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I Wish I Could Kill Myself But I Can't

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 111 People

    I have 2 kids, and a husband.

    I can't leave him because of them (or so I tell myself), and I can't just end my sad pathetic life because of them either. I don't know why I chose him. He's cheated on me in online sex chat rooms and with prostitutes. He denies, but I have evidence and I know. Anytime I get...
    zyanya11 zyanya11
    41-45, F
    Jun 4, 2015

    Im In Pain

    bohemianbeauty72 bohemianbeauty72
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Feb 24, 2010

    I Really Wish I Had the Guts

    i really wish i had the guts.... i have always played with the Idea of suicide(since high school) but have never actually contemplated the act so much..actually that's not true; i've thought about it alot throughout the years and i've thought about the ways that would leave the...
    dancingkitin dancingkitin
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 31, 2008

    I Wish I Could

    I wish I could,But I can't,Kill myself,No,It's not right,Won't do wrong,Guess,As a result,I'll be here for awhile.I'm not that way inclined, just found this group, and made up this poem.
    startinover1 startinover1
    1 Response Apr 13, 2012

    I Could Never Leave My Kids

    I wish I could buy a gun and go down to the river where they spread my Poppy's ashes and take myself out of here. Even if that were possible, I couldn't leave my kids. But, it hurts so bad sometimes. I basically have no life left here, my ex husband ruined all my family's respect...
    bluedragonfly16 bluedragonfly16
    26-30, F
    Jul 14, 2011

    Why Me

    Ive been though alot it all started when i was 7 i was sexually abused tell i was 12 by 2 of my family members then i was in a bated up by my ex for 2 years and they all told me all i was good for is sex and that's all ill ever be good for then while i was stil with my ex my...
    diesinside diesinside
    18-21, F
    Aug 10, 2011

    It's all I can think about it's what I need to

    do but it's the one thing I can't do I need to so I can help everyone better their life it may seem like it won't but it will in the long time I try all day everyday it has consumed my life Nd it's the one thing I can't do
    thatonehighguy thatonehighguy
    22-25, M
    Aug 18, 2015

    If the world can explode in the next second,

    that will be the best present for me!
    wongvava wongvava
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jul 12, 2014

    7th Grade

      Everysince the 8th grade i've been suicidal. It started when my mom (who is so freakin over-protective, AND nosy) read a letter I wrote about a boy. OMGosh.. She literally flipped her little lid. That was the first (and only) physical fight we got into (which was not a...
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Mar 9, 2009

    I Can't Do It To My Family

    Is it horrible that I wish I could? It's not that I want to hurt them... but I hurt now. I hurt always. I mean, honestly though, it is no more unfair, no more selfish of me to kill myself than it is of them to expect me to live in this hell, this misery, this 'living death' just...
    AReluctantBorderline AReluctantBorderline
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2011

    Tired Of This Life

    I wish I could kill myself, but I'm too scared. At this point, I have nothing to live for. No friends, dead end job, dysfunctional family, and my boyfriend finally left me. Can't blame him, I'm such a sorry piece of trash. If I had the guts, I would blow my brains out. I hate...
    butimstillhere butimstillhere
    31-35, F
    Oct 10, 2013

    Many Times In The Past I Have Made That Wish

    but the problem is i made a promise to someone a long time ago to never try it again. the reason was so the lady that was rasing me would le me marry her daughter at age 13 as we loved each other and she did so my promise has to be kept for many years i did hunt death in all...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Oct 9, 2011

    Humanity Sucks

    There is no such thing as fidelity. There is no such thing as truth. Nothing is ever as it seems, and no one is ever how they present themselves. People are selfish, and self serving. The whoring business is so fruitful, because there are always husbands who are willing to invest...
    LoveLies89 LoveLies89
    May 21, 2012

    I have tried to kill myself three times.

    1. By cutting and 2 by drowning. But I couldn't do it because my childhood friend killed hisself two years ago and it was hard on me and if I tried to I wouldn't be able to do it because I know he wouldn't want me to do it so. I'm thankful for him to keep me alive today
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015
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