I Will Put On a Smile, and Act Like I Am Fine

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    Its Natural

    i put on a smile even when i am very very NOT fine. but that's just me. i smile all the time. when i talk to ppl i just have a smile on my face. even when i text i add in lots of smiley faces. even when i have hardships going on im my life, u can never tell it from my face. i am...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2011

    Almost Everyday Now

    I have been unhappy and depressed the past couple of weeks. When i am at work i feel maybe people can see how sad i am cause sometimes i get lost in my thoughts but as soon as i am talking to someone or they ask me how im doing the fake smile comes on and i act like everything id...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

    Sick Of Pretending!

    I smile and pretend all the time but I still feel numb no matter what! I think all I need is for  someone to ask me if im okay and mean it. I live by a moto and that moto is "Im going to smile like nothings wrong talk like everythings perfect act like its all a dream...
    princessemogirl55 princessemogirl55
    2 Responses Dec 21, 2009


    I do this so much it's rediculous...... I can go through a bad homeday with the cops coming and everything, and then I can go to school or hang out with my friends and they would never know unless I told them... I pretend to be happy all the time, It's jsut so much that I'm not...
    alexeprincess alexeprincess
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 3, 2011


    In almost any other area, I am scrupulously honest.  I may be a bit evasive if I don't wish the truth known...but what I say will be the truth.Except on questions of  "How are you?"My standards for "normal" inside my head are...not quite the same as the rest of the world.  So...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    Mar 12, 2011


    i act like im fine sometimes but i never am. there is no one that understands me all people do is judge me when i tell them something so i feel that it is better to pretend that i am fine instead of having people judge me
    ladonna14 ladonna14
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2010

    Sometimes You Have to

    What good will it do me if I let people know exactly how miserable I am? So then I can feel guilty because they feel bad for me? Because they pity me? Hell no! I put on my "happy face" and go through the motions...every day...
    purpleriz purpleriz
    46-50, F
    Aug 8, 2009

    Try Hard

     Every day when I see my friends and they say hi I just smile. When my friend was in the hospital I just smiled. When my dog died I just smiled. I try hard but sometimes you just dont want to smile. My fake smiles always fool them.
    LuckyCLuckyS LuckyCLuckyS
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2009

    That Is Me :)

    cuz i don't want the pitty or anyone worrying, no point ruining ppls day by bein moody lol :)
    deleted deleted
    Mar 10, 2011


    usually when people ask if i'm ok i'll say i'm fine, when really, i feel like i want to die or something. i don't like people seeing my emotions closely exspecially the depressing ones. if i ever shar what i really feel with people i feel like i'm sucking their energy away or...
    gothicromantic gothicromantic
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 7, 2009

    Comfortably Numb

    now this is justtttttttttttt my type of group, I feel exactly like this all the time, very pleased to meet you all xxx
    bertbill bertbill
    36-40, F
    May 29, 2010

    Make People's Day

    There are those days when I feel like punching through tree walls or when I feel so blah and people around me are as chipper as they wanna be. I put on a fake smile just so I won't bother anybody with my bull, and I get on with my life. Other times I could be with someone who is...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Sep 20, 2009


    everyone says it hurts them to see me upset...well im sorry it upsets u but its not that great for me either...but if itll make ya feel batter  ill slap on my smile and carry on...but im glad u feel better....
    ava12982 ava12982
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2009


    today i saw my boyfriend kissing another girl. i try to smile and act ok in front of my friends but its hard. i act like im fine all the time but i never really am its hard to be a happy and smiling all the time so i only smile when people are watching.
    ladonna14 ladonna14
    13-15, F
    Mar 4, 2011
    ameliaandmore ameliaandmore
    18-21, F
    Jan 14, 2014

    I Will

    I will deceive you. I will lie. And I will hide all that I feel. Sometimes, life is just easier this way.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2010

    Most Of The Time I Do

    Everysince I was real young I have always known if I dont want people worrying I best smile even if all I really wanted to do is cry.Now people who know me know  what Im doing because I can be argueing and will have a smile on my face when you can clearly tell by my voice...
    littleboyblu162010 littleboyblu162010
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Aug 19, 2010

    I always act like I'm okay

    even if I'm not. I have no friends, a reason to live or any real family. I honestly contemplate ending my life everyday day. Those who know about how I feel just don't care. At school I act confident, happy and okay but I'm not. Sometimes I just ask myself why was I eve...
    FightingForRecovery FightingForRecovery
    18-21, F
    Dec 10, 2013

    When you read my words out loud Make me sound

    genius Make me sound special
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601
    13-15, F
    Dec 26, 2014

    I Just Did This Now.

