I Will Be Totally Honest Here

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    Well Here Goes Everything...

    Wow, this is so much more difficult than I thought it was going to be. OK, here it is… My friends in the 1st grade were two girls named Paige and Beverly. Paige created this spy game which at the time I did not know was a game, for Bev and me it was our lives. We lived...
    limistic17 limistic17
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Oct 22, 2008

    Honestly Not Ok

    every one askes if you have thought of suicide. yes i have thought of suicide, but that doesn't mean that i was actually going to do it. know though, after everything iv gone through, i notice myself contemplating it. i dont know if this is good or bad. i can say i dont think im...
    LilMissBlue LilMissBlue
    18-21, F
    Sep 26, 2013

    Am I pretty. I'm really self conscious about my

    appearance because I've never had many friends and I'm sixteen and never been kissed for real. This is even one of my nicer photos I think and ya.
    loloup loloup
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    Truth And Promises

    truth can change by the minute, by the hour. Truth is not always just black or white. Truth can change with the beat of a heart, a drop of a tear. And so being honest, being sincere one moment, may not be the same at the next moment. So, try as hard as we may, honesty may...
    neuilly neuilly
    61-65, F
    8 Responses Jul 24, 2011


    Well, I've tried many ways to say it. I know it's gotten through. But I don't think it's taken seriously. So I'll try here. I've tried in person, in letters, on the phone, every which way possible. This is not love. And I don't want to go through it anymore. I believe that a...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2010

    OK I'll Try It!

    This sounds like an interesting challenge. 1. I can be very exhausting to talk to in person, much like sitting next to someone who likes to channel surf at a quick pace. I've made people want to take naps, lol. 2. My mouth opens when I'm thinking hard and goes lax, then my...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki
    5 Responses Sep 22, 2008


     1.  I compulsively pluck non-existent hairs from my face and sleep with tweezers next to my bed. I try to do it in the privacy of my own room but sometimes the compulsion is so strong that I will do it while watching a movie.  It stresses out my boyfriend. Haha 2...
    apencilfornow apencilfornow
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 21, 2008

    i lost a girlfriend to suicide today in her

    honor i am starting to try and help suicidal people before its too late if you are suicidal or lonley you can talk to and trust me
    niceguy223 niceguy223
    13-15, M
    5 Responses Jan 12, 2014

    Accidents In My Pants

    I have pooped in my pants twice within the past six weeks. I have also peed ON my pants. By accident. No, not IN my pants, but ON my pants. I was squatting above the toilet at work because everyone pees on the seat and I got pee aaaaalllll over my pants.  At work.  At bloody...
    FlyingNinjas FlyingNinjas
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 14, 2013

    No Reason Not to Be

    I used to hide parts of who I am from the world because many that I have tried to tell about the true me just scoff and say that I'm making it up.  HOW THE HELL WOULD THEY KNOW!  They haven't lived my life and if they don't believe what I have...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois
    1 Response Jul 18, 2009
    Georgiakh Georgiakh
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2014

    I am a completely nice guy

    and soft guy, I get sad easily and I cry easily.
    brownzugar brownzugar
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

    Honesty Makes It All Worth While.

    Honesty makes life and love real.  I wouldn't like or appreciate what I have if it wasn't for that.  I never was able to be dishonest other than my drug using days to keep my habit going.  Even then, I wasn't fooling anyone.  I need to be honest to be real and...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2009

    there are probably -3 people

    who don't annoy me on this planet. i like people and specially strangers. i like to talk and laugh with people who are working at a place i can be at but i can never spend more than an hour with someone i know ( friends, people at school, some fam members) without really getting...
    idiotoff idiotoff
    16-17, F
    Jan 26

    All Cards On The Table

    for the first time i want to tell everyone what im feeling. for the first time i want to break my silence and say what im feeling at this very moment. for the first time i want to say that im not happy. im not satisfied with my life. im not the same anymore. i feel alone every...
    kpark9497 kpark9497
    1 Response Jan 29, 2011

    I'm Totally Honest Here

    I've been totally honest here and I will continue to be totally honest.
    aquarius3 aquarius3
    Dec 26, 2011

    What consequence exists amongst total virtual

    strangers being brutally honest about their own truth(s)?
    Onechoice Onechoice
    31-35, M
    1 Response Nov 23, 2014

    I might be the heartless guy

    but once I'm in the relationship, you can be sure you'll feel so much love of me that you will be tired of me :p
    ClassicGentleman ClassicGentleman
    18-21, M
    Aug 6, 2014

    To be honest I don't know

    why some of the women i know ever had kids. Clearly they aren't ready for them or they don't want them, their parents or siblings are basically raising them so you can go out and drink with your friends every night. Do you not realize that everyone can see the things you post on...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait
    22-25, F
    Jan 16, 2015


    for once Im going to be completely honest, about everything. i have a diary that records everything I eat. Its full of pictures of thin girls, lyrics from ana songs, things to motivate me to starve myself. I want my eating disorder back. Recovery is overrated. I need...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Sep 17, 2008

    ...okay so I'm suicidal

    and I found this app because I was looking up ways to kill myself and instead of a suicidal website, the ad for this app popped up and it wouldn't let me click anywhere else but the ad. And I'm very very happy it worked out like that.
    oliviahuss1 oliviahuss1
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2014

    I'm pretty miserable right now.

