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I Wish I Could Let Go

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    Things Burned Into My Memory...i Want Them Erased

    This is something on which I need to hear opinions. It sounds so stupid but it's what's troubling me the most right now. I'm in a relationship and in love with a fantastic guy. He's literally what I've prayed for. But his ex girlfriend, although she's not in the picture at all...
    iceprincess09 iceprincess09 16-18, F 7 Responses Mar 8, 2011

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    Even Of Small Things

    The little things I do to hold on to my ex boyfriend are so pathetic and stupid but I and seem to help it. I still have all the tickets from plays we went to pinned on my board and the last day we had together I still have the bottle of drink he bought me and I won't eat the last...
    ThoughtfulFlower ThoughtfulFlower 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2013

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    Yeah I Wish

    I wish I could let go of a lot of past heartaches but I seem to have a problem doing that. My life would be a whole lot happier if I could. I cling to memories of past relationships that haven't worked out. I keep pining for the person long after they are gone. I really wish I...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F May 21, 2011

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    While I Am Making Progress...

    ...I can't help but wonder how much further along this road I have to travel until I get to the point where I can leave these negative beliefs I have about myself behind for good. For nearly two years I have been having therapy, which has helped me considerably, but I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 15, 2010

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    Marlene

    Marlene   When I close my eyes, I see her In the silence of the night, I hear her soft breathing I hear the music of her clavichord, see her dancing feet stomping and swirling out the rhythms of a renaissance dance I feel her long hair against my side, see the...
    sugarfooties sugarfooties 66-70 6 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    Too Much Hope.

    Even now we are no longer on talking terms and I don't think we ever will be again I still cant help but wish that wasnt the case. I dont wish to talk to you now however I wont delete your details in the fear that one day I may need them, one day it will be how it was. Even...
    CalypsoChisisi CalypsoChisisi 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2012

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    Still Wishing...

    I wish I could let go of a lot of things....but the thing I wish I could let go of the most.....is the feeling that I am responsible...like everything is up to me.... I don't mean just for myself but for those that are in my life too ....but I guess I would not know how to...
    cmojlo cmojlo 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 18, 2009

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    Diary Of A Twelfth Grader 25 March 2013

    Dear Diary, Am i a horrible person? i went out with A on Friday/Saturday at 2:00ish. He picked me up in his car and went to his house. i almost took a shower with him(on of my major fantasies) we kissed and then he went to shower(he had BA) (beach aroma) i started to pilfer his...
    juSts0m3giRl juSts0m3giRl 18-21, F Sep 2, 2013

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    Moving On

    I have come to a point in my life that it is time to move on and put the past behind me. For those of you who know me on EP this wont come as a surprise. I have longed for my first love long enough and I have to forgive myself for what I did to him and me.And also what I did to...
    valeries51 valeries51 51-55, F 6 Responses May 24, 2011

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    I Don't Know Why I Do It

    It's been over a year. We didn't even date that long and I went further with him than any other guy. He's just so great. He's let go, but I just can't make myself do it. I've tried dating other guys but it just messes me up. I hold on to way too much. I can't even forgive myself...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2007

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    August 21, 2014 Thursday I'll stay completely

    strong until the second I say "I can't do this anymore"
    justwannabeliked justwannabeliked 22-25, F Aug 20

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    i've Had A Hell Of A Li...

    I'VE HAD A HELL OF A LIFE EVER SINCE I WAS BORN.IWISH I COULD LET GO OF ALL THE PAIN THE DRAMA AND HEART ACHES AND JUST BE A LITTLE HAPPYNESS AND FIND SOME PEACE.
    grace1965 grace1965 41-45, F Oct 20, 2009

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    Let Go

    I wish I could let go,Life's gettin' me down,Too much weight,The past,Still carrying it,Need to let it go,Trouble is,Don't know how.
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 1 Response Apr 19, 2012

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    I Still Love My Ex

    It has been a long time since I talked to my ex. I broke up with him when I found out that he's seeing another woman. I have tried dating other men, I even forced myself to fall in love with my best friend, but it didn't work. I just ended up hurting my best buddy and myself more...
    yinyang35 yinyang35 26-30 3 Responses Nov 10, 2011

