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I Was The Abuser Of You Abused Victims

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    It May Be My Hands You Blame

    It may be my hands you blame, but you are your own abuser... You are soft, weak, and slinking in your flesh. Looking out from and hiding in the naivite of your mind. Feeling the predators around you and knowing you are the prey. Some of you hide behind bravado revealing your...
    PaleFox PaleFox 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 17, 2013

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