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I Will Never Get Over My Past

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    Doubt I Ever Will..

    Im Julian and I'm 15 years old. I hate talking about my past, its too painful, so I evade even thinking about it most times. But when times like this arise, moments where I need to get it out, I tell everything! I feel like EP is the only place I can do this. I never really had a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 4, 2012

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    It Can Be Done

    I had an experience when I was 7 years old, which although it could have been a lot worse, was very traumatic for me at the time. I got over it when I had a nervous breakdown at 23 years old. I kept so much inside & I couldn't carry it around with me anymore.
    neuronice neuronice 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2007

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    How Can I Lighten The Load!

    I had a pretty rubbish start growing up which sadly went onto dictate the rest of my life; choices, decisions, actions, moods, patterns - I think the worse part of it is breaking the pattern! I won't go into detail - its far too complicated and long. The issue is; the strength it...
    Chi25 Chi25 36-40, F Dec 26, 2011

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    No one knows half the things I been through.

    Nor do I plan on letting anything out. But recently I'm starting to think no one can relate. Or if I tell someone something they'll think "Oh she's lying" "She wants attention" "If it's true why'd you keep it a secret" So really there's no point in speaking up...
    BrokenFromMemories BrokenFromMemories 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    I'm Tryin To Get Over My Past

    No matter how hard u try to move forward there is always somethin tryin to get in the way. i have been abused, im tryin everythin i can to get over it but nothin works. I am goin to counseling to get the help i need to get over my past, im on antidepressants but they only work on...
    rodeoqueen rodeoqueen 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    Embarrassed and Hurt

    My parents divorced when I was 8.  My mother took up with an alcoholic who couldn't hold down a job so we moved every 6 months.  I rarely had friends, never brought anyone home for fear of my step-father.  When I was a teenager I ran away from home saying I wanted...
    djs7194 djs7194 46-50 7 Responses Jul 4, 2009

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    I was molested. By someone very close to my

    family. I've never been the same since.
    ilm16 ilm16 16-17, F Mar 16

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    My Past

    My past consisted of mental abuse, physical abuse, and sexual abuse. It damaged me. I am damaged. I don't think it is possible to completely get over the past.
    popper53 popper53 56-60, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    A picture is a 1000 words,

    my story is 10,000 pictures
    JakeSuspence JakeSuspence 16-17, M Dec 1, 2013

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    My Story

    my father tried to sell me for drugs as a baby, at the age of 5 i was sexually abused at the age of 10-13 i was physically and emotionally abused i used drugs and alcahole to try and mask my pain but that didnt help for long i also tried killing myself but they pumped my...
    hardroad22 hardroad22 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 2, 2010

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    So Much things that I cant forget.

    My mother was an alcoholic and i took Care of her all the time. My dad ran away and left me with her. I was only 7 when i learned to Cook my own food and clean the house. Life was so hard and painful i thought about suicide at a very Young age. Despite my misery i had one thing...
    vickepicke vickepicke 16-17, M Mar 27

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    It's Too Late.

    I found a picture of myself from when I was around 3 years old. I keep staring at it, and I find myself wishing I could talk to her. I want so badly to tell that little girl who is wondering why Daddy is on some ship thousands of miles away instead of with her, I just wish I...
    tastedtherain tastedtherain 26-30, F Aug 20, 2013

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    Idk

    first of all lets get one thing straight...my life is and was never abusive like many people in this group. i have bipolar and i made some pretty crappy choices in life when i was younger. things that i can not get over and honestly i dont know if i ever will be able to
    dlovato4life dlovato4life 56-60 May 14, 2012

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    I was (and sometimes still) bullied an picked

    in constantly. I have no real friends outside of my club team. I have school friends, but then they don't even want to hang out with me outside of school. I feel defeated and lost. I don't know what to do anymore.i need some advice to get over my past, and move on to making new...
    Emilypaiget Emilypaiget 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    The Past Hurts

    my past has not been great and i can relate to what it feels like to never get over your past. because some people tell me hurtful thing like your never going to make it in life. and  i have very low self esteem its like lower than the ground can go. people like doctors tell me...
    joecap joecap 18-21, M Dec 22, 2010

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    I am extremely insecure!

    !!! & I HATE it.
    wrt2bwrg wrt2bwrg 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    Mental Breakdown Venting.......

