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I Will Not Kill Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 254 People

    I Won't.

    I will not. I will NOT. No matter how much I want to. No matter how much you tell me I want to. I'm not going to. I'm NOT going to. I won't do it. I won't listen to you any more. No. I'm not going to kill myself. I refuse. You have no power over me.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 9 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Too Much Fun

    I'm a lot like Carlin...I observe people. I could occupy myself just starring at a ******* wall...I'm so analytical. The people of this planet are my entertainment.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2013

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    My New Motto

    Don’t take life too seriously. No one gets out alive anyway. (At the end of the day, it is okay. It’s only in the darkness that we can see the stars.)
    alwaysaloneforever alwaysaloneforever 13-15 Mar 4, 2013

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    I Don't Want Him To Enjoy

    I always keep thinking about it but i'll never die like this i don't want him to enjoy my death. I know i'll die today and he'll start drinking alcohol. Noway i will never do this favor for him. No matter how much he makes me feel like dying
    vedanshi vedanshi 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2012

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    I Just Can't

    i think about it, i plan it in my head. I think about different ways to die, i just... can't go through with it... is it the fear? i think it is. i want to. im in my pain. i scream everyday in my head. i want to die, please just give me the strength to pull it through. i can;t. i...
    Thispsycho Thispsycho 16-17, F Jun 3, 2012

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    Staying Alive

    The last 18 months have been life changing. It was like death, and in a way I grieved the loss as if it WAS a death, but then again so many miracles happened....there must be a reason why I'm still here. I went from being a married mom of four, trapped in an abusive relationship...
    ancndrv ancndrv 41-45, F Aug 7, 2012

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    I Refuse!

    I remember when i wanted to kill myself, it was about a year ago and i felt like i had no choise but to kill myself and end everything I got hospitalized, Got a therapist and i'm on meds. and life seems more manageable and way better..... I'm happy that i failed those times...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F Oct 4, 2008

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    Easyworld...

    say it best in 'Saddest Song'.... "There is nothing serious enough to lose tomorrow" and there isnt. Nothing is so bad you should go. Things seem so bad you want to. So often I feel there isnt a choice. But there is. And things can be really ******* bad. But not bad...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Nov 8, 2008

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    I Won't Ever Try To Again

    We all have a time in our life where we consider suicide. Some it goes on for days, months, even years. Others it might just be a brief moment and that's it. Everyone has has some sort of struggle in thier life. However no matter how hard it is, always think to yourself. I might...
    Tara277 Tara277 26-30, F Oct 14, 2013

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    I Just Cant Do It.

    Its crossed my mind sooo many times, but I just cant do it. Sure, its really depressing sometimes, but its just 1 issue. Ive realised its not worth dying over. Theres so much potential so why waste it? Not to mention the grief I'll put on everyone that cares. I know how to, I...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M Jun 4, 2012

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    If I kill myself- I could go to a better place

    and be happier than I am now! I could leave all this crap- plus, it would be my own personal revenge to anyone that made my life hell but might miss me the tiniest bit. You know what- no! I always used to think this- it literally ran through my head as I was actually...
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    The Master's Sacred Knowledge

    The Master’s Sacred Knowledge A key to your inner treasure! This is the story about a wise old Master who comes across a young man who was about to end his life by hanging himself to a large tree. The wise old Master asks the young man to spare him some of his time before...
    allanrufus allanrufus 36-40, M Dec 13, 2012

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    I Can't.

    It took me two failed attempts to realise that I was not meant to end my own life. Despite the reoccuring thoughts of death which plague me from time to time, I think I have been managing quite well. Almost seven months of being cut-free has been a strange and powerful experience...
    lntel lntel 18-21 2 Responses Apr 24, 2012

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    Nope, Nope, Nope....

     Nope.. I will not kill myself even if my life has gotten so low... Nope, nope nope... I'm better then that to kill myself. I have learned that it is the most selfish thing to do in the whole wide world. I did remember back when I did want to kill myself I didn't think it...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2008

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    Not How It Ends

    If I were to do such a thing, I lose a lot and so do others, even if it doesn't feel like it. I won't know how my story is meant to end. My friends (even if it feels like I'm alone, they're still there) will miss me if I'm gone, as will my family. And my future wife (wherever she...
    KewlioMZX KewlioMZX 26-30, M May 10, 2012

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    Never!

    I will not kill myself, just because there are people who's tormenting me with my daily life. Those people aren't worth it if I kill myself to those kind of people then I die for nothing. So yeah that's a stupid act of killing yourself----DIE FOR NOTHING....
    weirdgirl516 weirdgirl516 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 21, 2013

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    I tried to say this million times

    but I can't keep it anymore thanks for everyone who supported me god bless u all and Aaron if ur reading this I love u love u I love and thanks for being there for me Goodbye. ❤️
    brokenV brokenV 18-21 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Funny Thoughts

     Ja....I was on the roof of our office block a year ago. As I looked down I thought: "Is this the moment when your cellphone rings and the right person calls to talk you out of it? Is this when someone on the street shouts at you not to do it? Is this...
    w0lf w0lf 46-50, M Jun 6, 2009

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    No More Of This Crap..

    what have i spent? a week? two weeks? of feeling sorry for myself for all that happened to me then and during the past. i can't rely on my friends to just break their damn backs in helping me anymore, i have to help myself. and i will.  i will make some changes in my life..one...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    Not After C

    my best friend lost her twin sister this easter to suicide. she was bipolar, and had dispraxia, and her heart had just been broken. she was 18. she jumped.   i saw my best friend go from the most amazing girl you could know, so full of life and fun, to just this empty...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 8, 2008

