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I Wish I Could Be Me

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    I Contain Multitudes

    i remember telling my mom when i was really young, in second grade, maybe, that i "played different with different kids." i was upset and confused by it, but my mom seemed to think it was a very wise statement. and on one hand, i think it is a good thing. it is not so...
    Fahrenheit Fahrenheit 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    I Am But What Other Want To See.

    I have had to wear my mask twice in my life. It is the same hollow mask of shame of how is left with in me. I felt forced to hide myself at a very young age of six. Close off the emotion that be for all to see. There was nothing any one would have like to allow some one like me...
    solarregeneration solarregeneration 41-45, T Jul 23, 2010

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    I Wish I Was A Rock...

    I try so hard to conform to everyones expectations, family, friends, and coworkers.  I try to be so gentle when revealing who I am but to be different frightens people.  Everyone will say it is cool to be different, but in reality everyone is afraid to take off their masks...
    BlueCedarTree BlueCedarTree 46-50 4 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Don't Get This One - I Am ...

    Don't get this one - I am me!?!
    thatweirdromanguy thatweirdromanguy 46-50, M Feb 14, 2007

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    I feel I am more myself right ...

    I feel I am more myself right now then at any other point in my life. I am slowly coming out, and telling people how I really feel rather then hiding.    I am also starting to deal with other problems I am faced with like Anxiety, panik and depression.
    chateone chateone 19-21, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2007

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    Just Once

    i wish that just once i could be myself with my friends my parents...with everybody! when im with my friends what i do just seems to weird,with parents im very morbid and listen to music like marilyn manson and joke about being killed and other stuff like that but when im with...
    XscreamingXinsideX XscreamingXinsideX 13-15, F Jul 17, 2009

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    My Colorful Masks

    About two and a half years ago I found someone. A few days over two years ago I started dating this someone. Not just someone, an angel. A beautiful wonderful soul. She helped me throw the masks away. So many colors. So many personalities. So many friendships were lost when...
    Anndei Anndei 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2009

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    Me???

    sometimes when im with different people no matter with who. I act and feel like i have to be someone that they think i am i can never realy just be me. my family judges me cuz they think i dress like a guy (t-shirts and jeans most of the time), but i just think it feels more...
    ilovehateu ilovehateu 16-18, F Oct 17, 2007

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    I Am Except For Being Around 3

    I am  myself  around everyone else but these three... they are also the three that frightens me the most ....my Mother ...my wife and my daughter... My mother  I am the black sheep at 52 I still try to please her... My wife I still try to prove to her I am...
    bquick bquick 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2008

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    Harder Than It Looks

    I am -a 16 year old teenager -stubborn -passionate -impulsive -wild -careless -irresponsible -unstable -able to love, endlessly -someone who acts on her feelings -experiencing a lot of complications because I cant always act on all those things. I get hurt if I do it...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    Adhd

    Hi! I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) when I'm on the medicine that calms me down I just don't feel right like I'm depressed I don't smile and I dont laugh I hate the feeling! When I'm not taking the medicine I feel so me I laugh ALOT and smile untile my...
    911forever 911forever 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

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    All the Bloody Time! ...

    All the bloody time! Its funny how differently you can act around different people.
    cluck cluck 16-18, F Feb 12, 2007

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    Trying My Best

    I am doing better with trying to be myself. But sometimes I feel like myself is not good enough. I can be myself with my fiancé. But with my friends ( even though that's like 2) I just feel like I can't. I have this brick wall that won't break down.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    If I Really Knew Who That Was...

    Some of my good friends in my "real" life have definite opinions on my socially-oriented anxiety issues...  when I express some of my anxiousness or feelings of separation, I am told to "just relax"...  Have you ever been told to "just relax...
    dyin2live dyin2live 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Walk a Day In My Shoes

    People often try to make it sound like its really easy to just be yourself.  They say "Just be yourself" with the same inflection as they would say "The bathrooms down the hall."  They dont realize that for some people, for whatever reason...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2007

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    Being Me

    I wish I could be the real me. Sometime I feel I'm not being true to my self. I act as though I'm a puppet and I'm being controlled by others. To be honest I don't know how to start being the real me again. I don't even know how to stop being a puppet. But I do know is that I am...
    Saylol Saylol 13-15 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    I Have Enjoyed My Life and Wil...

    I have enjoyed my life and will continue to.  The changes that I would make about "me" are challenging, but workable. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 21-25, F Feb 14, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    On very rare occasions do I think. I want to experience being a girl. Even though life would be harder. Its just those times and afterwards I'm usually shake the feeling off.
    MrFluFFYL0rd MrFluFFYL0rd 13-15, M Aug 3

