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I Will Not Kill Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 287 People

    Too Much Fun

    I'm a lot like Carlin...I observe people. I could occupy myself just starring at a ******* wall...I'm so analytical. The people of this planet are my entertainment.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2013

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    I Refuse!

    I remember when i wanted to kill myself, it was about a year ago and i felt like i had no choise but to kill myself and end everything I got hospitalized, Got a therapist and i'm on meds. and life seems more manageable and way better..... I'm happy that i failed those times...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F Oct 4, 2008

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    A Little Strange, No?

    I think it is endlessly funny that I added this experience.  Adding to it's humor is the fact that for me, I think it really needed to be said.   I have thought about suicide a lot over recent years.  I think about it enough that it has truly alarmed me in the...
    MadRavrrrr MadRavrrrr 31-35, M Dec 7, 2008

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    My New Motto

    Don’t take life too seriously. No one gets out alive anyway. (At the end of the day, it is okay. It’s only in the darkness that we can see the stars.)
    alwaysaloneforever alwaysaloneforever 13-15 Mar 4, 2013

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    I tried to say this million times

    but I can't keep it anymore thanks for everyone who supported me god bless u all and Aaron if ur reading this I love u love u I love and thanks for being there for me Goodbye. ❤️
    brokenV brokenV 18-21 4 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    Not After C

    my best friend lost her twin sister this easter to suicide. she was bipolar, and had dispraxia, and her heart had just been broken. she was 18. she jumped.   i saw my best friend go from the most amazing girl you could know, so full of life and fun, to just this empty...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 8, 2008

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    I Cannot Do It Again

    I have overdosed twice within one year. The first time I was set on killing myself, the second time which happened about two weeks ago I knew I had made a mistake. I didn't want to die... I didn't want to leave the people I love behind. I know I can't hurt them like that and...
    Breseefeldt Breseefeldt 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    Here is a link to a Free Personal Development

    Audio Book - I hope you can gain something from it :-) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SWDiXN8nAx4&feature=youtu.be
    allanrufus allanrufus 36-40, M Jan 21, 2014

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    In the Words of Captain Brenner...

    Where there's life, there's hope! *Hope Never Dies begins to play*
    BoomSickle BoomSickle 18-21, M Mar 19, 2009

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    I Just Cant Do It.

    Its crossed my mind sooo many times, but I just cant do it. Sure, its really depressing sometimes, but its just 1 issue. Ive realised its not worth dying over. Theres so much potential so why waste it? Not to mention the grief I'll put on everyone that cares. I know how to, I...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M Jun 4, 2012

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    It's Kinda Creepy

    I've never been suicidal, never seriously thought about doing myself in, though I will admit those thoughts could grab someone. The other day I was driving along, and all of a sudden the thought 'I really need to kill myself'  wandered in.  I've had things like that happen...
    nanasixboys nanasixboys 56-60 Jul 3, 2012

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    I Don't Want Him To Enjoy

    I always keep thinking about it but i'll never die like this i don't want him to enjoy my death. I know i'll die today and he'll start drinking alcohol. Noway i will never do this favor for him. No matter how much he makes me feel like dying
    vedanshi vedanshi 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2012

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    I don't think I will now

    although I'm still thinking about it a lot. After reading that book on philosophy about death on the topic of 'suicide' it's changed my perspective on it. The author suggested the idea of different stages where life becomes worse for a person...with calculations life is like...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Nope, Nope, Nope....

     Nope.. I will not kill myself even if my life has gotten so low... Nope, nope nope... I'm better then that to kill myself. I have learned that it is the most selfish thing to do in the whole wide world. I did remember back when I did want to kill myself I didn't think it...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2008

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    I Won't Ever Try To Again

    We all have a time in our life where we consider suicide. Some it goes on for days, months, even years. Others it might just be a brief moment and that's it. Everyone has has some sort of struggle in thier life. However no matter how hard it is, always think to yourself. I might...
    Tara277 Tara277 26-30, F Oct 14, 2013

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    If I kill myself- I could go to a better place

    and be happier than I am now! I could leave all this crap- plus, it would be my own personal revenge to anyone that made my life hell but might miss me the tiniest bit. You know what- no! I always used to think this- it literally ran through my head as I was actually...
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    Suicide just isn't worth it.

