I Wish I Didn't Exist

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 371 People

    Less and Less Convincing

    The only reason to live your life is because it's yours. But what if such an answer becomes less and less convincing?  This is a Julian Barnes quote, a contemporary British author who clearly knows something about such things.  I feel damaged and deficient...
    lokilux lokilux
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2009

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 3

    I Might Have Bipolar Disorder

    I have strange noises going inside my head. I cry every time when people yell at me. Pictures can be strange in my head and can distract me at school, I have trouble sleeping, my mom tells me to read the the bible to make me sleep but it does not work, I  have a bad attitude...
    lonelygurl555 lonelygurl555
    3 Responses May 9, 2011

    I sometimes wish I didn't exist

    because of all the bad things that I have done, and all the pain that I cause on the people I love. I haven't been happy in years therefore my life isn't very enjoyable. I wish I was never bought into existence so that I wouldn't have to deal with this nightmare and feel so much...
    KartierCutie18 KartierCutie18
    18-21, F
    Apr 2

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1


    I work hard in track! Don't get put in races! I try hard in school! Don't get good grades! I try to eat better! I get fatter! I be a good friend! I get shut out of groups! What am I doing wrong?
    kmg0822 kmg0822
    1 Response Jan 3, 2013
    scissorovacomb scissorovacomb
    31-35, F
    Jul 18, 2015

    I wish, I didn't exist.

    I want, nobody to worry about me. I hope, I get to rest one day. I need, for you to let me go. I don't, want you to be hurt by me. I dream, they day I can be free. I love, the way you made me feel. Too late, my wounds will never heal.
    Kitzami Kitzami
    16-17, M
    Mar 21, 2014

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1

    If only there weren't things

    that draw me back from ending this misery...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 8, 2015

    Compared to everyone I know of I don't

    even think I accomplished 5% of what they have achieved in life. I feel so useless, I feel like I can't do anything right, everything I try to do-- it just ends up as a complete messed up failure. I've been having lots of drama with my male friends. My gf that I've been with for...
    LifeSuxorz LifeSuxorz
    1 Response Sep 25, 2014

    Everyday I feel like I don't fit in.

    Every single day of my life I think that my mother deserves a better son. I don't want to be an obstacle in her life. I don't want to become another burden she has to carry. My existence does not bring happiness to anyone including myself. I just..wish I didn't exist to make...
    qwepoiqeqrpoi qwepoiqeqrpoi
    18-21, M
    Sep 10, 2015

    It's not that I wish it.

    I don't. The stupid hand dryer in my school bathroom didn't turn on and so I left and it worked for the girl after and before me. And the stupid automatic doors for stores didn't open for me. Today's been a very crappy day. I guess I really don't exist. I mean, I'm posting my...
    greenday83 greenday83
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2014

    Shipwreck Sub

    I really am not sure what to say. I don't want to talk on forever. I just need to get it out of my system. This is my first post, please be nice. This isn't a story that is at all exciting or dramatically sad. I am not sure why I have decided to tell this. Perhaps the emptiness...
    3 Responses Feb 15, 2013

    I'm tired of being a life im really tired what

    a life i have. My brother cant keep secrets and keeps and always lie my mother is always mad at me and the most mad is at me my dad lies to. My cousin gets mad at me and my small cousin named jonnathan 5 years old majes me angry all the time i visit him now i now what a life is...
    yosua yosua
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 17, 2015

    Right Now.. I Wish I Didnt Exist.

    i wish life was about who we are on the inside. underneath the clothes and fear. i wish people could value and love one another. right now i want to run awaay from everything. several people have told me the world would be better without me. maybe thats true. maybe i should just...
    amandailiana91 amandailiana91
    2 Responses May 6, 2012

    I'm tired of people's bullshiit.

