I Will Never Get Over My Past

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    And for anyone that says they are over their

    past is lying, you never get over anything you just learn to move around it, it makes you the person you are today, your past is always going to be a part of you
    maddieXxx maddieXxx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 15, 2014

    2013 was a year full of great choices.

    I made 9 out of 10 wrong decisions. But the decisions made the person of who i am today. I still friggin regret that i made those choices. Ahwell, gotta live with it right?
    deleted deleted
    Jan 29, 2016
    4biandu 4biandu
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Nov 3, 2014

    Forgiveness Is Letting Go Of The Hope That The Pass Can Be Changed

    I was molested and raped by my step father and his father.How long this went on im really not sure, i have repressed and tried so hard to forget. i do know it was very young somewhere btw 4-7 when it started and my step father didnt stop til i was 16. i stoped going over TO his...
    renee2787 renee2787
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 9, 2010

    Some Things You Just Never For Get

    my dad was a mean F*cker and i told him that one time and he rip my shirt off and he grab a electric cord and he whip my back with it i still have scars on my back from it and my mom she never try to stop him at all that time, i still wake up screaming at times i hav such bad...
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Jul 9, 2011

    My Story

    my father tried to sell me for drugs as a baby, at the age of 5 i was sexually abused at the age of 10-13 i was physically and emotionally abused i used drugs and alcahole to try and mask my pain but that didnt help for long i also tried killing myself but they pumped my...
    hardroad22 hardroad22
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 2, 2010

    Anytime I remember something

    that hurts me, it's like ice shards stabbing my heart....but luckily the alcohol is clouding my brain for now. It may be a temporary release, but it is a great numbing agent.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Dec 10, 2015

    I was (and sometimes still) bullied an picked

    in constantly. I have no real friends outside of my club team. I have school friends, but then they don't even want to hang out with me outside of school. I feel defeated and lost. I don't know what to do anymore.i need some advice to get over my past, and move on to making new...
    Emilypaiget Emilypaiget
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2014

    Forget Him Never

    When I was 18 I fell hopelessly in love with a guy over a span of a few months. During this time we were inseparable. It was like magic. We were also an interracial couple and he had never been with someone outside his race. He had even admitted that he used to be prejudice. I...
    tauruslove98 tauruslove98
    36-40, F
    Aug 13, 2013

    I'm Tryin To Get Over My Past

    No matter how hard u try to move forward there is always somethin tryin to get in the way. i have been abused, im tryin everythin i can to get over it but nothin works. I am goin to counseling to get the help i need to get over my past, im on antidepressants but they only work on...
    rodeoqueen rodeoqueen
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2010

    Disociative Identity Disorder And Poly Fragmented Thoughts- My Experience

    As i remember it, it mostly started in middleschool. I abruptly became very anxious in school. This was never much of a problem for me before. I began to become suspicious of my classmates. Even my friends. A year later i began developing non-bizarre delusions. Essentially, i...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 25, 2013

    A picture is a 1000 words,

    my story is 10,000 pictures
    StrandedandAlonr StrandedandAlonr
    18-21, M
    Dec 1, 2013

    I am extremely insecure!

    !!! & I HATE it.
    wrt2bwrg wrt2bwrg
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    My Secret

    I was raped when I was a little girl, about 3 years old. A lot of people say that kids don't retain memories from that age... but I did. In fact this event was my first memory: I t was Christmas time, we were at my grandmothers house, my parents, my brother and I, to spend the...
    lonelybrokenhearted lonelybrokenhearted
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Sep 18, 2007

    I cant get over things

    that have happened in the past... I need steps in forgiving and letting go!
    thoughtsandquestions thoughtsandquestions
    22-25, F
    Apr 22, 2014

    Somethings just cant be forgotten,

    but can always be learnt from.
    TropicalArctic TropicalArctic
    18-21, M
    Dec 8, 2014

    L Will Never Forget This

    When l was like 14 l was walking home from school and l saw a van park around the corner of my street. lhad my head down but l was still watching them it was a man and women in the frount of the van. l started to speed walk then the jumped out and the man must of ran because he...
    lovesom lovesom
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Feb 3, 2012

    I was molested. By someone very close to my

    family. I've never been the same since.
    ilm16 ilm16
    18-21, F
    Mar 16, 2014

    I am still getting over my past,

    flash backs come back to me randomly.
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm
    18-21, F
    Nov 19, 2014

    Why Does My Past Haunt Me?

