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I Will Conquer This Vicious Cycle I Am In

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 82 People

    Brain Cootie Ranching

     So...I get to juggle major depressive disorder, PTSD that flares into life-munching virulence, a probable case of ADD inattentive-or that's what it looks like, allergies, asthma, and chronic sinusitis...oh, and a tendency to binge eat.Put it all under the heading of "crap I...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 5 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    Cycles R Meant To Be Broken?

    I have always been abused in some form, but the only reason for that is because i have allowed it - subconsciously that is. Trust me - i have never wanted it willingly, however if u are reared with forms of abuse for years and years - u think that is how it is meant to be. I...
    Hertia Hertia 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    One Day

    One day,I hope,I'll conquer life,It's vicious cycles,Live again,Smile once more,And learn how to laugh.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 30, 2012

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    Circle Be Damned..

    I'm going to wave a magic wand and turn it into a square then ram it off a cliff.
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F May 5, 2012

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    I Came From Nothing To The Possibility Of Something Amazing...

    New guy here. I left school with no education and went in to a spiral of drugs alcohol and finally overdosed... This was all before I had even turned 18. So it was time for a change! I left the alcohol and drugs behind as best as I could since I was addicted more or less...
    1312015C 1312015C 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 14, 2010

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    With My Feelings And Relationships With Other People..

    Huh I deal with depression, anxiety, and some other things. There are times where I go from angry to happy in 5 seconds and it's confusing for me, for anyone around me that has to deal with it. With the relationships with other people, they're never actual relationships...
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2011

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    My Vicious Cycle

    I was an unhappy kid, uncomfortable in my body, feeling alone in my family.  My parents met my basic physical needs but not much else and I was sexually abused by my grandfather.  In my teens I put on loads of weight and felt v unhappy and depressed.  I...
    loopy210 loopy210 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I'm cold-hearted meaning that I definitely have vicious things to say.
    sammisanin sammisanin 18-21, F Nov 19

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    So I guess I get to join this non-exclusive club... Well, for a number of reasons. I'll just stick to the literal this time, burning over 2,000 CPU hours of cloud-computing time...
    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I seem to be a little older than many people here, so I have probably made more mistakes and had a bit more general life experience. I am far from perfect and my life is probably...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 28

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    Cycling is alright but I kinda got lost and everytime I cycle up a big hill my breathing keeps failing O.O do I keep exploring or go back the way I came? :o
    Chloeeee17 Chloeeee17 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 30

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    I'll never forget you I never thought I'd say this but without your love I can't go on I fall before you Though I've tried to forget The emptiness feels the same Grieving for...
    BeautifulPetal BeautifulPetal 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    1) I love to read, and I read really, really fast. Anyone remember "AR" points in elementary school? The goal per month was usually around twenty points. In the third grade I got 2...
    pickapebble pickapebble 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    I have known a girl for 3 years now, and despite everything she only sees me as another friend. She is now a senior and is going to leave possibly out of state. I really love her...
    Delta7190 Delta7190 16-17, M 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I will never give up my love to the man who I ever loved. Despite with all the trauma that he have caused me from the past problem he brought on our life. I will never just give...
    aj2333 aj2333 41-45, F Oct 27

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    Every moment. Every laugh. Every touch. All of this Solidifies what I have always felt, always known in my heart....no time, no distance, no situation will ever change how we feel...
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F Oct 28

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    I plan on making a true deal.. I will slit my palm of my hand and bleed on open soil on the crossroads of a street... I will have buried my name under it with my desire and wish...
    Xoris Xoris 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 28

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    I will start a fresh start as will focus on what i have more than what i don't have. I stayed long wishing and thinking that i can make any difference in this world.But most of the...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M Oct 29

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    I'm beginning to see the choices I have made throughout my life come full circle. I tried desperately to outrun them, and now, only later am I about to reap the consequences of my...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 5

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    Judge I remember your stare as a "friend" coerced your body, As you sip some sin, we look through crowd of eyes, And out of all the people here, The only one that sees my pain...
    ymfas ymfas 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 6

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    Cliff-HangerHow far will he let her fallbefore he tells herthere is no rope to catch her?just the string he used to lead her along.no hope to wrench her from her descent.no safety...
    SKiesterly SKiesterly 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    The beta will end at 1800 PST on February 18.You do not get a key for the bold you admission to administer through the site.Stats from the beta will not alteration over into the...
    fifacoinsarc fifacoinsarc 22-25, F Nov 8

