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I Wear A Mask Of Pretend Happiness To The World

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    I'm so sick of acting.

    I want to talk to someone I can be myself around, and tell them everything.
    DiamondNikki12 DiamondNikki12 18-21, F Jul 31

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    I'm Struggling To Keep It On

    on the inside i'm slowly dying, my heart is breaking and i'm on the verge of tears. on the outside i'm always quick to share a smile, quick to make someone else smile, i feel like i'm wearing a mask, that i have been for quite a few years. it started to slip though, i think...
    HiddenFallenAngel HiddenFallenAngel 18-21, F Mar 2, 2012

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    A Mask

    Underneath this mask, That the rest of the world sees, Lies a broken soul, That only few know. Beneath this mask, Is nothing but loss, Nothing but depression, Nothing but hopelessness. And to the rest of the world, This mask in confidence, This mask is pride, This mask is...
    sonoflopez sonoflopez 13-15, M Aug 21, 2012

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    The iSmile

    One day, I just couldn't take it. I was tired of pretending everything was ok, and I decided to show my friends how I really feel. I turned to them for support, and thought they would be able to comfort me (with my depression), but I got a different response. They basically made...
    AimlessWanderings AimlessWanderings 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    A Family Tradition;

    In my family, we tend to stay close with traditions from Sicily, and in Sicily, each family usually has their own "unique" tradition. In mine, it is that at random times we get together for dinner.. 50+ people, and give the date of our 5 deepest regrets, but not any information...
    sonoflopez sonoflopez 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 22, 2012

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    Everyone Wears A Mask Of Happiness I Reckon

    at some stage someone - everyone - is going to wear a 'mask' of happiness to mask the bad things that are happening in their lives. i mean, no one can be happy 24/7 (except maybe little kids who are oblivious to the world). i've had numerous times where i've had to wear this...
    uncertaingirl uncertaingirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    To This Day

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltun92DfnPY This video... I can connect so much to it. I was called fat, ugly, stupid, worthless, most the time all at the same time. Till now I forgot about it. I forgot about what there words brought to me. Because I'm used to living it. Because...
    kkfm kkfm 18-21, M Jun 15, 2013

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    Well from today I start my work

    and regular life after holiday . And I have to put on fake mask of being happy and smiling and pretend to like everyone . I don't know always why after holiday I feel same
    Johnnystha Johnnystha 26-30, M Jan 17

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    Masks

     When i go online... and see everyone. They sounds so happy. I listen and I laugh. But... I look around. Deeply look around. I see masks. on some, not all. But masks. asking if anyone there. If anyone can see there pain. If anyone can care. If they notice they skipped dinner...
    kkfm kkfm 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 14, 2013

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    I Wear A Mask For The World.....

    You will not understand this message nor do I intend to explain it. Its thoughts only from one on the brink of the away world. Lost in the space between the sun, I yearn for the release of forgetfulness only to find the pages of dismay printed on my face. You will never...
    MeltedFlowers MeltedFlowers 31-35, F 1 Response May 19, 2012

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    My World...! :)

    Trying to appear ‘normal’. In some sort of way.It seems that the struggleIs always here with me!! Always on a roller coaster.....I’m nothing if I’m not up or downI’m nothing if just ‘me.’ And that I can’t do anything right.This is how I’ve felt my whole dang...
    cutepri cutepri 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    Why?

    Because I feel like if I show my real emotions on my sleeve, there is a possibility that some people will abuse you because they find you an "easy" target. I only show my genuine emotions to people I feel like I can trust, and heck I usually have a good instinct on who I can...
    UniversalSelf19 UniversalSelf19 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    Because you can't wear masks in public anymore, so I settle for shades
    khewster khewster 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I've observed over the years that the most successful people tend to also be the happiest. One might say they are happy because they are successful but I suggest the reverse...
    jinglesmountjoy jinglesmountjoy 41-45 37 mins ago

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    I constantly pretend that I am a movie star or celebrity, acting out their movie lines. You would think that I am acting as myself but I am not. I act out their scenes as if I am...
    Heaven360 Heaven360 18-21, F Sep 7

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    I never wear underwear and haven't for a long time. Doesn't matter what I'm wearing, short skirts, dresses, jeans, etc. I wear nothing under them. I love the freedom and thought of...
    Ohionudist1965 Ohionudist1965 46-50 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    But on the other hand I dislike people that take people's kindness for weakness. I think it's sick to pretend you need someone to listen to and a friend but yet disgustingly in the...
    sapphirescorpion sapphirescorpion 22-25, F Sep 9

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    I've been reflecting on my love of wearing heels, which has now been over 40 years! I've always thought of them as making me horny, ready to compromise the nearest dog, but I've...
    russboots russboots 51-55, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Why pretend to like someone if you don't? Why talk to someone you don't want to want to talk to? Why be bothered with people who you don't like? Why do something you don't want to...
    HazelEyedWolf HazelEyedWolf 18-21, F Sep 19

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    The whistle of a freight train howled into the night. It sounded like that noise when you blow across an empty bottleneck, but like way louder. Wind slithered past the open door...
    BlueMetalChick BlueMetalChick 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    When I was 5 years old I created kind of a realm in my imagination that I went to all the time and no one could ever understand it...this wasn't any normal pretend game this was...
    Zalbaar Zalbaar 13-15, M Sep 13