    I myself have an awesome life that I am very thankful to have. People wonder what it's like to die, well remember what it was like 6 billion years ago? Exactly that. So ask yourself would you rather have nothing or something. I believe evolution and science and changing the...
    Pok3rking Pok3rking 22-25, M Mar 1, 2014

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    Not How It Ends

    If I were to do such a thing, I lose a lot and so do others, even if it doesn't feel like it. I won't know how my story is meant to end. My friends (even if it feels like I'm alone, they're still there) will miss me if I'm gone, as will my family. And my future wife (wherever she...
    KewlioMZX KewlioMZX 26-30, M May 10, 2012

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    The Master's Sacred Knowledge

    The Master’s Sacred Knowledge A key to your inner treasure! This is the story about a wise old Master who comes across a young man who was about to end his life by hanging himself to a large tree. The wise old Master asks the young man to spare him some of his time before...
    allanrufus allanrufus 36-40, M Dec 13, 2012

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    Funny Thoughts

     Ja....I was on the roof of our office block a year ago. As I looked down I thought: "Is this the moment when your cellphone rings and the right person calls to talk you out of it? Is this when someone on the street shouts at you not to do it? Is this...
    w0lf w0lf 46-50, M Jun 6, 2009

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    Staying Alive

    The last 18 months have been life changing. It was like death, and in a way I grieved the loss as if it WAS a death, but then again so many miracles happened....there must be a reason why I'm still here. I went from being a married mom of four, trapped in an abusive relationship...
    ancndrv ancndrv 41-45, F Aug 7, 2012

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    First of all I would never actually kill myself.

    The people who run this website seem like good folks to post that phone number if you are in a crisis or whatever. With that being said... im in a crisis but I would never take my life over it so that is not something I need. I am just going to sit here and complain about my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 20, 2014

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    Never

    life is hard cruel and painful too often but if we just take a moment n look around at the beaty that surrounds us.the birds in the trees the sun in the sky.a simple smile from a stranger.yes life is hard but it is also wonderful and amazing.i would never be so selfish as to take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9, 2010

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    No More Of This Crap..

    what have i spent? a week? two weeks? of feeling sorry for myself for all that happened to me then and during the past. i can't rely on my friends to just break their damn backs in helping me anymore, i have to help myself. and i will.  i will make some changes in my life..one...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    I'm too selfish for that

    if I wanna die someone's gonna do it for me. Suicide is the greatest sins I know it kind of a belief I can't ignore. Even if it's not true.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I Just Can't

    i think about it, i plan it in my head. I think about different ways to die, i just... can't go through with it... is it the fear? i think it is. i want to. im in my pain. i scream everyday in my head. i want to die, please just give me the strength to pull it through. i can;t. i...
    Thispsycho Thispsycho 16-17, F Jun 3, 2012

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    Never!

    I will not kill myself, just because there are people who's tormenting me with my daily life. Those people aren't worth it if I kill myself to those kind of people then I die for nothing. So yeah that's a stupid act of killing yourself----DIE FOR NOTHING....
    weirdgirl516 weirdgirl516 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 21, 2013

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    I Can't.

    It took me two failed attempts to realise that I was not meant to end my own life. Despite the reoccuring thoughts of death which plague me from time to time, I think I have been managing quite well. Almost seven months of being cut-free has been a strange and powerful experience...
    lntel lntel 22-25 2 Responses Apr 24, 2012

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    Not Myself ;-). Just

    why would I? I am well past that moronic stage of my life. Why should anyone or anything make me wanna die? I am not my problem with the world... They are. If anyone should die - it should be them. Even though my entire world has recently crumbled before my eyes... I still will...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Feb 8, 2014

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    Kill Yourself?

