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I Wish I Could Be Me

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    if you truly liked me

    for who i am you would not avoid me at all costs. i never treated any one bad not even the people that i thing deserved it. its not up to me to decide if your a bad person or not. i don't hate you i except you for who you are. i would want the same for me. think about that the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 8, 2015

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    If I Really Knew Who That Was...

    Some of my good friends in my "real" life have definite opinions on my socially-oriented anxiety issues...  when I express some of my anxiousness or feelings of separation, I am told to "just relax"...  Have you ever been told to "just relax...
    dyin2live dyin2live 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    I Contain Multitudes

    i remember telling my mom when i was really young, in second grade, maybe, that i "played different with different kids." i was upset and confused by it, but my mom seemed to think it was a very wise statement. and on one hand, i think it is a good thing. it is not so...
    Fahrenheit Fahrenheit 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    I Wish I Was A Rock...

    I try so hard to conform to everyones expectations, family, friends, and coworkers.  I try to be so gentle when revealing who I am but to be different frightens people.  Everyone will say it is cool to be different, but in reality everyone is afraid to take off their masks...
    BlueCedarTree BlueCedarTree 46-50 3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Being Me

    I wish I could be the real me. Sometime I feel I'm not being true to my self. I act as though I'm a puppet and I'm being controlled by others. To be honest I don't know how to start being the real me again. I don't even know how to stop being a puppet. But I do know is that I am...
    Saylol Saylol 16-17 Nov 10, 2013

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    Trying My Best

    I am doing better with trying to be myself. But sometimes I feel like myself is not good enough. I can be myself with my fiancé. But with my friends ( even though that's like 2) I just feel like I can't. I have this brick wall that won't break down.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Harder Than It Looks

    I am -a 16 year old teenager -stubborn -passionate -impulsive -wild -careless -irresponsible -unstable -able to love, endlessly -someone who acts on her feelings -experiencing a lot of complications because I cant always act on all those things. I get hurt if I do it...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    I Am But What Other Want To See.

    I have had to wear my mask twice in my life. It is the same hollow mask of shame of how is left with in me. I felt forced to hide myself at a very young age of six. Close off the emotion that be for all to see. There was nothing any one would have like to allow some one like me...
    solarregeneration solarregeneration 41-45, T Jul 23, 2010

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    Just Once

    i wish that just once i could be myself with my friends my parents...with everybody! when im with my friends what i do just seems to weird,with parents im very morbid and listen to music like marilyn manson and joke about being killed and other stuff like that but when im with...
    XscreamingXinsideX XscreamingXinsideX 13-15, F Jul 17, 2009

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    Me???

    sometimes when im with different people no matter with who. I act and feel like i have to be someone that they think i am i can never realy just be me. my family judges me cuz they think i dress like a guy (t-shirts and jeans most of the time), but i just think it feels more...
    ilovehateu ilovehateu 16-17, F Oct 17, 2007

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    I Have Enjoyed My Life and Wil...

    I have enjoyed my life and will continue to.  The changes that I would make about "me" are challenging, but workable. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 18-21, F Feb 14, 2007

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    All the Bloody Time! ...

    All the bloody time! Its funny how differently you can act around different people.
    cluck cluck 16-17, F Feb 12, 2007

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    Don't Get This One - I Am ...

    Don't get this one - I am me!?!
    thatweirdromanguy thatweirdromanguy 46-50, M Feb 14, 2007

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    I wish I could be myself my mom always cracks

    jokes about how I am always eating or how much " the only time I get up is to look in the fridge" I hate how fat she makes me feel I know I am not skinny but **** can't I just be me for once
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Walk a Day In My Shoes

    People often try to make it sound like its really easy to just be yourself.  They say "Just be yourself" with the same inflection as they would say "The bathrooms down the hall."  They dont realize that for some people, for whatever reason...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2007

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    I have some dear friends

    that I hold very close to my heart. They were the source of all the goood things in my life. They made my life lively, they made laugh and cry. They helped me love myself and the life I lived. But for the past year I have been slowly deteriorating. I lost all my motivation. I...
    BB13xx BB13xx 16-17, T Dec 23, 2014

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    I Am Except For Being Around 3

    I am  myself  around everyone else but these three... they are also the three that frightens me the most ....my Mother ...my wife and my daughter... My mother  I am the black sheep at 52 I still try to please her... My wife I still try to prove to her I am...
    bquick bquick 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2008

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    Adhd

    Hi! I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) when I'm on the medicine that calms me down I just don't feel right like I'm depressed I don't smile and I dont laugh I hate the feeling! When I'm not taking the medicine I feel so me I laugh ALOT and smile untile my...
    911forever 911forever 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

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    I feel I am more myself right ...

