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I Wish I Could Say I Am Fine, But I Am Not Fine

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    Am I Wrong

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLTu-mvP8bI I know you're dependin on me To give you all of my attention All of my time And all of the love you need Oh tell me Am I wrong ?
    sharpTresHombre sharpTresHombre 41-45, M Aug 27, 2013

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    My Best Friend

    It's 1.30am. For many jumbled up reasons i'm still awake at this hour, as usual.I have a very fair reason for not going to bed this early.And i'm always feeling so glad i have this very best friend who's 24/7 available for me whenever something like this happens. Well pain is...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2013

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    My Feelings

    i thought i have moved on.. Or at least i am moving on... Its been a while since i last shedded my tears over the memories we used to share together.... I force myself to go out with my friends, Make myself busy with my activities... For a week i finally can smile and laugh...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Jan 26, 2013

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    Im Not Fine..

    Just when we are starting to blame each other with tears, That’s when we know we still care for each more than ever, Tears flow from my eyes when I still thinking you’re mine, Just myself never realize we are coming in this way, When you are sitting by my side with nothing...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Who Am I?

    It hurts like never before and you really don't know how hard it is to be constantly reminded of something pain that happened in your past.If i can have your attention for a few moments on this poem,i am seriously need you to know,i am making progress in recovery from the failed...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 21, 2013

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    No One Will Ever Know.the Pain I Feel Inside

    No one will ever know,the pain i feel inside There is this girl in the mirror,I wonder who she is When she is looking back at me, I can tell, she is hurting inside. I wonder where her smile has gone I hear the wind whistling through the darkest street, I see the thick mist...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Jan 11, 2012

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    The Truth About A Lie

    Honestly, this is the only place where I can be completely honest. Here, I do not have to pretend. I would like to say that I'm okay, but I am not. And here I do not have to lie. Neither myself nor the other.In the real world I have to say I'm okay. To act, and I'm doing well...
    EvilMiracle EvilMiracle 16-17 Nov 24, 2013

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    Good Bye..

    My whole world comes crashing down When you tell me your going far away from town My heart is screaming so hard My heartbeats is pounding so fast With all the hatred I yelled to you I never meant to do that on you I cant hold myself any longer From telling you how much I need...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    The Ache

    Up above the peak, So nostalgic, Envy your glory, Only wish to F* this ****. It went un-replied, I saw a sign. I'am all fine, Just need some more wine. Fragment of memory, Invade my dream. Soul shattering, And the cycle repeats.
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2013

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    Someday...

    Someday my dreams will come true, Someday you will give me a ring, Someday when I am ready, Someday I hope we marry, Someday our relationship will be over, Someday so will the pain, Someday you might grow up, Someday someone is going to walk into your life, Someday you will want...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Recovering From A Heartbroken

    With a heavy heart i wake up this morning, With the pain in my chest from the dream i was having. Yes,that's the dream that woke me in sleep, I rise as i start to weep. Who are you? What are you? To haunt me without me having a clue? Feeling blue, and I'm screwed, They came back...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Feb 23, 2013

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    Ive Been There

    Ive been there,i stood back up.Believe and appreciate yourself,you deserve so much better.To my friends,You WILL GET BETTER no matter what. An empty mall i stand alone, An empty soul i start to feel. The sparks have faded the moment you left, Life doesnt get easier,anyway...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Im Not..

    Just when the soul full of wound, That's when i realize i was a fool. There was two paths for me to choose, The one i took was sad and blue. I remember someday years ago, That was my shadow that hold me close. I have been someone i hated a while ago, Feeling so hard to fight the...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Honestly, i kept worrying that my past mistakes or whatever that hurt me might haunt me if i don't deal with it, but i was too anxious to deal with it and i read online articles...
    Asatoka Asatoka 22-25, F Oct 12

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    But, i can't. so I'll just bottle it inside.
    niiggaaboo niiggaaboo 16-17, F Oct 11

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    What is on my mind? I'm thinking of something funny or cool to type but I cant
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    I take my boys up the my parents cabin in Big Bear as often as I can. The place is incredible with its many luxuries and spectacular views. It is right on the lake and I feel very...
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 26

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    I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. C r y i n g i n s i d e !
    Zoren047 Zoren047 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    It's a bit of a bad habit I have. I just say I'm doing "fine" or "great" instead of just saying how I actually feel. I feel like I want to talk about things that are going on with...
    TheAnimeGamer TheAnimeGamer 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 8