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    Space to Breathe

    It's been 5 months. I have lasted this long without contacting him after our break up. The process is a slow one and requires patience. There have been times when I have had the huge urge to hit SEND.... especially when I am nostalgic of some sweet memory and I wonder whether I...
    hibislo hibislo 31-35 4 Responses Jul 24, 2007

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    Letting Go

    whusg i could find the key to letting go of the past at least the bad parts of it i never want to foget the feeling my first love and first wife gave me or what her and her mother taught me on how to love just sorry i lost her to death after only 6 years of marrage when she was...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 11, 2011

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    I Want Everything To Crumble.

    I just want to let go of everything and start a fresh... I dont want to be a self harmer I dont want to be depressed, or mentally ill I dont want to live with being abused I dont want to feel fat or ugly I just want to be content.
    girlinterrupted95 girlinterrupted95 16-17, F Jul 16, 2011

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    Of So Many Things.

    But I don't think anyone understands, personally how hard it is for ME, to let go. I think it's my biggest fear. If I let go, I lose it.. But I don't want to lose a lot of what I have, even if letting go is the best solution. But since so many have let go, since so much has moved...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2010

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    I'm destroying myself.

    Watching my ex live her life. She always posts crap on facebook and it doesn't help that I go on her tumblr to see what she's been blogging about. She's talking to a bunch of guys and it just eats me up inside. I feel like ending my current life. I just want to feel different. I...
    autokad7 autokad7 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 4

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    and even if i fall inlove again with someone

    new. it can never be the way i loved you. :-( -selena gomez lyrics damn this feeling. i hate letting you go.
    sexymommy2014 sexymommy2014 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    She Haunts My Dreams And Days.

    I am a 31 year old male who is about to go to graduate school out of state in a month.  I have been at my local university taking classes to prepare for this. I wasn't looking for anybody, not even friends since I knew that I would be leaving, but I still found her anyways...
    fraggler fraggler 31-35 Jun 18, 2010

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    someoneforyou12 someoneforyou12 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 26

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    I wish I could let go of

    so many people and so many things but these are part of me I can never let them go!! No matter how much it hurts me I endure the pain I wish I was numb or use to the pain but I'm not I'm a needy sensitive person I think it's best for me to not meet new people not making new...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F Jun 28

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    Sexless Marriage

    I too live in a sexless marriage due to medical issues but there is something that makes me different from most on here.  I have never had chemistry with my husband and that is totally one sided. I have never gotten over someone from my past. I met Dave when I was 17 and he was...
    valeries51 valeries51 51-55, F 7 Responses May 10, 2011

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    I Wish He Would Let Go

    Drama. From the start. Our first conversation was as follows: him - "you're a *****." me - "and you're an *******, what's your point?" I hated him the first time I saw him, hated what he stood for. He hated me, because I stood in his way. I stopped him...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2007

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    Keep Pursuing Or Drop It?

    Years ago I dated a man. I loved him but was I "in love" with him? I was so young and wild and wasn't ready to "settle down" and I let him go. Months later he said he would wait for me. I told him don't.  Did he ever come back to me? No. He met someone else and got married...
    Shilo123 Shilo123 56-60, F Sep 13, 2011

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    I need to break up with him.

    I know I do because he doesn't treat me right. I should be his first priority but its clear that im not, and he lies to me.
    Jacinduuuh Jacinduuuh 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    Its Just Never Gonna Happen

     were three states away from each other and hes hurt me so many times .. but i refuse to let go ... i dont think i can nor do i want to ... he said the other night that we were meant to be together . Its been a yr now ... and we still have a longing for each other .. how he...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Aug 22, 2007

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    Heavensbluerose: "But just tell me :)

    and il tell you and tomorrow when i get home we'll talk in other app i guess.." :'( Why didn't i just showed her my gorgeous face right then when she wanted to imagine me, right at that moment?! Why did we have to sway away from the subject and talk about a topic that...
    Listening2us Listening2us 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    You wait for me to let my guard down.