    No matter how many years go by or how good life is at that particular moment the past always seems to pop up and effect my life in one way or another. Whether its childhood memories or insecurities I can never seem to escape the past. They say the past should be left just as that...
    FreeVic FreeVic
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Apr 17, 2011

    The Fear And The Rage; When Will It All End?

    If only i could go back to when things seemed okay, When there was a mom and a dad, A child and its parents, A home and its importance. A time when there was no holes in the wall, No screaming and the rage, A feeling of hitting the cage. The love and peace that once occurred...
    Spirit040209 Spirit040209
    18-21, F
    Apr 3, 2011

    But I Will Get Through It.....eventually

    I am haunted by a memory my brain can't even access anymore, during a time in which I can barely recall, yet these locked up memories are what has followed me and affected my life for 20 years. I am a victim of sexual abuse and the abuse occurred when I was around the age of 2...
    4four2twenty0 4four2twenty0
    22-25, F
    Aug 6, 2011

    Mental Breakdown Venting.......

     You seem to find yourself surrounded by people who never truly seem to care or even notice when something is wrong, that the flashbacks are slamming through your mind over and over. and that your heart is hurting so much that it makes you endlessly feel like your stuck...
    lilfallenangel lilfallenangel
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Jun 6, 2009

    Scary Movies

    When I was about 12, getting ready to go into grade seven the following September, I was invited to go to an 'all girls' sleepover. I wasn'tmuch of a girly girl, more of a tomboy, so I wasn't too thrilled. But I went anyways. Getting there, it turned out my best friend's friends...
    dancinghippiee dancinghippiee
    Apr 12, 2009


    I can’t help but feel like…I’m a burden on every single person in my life. Every single aspect of my life. Everywhere I go, Everything I do, I’m just straight up not good enough. Every person I care about, every friend I have has to put up with my crap. They have to deal...
    tastedtherain tastedtherain
    26-30, F
    Oct 6, 2013

    It Can Be Done

    I had an experience when I was 7 years old, which although it could have been a lot worse, was very traumatic for me at the time. I got over it when I had a nervous breakdown at 23 years old. I kept so much inside & I couldn't carry it around with me anymore.
    neuronice neuronice
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2007


    when i was about, 8-14 years old, i had a "friend" named hunter. that B!tch.... she would abusively hurt me, she even sprained my arm. while i was almost screaming in pian, she was just laughing, like the ***** the was, and still is. it was ALWAYS about her. i bet your'e thinking...
    RavenLeaf2000 RavenLeaf2000
    Aug 8, 2011

    No one knows half the things I been through.

    Nor do I plan on letting anything out. But recently I'm starting to think no one can relate. Or if I tell someone something they'll think "Oh she's lying" "She wants attention" "If it's true why'd you keep it a secret" So really there's no point in speaking up...
    BrokenFromMemories BrokenFromMemories
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

    So my past is a little messed up.

    When I was five, I was continuously molested by my older brother until I was six. Then in 7th grade I started to cut myself. That's when the voices started showing up. One was named the Man. Then there was the group of voices called the Audience that just screamed. I told my mom...
    brieftimetravelinfluencer brieftimetravelinfluencer
    16-17, F
    May 23, 2015

    I tripped over a child safety gate last year,

    I fractured and partially dislocated my elbow. In this case, the top of my arm jumped out of the elbow socket and jammed. I was sent home for the night and due back to surgery the next morning. Surgery on Saturday morning, I was to be home Sunday, Sunday- not only is it my bfs...
    Stargasm Stargasm
    26-30, F
    Mar 18, 2014

    Why should I? The past is what made me

    who I am. All the scars, bruises, mistakes and failures are nothing but test to prepare you.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2015


    UNSETTLE SHELTERED READERS** it's kind of sick, isn't it? i remember when i was a little girl. I was getting beaten everyday. I don't really like to think about it. Trying to remember the details is making me squirm. as I write this, a cold sweat is collecting on my hairline...
    maezombiie maezombiie
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Dec 4, 2013

    when I was born I almost died due to a rare

    heart condition, apparently one doctor saved my life because only he managed to figure out the arteries in my heart were the wrong way round and he gave me a life to live. shortly after my dad left, I still saw him and he tried making it up to me for most of his life, then he...
    forgottenluna forgottenluna
    18-21, M
    Jul 19, 2015

    Is it me or is it hard to forget something from

    the past that you wish never happend
    blueplasma blueplasma
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2014

    Embarrassed and Hurt

    My parents divorced when I was 8.  My mother took up with an alcoholic who couldn't hold down a job so we moved every 6 months.  I rarely had friends, never brought anyone home for fear of my step-father.  When I was a teenager I ran away from home saying I wanted...
    djs7194 djs7194
    7 Responses Jul 4, 2009
    hollywolly95 hollywolly95
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2014

    It's Too Late.

