I Wish I Couldn't Feel

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 203 People

    The light of the full moon peered through the

    curtains and rousted me from my sleep. I can feel the stiffness in my back along with a mild throbbing in my head. The living room is filled with the faint sweet smell of the cherry wood burning in the fireplace, the low flames still dancing from the long evening. Looking to the...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix
    46-50, M
    1 Response Sep 26, 2015

    You know, once upon a time I felt everything

    so deeply. I would be upset over the tiniest things. For example, If I heard about someone dying whom I'd never met before, I would cry and feel pain. So I asked God to take away my ability to feel. I hated being overwhelmed with feeling other people's feelings. But now, I don't...
    Moonlight0runner Moonlight0runner
    22-25, F
    Apr 18, 2015

    Because then i wouldn't have to hurt everyday

    from the person i love the most
    littleduck79 littleduck79
    18-21, F
    Apr 18, 2015

    The Reason Why I Just Dont Care...

    Too many reasons to count I guess. The main one is I am tired of feeling so damn sad all the time. I dont think I am depressed either, just tired of wanting these things that are so far out of my grasp. I am in love with someone who I dont know if she feels the same way...
    Justdontcare Justdontcare
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2010

    I cry too much and too easily.

    I get made fun of but people don't understand the things I've been through that make me so willing to grasp onto sad and beautiful concepts.. And cry about them. From comedy shows, to Disney movies, to motivational videos on YouTube, to commercials, to songs. no matter where I...
    shannzzy shannzzy
    22-25, F
    Apr 18, 2015
    olivvia olivvia
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2015

    Love is painful, pointless

    and over rated. It's a curse. It leaves you paralyzed with pain, guilt, anger and hopelessness. There is no light in the world that can make you see the way to hope. Coz hope is just as deluded as the person who believes falling in love will make things right. #lovesucks.
    prajaya123 prajaya123
    22-25, M
    Jul 5, 2014

    I find it odd how a heart can be crushed over

    and over again. To go through thousands of deaths by the hand of a single person. It is of little difference whether it is self induced or whether it is from circumstances. Outside of my digital world I keep to myself, always wary and untrusting of those who come across me. But...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix
    46-50, M
    1 Response Nov 6, 2015

    ALOT of thinsgs happend in the passed hour!

    !! I cant breath I cant breath
    cece14779 cece14779
    16-17, F
    Apr 23, 2015

    I still can't forgive how people treated me in

    middle school and high school.
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo
    18-21
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

    All my hope and hardwork brief moments of

    happiness turn into repeated faliure worse each time.Hate shame saddness intense torment rage.I wanna live but not like this.Save me from this madness,from myself.
    invisbleme78 invisbleme78
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2015
    brynai brynai
    16-17, F
    Apr 17, 2015

    I completely disagree with the old saying.

    "I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all." Ummm, no. I'll take the latter, please!
    ShesSimplyKenny ShesSimplyKenny
    18-21, F
    Apr 18, 2015

    If I didn't feel I wouldn't have been able to

    hurt the greatest person in my life, because I simply wouldn't have asked her out.
    2b5h 2b5h
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 18, 2015

    With just a stroke of a pen all will be changed,

    life as I know it will never be the same. My kids I won't see as often as I'd like, to be there when they rise in the morning or to wish them goodnight. There was something I saw in her that I know is still there, under all of her anger and all of her spite I know she once cared...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    Confession of a Love Sick Fool #2 I'm still in

    love with my ex boyfriend. Its almost 2 months since we broke up. He broke up with me. He says he don't feel the spark anymore. Sadly I still do. I thought maybe I could have him fall for me again. but its all in vain. I just don't wanna feel when he falls in love with anyone...
    lilnekomeow lilnekomeow
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2015

    I lost all my positive feeling

    and I'm so desperate to feel them again. I just feel feelings like sadness and loneliness etc. I don't even believe in love anymore .I WANT TO FEEL. I am even expressionless .
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer
    16-17, F
    Jun 24, 2014

    I wish I couldn't feel,

    so that I wouldn't be able to feel anything that could make me sad or get hurt. Sucks
    ajdream ajdream
    18-21, F
    Apr 18, 2015

    I'm starting to not feel anymore.

    I'm filled with an empty nothingness, It's taking a lot to make me genuinely smile but inside is still hollow😕
    TheyNeverKnew TheyNeverKnew
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jun 24, 2014

    I had a brutal evening last night.

    I had a plan I wanted to set in place concerning my move into the apartment I recently had leased. I wanted to have it all set up and furnished before telling my boys of the news and inviting them to spend the weekend thereby starting the typical shared custody arrangement...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2015

    When is enough enough?

    I've always try to help others when needed and if I'm able to. I get a sense of accomplishment, a good deed done that benefits those than me. Lately I've been trying to help my twenty something child, offering guidance and money if I have to give. But despite my efforts it seems...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix
    46-50, M
    Jul 20, 2015

    i sit up every night cutting deeper into my

    thighs and wrists for that moment of relief
    iwillbegonesoon iwillbegonesoon
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2014
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