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I Wish I Didn't Exist

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    Why?

    I work hard in track! Don't get put in races! I try hard in school! Don't get good grades! I try to eat better! I get fatter! I be a good friend! I get shut out of groups! What am I doing wrong?
    kmg0822 kmg0822 16-17 1 Response Jan 3, 2013

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    Less and Less Convincing

    The only reason to live your life is because it's yours. But what if such an answer becomes less and less convincing?  This is a Julian Barnes quote, a contemporary British author who clearly knows something about such things.  I feel damaged and deficient...
    lokilux lokilux 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 22, 2009

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    My Life

    All the things that twirl around in my life the one thing that solves it all is: I WISH I DIDN’T EXIST :D it’s the best way to solve all my problems!
    isobella121 isobella121 13-15, F Mar 7, 2013

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    I Might Have Bipolar Disorder

    I have strange noises going inside my head. I cry every time when people yell at me. Pictures can be strange in my head and can distract me at school, I have trouble sleeping, my mom tells me to read the the bible to make me sleep but it does not work, I  have a bad attitude...
    lonelygurl555 lonelygurl555 13-15 3 Responses May 9, 2011

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    I'm Beyond Pathetic

    I can't even pull the trigger when I hold a gun to my head. I want to be a writer, or an artist, or something I would enjoy. Problem is I can't do anything I enjoy. So instead I just sulk and make everyone around me miserable, and cut words into my skin like some ritual. I'm...
    SirAlexanderWolfgang SirAlexanderWolfgang 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    Just Can't Stay Happy...

    Over the past week, I've been feeling more and more depressed. I've just started at a university that is about 1900 miles away from home, so I know nobody, and I feel like the loneliness is crushing me.  I have no idea what I want to do with my life, and the idea of...
    unbelievablylonely unbelievablylonely 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    All I am good for is the occasional pity laugh,

    a bad example, or to make others look better in comparison. No matter how much I try, I can't fix my life. I have never made any accomplishments that haven't been the direct work of someone else. People have always had to help me with challenges that I should be able to face...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    That way I couldn't hurt anyone

    and I wouldn't have to feel pain. I wouldn't love 2 people at once. I wouldn't love my gf who is crazy about me. I wouldn't love my ex best friend who hates me and doesn't talk to me anymore. I have lost my mind in regards to my ex best friend. She wants nothing to do with me...
    cajunGirl14 cajunGirl14 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

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    It's not that I wish it.

    I don't. The stupid hand dryer in my school bathroom didn't turn on and so I left and it worked for the girl after and before me. And the stupid automatic doors for stores didn't open for me. Today's been a very crappy day. I guess I really don't exist. I mean, I'm posting my...
    greenday83 greenday83 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2014

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    I dont know why the hell i was born

    if im destined to be a homeless man on the street . I hate living just thinking of the future makes me more depressing . My parents are overprotective and regilious forceful people which makes it even worse . And i have no skill or talent so i rather not live tbh . Fk life i...
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 13, 2014

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    I wish I could travel back in time

    and make sure my mother never got pregnant with me.
    ifonlydreamscametrue ifonlydreamscametrue 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    because for every good thing

    that makes me love being alive, there are a bunch of negative things surrounding me...and I am not depressed or anything, I don't intend to kill myself just yet, because I can still find excitement in life and i can still move around and not depend on anyone...but most of the...
    retarfrenu retarfrenu 31-35, M 1 Response May 26, 2014

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    I'm too scared to kill myself

    but I'm terrified of the future. I honestly think everything would be better if I was just never a thing that happened.
    ahsfan445 ahsfan445 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 9, 2014

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    Things Would Have Been Better

    Seriously. I shouldn't exist. I was never meant to. I was conceived because my parents slept together without protection and my mom couldn't afford an abortion. Everything went downhill from there. The two sides of my family hated each other. I didn't meet my paternal family...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F Aug 4, 2013

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    People...

    I recently went to a grocery store where I shop quite often on my way to a now former friend's place. The cashier began the typical small talk. "What are you up to today?" she asked. Instead of my usual answer of "nothing", I decided to speak the truth because I was in a rare...
    Xanthion Xanthion 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 20, 2013

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    Compared to everyone I know of I don't

    even think I accomplished 5% of what they have achieved in life. I feel so useless, I feel like I can't do anything right, everything I try to do-- it just ends up as a complete messed up failure. I've been having lots of drama with my male friends. My gf that I've been with for...
    LifeSuxorz LifeSuxorz 26-30 1 Response Sep 25, 2014

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    i just wish that i didn't.

    Life is a unique and one of a kind opportunity and existing is being able to experience the only thing we'll ever know. But I just wish I wasn't here. It's not that I want to die, per say. I guess I do. I don't want to kill myself but I wouldn't be opposed to unexpectedly dying...
    bananapajam bananapajam 16-17, M Jan 28, 2014

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    I wish, I didn't exist.

