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I Wish I Could Be Me

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    My Colorful Masks

    About two and a half years ago I found someone. A few days over two years ago I started dating this someone. Not just someone, an angel. A beautiful wonderful soul. She helped me throw the masks away. So many colors. So many personalities. So many friendships were lost when...
    Anndei Anndei 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2009

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    if you truly liked me

    for who i am you would not avoid me at all costs. i never treated any one bad not even the people that i thing deserved it. its not up to me to decide if your a bad person or not. i don't hate you i except you for who you are. i would want the same for me. think about that the...
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M Jan 8

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    I Wish I Was A Rock...

    I try so hard to conform to everyones expectations, family, friends, and coworkers.  I try to be so gentle when revealing who I am but to be different frightens people.  Everyone will say it is cool to be different, but in reality everyone is afraid to take off their masks...
    BlueCedarTree BlueCedarTree 46-50 3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Adhd

    Hi! I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) when I'm on the medicine that calms me down I just don't feel right like I'm depressed I don't smile and I dont laugh I hate the feeling! When I'm not taking the medicine I feel so me I laugh ALOT and smile untile my...
    911forever 911forever 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

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    I wish I could be myself my mom always cracks

    jokes about how I am always eating or how much " the only time I get up is to look in the fridge" I hate how fat she makes me feel I know I am not skinny but **** can't I just be me for once
    nadirah96 nadirah96 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Being Me

    I wish I could be the real me. Sometime I feel I'm not being true to my self. I act as though I'm a puppet and I'm being controlled by others. To be honest I don't know how to start being the real me again. I don't even know how to stop being a puppet. But I do know is that I am...
    Saylol Saylol 13-15 Nov 10, 2013

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    i wish i could be happy,

    smile all the time, have that perfect fairy tale of a life, be able to be ME most of all..... i hate having to pretend like i'm someone else in a messed up world full of lies, cheating, and hatred, i always just wished life wasn't so negative, people didn't have to be bad, i...
    BumpsInTheRoad BumpsInTheRoad 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 3, 2014

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    I Am Except For Being Around 3

    I am  myself  around everyone else but these three... they are also the three that frightens me the most ....my Mother ...my wife and my daughter... My mother  I am the black sheep at 52 I still try to please her... My wife I still try to prove to her I am...
    bquick bquick 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2008

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    I Have Enjoyed My Life and Wil...

    I have enjoyed my life and will continue to.  The changes that I would make about "me" are challenging, but workable. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 21-25, F Feb 14, 2007

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    Don't Get This One - I Am ...

    Don't get this one - I am me!?!
    thatweirdromanguy thatweirdromanguy 46-50, M Feb 14, 2007

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    Me???

    sometimes when im with different people no matter with who. I act and feel like i have to be someone that they think i am i can never realy just be me. my family judges me cuz they think i dress like a guy (t-shirts and jeans most of the time), but i just think it feels more...
    ilovehateu ilovehateu 16-18, F Oct 17, 2007

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    I Contain Multitudes

    i remember telling my mom when i was really young, in second grade, maybe, that i "played different with different kids." i was upset and confused by it, but my mom seemed to think it was a very wise statement. and on one hand, i think it is a good thing. it is not so...
    Fahrenheit Fahrenheit 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    Harder Than It Looks

    I am -a 16 year old teenager -stubborn -passionate -impulsive -wild -careless -irresponsible -unstable -able to love, endlessly -someone who acts on her feelings -experiencing a lot of complications because I cant always act on all those things. I get hurt if I do it...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    I have some dear friends

    that I hold very close to my heart. They were the source of all the goood things in my life. They made my life lively, they made laugh and cry. They helped me love myself and the life I lived. But for the past year I have been slowly deteriorating. I lost all my motivation. I...
    BB13xx BB13xx 16-17, T Dec 23, 2014

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    Trying My Best

    I am doing better with trying to be myself. But sometimes I feel like myself is not good enough. I can be myself with my fiancé. But with my friends ( even though that's like 2) I just feel like I can't. I have this brick wall that won't break down.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    If I Really Knew Who That Was...

    Some of my good friends in my "real" life have definite opinions on my socially-oriented anxiety issues...  when I express some of my anxiousness or feelings of separation, I am told to "just relax"...  Have you ever been told to "just relax...
    dyin2live dyin2live 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Just Once

    i wish that just once i could be myself with my friends my parents...with everybody! when im with my friends what i do just seems to weird,with parents im very morbid and listen to music like marilyn manson and joke about being killed and other stuff like that but when im with...
    XscreamingXinsideX XscreamingXinsideX 13-15, F Jul 17, 2009

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    Walk a Day In My Shoes

    People often try to make it sound like its really easy to just be yourself.  They say "Just be yourself" with the same inflection as they would say "The bathrooms down the hall."  They dont realize that for some people, for whatever reason...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2007

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    I Am But What Other Want To See.

