I Will Not Let Myself Be Used and Manipulated Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 407 People

    It Drove Me Crazy

    i thought everything was my fault and there was something wrong with me. i became depressed. i want to be strong now, i am trying my best everyday to not be used and manipulated anymore. its hard but i have to keep pushing
    somegirl117 somegirl117
    18-21
    Nov 3, 2013

    A friend and his wife

    and kids are moving out of their house today. He sent a group text to a bunch of his friends last Friday to see who could help with the move. I felt obligated to be a strong support because... I'm not sure why. I've always tried to be a go-to man for him. But given the way...
    DeGustibus DeGustibus
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 31, 2015

    Others took advantage of me

    and conned me into making a fool of myself, including internet trolls and certain people who I won't mention. I will not let them get in my way, I will not allow myself to be manipulated by people like that.
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13
    22-25, M
    Mar 13, 2014
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    Mar 29, 2015

    Used

    I will quit paying for anything on a date.  Let someone take care of me for a change. 
    MISTRESSROXY MISTRESSROXY
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2009

    It's Nice to Admit This

    Sometimes, OK, MOST of the time, I go with the flow.  I don't rock the boat - it's easier that way. Now - I'm ready to be myself.  Actually, I have been for awhile now - this is such an old experience I'm just updating it now : )    So - no...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 9, 2009

    Annoying sales tactic,

    start with complimenting a part on your car, for example your front brakes look great, then move to your back brakes need some work....we need to do this this and this and your looking at $529 for back brakes. Thieves, and like most sales people they talk to you in a nice tone...
    Wbyogimaso Wbyogimaso
    26-30, M
    Mar 29, 2015

    I was told by a friend that

    since my previous relationship was such **** I should blog about it.... Not only to get these horrible memories out of my head but also because of knowledge I have gained from it..... If that's what you want to call it "knowledge" Now I can go on and on forever about this guy...
    Pink3789 Pink3789
    26-30, F
    Dec 3, 2013

    Was It My Fault ?

    i once was treated so badly i wish i could have seen it then so badly but what can ya do ? it would mainputale me to make thing everthing was my fault.But it was never my fault he just lied to ay whatever he could to get me me where he wanted me . i wish i could turn back time...
    Tawny26 Tawny26
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2011

    My Need For Love And Approval Makes It Easy For Others To Use Me.

     My need for approval gives way for others to take advantage of me.  I put up with a lot just to continue a relationship.  My goal is to not let others manipulate me any longer.
    lagatta lagatta
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Sep 3, 2010

    Never Again

    I allowed myself to be used for many things.  For too long, I thought it was what was required of me.  I found that as long as I allowed myself to be manipulated into doing for others, I thought I was happy.  It was when I finally realized that I had needs that...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 11, 2008

    Doneso.

    i refuse to let this happen anymore. doesnt matter if youre a friend family or lover. i'm done. you're cut. i hope youre hurt as much as youve hurt me. over and over and over again.   might be harsh. but it's what i need to do. thanks.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 3, 2009

    Thinking and acting like nothing affected me

    worked good in the beginning when I was a kid it was my way to deflect the pain caused by others while also letting them know that I wasn't affected by them. Fast forward a few years and that morphed into me denying how I truly felt. Because I had practiced that behavior so many...
    Wbyogimaso Wbyogimaso
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 13, 2015

    I Need to Say This and Believe It

    Each day - I am really at my wits end. I have went back to my lawyer and I am trying to get the harassment to stop, and the fighting.  I need to have hims stay away.  I know the court is expediting this, but how long does THAT take?? ...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jan 9, 2009

    Anxiety Causes Others to Take Advantage of You

    For the longest time (I am over forty years old and so by long I mean my whole life), people have taken advatange of me over and over again, because I always gave people the benefit of the doubt and thought it was my anxiety that was the causing the problem.  I guess...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Jan 10, 2009

    I Think I Was Messed Around And Used

    She got in touch with me at first. We started texting again after months of almost no contact. I'd always really liked her. We met up a few times, we went out clubbing together, we went on a date. We kissed. She would call me and would always answer my calls, we'd text all the...
    chewyconor chewyconor
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 6, 2012

    Not No Mo

    lol hahaha yea not anymore I been told I was a dumb b---- that I always let myself be used and maybe I did but not anymore and im especially not going to let myself abuse and maniplulate myself too if that makes sense to you
    PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD PRETTYGIRLHATESTHEWORLD
    18-21, F
    Dec 20, 2010

    I'm not a robot or a slave.

    If you don't like me or accept me for who I am then screw you!
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64
    16-17, M
    1 Response May 3, 2015

    Ha Ha Ha

    Okay Chron...lots of luck with that buddy, LMFAO!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 7, 2011

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