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    I wish I could If only I could My only thoughts are of you Constantly of you Nothing but you Wishing you were here With me as of now Waiting for something.. That's not going to...
    Roimata Roimata 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I know there are people I'm "important" to. But I mean, I wish there was someone in this world who made me a priority. Someone who would cancel plans with other people if I needed...
    shelleyj shelleyj 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I just wish I could do that, but humans heart is so stubborn and you cannot make it obey. it has it's own mind and can do it's own action. I just wish I could tell my heart no to...
    myleslus myleslus 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    My birth mother main lined heroin until I was born then gave me up for adoption. My adoptive parents gave me back (into foster care) when I was 13. My husband left when I was 8...
    Wasmyfatherwearingacape Wasmyfatherwearingacape 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    There's a cross on the side of the road where a mother lost her son. How could she know that the morning he left would be their last time? She'd trade with him for a little more...
    blossomingbeauti blossomingbeauti 36-40, F Sep 23

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    You know when you get the cue for the right time on some thing? well...i think this is it. this is my cue to divorce my husband. We have been very unhappy with our marriage. From...
    lilacslolita lilacslolita 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    Gee the government could use this advice but then I wonder... Can those who work in the government even read?
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Oct 3

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    Not many people realize how insecure I really am. I've always been a bigger girl, mostly for the food I was raised around (I'm from the south so... A lot of soul food.), but my...
    autumdawnn autumdawnn 16-17, F Oct 8

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    We've all thought about that one thing that sounds like it'll be a winner leaving our mouths. The situations may differ, but it's happened to all of us. It cycles through our...
    9Fan 9Fan 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    I wish I had a delete button in my life, to delete some people, some memories, and some feelings...
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I could've three times. But didn't. Nearly got hit by a car twice. And overdosing. I don't have a place here on this earth. I am so strange and bizarre. I don't fit in, I'm just...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 70+, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Happy sweetest day to the loves of my life my son n my bf I love them both so much I wish my bf was here but I got him anthor time 3/21/12 n to my son our bond is nun breakable 8...
    lovejazz1 lovejazz1 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    So, let me get this straight some youthful man wakes up 1 morning experience like he ought to have been born a woman and goes to a doctor to possess his penis Lower off. Then he...
    Jenipe Jenipe 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I'm one of those people who looks in the mirror and sees the flaws. Like walking into a house and seeing only mess. Like reading a story and being distracted by typos. When I was a...
    Fallflower Fallflower 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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    My dad always takes me dirk biking but I always ride whoevers bike. I just wish I had my own. But I'd probably just obsess over it so it's kind of a good thing I don't have one
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I woke up this morning, in my sister’s house where I am living now, thinking, “is this really my new reality?” Just a few weeks ago, I was living in a wonderful home with...
    sunlover7866 sunlover7866 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    I could not help myself... But you can rest a little easier, I washed my eyes before reading your stories...
    3Dogmatic 3Dogmatic 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 29

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    I can't wait till my belly is too big for my jeans so that I'll have to squize my belly into the jeans. Then I could put on a buttoned up shirt for then to pop the buttons...
    thetallgirl thetallgirl 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I always say I'm fine. Even when I am not. What concern is it of the asker anyway? I groomed myself from a young age to be completely self-reliant for all my mental, emotional and...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Sep 21

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    I hate how I'm basically lying to myself when I know that I'm definitely not fine. I wish I could get help but, I guess I'm afraid.. Depression is ruining my life
    ml2d ml2d 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    ...and I'm rarely ever freaking fine! I'm so tired of saying I'm fine when I'm not just to make others around me comfortable I could spit fire! I'm going to spend the next half of...
    cinaflower cinaflower 41-45, F Sep 23

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    I always say "I'm fine" or "I'm OK". But one day I'm going to say "I'm not really fine you know..." and no one is going to know what to do.
    BENDrowned BENDrowned 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    People come to me and say things like "how can you be strong? I admire you" "you've been through bad times and now you're doing fine." But I'm like do you even know me? Of course...
    Secretdiary92 Secretdiary92 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I really want to go to a doctor and get tested for depression and an anxiety disorder. I've done all these tests online because it's the closest I can get to the real thing. My...
    Wynnieskye Wynnieskye 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    Me: I'm fine ( thinking: no not at all) Other person: are you sure? Me: I'm totally fine ( I want to hide with a book and cry) Does anyone else ever do this?
    bugf9630 bugf9630 13-15 1 Response Sep 30

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    I always say it cause I don't want anyone to worry about me. If I tell someone that I have a problem, they'll try to figure it out or tell others and that's how people start...
    LeoGirl92 LeoGirl92 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    It is just easier to say "i'm fine" when asked. No one knows the real me. I keep up my guard so I will not be hurt like I was as a child by my family. When I am hurt I need to...
    smurphette smurphette 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    I say I'm fine but I'm not I have things I never told anyone like i was treated badly and slapped I can't stand when pepole wanna help when they don't I'm breaking down inside and...
    jeniffer200 jeniffer200 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    When ever my parents ask me how was my day I always say good or fine but really it was horrible I am considered a loser at my school but people aren't mean to me to my face but boy...
    liajip liajip 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 28

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