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I Wear A Mask Of Pretend Happiness To The World

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    I'm Struggling To Keep It On

    on the inside i'm slowly dying, my heart is breaking and i'm on the verge of tears. on the outside i'm always quick to share a smile, quick to make someone else smile, i feel like i'm wearing a mask, that i have been for quite a few years. it started to slip though, i think...
    HiddenFallenAngel HiddenFallenAngel 18-21, F Mar 2, 2012

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    The iSmile

    One day, I just couldn't take it. I was tired of pretending everything was ok, and I decided to show my friends how I really feel. I turned to them for support, and thought they would be able to comfort me (with my depression), but I got a different response. They basically made...
    AimlessWanderings AimlessWanderings 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2013

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    I Wear A Mask For The World.....

    You will not understand this message nor do I intend to explain it. Its thoughts only from one on the brink of the away world. Lost in the space between the sun, I yearn for the release of forgetfulness only to find the pages of dismay printed on my face. You will never...
    MeltedFlowers MeltedFlowers 31-35, F 1 Response May 19, 2012

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    Well from today I start my work

    and regular life after holiday . And I have to put on fake mask of being happy and smiling and pretend to like everyone . I don't know always why after holiday I feel same
    Johnnystha Johnnystha 26-30, M Jan 17, 2014

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    My World...! :)

    Trying to appear ‘normal’. In some sort of way.It seems that the struggleIs always here with me!! Always on a roller coaster.....I’m nothing if I’m not up or downI’m nothing if just ‘me.’ And that I can’t do anything right.This is how I’ve felt my whole dang...
    cutepri cutepri 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    Everyone Wears A Mask Of Happiness I Reckon

    at some stage someone - everyone - is going to wear a 'mask' of happiness to mask the bad things that are happening in their lives. i mean, no one can be happy 24/7 (except maybe little kids who are oblivious to the world). i've had numerous times where i've had to wear this...
    uncertaingirl uncertaingirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

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    Why?

    Because I feel like if I show my real emotions on my sleeve, there is a possibility that some people will abuse you because they find you an "easy" target. I only show my genuine emotions to people I feel like I can trust, and heck I usually have a good instinct on who I can...
    UniversalSelf19 UniversalSelf19 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    A Family Tradition;

    In my family, we tend to stay close with traditions from Sicily, and in Sicily, each family usually has their own "unique" tradition. In mine, it is that at random times we get together for dinner.. 50+ people, and give the date of our 5 deepest regrets, but not any information...
    sonoflopez sonoflopez 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 22, 2012

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    Masks

     When i go online... and see everyone. They sounds so happy. I listen and I laugh. But... I look around. Deeply look around. I see masks. on some, not all. But masks. asking if anyone there. If anyone can see there pain. If anyone can care. If they notice they skipped dinner...
    kkfm kkfm 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 14, 2013

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    I'm so sick of acting.

    I want to talk to someone I can be myself around, and tell them everything.
    DiamondNikki12 DiamondNikki12 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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    A Mask

    Underneath this mask, That the rest of the world sees, Lies a broken soul, That only few know. Beneath this mask, Is nothing but loss, Nothing but depression, Nothing but hopelessness. And to the rest of the world, This mask in confidence, This mask is pride, This mask is...
    sonoflopez sonoflopez 13-15, M Aug 21, 2012

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    This has been going on

    for around 6 years Whenever I arrive at College, I assume this character, almost an alter ego of myself.This person I have created is not me, he is jovial and always has a witty remark or joke up his sleeve in order to make my friends laugh. When it first started out I was...
    Fluenzi Fluenzi 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    To This Day

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltun92DfnPY This video... I can connect so much to it. I was called fat, ugly, stupid, worthless, most the time all at the same time. Till now I forgot about it. I forgot about what there words brought to me. Because I'm used to living it. Because...
    kkfm kkfm 18-21, M Jun 15, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    As with the previous story, I want to mention again that the main theme for Majora's Mask has been adulthood. And that idea gets hammered down to you in the last dungeon of the...
    Moltencorgi2 Moltencorgi2 22-25, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I pretend to be happy for others. I smile and I am nice to everyone. When my friends become fake and stab others in the back. I bite my lip and say nothing. On the inside...
    Ginger1313 Ginger1313 13-15, F Jan 15

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    Somehow I lost my happiness. I used to be fine, but I was only fine because I didn't realize that, really, I wasn't. I was sad, lonely, empty and really pretty miserable. There...
    laurisilva laurisilva 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    The first vivid memory of wearing my wellies on bare feet and the arousal it caused is going to (pre) school at the age of 4 or 5 . After leaving home through the back garden...
    welliesbf welliesbf 56-60, M 5 hrs ago

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    When one should come around to reccomending games for parents to play with their kids, one should always start with this one (maybe after Link's Awakening). Why you ask? Because...
    Moltencorgi2 Moltencorgi2 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Ok here is some background. When I was a kid I was diagnosed as being emotionally disturbed, in all aspects I can agree. My home life at the time was turbulent to say the least...
    orochitheoni orochitheoni 36-40, M Jan 1