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    Will You?  Will you miss me when I'm gone? Will you look back fondly remembering the girl who made you smile, the woman who stirred your passion and the lady who touched your...
    livelaughlovedream3 livelaughlovedream3 41-45, F 6 Responses Nov 14

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    I needed to write this letter and wish I could send it to make him realised he hasn't broken me and never will. To my abusive husband, I have survived years of your drinking...
    Iamasurviv0r Iamasurviv0r 41-45, F a week ago

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    Start the Spanish League with Many Argentine Players on Stage The League of Spain 2013/15, the most attractive international football, which will have 27 players and 2 DT...
    buypoegold buypoegold 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    A lot of you will be quite appropriately worried about the group interconnection troubles you have been experiencing during the last couple of weeks. We all know that the has...
    Diablo3zss Diablo3zss 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    The word sorry for me was over used. I will make sure this powerful word will only be use if I did something wrong. Never will I use it to apologize for being me as a person, as a...
    ezzy2014 ezzy2014 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    i will do whatever it takes, all the hardships, everything, and i will change this world, make it a better place for everyone, i will be the first Native American President, if i...
    AwesomePossum17 AwesomePossum17 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I am a fairly introverted, creative, intelligent, independent, and empathetic young woman. I take pride on being all of those things. I love art and music, and express myself...
    zsigginz zsigginz 18-21, F Oct 29

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    People seem to have an issue with my personality. I admit it, I'm very blunt and uncompromising. I will not change my opinion because you feel offended or judged. I will not change...
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    I will never marry again, and I can say that with a very high percentage of certainty. My divorce will officially begin today (On Halloween). I filled out the paperwork online two...
    miryam57 miryam57 56-60, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    You know-I am your toy.I will do anything you want.I am putty in your hands.Just say the word.I live my life to please you.I'll be worthless.All I'll be good for is money.I'll do...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 7 Responses Nov 2

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    Yeah. And only when I'm actually wrong. I won't ever apologize for something I didn't do, or for something that wasn't actually wrong for me to do. No matter who the person is. If...
    sugarcakes143 sugarcakes143 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    The tears in your eyes as you told me that you realized I would be leaving soon immediately caused a pain in my chest as I tried, and failed not to cry. I will never forget your...
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    I just want unconditional love .. a love where there is no pain and abuse . an unbreakable type of love where nothing could tear apart the two .. but that isnt reality .. that is...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 4

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    I'm debating whether I should run or not. I will probably use YouTube for most of my campaigning, which will be out of my own pocket (paying my internet bill or using the library...
    bubbawi bubbawi 26-30, M Nov 5

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    My love letter to you: Hi baby it's me your poo head princess, I can't believe that it has been two months already that you've been deployed. You truly mean so much to me and have...
    AMarinesGirl0401 AMarinesGirl0401 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    I will give up the battle with my problem. I will accept things as they are, not expect them to be the way I want them to be. I will feel what I feel and try to learn from it. I...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M Nov 7

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    Hi I'm PlasticRobot and you may know me from such experiences as, "I Hope 2013 Is Better Than 2012" and "I Hope 2014 Will Be a Great Year" Well Goshdarnit, I'm going to get off my...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    It's easy to leave me. It's easy to forget me. Don't say you will not for get because I know you will forget. Don't say you will be back because you will not come back........they...
    Payton20014 Payton20014 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    From today, I will only eat food that people are offering me. Just the same way a lot of munks live their life. In this moment, I'm drinking selfe made coffie. I will not do that...
    guroiam guroiam 22-25, F Nov 8

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    I was feeling like **** for the past months. I was confused about who I am and what I am, I felt unappreciated by everyone. I was feeling sad and empty and the people whom I told...
    secondalways secondalways 26-30, M Nov 8

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    1) What was the last picture you took with your phone? Ice cream.. 2) Do you know any big gossipers? Nope..I stay away from them. 3) Have you been pulled over by a cop? Err..yes...
    sarabal sarabal 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    And in the absence of the moon I will leave. The darkness of the night cannot stop me nor the tears of my only faithful lover.. My motherland.. I will before she can fully taste...
    Superpsycho Superpsycho 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    If you see my face in his car, With the windows fogging from by breath, I will be bound for the slaughterhouse, Bound for the slaughterhouse, If you find my garments torn, My hair...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Nov 11

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    today I think I just had the most important conversion of my life. it has made me see things I hadnt seen in a long time. I see things much more clearer. I see what I must do to...
    PsychoBitch69 PsychoBitch69 31-35, F Nov 12

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