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I Wish I Could Say I Am Fine, But I Am Not Fine

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 38 People

    The Ache

    Up above the peak, So nostalgic, Envy your glory, Only wish to F* this ****. It went un-replied, I saw a sign. I'am all fine, Just need some more wine. Fragment of memory, Invade my dream. Soul shattering, And the cycle repeats.
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2013

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    Ive Been There

    Ive been there,i stood back up.Believe and appreciate yourself,you deserve so much better.To my friends,You WILL GET BETTER no matter what. An empty mall i stand alone, An empty soul i start to feel. The sparks have faded the moment you left, Life doesnt get easier,anyway...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Am I Wrong

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLTu-mvP8bI I know you're dependin on me To give you all of my attention All of my time And all of the love you need Oh tell me Am I wrong ?
    sharpTresHombre sharpTresHombre 41-45, M Aug 27, 2013

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    My Feelings

    i thought i have moved on.. Or at least i am moving on... Its been a while since i last shedded my tears over the memories we used to share together.... I force myself to go out with my friends, Make myself busy with my activities... For a week i finally can smile and laugh...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Jan 26, 2013

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    The Truth About A Lie

    Honestly, this is the only place where I can be completely honest. Here, I do not have to pretend. I would like to say that I'm okay, but I am not. And here I do not have to lie. Neither myself nor the other.In the real world I have to say I'm okay. To act, and I'm doing well...
    EvilMiracle EvilMiracle 16-17 Nov 24, 2013

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    Who Am I?

    It hurts like never before and you really don't know how hard it is to be constantly reminded of something pain that happened in your past.If i can have your attention for a few moments on this poem,i am seriously need you to know,i am making progress in recovery from the failed...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 21, 2013

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    Someday...

    Someday my dreams will come true, Someday you will give me a ring, Someday when I am ready, Someday I hope we marry, Someday our relationship will be over, Someday so will the pain, Someday you might grow up, Someday someone is going to walk into your life, Someday you will want...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Im Not..

    Just when the soul full of wound, That's when i realize i was a fool. There was two paths for me to choose, The one i took was sad and blue. I remember someday years ago, That was my shadow that hold me close. I have been someone i hated a while ago, Feeling so hard to fight the...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    My Best Friend

    It's 1.30am. For many jumbled up reasons i'm still awake at this hour, as usual.I have a very fair reason for not going to bed this early.And i'm always feeling so glad i have this very best friend who's 24/7 available for me whenever something like this happens. Well pain is...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2013

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    Im Not Fine..

    Just when we are starting to blame each other with tears, That’s when we know we still care for each more than ever, Tears flow from my eyes when I still thinking you’re mine, Just myself never realize we are coming in this way, When you are sitting by my side with nothing...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    No One Will Ever Know.the Pain I Feel Inside

    No one will ever know,the pain i feel inside There is this girl in the mirror,I wonder who she is When she is looking back at me, I can tell, she is hurting inside. I wonder where her smile has gone I hear the wind whistling through the darkest street, I see the thick mist...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Jan 11, 2012

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    Good Bye..

    My whole world comes crashing down When you tell me your going far away from town My heart is screaming so hard My heartbeats is pounding so fast With all the hatred I yelled to you I never meant to do that on you I cant hold myself any longer From telling you how much I need...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Recovering From A Heartbroken

    With a heavy heart i wake up this morning, With the pain in my chest from the dream i was having. Yes,that's the dream that woke me in sleep, I rise as i start to weep. Who are you? What are you? To haunt me without me having a clue? Feeling blue, and I'm screwed, They came back...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Feb 23, 2013