    I want, nobody to worry about me. I hope, I get to rest one day. I need, for you to let me go. I don't, want you to be hurt by me. I dream, they day I can be free. I love, the way you made me feel. Too late, my wounds will never heal.
    Kitzami Kitzami 16-17, M Mar 21, 2014

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    Right Now.. I Wish I Didnt Exist.

    i wish life was about who we are on the inside. underneath the clothes and fear. i wish people could value and love one another. right now i want to run awaay from everything. several people have told me the world would be better without me. maybe thats true. maybe i should just...
    amandailiana91 amandailiana91 18-21 2 Responses May 6, 2012

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    Google?

    I typed I wish I didn't exist into google to see if I could find anyone else like me. There is not a day that goes by that I beg God to just take me please. Everyday I pray. I know what I should do [meaning what society says] is that I should put my trust in God that life will...
    whocaresanymore whocaresanymore 16-17 5 Responses Oct 5, 2008

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    If it didn't exist he wouldn't be hurting nor dying
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    Yeah, I did, unrequited love seemed on the cards when I met her. But I didn't expect her to cheat on me. I actually cared about her and she threw it back in my face. It was a while...
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    Hi guys it's atfenix here and I'm just saying before I begin my story that this is completely true and I'm still in the predicament... So bear with me! Please like and comment, it...
    atfenix atfenix 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    I guess I still love her in a way. I need to learn not to think of her when i am in a vulnerable position. I have tried to fix my relationship with mom since I left home in 2007...
    Theaudienceofdeath Theaudienceofdeath 70+, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    I remember I Missed all my high school prom all through age sixteen all the way through age twenty one every year during high school my mom never understood why I didn't want to go...
    Theinfo Theinfo 22-25, M 23 hrs ago

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    I didn't wait tell marriage to have sex but i guess it's to late now I didn't even like it at all it just everyone around me didn't wait tell marriage so I just said lets do this
    tackett2002 tackett2002 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I didn't know I was a side chick, I really didn't. I met this guy last year around November, at a party. He was so nice, I was drawn to him instantly. We exchanged numbers...
    RickaylaBeard RickaylaBeard 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    I've always had friends, never been actually alone but i've always felt like i didn't fit in. Im now a law student and it just keeps getting worst. All throughout my school years...
    Estre28 Estre28 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    More like; everything was going well until I finally saw his true colors. I was dating this guy, we can call him R. So me and R were friends last year and soon we became close...
    HonestlyAlyassa HonestlyAlyassa 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 3

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    Hi This is the real story. but you will felt this is lie. Nooo I didn't new to retract foreskin until i was 19. i learn it on internet. My parents didn't teach me about it...
    kavishr kavishr 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 8

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    A coworker accidentally walked in while I was using the bathroom. I could tell she was embarrassed but that didn't stop her from looking directly at my **** in my hand for a couple...
    allencw allencw 31-35, M Mar 10

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    I am a massive idiot. I joined the "crazy guy that went half way around the world and blew his money for a girl who in the end didn't give a **** about him" club. A few months ago...
    Sheiskeepingmetogether Sheiskeepingmetogether 18-21, M 6 Responses Mar 11

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    So i met this guy Lumi on internet And i thought he was the one i mean we talked tk each other 24/7 , i really thought i knew him , we liked the same things and shared the same...
    Lellaa Lellaa 16-17, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Everyone has their own group of friends. I felt like I never was meant to have any friends. I didn't fit in with anyone. I tried so hard to have the guy I was totally "in love...
    bonyknees bonyknees 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    Mom didn't buy me any pumped up kicks
    Youcanthandlemyusername Youcanthandlemyusername 22-25, M Mar 2

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    Dear Shammu , 6 months back , I had no idea who you were and one day you just walked into my life , I didn't think I'd ever fall for you and I did , i fell hopelessly in love with...
    rifki rifki 18-21, M Mar 10

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    There was a guy I liked, he and I talked about it, 'cause I wanted to know if he liked me too. But he didn't... We're still friends, and we go out, like, almost every week-end...
    Naockey Naockey 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I didn't wait until marriage but I did wait until after I turned 18 and graduated from high school, it was with a guy I worked with and flirted with for a year. he wasn't special...
    ambernoel ambernoel 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    The idea of waiting till marriage always seemed perfect to me. But I knew that it would probably never happen that way. My boyfriend and I will be together for 4 years next month...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 17

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    It's heartbroken .when you loved someone by heart,it turned out he didn't.
    lesliechen lesliechen 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 17

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    I met someone wen I was 15 going through a really rough time. I am best friends wit this guy still to this day. I loved him like no other than wen we were 20. he told me that he no...
    jazzyphay2 jazzyphay2 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I lost my virginity when I was 15. I wouldn't say it was a fairytale or even my boyfriend. Like you I felt I was missing something in my life. I did it purely for the experience...
    heishell heishell 36-40, F 3 Responses 4 days ago