    Yesterday i found out that the friend i thought was going to die woke up from his a coma 2 days ago. he has been in a coma since july 29th when he tried to overdose then he drank alot of alcohol. when he woke up from his a coma he didnt remember anyone or anything. he didnt even...
    LBB16sSunshine LBB16sSunshine
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2009

    From A Song...but Just About Sums It Up

    hello, im the lie living for you so you can hide..... dont cry
    ava12982 ava12982
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2009

    I feel like I have no right to burden others

    with my feelings. They're busy people with more important things to do then deal with me being pathetic.
    lillolipop lillolipop
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2014


    walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in place. she sees a friend and waves. wearing a smile on her perfect face friendly, smart, beautiful. everyone adores this girl.. seemingly content head in a while and inside she's unhappy and she doesn’t know...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 4, 2010
    sonicthefathog11 sonicthefathog11
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    I act happy and goofy.

    but inside I'm one emotional and pissed off person.
    drpepper1990 drpepper1990
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 27, 2014

    But Trully Im Not

    Dont get me started everyone asks the same thing are you all right ? , Well I want them to cut it out there to overprotective im fine ( not really ). I put a smile on my face like theres no worrys i dont speak , just smile . For a few seconds till they leave I sigh . Its a habit...
    harboraqua harboraqua
    13-15, F
    Aug 20, 2010

    Nearly Every Single Day

    I think the title says it all
    grapes305 grapes305
    13-15, F
    Oct 1, 2010

    It's All I Can Do.....

    What's the alternative? It would only be to bury myself under the duvet and sob. I can't do that. I have a job to get to, money to make but sometimes I would be lying if I said that I wished I could just let myself go off the rails. And sometimes that has been a tempting thought...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 14, 2012

    Smile A Little Smile

    I still smile the minute I reach the office.. Thats the only 8 hours a day that I put on a smile...be it sad or happy.
    Eternal Eternal
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2010

    The Way That It Works.

    When my life is in ruins, I don't let anyone know, I just smile at everything I see. No one really knows me for who I am. No one is immune to the mask that I wear.
    meandthewall meandthewall
    13-15, F
    1 Response Aug 13, 2009

    Im Not So Sure....

    I mean i'm terribly depressed and i feel terrible about myself quite frequently, but i never consiously try to decieve people about it. But then i guess i must do, otherwise why would no one have noticed?
    wardy131 wardy131
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2009

    It's Just How I Am

    I am just the type of person to grin and bare it. I've just gotten so used to pretending that everything is fine when it's not. Only two people know when it's a lie, and only one person knows 100 percent of the time.
    sabergirl08 sabergirl08
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2009

    I Always Do

    I always put on a smile, and act like I am fine. It is something that I am known very well for. Never showing my pain, or my sadness. So here is my Smile :) Now go away, because clearly you don't want to know!
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 7, 2009

    Who I Really Am

    i don't know why but anytime i go to town with my mum i always feel sad and depressed at the end of the day but to be honest i try i really do try to be happy with her. but it's like 2 people that are presured to go out but don't like each other. the thing is it really hurt when...
    kemilola kemilola
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2012

    It Is Getting Harder to Pretend

    I am having a hard time pretending nothing is wrong.  I've been doing it for so long, I think I'm worn out.
    stumbleine stumbleine
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 8, 2009

    Spared Feelings

    Everyday...people look at me like something is wrong with me, like I have the Black Death and they could catch it...but i know they want to help me...i just cant bring myself to open up to them no matter how hard I try... ...I feel that they are doing everything to help me and I...
    ConLocura ConLocura
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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