    People just **** me the fuuck off and sometimes after awhile I want to start a fight and kill a biitch.
    XjigXsawX XjigXsawX
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1

    All I am good for is the occasional pity laugh,

    a bad example, or to make others look better in comparison. No matter how much I try, I can't fix my life. I have never made any accomplishments that haven't been the direct work of someone else. People have always had to help me with challenges that I should be able to face...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 3, 2014

    My biggest fear used to be

    that I might someday cease to exist. Now I don't really fear it anymore, because if I didn't exist, I would never know, now would I? I even sometimes find myself wishing for complete oblivion. No more pain. No more anything.
    NeonAshes NeonAshes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 8

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 10

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 3

    I wish I was never born.

    I am highly sensitive and very emotional. I'm so confused. I feel so completely alone right now. No words to express. I wish God would bring me Home
    Ambermist25 Ambermist25
    41-45, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2015


    I recently went to a grocery store where I shop quite often on my way to a now former friend's place. The cashier began the typical small talk. "What are you up to today?" she asked. Instead of my usual answer of "nothing", I decided to speak the truth because I was in a rare...
    Xanthion Xanthion
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jan 20, 2013

    i just wish that i didn't.

    Life is a unique and one of a kind opportunity and existing is being able to experience the only thing we'll ever know. But I just wish I wasn't here. It's not that I want to die, per say. I guess I do. I don't want to kill myself but I wouldn't be opposed to unexpectedly dying...
    bananapajam bananapajam
    16-17, M
    Jan 28, 2014


    I typed I wish I didn't exist into google to see if I could find anyone else like me. There is not a day that goes by that I beg God to just take me please. Everyday I pray. I know what I should do [meaning what society says] is that I should put my trust in God that life will...
    whocaresanymore whocaresanymore
    5 Responses Oct 5, 2008

    When things are tough sometimes we convince

    ourselves that the way to be strong is to shut everyone out.
    Bg3242 Bg3242
    16-17, F
    Jul 19, 2015

    Just Can't Stay Happy...

    Over the past week, I've been feeling more and more depressed. I've just started at a university that is about 1900 miles away from home, so I know nobody, and I feel like the loneliness is crushing me.  I have no idea what I want to do with my life, and the idea of...
    unbelievablylonely unbelievablylonely
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Sep 3, 2009

    That way I couldn't hurt anyone

    and I wouldn't have to feel pain. I wouldn't love 2 people at once. I wouldn't love my gf who is crazy about me. I wouldn't love my ex best friend who hates me and doesn't talk to me anymore. I have lost my mind in regards to my ex best friend. She wants nothing to do with me...
    cajunGirl14 cajunGirl14
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

    because for every good thing

    that makes me love being alive, there are a bunch of negative things surrounding me...and I am not depressed or anything, I don't intend to kill myself just yet, because I can still find excitement in life and i can still move around and not depend on anyone...but most of the...
    retarfrenu retarfrenu
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 26, 2014

    It's funny how in real life you have

    that one person who claims there there for you that one person who is supposed to be by you're side through thick and thin but they just leave... I only have 2 of those people and I met them both on EP but this one just left the one who protected me at school the one who was...
    Suicidalgirl2k15 Suicidalgirl2k15
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 6

    its those moments wen u feel invisible

    when ur around everyone but yet no one can see u wen ur actually in front of then and u know ur there but yet so far from everyone thats moments where ik i shouldn't exist cause im invisible to everyone in my life
    rayy17 rayy17
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 7

    I wish I could travel back in time

    and make sure my mother never got pregnant with me.
    ifonlydreamscametrue ifonlydreamscametrue
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2014
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 14

    If only I could have a period off.

    If only everything would stop for a couple of years until I could revive and refresh.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 29, 2015

    Things Would Have Been Better

    Seriously. I shouldn't exist. I was never meant to. I was conceived because my parents slept together without protection and my mom couldn't afford an abortion. Everything went downhill from there. The two sides of my family hated each other. I didn't meet my paternal family...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril
    18-21, F
    Aug 4, 2013
    LoveIsInTheBlood LoveIsInTheBlood
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2015

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    16-17, M
    Oct 17, 2015

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