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    I Cannot Do It Again

    I have overdosed twice within one year. The first time I was set on killing myself, the second time which happened about two weeks ago I knew I had made a mistake. I didn't want to die... I didn't want to leave the people I love behind. I know I can't hurt them like that and...
    Breseefeldt Breseefeldt 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    allanrufus allanrufus 36-40, M Jan 21

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    Never

    life is hard cruel and painful too often but if we just take a moment n look around at the beaty that surrounds us.the birds in the trees the sun in the sky.a simple smile from a stranger.yes life is hard but it is also wonderful and amazing.i would never be so selfish as to take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9, 2010

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    Kill Yourself?

    Why should you kill yourself? To me its a stupid decision to make when your depressed. Even though I have problems to myself, I just be patient and try to solve it, the hard way. Yes suicide feels good. But by doing it you have no idea how it effects other people.- I read about a...
    JuzSimple JuzSimple 13-15, F Sep 14, 2012

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    In the Words of Captain Brenner...

    Where there's life, there's hope! *Hope Never Dies begins to play*
    BoomSickle BoomSickle 18-21, M Mar 19, 2009

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    I'm too selfish for that

    if I wanna die someone's gonna do it for me. Suicide is the greatest sins I know it kind of a belief I can't ignore. Even if it's not true.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    Suicide just isn't worth it.

    I myself have an awesome life that I am very thankful to have. People wonder what it's like to die, well remember what it was like 6 billion years ago? Exactly that. So ask yourself would you rather have nothing or something. I believe evolution and science and changing the...
    Pok3rking Pok3rking 22-25, M Mar 1

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    It's Kinda Creepy

    I've never been suicidal, never seriously thought about doing myself in, though I will admit those thoughts could grab someone. The other day I was driving along, and all of a sudden the thought 'I really need to kill myself'  wandered in.  I've had things like that happen...
    nanasixboys nanasixboys 56-60 Jul 3, 2012

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    Not Myself ;-). Just

    why would I? I am well past that moronic stage of my life. Why should anyone or anything make me wanna die? I am not my problem with the world... They are. If anyone should die - it should be them. Even though my entire world has recently crumbled before my eyes... I still will...
    Lullacus Lullacus 18-21, F Feb 8

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    A Little Strange, No?

    I think it is endlessly funny that I added this experience.  Adding to it's humor is the fact that for me, I think it really needed to be said.   I have thought about suicide a lot over recent years.  I think about it enough that it has truly alarmed me in the...
    MadRavrrrr MadRavrrrr 31-35, M Dec 7, 2008

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    Guess What

    I started to cut again. I feel like I letting everyone down.
    madhattergirl41 madhattergirl41 16-17, F Feb 1, 2013

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    First of all I would never actually kill myself.

    The people who run this website seem like good folks to post that phone number if you are in a crisis or whatever. With that being said... im in a crisis but I would never take my life over it so that is not something I need. I am just going to sit here and complain about my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 20

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    I watched a movie about something like this. The whole premise of it is that the kid says on camera that he is going to kill himself and gets the reactions from his parents and...
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    Couldn't do it because my mom came just in time, I was in the process of drowning myself and then I hear my mom knocking on the bathroom door. I live with roommates so I was...
    TheVirginRapids TheVirginRapids 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I'm so sad. I'm so scared. I'm so ******* lonely. what's the point. I wish I had actually died when tried that time, you wouldn't believe how much I hate myself. help.
    Rubyrooo Rubyrooo 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I constantly think about this.. I've been so close to this point but I stopped myself every time. I always think as to how it would impact others if I wasn't here. I just don't...
    Dcerv Dcerv 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    It's not my fault, you know. None of it is. I was born this way, most of you were born a very different way. And that's okay. Just let me be myself, and we'll get along just fine...
    TragicMonkey TragicMonkey 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    I will not go into the medical field I'm sorry it's not for me yet family members keep pushing me into that direction. On another note how will we know which people in our lives...
    CountCrackula CountCrackula 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Any woman who step's into my life will have to except me for me!!!!!!!!!
    fifteenyearslost fifteenyearslost 36-40, M Jul 12

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    I can’t stop thinking about suicide it literally consumes every ounce of my being and I can’t stop thinking about all the ways to do it and all the relief i’ll feel and the...
    Aliceasdfghjkl Aliceasdfghjkl 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Omg yes I'm done,this 1 experience sums me up completely
    greatinbedchick greatinbedchick 16-17, F Jul 8

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    I think everyone would be better off without me
    Thatonegirl100 Thatonegirl100 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am in love with 2 men! My husband of 6 years and an ex from 2008! I feel so **** as me and my husband have broken up as I've admitted I still have feelings for my ex but he is in...
    FionaP22 FionaP22 22-25 2 days ago

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    People need to make the most of what they have and quit complaining about what they don't have.
    arabella1108 arabella1108 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    I can't change ever to make anyone like me or do feel comfortable talking with me...i can say that being who i am made others take a lot of advantage of me...but i love helping...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    I am who I am and if you don't like it.. move on please. Thanks! :)
    noingudo2 noingudo2 41-45 Jul 2

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    I hate how people judge u without knowing who u really are they think u have to be perfect in every aspect to be accepted in society
    sharmake sharmake 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 4

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