I Wish I Could Say I Am Fine, But I Am Not Fine

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    The Ache

    Up above the peak, So nostalgic, Envy your glory, Only wish to F* this ****. It went un-replied, I saw a sign. I'am all fine, Just need some more wine. Fragment of memory, Invade my dream. Soul shattering, And the cycle repeats.
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2013

    Someday...

    Someday my dreams will come true, Someday you will give me a ring, Someday when I am ready, Someday I hope we marry, Someday our relationship will be over, Someday so will the pain, Someday you might grow up, Someday someone is going to walk into your life, Someday you will want...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    No One Will Ever Know.the Pain I Feel Inside

    No one will ever know,the pain i feel inside There is this girl in the mirror,I wonder who she is When she is looking back at me, I can tell, she is hurting inside. I wonder where her smile has gone I hear the wind whistling through the darkest street, I see the thick mist...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Jan 11, 2012

    Good Bye..

    My whole world comes crashing down When you tell me your going far away from town My heart is screaming so hard My heartbeats is pounding so fast With all the hatred I yelled to you I never meant to do that on you I cant hold myself any longer From telling you how much I need...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    The Truth About A Lie

    Honestly, this is the only place where I can be completely honest. Here, I do not have to pretend. I would like to say that I'm okay, but I am not. And here I do not have to lie. Neither myself nor the other.In the real world I have to say I'm okay. To act, and I'm doing well...
    EvilMiracle EvilMiracle
    18-21
    Nov 24, 2013

    Im Not Fine..

    Just when we are starting to blame each other with tears, That’s when we know we still care for each more than ever, Tears flow from my eyes when I still thinking you’re mine, Just myself never realize we are coming in this way, When you are sitting by my side with nothing...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    Who Am I?

    It hurts like never before and you really don't know how hard it is to be constantly reminded of something pain that happened in your past.If i can have your attention for a few moments on this poem,i am seriously need you to know,i am making progress in recovery from the failed...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2013

    My Best Friend

    It's 1.30am. For many jumbled up reasons i'm still awake at this hour, as usual.I have a very fair reason for not going to bed this early.And i'm always feeling so glad i have this very best friend who's 24/7 available for me whenever something like this happens. Well pain is...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 10, 2013

    My Feelings

    i thought i have moved on.. Or at least i am moving on... Its been a while since i last shedded my tears over the memories we used to share together.... I force myself to go out with my friends, Make myself busy with my activities... For a week i finally can smile and laugh...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Jan 26, 2013

    Im Not..

    Just when the soul full of wound, That's when i realize i was a fool. There was two paths for me to choose, The one i took was sad and blue. I remember someday years ago, That was my shadow that hold me close. I have been someone i hated a while ago, Feeling so hard to fight the...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    Ive Been There

    Ive been there,i stood back up.Believe and appreciate yourself,you deserve so much better.To my friends,You WILL GET BETTER no matter what. An empty mall i stand alone, An empty soul i start to feel. The sparks have faded the moment you left, Life doesnt get easier,anyway...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Aug 25, 2013

    Recovering From A Heartbroken

    With a heavy heart i wake up this morning, With the pain in my chest from the dream i was having. Yes,that's the dream that woke me in sleep, I rise as i start to weep. Who are you? What are you? To haunt me without me having a clue? Feeling blue, and I'm screwed, They came back...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher
    22-25, F
    Feb 23, 2013

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