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    When I have the house to myself, I pretend I'm a murderer. I get the biggest knife I have and sneak around the house while wearing gloves. I also pretend I'm the victim.
    WhatTheFrenchToast WhatTheFrenchToast 18-21, M Sep 11

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    I always believe, wealth is relative. Anyone who is filthy rich is poor if he does not know how to share. And anyone who is poor is rich when he can still give. There are still...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 3 Responses Sep 2

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    I don't care where I go, or what I do. As long as I have the chance to connect with and learn about people from around the world. Being able to experience the way they find...
    modinski modinski 18-21, F Sep 21

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    I don't care where I go, or what I do. As long as I have the chance to connect with and learn about people from around the world. Being able to experience the way they find...
    modinski modinski 18-21, F Sep 21

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    He wears every morning . And puts me down at night. If anyone saw him....
    yesus yesus 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 15

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    We are all living in a world in which a seemingly endless delusion is going on about, spreading like a plague. Money, war, oppression, hatred, etc. All these imaginary problems are...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 1 Response Sep 19

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    In my perfect world there is a diverse culture but only one belief and that's to do good and be good. There is no mortal that will do harm or cause harm to you. No one is perceived...
    DANTESSTORM DANTESSTORM 36-40, M Sep 20

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    You want to know what happiness is? It's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn...
    MarissaSimmonds MarissaSimmonds 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm at work, still pretty early and I'm the only person here. In a couple of hours, my colleagues would arrive and I'll go back to my 'usual self'. In office, I'm a different...
    Sicknconfused Sicknconfused 26-30, F Sep 21

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    There is no reason to blame God for the worlds problems. The Bible explains very well why we have disease, illness, and natural disasters. Adam and Eve ate from the forbidden tree...
    BogsBinny BogsBinny 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Why am I so jealous of everyone? Why Do I stalk people on fb and read their Q&As on ask.fm? Why am I like this? I hate myself so much. I had to tell this to someone, but if I would...
    prettyloner prettyloner 16-17, F 24 mins ago

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    Happiness is hearing your voice. Happiness is having a conversation with you. Happiness is you saying "hi, ...." And me saying "hi" to you back. Happiness is really just you.
    Samwan Samwan 26-30, F Sep 14

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    I'm 35. This year has been really difficult for me. By far, the worst year of my life. It started last summer, when a cousin who is 20 years older than me sexually assaulted me...
    jlpikor jlpikor 36-40, F Sep 15

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    How I became a shorts fanatic Part 2 There was one afternoon at school when our teacher took the register and then told us that there was going to be a staff meeting that...
    shortsfanatic shortsfanatic 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    Just once, I'd like to really matter to someone. To be worth fighting for, standing up for or just genuinely wanted. But it seems there's nothing at all redeeming about me. So now...
    PoisonedQuill PoisonedQuill 41-45, M 14 hrs ago

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    As it is, I wear thongs, all day, everyday. Living in California, you're always in the sun. So when I go to the beach or the pool, I always wear a thong, a g-string or some cheeky...
    literalwildcard literalwildcard 26-30 Sep 16

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    I can keep pretending being Happy when im actually feeling empty inside.. But.... I CAN'T keep pretending being Happy when im mad...
    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F Sep 2

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    I pretend I'm okay with it. Just being friends. Hooking up when you were home. I pretend that it doesn't bother me, the promises you broke. You promised me a life, that you asked...
    jh3557 jh3557 18-21, F Sep 3

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    Me to I have been doing it for years and I try to stop but I couldn't. I pretend to be characters from movies, TV shows and comics I it started when I was a little kid because I...
    Thenorthdragon Thenorthdragon 18-21, M Sep 11

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    I've been pretending I'm okay for so long I've mastered the art. I tell myself that someday I will take a time out and go somewhere out in nature all alone and scream until I can...
    thescarletibis thescarletibis 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 16

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    Briefs are too restrictive, offer no room to breath and look way too much like a diaper. Getting a looser pair for less restriction just makes it worse because now you look like...
    MikjallFimbultyr MikjallFimbultyr 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 4

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    Sometimes when I don't want to get out Of bed and see the world I tell my self to keep fighting because I've been through hell and this is nothing💀
    nicoleR98 nicoleR98 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I'm bloody fed up of hiding it all the time, I wear lingerie 7 days a week and wear my female clothes once a week and I'm fed up. I want to wear my female clothes 7 days a week too...
    Sinead78 Sinead78 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 11

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    I always do this, specially in the car..will always look at the window and pretend im making my own music video..
    Emawesome Emawesome 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    My boyfriend is soon to be leaving me and as much as it pains me, I have to be strong and supportive for him. He has a family that must come first and I am hoping with all my...
    sharq04 sharq04 26-30, M Sep 22

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    I just watched 12 years a slave. The movie is based on a true story. My face is drenched in tears and I want to die. I don't want to be part of the human race; part of that evil...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    I love wearing black sheer socks in nylon or silk. It's great to see the way they make one's feet shine. They feel sensational when slipped into a low vamp tassel loafer or opera...
    SLdale SLdale 51-55, M Sep 3

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