I Wish I Could Be Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 175 People

    if you truly liked me

    for who i am you would not avoid me at all costs. i never treated any one bad not even the people that i thing deserved it. its not up to me to decide if your a bad person or not. i don't hate you i except you for who you are. i would want the same for me. think about that the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 8, 2015

    Adhd

    Hi! I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) when I'm on the medicine that calms me down I just don't feel right like I'm depressed I don't smile and I dont laugh I hate the feeling! When I'm not taking the medicine I feel so me I laugh ALOT and smile untile my...
    911forever 911forever
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

    Trying My Best

    I am doing better with trying to be myself. But sometimes I feel like myself is not good enough. I can be myself with my fiancé. But with my friends ( even though that's like 2) I just feel like I can't. I have this brick wall that won't break down.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2012

    I feel I am more myself right ...

    I feel I am more myself right now then at any other point in my life. I am slowly coming out, and telling people how I really feel rather then hiding.    I am also starting to deal with other problems I am faced with like Anxiety, panik and depression.
    chateone chateone
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 12, 2007

    If I Really Knew Who That Was...

    Some of my good friends in my "real" life have definite opinions on my socially-oriented anxiety issues...  when I express some of my anxiousness or feelings of separation, I am told to "just relax"...  Have you ever been told to "just relax...
    dyin2live dyin2live
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Jan 2, 2008

    I wish I could be myself my mom always cracks

    jokes about how I am always eating or how much " the only time I get up is to look in the fridge" I hate how fat she makes me feel I know I am not skinny but **** can't I just be me for once
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    Harder Than It Looks

    I am -a 16 year old teenager -stubborn -passionate -impulsive -wild -careless -irresponsible -unstable -able to love, endlessly -someone who acts on her feelings -experiencing a lot of complications because I cant always act on all those things. I get hurt if I do it...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

    Don't Get This One - I Am ...

    Don't get this one - I am me!?!
    thatweirdromanguy thatweirdromanguy
    46-50, M
    Feb 14, 2007

    I have some dear friends

    that I hold very close to my heart. They were the source of all the goood things in my life. They made my life lively, they made laugh and cry. They helped me love myself and the life I lived. But for the past year I have been slowly deteriorating. I lost all my motivation. I...
    BB13xx BB13xx
    16-17, T
    Dec 23, 2014

    I Am But What Other Want To See.

    I have had to wear my mask twice in my life. It is the same hollow mask of shame of how is left with in me. I felt forced to hide myself at a very young age of six. Close off the emotion that be for all to see. There was nothing any one would have like to allow some one like me...
    solarregeneration solarregeneration
    41-45, T
    Jul 23, 2010

    I Wish I Was A Rock...

    I try so hard to conform to everyones expectations, family, friends, and coworkers.  I try to be so gentle when revealing who I am but to be different frightens people.  Everyone will say it is cool to be different, but in reality everyone is afraid to take off their masks...
    BlueCedarTree BlueCedarTree
    46-50
    3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

    My Colorful Masks

    About two and a half years ago I found someone. A few days over two years ago I started dating this someone. Not just someone, an angel. A beautiful wonderful soul. She helped me throw the masks away. So many colors. So many personalities. So many friendships were lost when...
    Anndei Anndei
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2009

    I Have Enjoyed My Life and Wil...

    I have enjoyed my life and will continue to.  The changes that I would make about "me" are challenging, but workable. 
    emericklisa emericklisa
    22-25, F
    Feb 14, 2007

    Just Once

    i wish that just once i could be myself with my friends my parents...with everybody! when im with my friends what i do just seems to weird,with parents im very morbid and listen to music like marilyn manson and joke about being killed and other stuff like that but when im with...
    XscreamingXinsideX XscreamingXinsideX
    13-15, F
    Jul 17, 2009

    Me???

    sometimes when im with different people no matter with who. I act and feel like i have to be someone that they think i am i can never realy just be me. my family judges me cuz they think i dress like a guy (t-shirts and jeans most of the time), but i just think it feels more...
    ilovehateu ilovehateu
    16-17, F
    Oct 17, 2007

    Being Me

    I wish I could be the real me. Sometime I feel I'm not being true to my self. I act as though I'm a puppet and I'm being controlled by others. To be honest I don't know how to start being the real me again. I don't even know how to stop being a puppet. But I do know is that I am...
    Saylol Saylol
    16-17
    Nov 10, 2013

    Walk a Day In My Shoes

    People often try to make it sound like its really easy to just be yourself.  They say "Just be yourself" with the same inflection as they would say "The bathrooms down the hall."  They dont realize that for some people, for whatever reason...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 30, 2007

    All the Bloody Time! ...

    All the bloody time! Its funny how differently you can act around different people.
    cluck cluck
    16-17, F
    Feb 12, 2007

    I Contain Multitudes

    i remember telling my mom when i was really young, in second grade, maybe, that i "played different with different kids." i was upset and confused by it, but my mom seemed to think it was a very wise statement. and on one hand, i think it is a good thing. it is not so...
    Fahrenheit Fahrenheit
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 1, 2007

    i wish i could be happy,

    smile all the time, have that perfect fairy tale of a life, be able to be ME most of all..... i hate having to pretend like i'm someone else in a messed up world full of lies, cheating, and hatred, i always just wished life wasn't so negative, people didn't have to be bad, i...
    BumpsInTheRoad BumpsInTheRoad
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 3, 2014

    I Am Except For Being Around 3

    I am  myself  around everyone else but these three... they are also the three that frightens me the most ....my Mother ...my wife and my daughter... My mother  I am the black sheep at 52 I still try to please her... My wife I still try to prove to her I am...
    bquick bquick
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 21, 2008

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