I Will Not Let My Past Define Me

A group for all those who choose to look into the future even when it gets hard 54 People

    This Will Be The Most Personal Story I Share Here - Intro

    And it will surely take a long time to complete. But as I write it, I want to work on letting go. My life has gathered many beautiful things inside it, but it has also gathered a lot of pain and suffering. And I have held on to it too long.I make a pact with myself from this...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    Sep 25, 2012

    You Can't Teach An Old Dog New Tricks

    Or so they say... I know my age says I am not old, but in some ways I am ancient.I was brought up in a strange and tense environment. I was an unwanted child, just because I was born a girl. It's true, mom's reasons were so much more different from the ones he had (I will refer...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    Sep 27, 2012

    Immense Capacity

    I have discovered I have an immense capacity for love. I am like a neverending fountain (as corky as that sounds). What I hadn't realized is that I did not share it with the people who need it and deserve it.I love my mom, but for the past two or so years I had been pulling away...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    Jul 3, 2013

    My past is dark, cold,

    cruel, un-human as it could possibly could get, at the hands of people called family, their acts of selfishness, abuse and thoughtless ignorance.... once upon a time they stole everything from me, to force me to their ways....stole my innocence, stole my dignity, stole my...
    DarkThornedLilyRose43 DarkThornedLilyRose43
    46-50, F
    Feb 12, 2014

    Letter To My 1 Year Old Self

    Hi there little one! I know you don't know me, but I remember you. I have kept you locked inside my lungs for years. I have felt your panic over and over, sometimes without even knowing it's yours. I know what it feels like, I know it hurts. I know how confusing it gets and how...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2013

    Religion

    I recently read a story here that stirred a lot of things from my past. I have led a long battle with religion and religious people. I have nothing against religious people as long as they don't try to shove it down my throat. Especially with lines like "you will go to Hell if...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 30, 2013

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