    I have had to wear my mask twice in my life. It is the same hollow mask of shame of how is left with in me. I felt forced to hide myself at a very young age of six. Close off the emotion that be for all to see. There was nothing any one would have like to allow some one like me...
    solarregeneration solarregeneration 41-45, T Jul 23, 2010

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    All the Bloody Time! ...

    All the bloody time! Its funny how differently you can act around different people.
    cluck cluck 16-18, F Feb 12, 2007

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    I feel I am more myself right ...

    I feel I am more myself right now then at any other point in my life. I am slowly coming out, and telling people how I really feel rather then hiding.    I am also starting to deal with other problems I am faced with like Anxiety, panik and depression.
    chateone chateone 19-21, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2007

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    I wish I could take myself somewhere else. Far away from all the drama, away from all the people, away from society, and school. I wish I could lock myself in a far away island, to...
    Music2717 Music2717 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    1) I wish I had limitless wishes (not abused just for desperate situations) 2) I wish I could grant wishes 3) I wish I could perform miracles to make the world a better place
    EdwardIX EdwardIX 22-25, M Jan 11

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    If I could have my wishes If wishes did come true.. I would wish for happiness and long full life for you... I would wish for laughter And fill your life with songs Then ask for...
    rogi4u rogi4u 36-40, M Jan 14

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    It's been a long, bumpy road for me. Ever since I was a child, I've struggled with poverty, social anxiety, depression, and a dysfunctional family. I have been held back by a...
    whisperedthing whisperedthing 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't know how I am going to focus on work today. I didn't want to leave my bed. All I can do is cry all day and all night. How can I go on like this. I feel like I want to leave...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    So I just had the idea to watch an anime that I watched about 2 and a half years ago. It had been a while since I watched it, and I really loved it, so decided it was time to watch...
    PlumFudge PlumFudge 18-21, F a week ago

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    If I could go back in time I would because I have messed up so many things that I wish I could do better and re do things that I should have done. I'm a hesitant person and...
    NoraCipirano NoraCipirano 13-15, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I could go anywhere I wanted with whoever I wished. I could get away from my life here and find where I'm truly suppose to be, instead of suffocating in the wooden walls that come...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    How do people cover this stuff up? I'm just lonely like no other time. Why can't I just die already? This hurts, really awfully. It's like when you know they're going to put the IV...
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Most of the people would love to go back to their childhood days since many sweet memories would have resided in that period..I too have my part of sweet memories that i would like...
    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F Jan 16

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    This would go out to my "Father". I wish you could know the stinging pain of rejection, of your very person, like I suffered under your pious indifference. I wish you could know...
    yppirt yppirt 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I wish my bf compliments me. I wish people wouldn't disrespect me just cause he doesn't eat meat and consume alcohol. I wish I had stayed with my ex who was a jerk but at least...
    dontmatter11 dontmatter11 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    I wish I had listened to my parents. I always tried to rebel against them. To my mom, all those times she told me the guys I dated were no good. I wish she could tell me right now...
    love9494 love9494 18-21 Dec 30, 2014

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    I wish I could be invisible and I wish that I could fly! It would be so fun lol
    namedashley namedashley 18-21, F Jan 3

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    I still remember the first day we met, I was six and you were five. My mum took me to my first tee-ball game and left, I was really shy and started crying. I remember but I don't...
    camxyn camxyn 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Let me make a lighthearted post about this. I mean, there are a lot of things I've always wanted to do in MY OWN personal life if I could travel through time, but let's just...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    74th post..Well you might have noticed I haven't been posting here in a while. I'm still around. The 20th passed and I'm still alive. Had a bad week struggling all week with the...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    She lives in the shadow of a lonely girl Voice so quiet you don’t hear a word Always talking but she can’t be heard You can see it there if you catch her eye I know she’s...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I understand now, why you didn't stay. I see it clearly for what it was. It was not that you didn't love me that you left, but because you did love me and couldn't see any other...
    Lunarflowerrr Lunarflowerrr 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I wish I could go back in time to the day I was conceived perhaps I would be born later or earlier these simple facts would determine alot of who I am if I could go back in time...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Every day i cry about being gay. If i'm open about it jokes are made and stupid questions about sex and other girls are thrown at me, male friends make it obvious to their guy...
    IHateEverythingandMyself IHateEverythingandMyself 18-21, F Jan 10

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    My ex is coming tonight to get the rest of his stuff. I saw him yesterday and he told me he loves me and thinks about me every night. He said I'll always have a place in his heart...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    I was the perfect child in the perfect family. Good grades, sporty, i have ADD but once that issue was settled my life was generally the perfect childhood. It's hard to express how...
    Cannibalcheezecake Cannibalcheezecake 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Depression sucks. Hard as I try to lift myself up and do things I wanna do, I couldn't. Too hard. I'm just grateful that my anti depressants take the edge of but it still there...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I still think about you. I wonder if you are doing okay and if you are happy. Late at night I think about the connection I once felt. It hurts to know it was never real for you...
    Rackshack Rackshack 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I don't think my life will ever get better. It's just one big ball of mess right now. If i knew my life would bring me here i would've never done it. NEVER. My life would've been...
    alicia0090 alicia0090 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014