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I Wear A Mask Of Pretend Happiness To The World

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    A Mask

    Underneath this mask, That the rest of the world sees, Lies a broken soul, That only few know. Beneath this mask, Is nothing but loss, Nothing but depression, Nothing but hopelessness. And to the rest of the world, This mask in confidence, This mask is pride, This mask is...
    sonoflopez sonoflopez 13-15, M Aug 21, 2012

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    A Family Tradition;

    In my family, we tend to stay close with traditions from Sicily, and in Sicily, each family usually has their own "unique" tradition. In mine, it is that at random times we get together for dinner.. 50+ people, and give the date of our 5 deepest regrets, but not any information...
    sonoflopez sonoflopez 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 22, 2012

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    The iSmile

    One day, I just couldn't take it. I was tired of pretending everything was ok, and I decided to show my friends how I really feel. I turned to them for support, and thought they would be able to comfort me (with my depression), but I got a different response. They basically made...
    AimlessWanderings AimlessWanderings 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    My World...! :)

    Trying to appear ‘normal’. In some sort of way.It seems that the struggleIs always here with me!! Always on a roller coaster.....I’m nothing if I’m not up or downI’m nothing if just ‘me.’ And that I can’t do anything right.This is how I’ve felt my whole dang...
    cutepri cutepri 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    I'm so sick of acting.

    I want to talk to someone I can be myself around, and tell them everything.
    RhinestoneEyes63 RhinestoneEyes63 18-21, F Jul 31, 2014

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    Masks

     When i go online... and see everyone. They sounds so happy. I listen and I laugh. But... I look around. Deeply look around. I see masks. on some, not all. But masks. asking if anyone there. If anyone can see there pain. If anyone can care. If they notice they skipped dinner...
    kkfm kkfm 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 14, 2013

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    Everyone Wears A Mask Of Happiness I Reckon

    at some stage someone - everyone - is going to wear a 'mask' of happiness to mask the bad things that are happening in their lives. i mean, no one can be happy 24/7 (except maybe little kids who are oblivious to the world). i've had numerous times where i've had to wear this...
    uncertaingirl uncertaingirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Part of me is just sick of being "on".

    Fake smiles, fake enthusiasm, fake perkiness, and a bunch of other fake stuff. Being studious. I'm unhappy. Sometimes I just wanna relax as myself, but who would like her? She's much too dark and brooding. I have a dark side just very few people get to see it.
    lovelymaskedbeauty lovelymaskedbeauty 31-35, F Aug 6

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    I Wear A Mask For The World.....

    You will not understand this message nor do I intend to explain it. Its thoughts only from one on the brink of the away world. Lost in the space between the sun, I yearn for the release of forgetfulness only to find the pages of dismay printed on my face. You will never...
    MeltedFlowers MeltedFlowers 31-35, F 1 Response May 19, 2012

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    Why?

    Because I feel like if I show my real emotions on my sleeve, there is a possibility that some people will abuse you because they find you an "easy" target. I only show my genuine emotions to people I feel like I can trust, and heck I usually have a good instinct on who I can...
    UniversalSelf19 UniversalSelf19 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    My mask is always on.

    ...to pretend there is happiness, and to hide who I am...
    AlliesWorld AlliesWorld 22-25, F Aug 10

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    To This Day

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltun92DfnPY This video... I can connect so much to it. I was called fat, ugly, stupid, worthless, most the time all at the same time. Till now I forgot about it. I forgot about what there words brought to me. Because I'm used to living it. Because...
    kkfm kkfm 22-25, M Jun 15, 2013

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    I'm Struggling To Keep It On

    on the inside i'm slowly dying, my heart is breaking and i'm on the verge of tears. on the outside i'm always quick to share a smile, quick to make someone else smile, i feel like i'm wearing a mask, that i have been for quite a few years. it started to slip though, i think...
    HiddenFallenAngel HiddenFallenAngel 18-21, F Mar 2, 2012

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    This has been going on

    for around 6 years Whenever I arrive at College, I assume this character, almost an alter ego of myself.This person I have created is not me, he is jovial and always has a witty remark or joke up his sleeve in order to make my friends laugh. When it first started out I was...
    Fluenzi Fluenzi 22-25, M Jan 6

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    Well from today I start my work

    and regular life after holiday . And I have to put on fake mask of being happy and smiling and pretend to like everyone . I don't know always why after holiday I feel same
    Johnnystha Johnnystha 26-30, M Jan 17, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    As you all know I love my skater dresses. So what could be more natural than making my next outing en femme to the skating rink.but I'm not sure what to wear. So I've decided to...
    donnaka donnaka 36-40 26 mins ago

