I Will Smile Even Though It Hurts to

For anyone who wants to break free of the depression their facing! 2,057 People

    He's Not Going to Win This Time!

    It's so easy to say it hurts and get depressed! It's all so easy to smile and try... CHOICE! We all have it... You can choose to sit there and be consumed by your problem or you can fight it with me... It won't be solved or vanish over night, but with endurance and belief, it...
    LadySoulist LadySoulist
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 27, 2007

    I smile to keep people from knowing how sad I

    am. I don't like others to perceive me as weak so I put my big girl face on and I walk through the world with my head held high. But behind that smile is chaos. I'm losing control of everything but my smile. My smile is the closet that keeps all of my secrets inside. Secrets of...
    NeeverForget NeeverForget
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 21, 2014

    I Will Smile Even Though It Hurts To

    Hi I'm 25 years old I been feeling depressed often.i keep pretending to be happy.with fake smiles and fake laughs.i feel like i could just break down suddenly sometimes.when i remember my child hood,my life is in a big mess.i missed school cause of kids bulling me around at...
    revb revb
    1 Response Oct 7, 2010

    I have severe depression.

    They've considered putting me in a mental hospital more than once. Depression is the worst thing a person can feel. Especially when you can't figure out why you're depressed. Depression makes everything seem darker. So your past and future seem to have always been that dark. I...
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    4 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    I hide my depression from everyone.

    I'm sick of faking a smile, But I don't like crying in front of people. It feels as if everyone looks at me like I'm a freak. And I can't help but feel the same way... I can't look in the mirror without seeing my monsters... The monsters on my arms, and the monsters in my...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2014

    I'M The Peppy One

    In my little cliché, if you will, I'm the peppy one. The funny one. The one who makes everyone laugh. The one who's always smiling. And I love making people feel better, but I can never improve my own feelings. And some days I don't want to smile anymore, not ever.
    ZoeAttack ZoeAttack
    18-21, F
    May 21, 2013


    sometimes i consider myself a fake. Im always smilling on the outside even if im crying on the inside. I make everyone else feel better I try to cheer everyone up but sometimes i get tired of pretending, tired of faking a smile for everyone else. sometimes i wish everyone would...
    julia98 julia98
    18-21, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    After being told on Wednesday

    that the doctors will no longer help my son because of possibilities that he might not live very long any way. It take emotional strength, inner courage to not receive what has been said to me. My doubts and fears have left me to an extent. Naturally I don't want to smile but I...
    PowerfulWomanSS PowerfulWomanSS
    22-25, F
    Mar 29, 2014

    Really I'm Moody

    I pretend to be in a good mood all day long.  I pretend at work, when I'm running errands, and most recently when I'm at home.  I tend to feel lonely and isolated a majority of the time, so when I am alone, I can really allow myself to wallow in it for a while so I can...
    QueenD QueenD
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 30, 2008

    It stings as I sit down in the warm water.

    I feel my leg scared to look down at my weakness from last night. I remember it all so clearly. "I need to feel pain," he said. I nodded. "Me too." I dug the shiny blade out of the razor and handed it to him. I shuddered as his hand touched mine. I was starting to feel oddly...
    thatrosegirl thatrosegirl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 10, 2015

    Depression Can't people see it in my eyes

    Can't people hear it in my tone of voice Can't people tell it from my body position I guess not all people see through your smile I guess not all people hear your screams for help I guess not all people can tell what you are going through
    sealare sealare
    16-17, F
    May 25, 2014

    I have a great life,

    so why am I so depressed?
    FrustratedDaywalker FrustratedDaywalker
    36-40, F
    Jan 1, 2014

    There's No Right Moment, Right Place, Or Right Way In Breaking Up... *geez

    Bottom line... Both parties get hurt. There's always pain. Had a great talk with a former colleague..Thank you my friend for a very hearty conversation. I miss your company. ;D Then, it made me realize that pain will always be around.. ;D Awareness level, perfect 10! In any...
    PsychjiLL PsychjiLL
    1 Response Nov 25, 2011

    Happy On The Outside...

    I wish I weren’t me today. Not because I don’t like myself or have self esteem issues, but because I am suffering from a broken heart. Yesterday was bad, today is miserable. I started out alright. Got up and headed out to do what I needed to get done. I had to drive for over...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 9, 2012

    Ugh! I just don't understand!

    Today is the boyfriend's Birthday. I tried to make plans of which- at first, he went along with. Then things went downhill when he didn't want to do anything. So, that's what we did. Nothing. I get home just to check my phone and recieve a message from him saying he's on his way...
    theemarjoriee theemarjoriee
    18-21, F
    Aug 8, 2015

    A pile of letters, all sealed with a kiss.

