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I Wish I Could Be Me

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    I feel I am more myself right ...

    I feel I am more myself right now then at any other point in my life. I am slowly coming out, and telling people how I really feel rather then hiding.    I am also starting to deal with other problems I am faced with like Anxiety, panik and depression.
    chateone chateone 19-21, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2007

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    Being Me

    I wish I could be the real me. Sometime I feel I'm not being true to my self. I act as though I'm a puppet and I'm being controlled by others. To be honest I don't know how to start being the real me again. I don't even know how to stop being a puppet. But I do know is that I am...
    Saylol Saylol 13-15 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    Trying My Best

    I am doing better with trying to be myself. But sometimes I feel like myself is not good enough. I can be myself with my fiancé. But with my friends ( even though that's like 2) I just feel like I can't. I have this brick wall that won't break down.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Harder Than It Looks

    I am -a 16 year old teenager -stubborn -passionate -impulsive -wild -careless -irresponsible -unstable -able to love, endlessly -someone who acts on her feelings -experiencing a lot of complications because I cant always act on all those things. I get hurt if I do it...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    I Am But What Other Want To See.

    I have had to wear my mask twice in my life. It is the same hollow mask of shame of how is left with in me. I felt forced to hide myself at a very young age of six. Close off the emotion that be for all to see. There was nothing any one would have like to allow some one like me...
    solarregeneration solarregeneration 41-45, T Jul 23, 2010

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    I Am Except For Being Around 3

    I am  myself  around everyone else but these three... they are also the three that frightens me the most ....my Mother ...my wife and my daughter... My mother  I am the black sheep at 52 I still try to please her... My wife I still try to prove to her I am...
    bquick bquick 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2008

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    I Wish I Was A Rock...

    I try so hard to conform to everyones expectations, family, friends, and coworkers.  I try to be so gentle when revealing who I am but to be different frightens people.  Everyone will say it is cool to be different, but in reality everyone is afraid to take off their masks...
    BlueCedarTree BlueCedarTree 46-50 4 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Me???

    sometimes when im with different people no matter with who. I act and feel like i have to be someone that they think i am i can never realy just be me. my family judges me cuz they think i dress like a guy (t-shirts and jeans most of the time), but i just think it feels more...
    ilovehateu ilovehateu 16-18, F Oct 17, 2007

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    I Contain Multitudes

    i remember telling my mom when i was really young, in second grade, maybe, that i "played different with different kids." i was upset and confused by it, but my mom seemed to think it was a very wise statement. and on one hand, i think it is a good thing. it is not so...
    Fahrenheit Fahrenheit 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2007

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    I wish I could be myself my mom always cracks

    jokes about how I am always eating or how much " the only time I get up is to look in the fridge" I hate how fat she makes me feel I know I am not skinny but **** can't I just be me for once
    nadirah96 nadirah96 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    I Have Enjoyed My Life and Wil...

    I have enjoyed my life and will continue to.  The changes that I would make about "me" are challenging, but workable. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 21-25, F Feb 14, 2007

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    Adhd

    Hi! I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) when I'm on the medicine that calms me down I just don't feel right like I'm depressed I don't smile and I dont laugh I hate the feeling! When I'm not taking the medicine I feel so me I laugh ALOT and smile untile my...
    911forever 911forever 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

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    Just Once

    i wish that just once i could be myself with my friends my parents...with everybody! when im with my friends what i do just seems to weird,with parents im very morbid and listen to music like marilyn manson and joke about being killed and other stuff like that but when im with...
    XscreamingXinsideX XscreamingXinsideX 13-15, F Jul 17, 2009

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    I have some dear friends

    that I hold very close to my heart. They were the source of all the goood things in my life. They made my life lively, they made laugh and cry. They helped me love myself and the life I lived. But for the past year I have been slowly deteriorating. I lost all my motivation. I...
    BB13xx BB13xx 16-17, T 2 days ago

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    All the Bloody Time! ...

    All the bloody time! Its funny how differently you can act around different people.
    cluck cluck 16-18, F Feb 12, 2007

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    If I Really Knew Who That Was...

    Some of my good friends in my "real" life have definite opinions on my socially-oriented anxiety issues...  when I express some of my anxiousness or feelings of separation, I am told to "just relax"...  Have you ever been told to "just relax...
    dyin2live dyin2live 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    i wish i could be happy,

    smile all the time, have that perfect fairy tale of a life, be able to be ME most of all..... i hate having to pretend like i'm someone else in a messed up world full of lies, cheating, and hatred, i always just wished life wasn't so negative, people didn't have to be bad, i...
    BumpsInTheRoad BumpsInTheRoad 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    Walk a Day In My Shoes

    People often try to make it sound like its really easy to just be yourself.  They say "Just be yourself" with the same inflection as they would say "The bathrooms down the hall."  They dont realize that for some people, for whatever reason...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 30, 2007

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    My Colorful Masks

    About two and a half years ago I found someone. A few days over two years ago I started dating this someone. Not just someone, an angel. A beautiful wonderful soul. She helped me throw the masks away. So many colors. So many personalities. So many friendships were lost when...
    Anndei Anndei 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2009

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    Don't Get This One - I Am ...

    Don't get this one - I am me!?!
    thatweirdromanguy thatweirdromanguy 46-50, M Feb 14, 2007

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    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I wish I would stop missing her when she couldn't care less about where, how or what I am doing. I saw an old couple walking and holding hands, and I felt both inspired by how...
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    In A Wheelchair Already) Just look at her. She's been sitting all by herself at the edge of the dance floor for five songs now, but no one seems to care. She must be so lonely...
    WarShip WarShip 18-21 1 Response Dec 17

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    prettyface1 prettyface1 46-50, F 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wish I could change the emotional part of me. The part that makes me feel, the part that makes me so damn nice and caring. I do something nice for someone and I don't get a...
    saram1985 saram1985 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Wish I could afford to eat more And buy clothes that fit but now I need to loose weight because I don't have money for food and new clothes. Wish I could just be programmed to have...
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F Nov 26

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    I wish that I could find a perfect match for me, and get married. I need a woman who is intrested in the same things I like to do, and does the same things I do.. I guess there is...
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    I am constantly depressed now. I wish I was dead but I'm too weak to kill myself yet. Hopefully I will gain the strength I need to end this miserable existence. I hate this world...
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    Back then I was not into things I am in now. I know that everyone changed but I feel if I was the old me, I wouldn't have missed so many opportunities I did. When I was little, I...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've distanced myself from everyone I called friend. because they are too hollow. or I am. but I wish there was someone. with an AMAZING sense of humor. sarcastic and crude and...
    ZombieBaitMaiden ZombieBaitMaiden 31-35, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wish I wish I can erase all my past. All the pain and hurt I've been through. Cutting myself crying myself to sleep at night and the flashbacks I just wish I could burn them...
    RobertsLove17 RobertsLove17 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I am really clinically depressed, been int he hospital multiple times, feel suicidal everyday because I don't want to get married, have kids, or be a caregiver. My mom has...
    Emeraldisles5 Emeraldisles5 18-21 Nov 27

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    I feel like life would be better without emotions. I would be able to go through life without emotions holding me back. But I know that without emotions we could never grow as...
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    I wish I have soo many wishes to fix myself away from troubles and problems and to help others who needs to be helped.
    xxBoyishGirlxx xxBoyishGirlxx 13-15, F Nov 30

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    It seems really silly but if I had at least 50 wishes I feel like I would make a lot of personal changes but a l'd try to make some wishes to better the world too!
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