    Just the fact that my parents are splitting up, makes my entire world evaporate. Lets be real, we're very poor too. So poor that I had to be pulled out of school (public schools here aren't good in the importance department, so if you actually want a good education, where you...
    Shirloo Shirloo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2014

    I Am Who I Am!

    I am going to be totally honest here because I came here to be myself and get help from like-minded people. I think if you can't be honest here then maybe this isn't the site for you because people can only help if they know what is really going on. Anyway why should I change...
    bufy1981 bufy1981
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2008

    Here It Is...

    The following are things about myself that I often keep hidden on other sites. But I want to be completely honest for once. So, here it is:I am a virgin.I have never been kissed or had a boyfriend.I have an eating disorder, and I like it.I have cut myself, abused prescription...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 12, 2010
    heyyo1234 heyyo1234
    22-25, M
    Aug 8, 2014

    Why Lie?

    Honesty is a great thing to have.
    mother1983 mother1983
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jan 21, 2009

    I really don't like people.

    people annoy the absolute **** out of me. there isn't a day where I wish to live as far away from people as I can and never come back. people especially men annoy and **** me off both on here and in real life. I only have a tiny faction of individuals who I actually like. but as...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 2

    Just Lonely

    I really just want someone to talk to. Not looking to date or find mate. Have one of those why would I want another. Im in a hard place right now and just need someone.
    livingonce livingonce
    1 Response Sep 26, 2012

    Lemmie Be Open

    I am loving what i've become this days. Am justified that i will NEVER hesitate to terminate the life of another being should you take me for a push-over to do a thing.
    labrynth labrynth
    22-25, M
    4 Responses May 5, 2009

    Hopein To Help

    I will hope to help ppl in their needs aswell I hope for ppl to help me. But in order to do that I have to stay honest which I'm already am.:)
    macdat macdat
    18-21, M
    Aug 30, 2012

    True Blue

    I am and have always been honest on EP about myself. Yes, I take four psychiatric meds(Seroquel, Klonopin, Celexa, and Gabapentin). Yes, I have emotional problems. Yes, I have no life and don't know when I'll get one. Why lie and say something I'm not? If you want to judge, you...
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Oct 7, 2009

    Well, I Guess I Could Give It A Try?

    I don't really like it when people say they hate people who lie or hate liars or something like that. Them people can't really base other people upon one action because they don't know they're background and everything. And if people do lie or something then they've suddenly got...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 13, 2013

    I don't have the energy to obsess over anything

    other than coffee & good food
    deleted deleted
    Aug 6, 2014

    Let Loose the Shackles of Identity!

    I really don't understand why you would want to censor yourself on an anonymous story-telling sight.  I know some people have 'public' accounts known by their RL friends, but in that case you can just create another account to talk about everything you don't want them to...
    Honir Honir
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Sep 10, 2009

    I'M Not Looking For Attention

    I post about my life because I really can't open up to anybody at home or at school or to my friends. The reason I can't open at home because I can't talk to my family or mom about it because they won't pay attention or just don't care. I can't do it at school because the last...
    Cheekymonkey1997 Cheekymonkey1997
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2013

    Not gonna get my point across

    if I say with frustration but I'm also wont if I say it calmly because it takes time....wtf do you want from me? When will all the criticism ever end? Not like you're perfect either! You're just severely in denial!
    breakingfree88 breakingfree88
    1 Response Feb 2, 2015

    There are so many things

    that I want to say "me too" to, but I can't and I won't because they are feelings that I had in the past. The thing is, I can't hide the fact that I never had those feelings. Those feelings were real and they did exist in my life. Those feelings are what connect me to others. I...
    HaileyLove20 HaileyLove20
    18-21, F
    Jul 3, 2014

    As Well As Ep In This Story

    I have wrote a number of stories here that I have dared not enunciate into words over a 20 year period.  In fact, one was so difficult to write, as I had always tried to detach words from it, so it would appear as though it had never happened, that as there were no...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Feb 6, 2009

    I have NEVER lied on EP.

    Why would I? No one knows me so why would I care what they think? I don't lie on here and I hope the ppl who talk to me here feel comfortable enough to do the same :)
    Majin1712 Majin1712
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2015

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    16-17, M
    Apr 21
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    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 21
    Ah ok, i first joined EP June/15/2015 tbh ...not that long but the memories i made here are just wow ..i can still remember it like it was yesterday and idk how i feel ...happy...
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    16-17, F
    Apr 21
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    ZoChavis ZoChavis
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    Apr 21
    Hey guys I'm in a huge rut at the moment and I feel like complete crap. I've fallen in love with a girl I met online on a depression support app. She's from the US and I'm from the...
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    46-50, M
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    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 21
    This is my last post .......I have many memories attached with EP......I was here since last 2 years....I met with many good people here....I have seen many hierarchies in here of...
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    18-21, M
    Apr 21
    First as 0nest0, then nest37, and a few other that I made poof, what will be most difficult is not missing anyone, I have nice memories of the few I interacted with, but in all...
    Bettercallsalamander Bettercallsalamander
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 21
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    BigAsset BigAsset
    41-45, M
    Apr 21
    So apparently we have less than 24 hours here. I feel like I should say so many things, yet words aren't so forthcoming in this moment of farewell. I'm too tired :p A few years...
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    26-30, F
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    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Apr 20
    honestly I dunno without the people I met on ep what would I have been now. I was at my darkest times when I joined two years ago. I had psychotic depression and never smiled. and...
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