    A boy in the bathroom, slitting his wrist. A girl in the closet, a gun to her head. A boy on the bridge, one jump and he is dead. A girl in a bathtub, holding her breath. They were all happy children, awaiting their death.
    DeathWonders DeathWonders
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015

    It's kinda wierd today,

    as it's my birthday, everyone is smiling at me, expecting to get one back as they usually do. But i cant really smile back at them, i am not happy... I sit there on my own birthday empty, unable to smile, on the edge of breaking when everyone is laughing. It's especially hard...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2015

    Attachment Issues

    I hate getting attached to people. That's why I put up walls surrounding myself because I always end up getting hurt in the end. Like I can smile all day in your face when really I'm crying my eyes out on the inside.
    HazelEyedWolf HazelEyedWolf
    18-21, F
    Nov 18, 2013

    Smiling leads people to wonder what you are

    thinking yet no one ever seems to think that maybe just maybe that person is hiding something bigger than what they should be hiding.
    Kelloggz90 Kelloggz90
    22-25, F
    Feb 4, 2014

    It's not possible for someone to be happy all

    the time but you can always fake a smile for the people around you :)
    aylinerz aylinerz
    18-21, F
    Nov 15, 2014

    It's Okay Really....

    I'll hide my hurt behind a smile because to cause you any more discomfort is beyond my capability. I don't want you to be sad, feel badly, for you can't help the way you feel. So please, say your words of friendship, tell me it's you not me... We both know you're lying, that for...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 23, 2009

    Pretty girls cry.. I hate it honestly.

    Why can't I just be happy all the time.
    slutfactory slutfactory
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    I Have to Smile Because Im Not Allowed to Frown

    If im upset i still have to b "happy" and smile cuz i feel as if im not allowed to b sad. My friend always use to tell me if i was sad i was seeking attention so ive trained myself to b happy all the time. I really just wanna to b happy when im happy and sad when i sad...
    DeMiDeMiSe DeMiDeMiSe
    16-17, F
    May 31, 2008

    So I ve been going thru a situation with a

    relative. She is the type of person that would point fingers , judge and say really cruel things about a individual she will use what ever she can against the person to hurt them! Even things that the other person is really passionate about... She will use past experience...
    XoxoJLN XoxoJLN
    26-30, F
    Aug 16, 2015

    Banish Blue Moods Fast

    FAKE IT TO MAKE IT Acting happy - say, by forcing a laugh - causes chemical changes in the brain that studies show trigger true happiness.  Further research suggests that just faking a smile increases levels of the happiness hormone serotonin. REVERSE A BAD MOOD WITH A...
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Nov 5, 2010

    I find it sep much easier to hide behind a smile

    than try to explain why I am crying...
    hieverybodyitisme hieverybodyitisme
    18-21, F
    Oct 13, 2015

    I force a smile swallow my tears I walk the

    halls with confidence and pretend I have no fears I hide a clenched fist under my shirt sleave and brush off anything that annoys me I lock up all my feelings inside to ensure know one will see me cry but it's hard to live a lie sometimes I sit and ponder why? Because. because...
    FelineLover311 FelineLover311
    18-21, F
    Feb 9

    in light of a recent conversation with someone

    who asked me to define depression I realized that I am incredibly strong in my weakness, because I'll still smile even though my feelings are not to be celebrated. I smile despite the fact that I... - Feel like my life is off, and things are wrong. - Don’t feel any joy in...
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    1 Response Nov 28, 2013

    I want to shoe how sad I am I am tired of

    putting on a smile just for show. But I've let people see before and all I hear is... She's just doing it for attention and stuff like that. I can't help the pain I feel. I miss my blade But I also miss being happy I'm confused in life and everything's falling apart. I feel like...
    alexis2425 alexis2425
    16-17, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    I don't know how much more I can take.

    It hurts but I have too.It's not like anyone cares anyway... even though I wish someone did. It hurts...you know....it just hurts. The tears are in my eyes but I smile. The hurt intensifies but I smile. My face BURNS WITH PAIN....yet I smile.
    leadmenot leadmenot
    18-21, F
    Nov 5, 2014

    I go to school and smile

    even when I'm down so that I won't bother the people around me.
    WearyBeautyLeah WearyBeautyLeah
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    I will never ever speak to you about my

    problems I'm a dumbass you have to literally ask me deeply about how I feel I don't just open up to anyone that's why I just smile ..
    xotilweoverdose xotilweoverdose
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

    You ever have that desire to tell someone they

    are with the wrong person but get scared because you could lose them well that's me right now and anytime she says her name and I don't want to lose her so I keep it to myself.
    PixiePrincess18 PixiePrincess18
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    I don't belong in this world,

    no lie. I am 17 & for too long now I have pretended I'm okay, well I'm not. Sick to death of my Mum, me and her have never gotten along we argue and neither of us ever back down so it's going no where. Now I'd be lying to say I haven't done stuff wrong. But I have done nothing...
    Maddie1O1 Maddie1O1
    18-21, F
    Aug 27, 2014
    deleted deleted
    Aug 27, 2014

    Last night, my best friend

    and I went on a date with this two dorky, but extremely cute guys. My date just so happened to be my ex boyfriend of two years. We had a good night for the most part, but the night wasn't supposed to finish; we were all supposed to spend the night at someone's house. When better...
    Ordinarygirl1213 Ordinarygirl1213
    18-21, F
    Oct 11, 2015

    Hidden Tears

    I have to smile, I can't let them see, they are my babies and did nothing to me I hide all the pain, the hurt and the tears, I don't want them seeing my worries and fears They need to be children, laugh, love and live, be happy and smile and learn to forgive For the...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2007

    Even though I laugh and smile at school

    and the funniest one there I will hold in my hurt. Then once in a while I will have depression for like a week or 2. I don't know why I have depression is sucks.
    favelalexis123 favelalexis123
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 6, 2014
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