At my worst, I'm a 0 or a minus number. That's half of the time.
In an average mood, a one or a two.
At my best, a four or a five.
You know what sucks though?
Some of you will not believe this, but I actually used to have high self-esteem. A ten. Heck, maybe an eleven.
I used to have good self esteem. I was always relatively confident in myself. But ever since the man I loved took off on me my self esteem has hit an all time low. My 8 is now a 3. And that's on a good day. A bad day I feel completely worthless....a big round 0.
If I WANT to talk (means I open my mouth because I feel like doing it -only happens on very good days-): my self esteem is about 9/10.
If I DON'T want to talk but do it anyway it's about 5/10
If I DON'T want to talk but someone forces me to it's about 1/10.
99.8092988217302187 % of the time im a ten! because i dnt have a problem getting my inbox full i dnt have a problem getting a date even tho im married if i wanted to (which i dnt) i could cheat very easy guys get easily sprung not a problem and with that and my "friends" and...