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I Will Not Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 104 People

    Riding Out The Storm

    The more I've been beaten on, abused, humiliated, hurt...they more I realize, people around me who harm me: people who said they would care for me, will not let me rest until I have nothing left takeable, nothing left to sustain me. They may robbed me my psychological, physical...
    ValentinK ValentinK
    18-21, M
    Jul 21, 2010

    Out of the Question

    I have thought of suicide many times but have never attempted it. The thoughts are scary but I try to fight them off. Whenever I think of them now, I also think about what I would have missed and about my friends and family who would have been so devastated without me. Right now...
    Crochetla Crochetla
    26-30, F
    Jul 30, 2008


    I will not kill myself. I have had the urge. I have had the desire. ****, recently, I just wished my life would end. I'm ******* tired. I'm tired of living. I just wish I could die. But, even with the easiest, most foolproof way to do it, eat a gun at the right angle, I never...
    Socklord Socklord
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2008

    My Ridiculous Reason For Staying Alive

    The last time, in 2008...I woke up...puking...and angry because I was awake...I was puking up the pills, I had drank the alcohol too fast.   Disgusted, mad, and dismayed... I called the ambulance, drank the charcoal...and...awoke in a hospital bed three days later, severely...
    Namaste2u2day Namaste2u2day
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Jan 14, 2011

    Enough Time Spent On Suicidal Plans...

    Hello! Only discovered Experience Project today... and this great group but haven't read anything yet as first want to get "rid" of my story. Thank you :o) ! I've only very recently decided that I didn't want to commit suicide, this also with the help of the Samaritans...
    Lin2009 Lin2009
    1 Response Dec 21, 2008

    I Will Not

    In the past I have attempted suicide and did I ever wanted to die!  I'm glad it didn't turned out as I am extremely happy being alive.  Life is precious!  I will die one day as we all will, I don't want die through suicide, I rather God take me instead.  I confess:  When I...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Jan 4, 2011

    I Just Can't

    I guess I don't want my life to be over as much as I just want it to get better. If I kill myself, there's no way that's going to happen. If I knew there was reincarnation or an afterlife or something, then maybe. But I don't know that. But if I'm so sure my life isn't going to...
    Trapt Trapt
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 19, 2008

    Been There/tried That

    It didn't work out so hot. I just ended up with a bum neck. Don't think I would try it again.
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    May 16, 2009

    No Thanks

    It's like you're just admitting you've given up and don't care anymore. Giving up is something you should never do, my Dad even says it's weak for not trying and fighitng. He may be right (wow, a possible first?) when he says that. It's true suicide is like quitting and quitting...
    Luangi Luangi
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2007

    Chosing Life

    I have many reasons I could use to sayto give me an out so I coulod leave this world. This world has been a hard andharsh and abusive painful world to me. I have tried by my own hands at least 4 times, probably more, but NEVER again. I wasn't meant to die, not yet. I am not...
    Rachel4now Rachel4now
    31-35, F
    Feb 4, 2008

    Not An Option

    The only thing i have not experienced is being murdered and it was attempted...that's another story! Someone told me the best revenge is living well ! I don't talk about alot of the specifics , because I have had alot of counseling and i am ok . I guess maybe i should though...
    redheadsrule redheadsrule
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Oct 23, 2007

    I Can't

    There are moments where I feel so immersed in pain and out of touch with the world around me and so close to the edge. When someone kills themselves, it's like they change the world. They abandon their own pain and fears and ripple it out to the people who believed in them and...
    paperalias paperalias
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2008

    No Way Osé

    I already have thought about it and suicide is not the solution.  Even though, stuff sucks, I'm still happy being alive.  My life is precious and I take the good times and the bad as well, no choice.  Life cannot always be like roses.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Aug 16, 2010

    I Will Myself to Live

    My reasons for living far out weigh my constant companion suicide, I have been dealing with all my life, he will not win.
    lovesrhinos lovesrhinos
    51-55, F
    Oct 16, 2008

    Ya...thats Not Going To Happen

    i don't care if i get HIV/AIDS, cancer, and MS, i'll fight death like darth vader, freddy krueger, and wolverine combined, to me suicide is not an option. I only have one life and i want to live it according to what i believe in, i hate hearing about people who killed them self...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 20, 2011

    Only One Chance

    it might be crap or waste of time but give it your best shot, you have nothing to lose, be adventurous not dead
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    Sep 20, 2008


    I get down sometimes just like everyone but I just do not see myself ending my own life. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    Jun 20, 2011


    No, I won't.  God knows when the time is to take me.  If he doesn't take me and I won't commit suicide, then it'll be an homicide. 
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Feb 18, 2011

    I've Been Saved Too Many Times For This to Be a Choice Anymore

    In my lifelong battle with depression, I've settled on suicide four times.  The earliest was in High School, when I was acting in a play.  I figured I'd see out the play and that would be it.  An ex-bf found me crying my eyes out and saved my life. Two years later...
    Wreckweum Wreckweum
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2008


    If I say it enough will I believe it. Deep down I know I want to be here and live but there is always that dark place that says I would be better off. When it comes I cry, fight and hope that it leaves and usually it does. It may seem to be here forever but it isn't. I have...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Oct 13, 2007


    Not because a book says it damns me...nope not that. I just couldn't and wouldn't want to leave this place at all. This world has so much beauty to offer...sure we've all seen the ugly side.....it's expected. Life won't be a perfect utopia...but far from it. It's meant to have it...
    ForeversNever ForeversNever
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Sep 13, 2008
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