     You seem to find yourself surrounded by people who never truly seem to care or even notice when something is wrong, that the flashbacks are slamming through your mind over and over. and that your heart is hurting so much that it makes you endlessly feel like your stuck...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 6, 2009

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    I cant get over things

    that have happened in the past... I need steps in forgiving and letting go!
    thoughtsandquestions thoughtsandquestions 18-21, F Apr 22

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    I Try To Forget But Can't (Updated 2012/10/28)

    I was born in Canada and moved to Mexico about a month after entering the world. I lived there with my mom, biological father and a few years into my stay in Mexico my brother would be born. I was in Mexico for the first 5 years of my life. The physical abuse started before I was...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    L Will Never Forget This

    When l was like 14 l was walking home from school and l saw a van park around the corner of my street. lhad my head down but l was still watching them it was a man and women in the frount of the van. l started to speed walk then the jumped out and the man must of ran because he...
    lovesom lovesom 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    Self Therapy

    I posted my story a few minutes ago....you can actually help yourself I am writing a book about my life...its kind of hypnotizing yourself..all of these horrible memories have been haunting us for Yrs but we choose not to not really remember some of them...by do we? I found that...
    shelin71 shelin71 36-40, T Oct 4, 2012

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    Some Things You Just Never For Get

    my dad was a mean F*cker and i told him that one time and he rip my shirt off and he grab a electric cord and he whip my back with it i still have scars on my back from it and my mom she never try to stop him at all that time, i still wake up screaming at times i hav such bad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    The Fear And The Rage; When Will It All End?

    If only i could go back to when things seemed okay, When there was a mom and a dad, A child and its parents, A home and its importance. A time when there was no holes in the wall, No screaming and the rage, A feeling of hitting the cage. The love and peace that once occurred...
    Spirit040209 Spirit040209 16-17, F Apr 3, 2011

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    Well maybe not EVER. But

    when people start confirming things that you always wondered if it was a truth or lie... Drives you insane. I think Id rather not know. I've already spent a lot of time sad about it. Why continue when it's brought up again? UGH!
    Lucky1217 Lucky1217 18-21, F Jan 16

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    **DISCLAIMER. EXTREMELY PERSONAL AND MAY

    UNSETTLE SHELTERED READERS** it's kind of sick, isn't it? i remember when i was a little girl. I was getting beaten everyday. I don't really like to think about it. Trying to remember the details is making me squirm. as I write this, a cold sweat is collecting on my hairline...
    maezombiie maezombiie 18-21, F 12 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Forget Him Never

    When I was 18 I fell hopelessly in love with a guy over a span of a few months. During this time we were inseparable. It was like magic. We were also an interracial couple and he had never been with someone outside his race. He had even admitted that he used to be prejudice. I...
    tauruslove98 tauruslove98 31-35, F Aug 13, 2013

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    My Secret

    I was raped when I was a little girl, about 3 years old. A lot of people say that kids don't retain memories from that age... but I did. In fact this event was my first memory: I t was Christmas time, we were at my grandmothers house, my parents, my brother and I, to spend the...
    lonelybrokenhearted lonelybrokenhearted 16-17, F 19 Responses Sep 18, 2007

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    Is it me or is it hard to forget something from

    the past that you wish never happend
    blueplasma blueplasma 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    Its So Sad

    That I'm as inscure as I am. I'm at the island and i feel like every women around me he's looking at. Even if its not true it feels like it. I thought that i heard some females talking about him. Its crazy. I can't keep living like this. It hurts do bad. And i shouldn't feel this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 15, 2013

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    I'm Trying Though!

    Some of us have a past that we'd like to forget. However, getting over your past is easier said than done. Some of us deal with it by moving on, some of us...can't. I didn't have a happy childhood, but that's not gonna stop me from living a happy life - on my own terms.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 12, 2011

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    I Can't Get Over My Past.

    Everyday I struggle with getting over my past. I want so bad to be able to go back and know then what I know now so that I can change my life. I know that this is not possible however it does not stop my thinking that way. I hate so much of my life. I need and want...
    Sorriso Sorriso 46-50, M 8 Responses May 28, 2007

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    But Maybe I Can Make Peace With It

      We all have a past. And a lot of us have things here and there we'd rather not look at too closely. But most of us find ways of moving ahead with living. When I was thirteen and just going to high school I was asked on a date by one of "the"...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2008

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    I Will Never For Get Over It

    I will never get over it .But I have to put in the safe room in my mind and leave it there.And then move on with my life.It is not help my self to go and live there in more .It don't help me now in my life to think of it.You have to move on and go on with life and leave a better...
    ladywolf123 ladywolf123 51-55, F Aug 10, 2011