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    I'm one of those people who looks in the mirror and sees the flaws. Like walking into a house and seeing only mess. Like reading a story and being distracted by typos. When I was a...
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    I just wish I could do that, but humans heart is so stubborn and you cannot make it obey. it has it's own mind and can do it's own action. I just wish I could tell my heart no to...
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    Sometimes it feels like a living thing stalking me in the shadows. A creature that only lives in my peripheral vision sneaking up on me unawares at random times throughout the...
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    I love my boyfriend a lot, I know I'm young so save the talk lol, but I really do. But I really think I love him for the wrong reason. He took my virginity and was my first kiss...
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    1. A long (not necessarily immortal) and happy life for everyone who is my friend, family and myself I guess too. 2. To have unlimited granted wishes without sneaky bad...
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    blossomingbeauti blossomingbeauti 36-40, F a week ago

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    This is what I think about soul and life. Hm, I would say that your soul is the sum of everything you are, a place inside you that exists in a form of void and from that void all...
    Vrime Vrime 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 15

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    My mum said that the only reason she is staying in Australia is for me, and she hates it here. Dad said the same thing, he said the only reason we are still here is because of me...
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    Dear M4RKO, You attack people who you don't know because you're a pathetic, cowardice, intolerable excuse of life. I don't say this often, but please go die for fuxks sake. Your...
    TheAmazingSpiderJoe TheAmazingSpiderJoe 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I've earned the title "heartless" around here. Because I don't show it. My mom even thinks that I can't cry. My grandma died, didn't shed a tear, my friend, even my most beloved...
    Riukkuyo Riukkuyo 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    I could not help myself... But you can rest a little easier, I washed my eyes before reading your stories...
    3Dogmatic 3Dogmatic 36-40, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Me: I'm fine ( thinking: no not at all) Other person: are you sure? Me: I'm totally fine ( I want to hide with a book and cry) Does anyone else ever do this?
    bugf9630 bugf9630 13-15 1 hr ago

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    Not because the girl I liked treated me bad, not because at my previous work, people ostracized me and my team and laid us off because we weren't chatty and fake enuf like them...
    sjyul sjyul 26-30, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I always say I'm fine. Even when I am not. What concern is it of the asker anyway? I groomed myself from a young age to be completely self-reliant for all my mental, emotional and...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Sep 21

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    So, today is the day. The day that make all other days seem worthless. The day that's so special that everyone wishes this day could be everyday. Um, I don't know what I'm talking...
    Duckix3 Duckix3 16-17 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I remember admiring a group of hip-hop dancers presenting for the school festival. I was amaze of their athletic capabilities and body movement, doing flips and other movements I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 16-17 18 hrs ago

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    ...and I'm rarely ever freaking fine! I'm so tired of saying I'm fine when I'm not just to make others around me comfortable I could spit fire! I'm going to spend the next half of...
    cinaflower cinaflower 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My whole life's been thunders and storm. Every night i cry myself to bed wishing that tomorrow will not come. I fear the day where all the scene of the wicked are actively working...
    whyfeelpain whyfeelpain 22-25 Sep 10

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    Every single day I tell myself it's going to be all good. I'll make it, I'll be alright, I AM alright. All is good. I'm fine! And the day moves along and with the day, everyday, my...
    izzypie izzypie 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 14

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    Even when I'm in the worst conditions I always say I'm fine and thank GOD that I'm in this situation and not even worst .. There is idiom in French we use it :: on dit ça va pour...
    onlypeace onlypeace 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 15

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    I always say I'm fine, even when I'm not. It turns out I was always fine, I'm going to get checked for cancer in two days, this is very difficult to not think about yet I still get...
    dyingforlove dyingforlove 18-21, M Aug 31

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    I'm laying in bed, thinking, What's the point of my life, why am I here, Maybe those people are right, maybe there is no god, Maybe I'm just wrong, maybe I am brainwashed...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 6 Responses Sep 14

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    Well, it's finally happened, realisation has finally hit, took me so long to come to this conclusion and finally realised this is absolutely the only way to go, and the way to go...
    Dylanj11 Dylanj11 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    I mean, Yea I say im fine alot if you ask but mainly because I don't want anyone to worry about me. There are many more important people out there to be worried for. It kinda...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Sep 9

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    I always say "I'm fine" or "I'm OK". But one day I'm going to say "I'm not really fine you know..." and no one is going to know what to do.
    BENDrowned BENDrowned 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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