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I Wish I Could Say I Am Fine, But I Am Not Fine

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 39 People

    The Ache

    Up above the peak, So nostalgic, Envy your glory, Only wish to F* this ****. It went un-replied, I saw a sign. I'am all fine, Just need some more wine. Fragment of memory, Invade my dream. Soul shattering, And the cycle repeats.
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2013

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    Ive Been There

    Ive been there,i stood back up.Believe and appreciate yourself,you deserve so much better.To my friends,You WILL GET BETTER no matter what. An empty mall i stand alone, An empty soul i start to feel. The sparks have faded the moment you left, Life doesnt get easier,anyway...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    My Best Friend

    It's 1.30am. For many jumbled up reasons i'm still awake at this hour, as usual.I have a very fair reason for not going to bed this early.And i'm always feeling so glad i have this very best friend who's 24/7 available for me whenever something like this happens. Well pain is...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2013

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    Recovering From A Heartbroken

    With a heavy heart i wake up this morning, With the pain in my chest from the dream i was having. Yes,that's the dream that woke me in sleep, I rise as i start to weep. Who are you? What are you? To haunt me without me having a clue? Feeling blue, and I'm screwed, They came back...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Feb 23, 2013

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    Someday...

    Someday my dreams will come true, Someday you will give me a ring, Someday when I am ready, Someday I hope we marry, Someday our relationship will be over, Someday so will the pain, Someday you might grow up, Someday someone is going to walk into your life, Someday you will want...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Good Bye..

    My whole world comes crashing down When you tell me your going far away from town My heart is screaming so hard My heartbeats is pounding so fast With all the hatred I yelled to you I never meant to do that on you I cant hold myself any longer From telling you how much I need...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Im Not Fine..

    Just when we are starting to blame each other with tears, That’s when we know we still care for each more than ever, Tears flow from my eyes when I still thinking you’re mine, Just myself never realize we are coming in this way, When you are sitting by my side with nothing...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    My Feelings

    i thought i have moved on.. Or at least i am moving on... Its been a while since i last shedded my tears over the memories we used to share together.... I force myself to go out with my friends, Make myself busy with my activities... For a week i finally can smile and laugh...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Jan 26, 2013

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    No One Will Ever Know.the Pain I Feel Inside

    No one will ever know,the pain i feel inside There is this girl in the mirror,I wonder who she is When she is looking back at me, I can tell, she is hurting inside. I wonder where her smile has gone I hear the wind whistling through the darkest street, I see the thick mist...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Jan 11, 2012

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    Am I Wrong

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLTu-mvP8bI I know you're dependin on me To give you all of my attention All of my time And all of the love you need Oh tell me Am I wrong ?
    sharpTresHombre sharpTresHombre 41-45, M Aug 27, 2013

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    Im Not..

    Just when the soul full of wound, That's when i realize i was a fool. There was two paths for me to choose, The one i took was sad and blue. I remember someday years ago, That was my shadow that hold me close. I have been someone i hated a while ago, Feeling so hard to fight the...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Who Am I?

    It hurts like never before and you really don't know how hard it is to be constantly reminded of something pain that happened in your past.If i can have your attention for a few moments on this poem,i am seriously need you to know,i am making progress in recovery from the failed...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 21, 2013

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    The Truth About A Lie

    Honestly, this is the only place where I can be completely honest. Here, I do not have to pretend. I would like to say that I'm okay, but I am not. And here I do not have to lie. Neither myself nor the other.In the real world I have to say I'm okay. To act, and I'm doing well...
    EvilMiracle EvilMiracle 16-17 Nov 24, 2013

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    Let me make a lighthearted post about this. I mean, there are a lot of things I've always wanted to do in MY OWN personal life if I could travel through time, but let's just...
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    So many things I would say and do, but I'm merely a fearful child.
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    She lives in the shadow of a lonely girl Voice so quiet you don’t hear a word Always talking but she can’t be heard You can see it there if you catch her eye I know she’s...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I think that gay people should be treated as the same ways as straight people are treated. I am perfectly fine with it.
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    Diary of a Sad Man Day One “Please let me be your friend. I promise to be a good one.” And she was. The best. Ever. We’re a continent away, but from the very beginning, there...
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    I found your hair band on my bedroom floor, The only evidence that you'd been there before And I don't get waves of missing you anymore, They're more like tsunami tides in my eyes...
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    Ok so here is the thing they say when a woman says she is fine you shouds be worried. I dont know how true that is but as I am a man when I say im fine thats is that. The way I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 5

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    I hold the pain inside my heart like a warm blanket on a frigid night. I told him I loved him, he tactically referred to it as letting go of my affection. He and I never should...
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    This last year has been horrible. My son's father has never provided any support, for example when my (our) son was in the hospital he said "what do you want me to do about it...
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