    If you even dare, to tell me who, or what i am or know, i swear to whatever god there is that you don't even know the Half of it, I just had some dunce try to tell me i didn't know...
    JayJay911 JayJay911 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    Finding out that someone else within the family was abused by the same person as I was as a child breaks my ******* heart. I would never wish abuse of any sort on my worst enemy...
    herebutinvisible herebutinvisible 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    This message is to all the radical man hating feminists who go on the Internet to trash and mock the male gender. It is obvious from what you're writing to your 100% blind to what...
    Ajushi Ajushi 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Yeah... You heard it right! For about 4 years, I was forced to kiss/sleep in bed/pleasure a 52 year old disabled man which was my mom's ex boyfriend/friend. My mom didn't know...
    Bigone14 Bigone14 13-15 3 Responses Jul 11

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    I only remembered this in the last few months, I got a conviction against my main abuser years ago but in may I remembered my main abuser's brother raping me when I was 3-4 years...
    claireoblast claireoblast 31-35, F Jul 14

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    Today i will never forget because today I really saw you and you really saw me. Today I looked into your eyes and felt you. You held me in your arms letting me know i was safe...
    babybop12 babybop12 18-21, F 11 mins ago

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    I can't escape it. Because the abuser is my older sister and my parents do nothing to stop it because she's so consistent about putting me down. I'm starting to lose grip. I can't...
    jenn133 jenn133 13-15, F 6 days ago