    Why should you kill yourself? To me its a stupid decision to make when your depressed. Even though I have problems to myself, I just be patient and try to solve it, the hard way. Yes suicide feels good. But by doing it you have no idea how it effects other people.- I read about a...
    JuzSimple JuzSimple 13-15, F Sep 14, 2012

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    I Won't.

    I will not. I will NOT. No matter how much I want to. No matter how much you tell me I want to. I'm not going to. I'm NOT going to. I won't do it. I won't listen to you any more. No. I'm not going to kill myself. I refuse. You have no power over me.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 9 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Easyworld...

    say it best in 'Saddest Song'.... "There is nothing serious enough to lose tomorrow" and there isnt. Nothing is so bad you should go. Things seem so bad you want to. So often I feel there isnt a choice. But there is. And things can be really ******* bad. But not bad...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Nov 8, 2008

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    Guess What

    I started to cut again. I feel like I letting everyone down.
    madhattergirl41 madhattergirl41 16-17, F Feb 1, 2013

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    Last night i had a dream that i kept trying to kill myself. people kept saving me thinking it was a accident. it was like they were completely unaware i was trying to kill myself.
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M Jan 23

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    i told my friend goodbye and basically told her i was going to kill myself. She got worried and told my dad. So my dad came to my moms house to pick me up to take me to his house...
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 18

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    It was a few months ago in August, the day before school started and I sat in my room, my dad's pistol in my hand right up to my temple ready to shoot. Several times I wanted to...
    americankittyg6 americankittyg6 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    i was 14, only had one friend at the time(he was an interent friend) he thought i lied to him and blocked me facebook.(the only way we talked) i went a little crazy, the last...
    andylovesyou23 andylovesyou23 13-15, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Then I say to my self the world would be a darker place because I will not be there to save it.
    Deuz Deuz 22-25, M Jan 12

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    I've thought about this a lot. I keep saying I'll wait until my sister graduates high school, but I may be able to work around that if need be. I've talked with my family about my...
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 13

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    ive been bullied and have daddy problems, this has led to my bottling my emotions to where my anger has consumed everything and all i need to the moment that i blow up haha and i...
    feelsgoodtocut feelsgoodtocut 18-21, M Jan 24

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    Why nothing feels funny anymore?...Why everything i do feels like a waste of time?...Why people look way more happy when i'm not around?....Why should i seek help? i wasted...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I was 17 and I had been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts for about 5 years. That morning I woke up next to my best friend and on the way home from dropping her off I...
    unrequitedlove99 unrequitedlove99 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    Anyone in my way i will cut you torture you and watch blood and guts spill out while you cry imma break your ***** penis snap the artery and bone the point is i will laugh while...
    CrazyUnStableGuy666 CrazyUnStableGuy666 22-25, M Jan 17

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    I'm back , haven't been on for awhile . I broke up with my boyfriend cause he was tryna make me someone I ain't . And I love myself so I won't let anyone change me
    Nadss1 Nadss1 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    maybe if i suicide, i wouldn't have to deal with all the unfair **** in my life. I have no hope left to go on.
    caactas caactas 16-17, T 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Why cant ny heart just stop working thats easier
    WarriorPoet97 WarriorPoet97 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I wonder why I stay. I only have one thing keeping me here. I have nothing else, someone please save me from my own destruction.
    lovelydisgrace lovelydisgrace 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 11

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    This is true. I attempted about a month ago, and I think it's my mother that keeps me from acting upon my thoughts. My girlfriend recently left me, I lost my father to drug abuse...
    allilynnx allilynnx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I was recently cheated on. my boyfriend is my best friend, we went to a bar here in town and i caught him looking at his ex, later he tried making small talk with her. when we left...
    Smileprettygirl13 Smileprettygirl13 18-21, F 91 Responses a week ago

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