    I found a picture of myself from when I was around 3 years old. I keep staring at it, and I find myself wishing I could talk to her. I want so badly to tell that little girl who is wondering why Daddy is on some ship thousands of miles away instead of with her, I just wish I...
    tastedtherain tastedtherain
    26-30, F
    Aug 20, 2013

    My Story

    When I was ten years old, just starting fifth grade, my family was at a point when we still went to church. We went to church, and it happened to be the same church that my cousin Jerry and his parents went to church. (Jerry is about 15 years older than I am. I had never...
    lonelybrokenhearted lonelybrokenhearted
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 17, 2008

    And it doesn't seem fair to.

    To get over the past is to act like it didn't happen or it didn't affect you. My past has irrevocably shaped me and I can't ignore it. Results of my past hit in my the face day and night, awake and sleeping....it doesn't go away.
    sweetloaf sweetloaf
    22-25, F
    Sep 7, 2014

    the harder our past was,

    the harder to ignore it... Our past is what has shaped us, what made you who you are and you cant just get over who you are. You can move forward but never get over it. It is a part of you, you will have to accept it.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 15, 2014

    Well maybe not EVER. But

    when people start confirming things that you always wondered if it was a truth or lie... Drives you insane. I think Id rather not know. I've already spent a lot of time sad about it. Why continue when it's brought up again? UGH!
    Lucky1217 Lucky1217
    22-25, F
    Jan 16, 2014

    I always felt like I've been waiting

    for something but I didn't know what it was I remembered something that happened to me when I was 16 years old and I tried to forget but I can't I know now what is bothering me and it is disturbing I remember having an affair with a married man and I shouldn't have I use to...
    Bella70 Bella70
    41-45, F
    Dec 25, 2014

    They Hurt Me!!!

    Journal of my life I call it " They Hurt Me "Hi.. Ty for your blog/ blogs! I was diagnosed with PTSD a couple of months ago...Let me just put it this way....@ age 10, My youngers sibs were 9 and 6 @ the time that My Father left and My Mother decided well OK I will just be a free...
    XTheyHurtMeX XTheyHurtMeX
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 27, 2011

    It's funny how people share their deeper

    secrets on this app. But since I came here for a reason I guess I should do the same (I'm glad I didn't put my name here). Let's see, how do I start this ****... Oh right, let's start with that accident that happened 7 years ago... The accident started right before summer, I...
    noneofyourbussines noneofyourbussines
    18-21, F
    Mar 31, 2015

    I Am Over My Past Right Now Bu...

    i am over my past right now but i still liek to look back and learn some more from my many mistakes and pass on what i learn to others so as to prevent them from making my same mistakes
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 27, 2007

    I Can't Get Over My Past.

    Everyday I struggle with getting over my past. I want so bad to be able to go back and know then what I know now so that I can change my life. I know that this is not possible however it does not stop my thinking that way. I hate so much of my life. I need and want...
    Sorriso Sorriso
    46-50, M
    7 Responses May 28, 2007

    The Past Hurts

    my past has not been great and i can relate to what it feels like to never get over your past. because some people tell me hurtful thing like your never going to make it in life. and  i have very low self esteem its like lower than the ground can go. people like doctors tell me...
    joecap joecap
    18-21, M
    Dec 22, 2010

    So Much things that I cant forget.

    My mother was an alcoholic and i took Care of her all the time. My dad ran away and left me with her. I was only 7 when i learned to Cook my own food and clean the house. Life was so hard and painful i thought about suicide at a very Young age. Despite my misery i had one thing...
    Moretis Moretis
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 27, 2014

    It's been more than two months

    and still am stuck with a happy life I had with my ex-boyfriend before. I try to socialize with guys through social media but none of it make me happy at all, still my ex stuck in my mind all the time. Why is it so hard to move on..
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 5, 2015
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