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    Someone asked me today to write what I would wish for if I had only one single wish. That is an almost impossible decision. One wish when I have so many thoughts in my head. I...
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    The Eros in me and the Beast in me, How they both loved her so dearly, My flaming kisses plunging into boundless bliss, From her cheeks I crawl along her spine, To her jaw from...
    NonchalantEros NonchalantEros 31-35, M 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Hi everyone .. I have been with my boyfriend for 4 years and we have been bestfriends ( I'm not over exaggerating ) for about 7 years... We have spoken almost everyday for about 7...
    hopeliveshavefaith hopeliveshavefaith 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I wish I could go back way in time and change myself to be more confident and not depressed To change things so I wouldn't have ended up in foster care which ruined my life and got...
    anestacia anestacia 16-17, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I could really honesty run away right now. I'm so pissed,so depressed & so tired of life.
    slowlykillingmyself slowlykillingmyself 13-15, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    To be beautiful... I wish to have light eyes but mine are basic dark brown. I wish I could have gorgeous hair but no i have coily nappy course hair. I wish I could have a lighter...
    zy7a zy7a 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Every day is a burden. It is really hard to pass each second of this life that I have been needlessly dragged into. I just want it to end, quickly and painlessly. I know how to but...
    Ricky2701 Ricky2701 18-21, M Aug 3

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    LIE to my husband. I love and care about him deeply and I know he truly loves me too, but I feel like I can't be honest with him about certain things in my life (especially about...
    cjfkdg518 cjfkdg518 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    To the time where I screwed up everything. So many things...I wish. I wish I could go back and say to you what I really meant. I wish I had never done some things. I wish I could...
    ImagineA ImagineA 16-17 Aug 19

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    Some nights i don't sleep and I'm just sitting there thinking, wishing. I wish I hade one moment, one second, one minute, one hour or one day just to see her. She was everything I...
    allencam05 allencam05 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I wish all of you the very best I truly do. I wish no one felt pain, felt hurt, felt sad, felt left out, felt depressed, been backstabbed, felt lonely, cried at night, felt like no...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F Jul 31

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    I have a biological sister, she's 18 but we don't have a sisterly relationship or any relationship at all. She has bipolar disorder that has completely taken over her life. For 10...
    Myeiaddiction Myeiaddiction 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I always wanted to be a traveller - Photographer and explore things, i wanted to free fly, i wanted to learn people. i wanted to read them, i wanted to be a freelancer , i wanted...
    Nitish288 Nitish288 22-25, M Aug 13

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    I wish they could understand that just a 6 minute phone call would have made the world of difference to me. That's all it takes, just to hear that voice. Even if it's only for a...
    Saram1985 Saram1985 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    .....I could go a day without thinking of her. I wish there wasn't a void within me still. I wish that I did not wonder if she still thinks about and misses me as much as I do her...
    idleheart idleheart 26-30, M Jul 31

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    I've lost my best friend and I can't let go. Sometimes my mind is telling me that I should forget about her, but my heart is telling me not to let her go and just keep on hanging...
    musicislife15 musicislife15 13-15, F Aug 10

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    I pretend I don't care. I act strong and unfazed when I am put down. I laugh when I make a mistake. I put forth a face that tells people, "Hit me with your best shot honey, cause...
    ToBeAnOtaku101 ToBeAnOtaku101 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I really wish I could work in a different country for a while, just be in a different culture. I wish I could do that
    Loano Loano 26-30 Aug 18

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    wish i could jsut call someone whenever i go through something tough. wish i had a best friend. i wish i could have someone to talk to all the time. it feels lonely.
    lost3458 lost3458 31-35, F Aug 19

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    I am scared I will die, without knowing the love of a woman. I feel like I have so much love to give. But know one to share it with. I would probably either smother a girl if...
    ericramone ericramone 31-35, M 3 Responses Aug 21

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    I wish he'd never told me that he cheated. I wish I could forget all the hurtful things that happened when we dated. I wish I could take an eraser to my brain.
    Amiramae Amiramae 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I couldn't talk to this girl a really liked. Well, I couldn't talk to any girl that I liked for that matter and it's so depressing to see all my friends with their girlfriends.
    bane512 bane512 18-21, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I've hated the way I've looked for quite some time now. I am 15-years-old and I have eczema and cystic acne on my face and my back. I used to struggle with extreme eczema in my...
    siddarrrth siddarrrth 13-15, M Jul 30

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    I feel so alone right now, i wish i could fall asleep with you tonight. feel your arms around me your breath on the back of my neck, your warmth, the little things you whisper in...
    BleedingAngel BleedingAngel 13-15, F Aug 5

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    I often wish I could see the future... Just a small snippet of it to offer some reassurance that I'll eventually get to the places in life I want to be and have some of the things...
    darksaber9999 darksaber9999 26-30, M Aug 15

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    There so many things people wish they could change about themselves. They wish they were skinner,prettier, more handsome, richer, and had more friends. I even wish this myself...
    Idreamtowaketofindthefate Idreamtowaketofindthefate 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I really wished I did....I wish I could take back my cutting addiction it sucks people will ask me at school "why do wear all those bracelets?" And I'm like "if u saw u would stay...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I hate that I feel anything. I wish I could be a neutral person, with no strong feelings about anything. If I could just stop caring about things so much, and stop feeling so...
    misscoffee misscoffee 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I'm a 24 year old single girl. I just recently moved to Phoenix a couple of months ago. I was living in Rapid City, South Dakota, and I moved because it was difficult to meet...
    julyjewel78 julyjewel78 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    The Guiding Sickle I must admit, this current stretch of time is not going well for me. I've come to understand something serious though: if I wished to leave any kind of note to...
    SourPennies SourPennies 18-21 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm a very compassionate and loving person. When I know or see someone hurting or suffering I wish I could fix it or take their pain or heartache whatever the case. I remember...
    Devotedmom77 Devotedmom77 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 2

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