    The dull ache at the thought of you has finally began to dissipate. I hear your voice, and suddenly Im pulled back in. I cant lie to myself anymore. There's only one thing that can make sense of the whirlwind of emotions that knocks me down everytime; I still love you. And Im...
    danii92 danii92 22-25, F Jun 17

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    You see me differently now.

    I can feel it. I can hear it in your voice. I lay awake at night, trying to push you out of my head. But I can't. No one understood what we had but us. You said that yourself. If we're over, just say it. Don't keep leaving me behind. I'm hanging on a thread here, terrified Of...
    shecanfly88 shecanfly88 18-21, F Dec 27, 2013

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    How Long Will It Take For Me To Let Go?

    I broke up with my gf on Dec 27th, 2010. It's almost 5 months now. I keep myself busy most of the time. I tried to get over her for almost 3 months now as I know she will never come back to me. Fortunately, she went to an exchange program in New Zealand for 2 months. I didn't see...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 21, 2011

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    Life long wish. Wrecked by repeats and

    meds and cigs causing heart attacks on meds. Dangitawll.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Aug 26

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    Contradicting points you're trying to make.

    The love you've faked, The times we shared, Were nothing but a moment in your past. You've used me for quite some time. To say I'm over it, And ready to reach my prime Would be wrong to you. And wrong to me as well. You've got me twisted up, You've played with my mind, Making...
    autokad7 autokad7 18-21, M Oct 26

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    Of My Mother.

    I do love my mother, deep down. But I resent her also. There are things I can never let go of, never forgive her for. Mostly, I'm very polite to her, and I pretend everything is okay between us, but it's really not. If I try to bring my feelings up, about anything, she always...
    Ragelovelumos Ragelovelumos 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2012

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    I Wish I Knew What Else To Do...

    heads up for those who read this, it's full bitchiness and confused thoughts. I'm just extremely lost at this point...   I should have known better then to chase after you, knowing your history and how you were with relationships. Well as it turns out you can't be in a...
    Khilaren Khilaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2009

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    Ive Lost

    Basically i fell in love in less than a month... And to be honest, it had to be the best month of my life. She motivated me to move my *** from this computer that i sat on playing games 17 hours straight. She showed me that i wasn't invisible anymore. All the times we cuddled...
    Uponworthy Uponworthy 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 11, 2011

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    Letting Go Of Love... Possible?

    I fell in love with a man, many years ago. Saved me, and my sanity.But our lives took us into some opposite directions, and haven't seen him in years.But I still think of him every day... wonder if he thinks of me.I wish I could say otherwise, but after all these years, it's like...
    kat0220 kat0220 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    Angel's Heart

    wrote this for her: So cold and alone, This eternal black hole, Ice running through veins, A broken, beaten, and bruised heart, A heart stopped after love It loved an Angel so greatly, A tear was shed each night For the Angel of Dreams That Angel left in the wind; With it a...
    Nightmarelover Nightmarelover 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 5, 2011

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    I have a hard time moving on

    and focusing on the present. Everything, every song, anything that hits a sense reminds me of something, good or not. I get too attached too easily and I'm also materialistic. When I loose something, I get frustrated. When I miss home, I cry. When I miss someone, it hurts like...
    xxXxSkyxXxx xxXxSkyxXxx 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    Loving someone who doesn’t love you is one of

    the most hopeless feelings in the world because it isn’t something you can control. Then again, this is exactly why you need to start the healing process: it’s not your fault, there’s nothing you could have done differently, and the only thing left to do is move on. For...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 26

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    Searching For Serenity

    I've been through a lot, but I guess everyone thinks that. Because we all compare our lives to the perfect life... But then I feel selfish for thinking my life is so terrible when I see girls on the news who have been held hostage in people's houses for weeks on end, people who...
    Supeys Supeys 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 2, 2013

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    Got Ya Sucker..

    just when i think im over him..."got ya sucker" comes right back into my mind wheni see or hear from him...why i was never more than a distant friend and when i thinkabout it i dont really know him....i wish i could let go...
    AlmostFriendless AlmostFriendless 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2011

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