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    hollywolly95 hollywolly95 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    But I Will Get Through It.....eventually

    I am haunted by a memory my brain can't even access anymore, during a time in which I can barely recall, yet these locked up memories are what has followed me and affected my life for 20 years. I am a victim of sexual abuse and the abuse occurred when I was around the age of 2...
    4four2twenty0 4four2twenty0 22-25, F Aug 6, 2011

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    If I Had A Time Machine I Will Go Bk In Time

    I miss my dad who would of been 65 this month but he past away 28th December 2011, I lost my mother 2 years ago she was only 62/3, my wife adn i split up with me 20th March of this year 4 days befor my 28th birthday and now i aint got no to talk to if im feeling down and i aint...
    youcantseeme84 youcantseeme84 26-30, M Jun 30, 2012

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    I Am Over My Past Right Now Bu...

    i am over my past right now but i still liek to look back and learn some more from my many mistakes and pass on what i learn to others so as to prevent them from making my same mistakes
    J3didiah J3didiah 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 27, 2007

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    She-devil.

    when i was about, 8-14 years old, i had a "friend" named hunter. that B!tch.... she would abusively hurt me, she even sprained my arm. while i was almost screaming in pian, she was just laughing, like the ***** the was, and still is. it was ALWAYS about her. i bet your'e thinking...
    RavenLeaf2000 RavenLeaf2000 18-21 Aug 8, 2011

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    Waiting....

    I can’t help but feel like…I’m a burden on every single person in my life. Every single aspect of my life. Everywhere I go, Everything I do, I’m just straight up not good enough. Every person I care about, every friend I have has to put up with my crap. They have to deal...
    tastedtherain tastedtherain 26-30, F Oct 6, 2013

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    Scary Movies

    When I was about 12, getting ready to go into grade seven the following September, I was invited to go to an 'all girls' sleepover. I wasn'tmuch of a girly girl, more of a tomboy, so I wasn't too thrilled. But I went anyways. Getting there, it turned out my best friend's friends...
    dancinghippiee dancinghippiee 13-15 Apr 12, 2009

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    I tripped over a child safety gate last year,

    I fractured and partially dislocated my elbow. In this case, the top of my arm jumped out of the elbow socket and jammed. I was sent home for the night and due back to surgery the next morning. Surgery on Saturday morning, I was to be home Sunday, Sunday- not only is it my bfs...
    Stargasm Stargasm 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    They Hurt Me!!!

    Journal of my life I call it " They Hurt Me "Hi.. Ty for your blog/ blogs! I was diagnosed with PTSD a couple of months ago...Let me just put it this way....@ age 10, My youngers sibs were 9 and 6 @ the time that My Father left and My Mother decided well OK I will just be a free...
    XTheyHurtMeX XTheyHurtMeX 41-45, F 4 Responses May 27, 2011

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    Why Does My Past Haunt Me?

    No matter how many years go by or how good life is at that particular moment the past always seems to pop up and effect my life in one way or another. Whether its childhood memories or insecurities I can never seem to escape the past. They say the past should be left just as that...
    FreeVic FreeVic 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 17, 2011

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    Forgiveness Is Letting Go Of The Hope That The Pass Can Be Changed

    I was molested and raped by my step father and his father.How long this went on im really not sure, i have repressed and tried so hard to forget. i do know it was very young somewhere btw 4-7 when it started and my step father didnt stop til i was 16. i stoped going over TO his...
    renee2787 renee2787 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    And for anyone that says they are over their

    past is lying, you never get over anything you just learn to move around it, it makes you the person you are today, your past is always going to be a part of you
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Disociative Identity Disorder And Poly Fragmented Thoughts- My Experience

    As i remember it, it mostly started in middleschool. I abruptly became very anxious in school. This was never much of a problem for me before. I began to become suspicious of my classmates. Even my friends. A year later i began developing non-bizarre delusions. Essentially, i...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 25, 2013

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    I Will Never Get Over My Past

    Good on you! I can relate to what you are saying. I had a really abusive childhood and even teenage years. I find it really hard to learn to trust people again however my life is getting better and better. I am sending you lots of encouragment and strength. You are a real trouper...
    Girlwithfire Girlwithfire 41-45, F Jan 8, 2012

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    My Story

    When I was ten years old, just starting fifth grade, my family was at a point when we still went to church. We went to church, and it happened to be the same church that my cousin Jerry and his parents went to church. (Jerry is about 15 years older than I am. I had never...
    lonelybrokenhearted lonelybrokenhearted 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2008

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