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    well of course, it draws attention to my nails, which is what I'm most proud of, blue to purple, green to gold, even pinks and reds, if I like the color I'll wear it
    Zurea Zurea 26-30, T 44 mins ago

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    I really just want to travel and explore the world with about 3-4 other people and have fun lol
    nickfio nickfio 16-17, M 1 hr ago

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    I love wearing a bra I cannot go to sleep unless I wearing a bra it just feels so fantastic with that bra band hugging your torso all day, I quite often wear a bra when I go out in...
    Lockiel45 Lockiel45 46-50, M 4 hrs ago

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    ...but i and my clothes always clean. i wear white v-neck men's t-shirts with dark denim, short, flared jeans. i wear a braless camisole underneath my shirt. it's super comfortable...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 6 hrs ago

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    smiling brightly each day, seeming like the dark world around has no effect on me. you hear my laughter and see that smile but no one sees the dark circles under my eyes from...
    pandaangel pandaangel 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've always been a sad person. Ever since I was exposed to how the world works.. I was never the same again. Ever since I saw the reality of what society.. people are like, my life...
    mercifulpennies mercifulpennies 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    This is the best revenge. By releasing negative people or feelings, you no longer invest your energy in them. Your spirit feels lighter, and you can get back to yourself😌. For...
    NewEra0916 NewEra0916 26-30, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I wear a mask so I can take off the mask that's stuck to my face.
    MeIncarnated MeIncarnated 70+, M 5 days ago

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    or the other way around.... girls pretending to be dudes! what's the world come to people? C'mon now!!!! Lol
    Fated2be Fated2be 36-40, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    It really saddens me to think you can know so many people in your lifetime, but not everyone of them is your friend or can be trusted. The people that you thought would make time...
    Sutten Sutten 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I'm a mom I hide crying myself asleep the scars on my thigh from the many blades I hide how much I truly hate myself I hide my eating problems I hide it all and fake a smile I don...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 24

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    Today and maybe tomorrow I will be home alone with my sister and I want to tell her that I pretend I'm pregnant like we used to when we were kids before she leaves for college in a...
    VirtualGinger VirtualGinger 16-17 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Each day is a struggle. For me, trying to find happiness is like trying to find gold. I have NO friends and no confidence. I can't even talk to girls because of how nervous I get...
    ChrisTheHero ChrisTheHero 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I used to be fed up with it too but now I realize that willful ignorance is a form of survival. Reality for some is just too much so in order to stay at least even semi-sane u can...
    LongingForLove777 LongingForLove777 26-30, F Aug 23

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    Pretending is how I cope with BIID. Ever since I was about eleven, I have tucked my legs fully inside my pants and walk on my knees when I am home by myself.
    asd1324 asd1324 18-21, M Aug 22

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    I was watching a Middle East documentary this morning and seeing those old, sad, tired pictures of the late Saddam Hussein just before he was executed made me feel so bad. This is...
    faithbee faithbee 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M Aug 22

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    Probably sounds crazy, especially to the ladies. But it's true and several other guys on EP and over the years have told me the same thing. I've loved to wear lingerie almost all...
    AlbertSAT AlbertSAT 66-70, M 3 Responses Aug 22

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    I've never been over weight or overly fat, just average. I grew up with my family making comments about my weight and saying I should wear bikinis or anything that showed my body...
    cattak cattak 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    Nowadays, as transgender I'm female 24/7 and (very) high heels are part of my daily outfit now but things weren't always like this. I got 'caught' by a paperboy...In the late 70s...
    DutchGasPedalGirl DutchGasPedalGirl 46-50, T 1 Response Aug 22

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    Hello everyone! I'm a guy and I love to wear heels. Maybe I love high heels more than my girlfriend. I use to wear them and watch my female part in the mirror and I like it a lot...
    CDL17 CDL17 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 22

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    I want to travel and explore my country...and then i want to see all the exotic and beautiful places in the world....i know its little difficult...but there is no harm in trying...
    sanjuguha sanjuguha 26-30, F Aug 21

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    I'm a sales rep. at Macy's. The one thing I like is I can wear a dress everyday. I always wear a black dress with a black shirt, black polo short sleeve in the summer a long sleeve...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I want everyone, to give more importance to their feeling of happiness...Everything we want, because we feel, we will be happy in the getting of it. But I want myself and everyone...
    Rita2015 Rita2015 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I always do this. I'll be on my bed, rubbing my bloated belly and then I'll start feeling some pain. I breathe through it and grit my teeth, until it gets so bad that I need to...
    BigBellyMama BigBellyMama 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Why am i so confident and flirty online but yet in the real world im shy i cant hold a conversation with a girl let alone flirt or pull.how can i be one person on a computer but a...
    sweetguy2016 sweetguy2016 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 19