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    I am happy! Life is good, but today had me thinking about happiness and that resulted in me writing this article. WHAT DOES IT TAKE FOR YOU TO FEEL HAPPY? Some people are never...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    This last year has been horrible. My son's father has never provided any support, for example when my (our) son was in the hospital he said "what do you want me to do about it...
    Phoenixsa71 Phoenixsa71 41-45, F Dec 28, 2014

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    This is exactly how I am. I pretend to be happy because who wants to be around the sad, lonely, and depressed girl? I feel as if I have to fake happiness, but at the same time it...
    Jennifer337 Jennifer337 31-35, T 3 Responses Jan 7

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    My smile is my armour. If you want to know how I really feel look at my eyes. No one likes a misery guts. So when I can't maintain the smile I withdraw. Take to my bed and wait for...
    abscuramma abscuramma 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Creative imagination can assist getting an attractive photo that could make all your Buddy astonished.Here are some creative and amusing ideas for capturing your pictures in a...
    Anthony8147jwj6 Anthony8147jwj6 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I currently wear mild teardrop breast forms, but have been looking at both the triangle and the asymmetrical styles. my biggest complaints are that so many brands are shiny and...
    Freja14 Freja14 31-35, T 4 hrs ago

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    Tuesday, January 27, 2015....Today I'm wearing navy blue ribbed Jockey Poco low rise briefs. They're quite comfortable and an old standby.
    Undieguy Undieguy 36-40, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I was thinking the other day why can't we all just be happy? Is it because we are in competition, insecure, jealous, envious,hateful, moody, emotional or just human. I went through...
    toniyl toniyl 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 12

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    Belly Laughs Echoes of Happiness It is easy to laugh when we feel good, but it is when the world appears dim that we most need laughter in our lives. As children, we laugh...
    anghel77 anghel77 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    Pretending to be an amputee was how I started my journey with biid. As a teenager, I would fold my leg up and bind it with an ace bandage. I would then put on tights and a skirt...
    WendiWheels WendiWheels 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I'll post another childhood memory. As a reminder, I really loved wearing tights as a child and would find anyway possible to play in them. One way I played in my tights was to...
    tightsman88 tightsman88 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I just wrote a blog about how i studied incontinence online and used my mightime urination difficulties as an excuse for my wife tofinally accept me wearing diapers. Right now i...
    dideedonnie dideedonnie 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Ok story number 3 I decided to go out flashing at a food court. It's always risky cause I only want to flash girls and I don't like having guys see my thong or even worse people I...
    shadyj111 shadyj111 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I pretend........A LOT! I know people are not fools though. But that's fine, I pretend to I think that they are! I pretend because I like to keep things to myself, specially...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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    It all started when I was 16. My neigbour was a cute 30 year lady. Her feets were so lovely and choice of her high heels were sophisticated. I fell in love for her feet but never...
    heellover4 heellover4 31-35, M Jan 5

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    People always end up writing in my yearbooks or stuff like that, that I'm such a happy and bubbly person. And that they wish they could be like that. They said that even when I was...
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    She will never listen to the same music I do, she will never wear her hair down all over her face like I do, she's not gonna kiss you from head to toe, she's not gonna "lap dance...
    rosejonescr rosejonescr 18-21, F Jan 6

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    The taste of happiness! Naturally most people crave for happiness in life, agree? My understanding of happiness is simple. Happiness is something that makes you feel good inside...
    kipross44 kipross44 46-50, M Jan 11

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    you did very bad to me! i just have no words to describe :( but till i have to pretend to this world, to the people around that i am okay but when i go to bed and theres no one...
    nunu77777 nunu77777 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Happiness....we all crave it and desire it in our lifetime. What happiness to you maybe different for me. What's true is the only one that can make you happy is YOU! Dream your...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    Salvaged: Patricia clambers to her ft Together with the assist of Frank - only receiving the pretty bottom of her gown wetPosted in what to wear for shots Tags: apparel assist for...
    Jim738v4hf7 Jim738v4hf7 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I absolutely hate pretending to be something I'm not. I am guilty of trying to pretend to be happy when I was really very depressed, I hated it and couldn't do it for very long. I...
    bandit2398 bandit2398 41-45, M Jan 9

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    In my world you aren't gone. I sent you an excited message about the new Fire Emblem game but forgot you hate me and pretend I don't exist.
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990 22-25, M Jan 14

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    I own almost 50 bras and probably only wear 5 in the course of a month. I often get asked if me not wearing a bra is for attention from the outside world and honestly the answer...
    ZariaRashay ZariaRashay 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 15

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    The chances are that you have already come to believe that happiness is unattainable. But men have attained it. And they have attained it by realising that happiness does not...
    Brendon840 Brendon840 36-40, M Jan 18

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    Feeling on top of the world!!! Life has just recently become so full and rich...I've made some serious life changes and its made all the difference in the world...The crazy thing...
    KittyKat318 KittyKat318 31-35, F 14 hrs ago

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    Hey so I thought I would share another story. This one is about the first time I went out in public and flashing my thong I saw a few people looking and laughing as I was showing...
    shadyj111 shadyj111 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    Personally, I don't really like make-up. Maybe a bit of lip gloss/lipstick every now and then, but that's it. I have nothing against it, but I can't stand excess amounts of make-up...
    EmEn1125 EmEn1125 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014