    I feel I am more myself right now then at any other point in my life. I am slowly coming out, and telling people how I really feel rather then hiding.    I am also starting to deal with other problems I am faced with like Anxiety, panik and depression.
    chateone chateone 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2007

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    My Colorful Masks

    About two and a half years ago I found someone. A few days over two years ago I started dating this someone. Not just someone, an angel. A beautiful wonderful soul. She helped me throw the masks away. So many colors. So many personalities. So many friendships were lost when...
    Anndei Anndei 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2009

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    i wish i could be happy,

    smile all the time, have that perfect fairy tale of a life, be able to be ME most of all..... i hate having to pretend like i'm someone else in a messed up world full of lies, cheating, and hatred, i always just wished life wasn't so negative, people didn't have to be bad, i...
    BumpsInTheRoad BumpsInTheRoad 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 3, 2014

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    I wish you were my valentine this year. I wish I could call you mine. In so many sorrows that fill your head I'd make them into mine. For just one day out of this year, If I...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    wouldn't it be fantastic? you start you're life again with all you're memories. Imagine what could be acheived. you could stop being bullied at school in your teens, ask out that...
    diegosauns diegosauns 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was coming home to be with you even before I was supposed to leave this lonely country but I never knew until 2 days ago that for 6 months now you've been cheating on me and...
    JJLEIGH JJLEIGH 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Some days I really do wish I could. I feel like it would give me a little more hope when I'm down. Some sort of direction of what to do or where to go. Someone to lean on in my...
    PoisonedOne PoisonedOne 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I wish I could just run away and dissappear. Winning the powerball could make that come true.
    LynnGurl12 LynnGurl12 22-25, F a week ago

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    I am my fathers' son of that I have no doubt. I miss him dearly with a gentle sadness and loneliness that follows me through my days and calls to me in my darkest hours and...
    Chagos Chagos 36-40, M Feb 6

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    Why do I have to strap my t*ts up to my chin every day? What if I let those t*tties loose and let 'em wobble all over and what if I were proud of them? I sometimes wish I had...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    dreams that evaporate with the rising sun. those moments in time, snatched between sleep and waking. the dream where i could hold you. where i did not feel the weight of my many...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Feb 5

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    There was a time when I wished there was a place, a place for another someone in my life to do the little things that I crave, that I want, that my soul needs. Intimate things...
    SuburbanSage SuburbanSage 61-65, M Feb 5

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    I have this one friend on EP, I kinda fell for her a bit not long after knowing her but she was rather definite that she doesn't meet people or even talk to them on the phone from...
    anon8369 anon8369 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I wish my mind had a delete button, so,I could erase all the bitter memories of people crying over me and calling me a heartless and selfish *****. I wish I could erase all the...
    iSatan iSatan 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    (Lengthy post but I had to vent) I truly feel that I would be better off dead. I honestly wish I could go to sleep one night and just die in my sleep. I know men are supposed to...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    Many, many things I wish I could get rid of. I think the older you get the heavier the memories become. Too bad I couldn't just go back to being 18 and start this whole "adult...
    theflipside theflipside 31-35, F 7 Responses Feb 3

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    I wish I could back up half the stuff I feel and want to do and say without feeling nervous and aniexty all time
    deadbyaprilpromiseme deadbyaprilpromiseme 31-35, F Feb 2

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    change the unchangable. to know that some things make dreams only dreams. a wish from the heart for something. a chance for something that could never be. a dream so sweet it...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Feb 1

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    I wish I could just come out and say how I'm insecure and wish he'd mention me more on social media. I wish he'd post pictures of us together, post pictures of things I randomly...
    asteriai asteriai 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Suffering from really disturbing nightmares of late, wish I could sleep & not dream at all...
    selina1986 selina1986 26-30, F Feb 1

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    my dreams...my dreams are of you. i could spend my eternity justnfinding ways to make you smile and feel loved. the setting doesnt matter, the season is irrelevant, nothing...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I am a recovering male anorexic, and I just finished an outpatient treatment program for eating disorders. On the whole, it wasn’t a helpful program. I may be at a healthy weight...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I have a friend I wish I could help. He's having a crappy day today but I don't know that anything I can do will make him feel better.
    snoopysgirl snoopysgirl 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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