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I Wish I Didn't Have a Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 123 People

    Love Hurts, Sometimes I Wonder If It's Worth It

    i'm not talking about romantic love, although that hurts too when it goes wrong. just any love. i've learnt that if i love someone, then 100% i will HAVE to feel pain because of that love .. whether it's because the love isn't returned, or the person you love goes away or dies...
    lilithmagdala lilithmagdala 46-50 1 Response Mar 26, 2011

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    Sometimes I Do Not

    My heart has gotten me in numerous crappy situations over the years. It has led me away from my home of California twice for naught. It led me into guys beds that were losers when all I wanted was a relationship(ha!). Its destroyed my head many times. They don't work together at...
    Kittychanel Kittychanel 41-45, F Aug 6, 2012

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    Loneliness Is My Friends

    When I was in My Old School . I Believed I Have A Friends. but i realized They aren't.. They Are Talk behind my back. and Backbiting. They Are A fake. only if I Had A Time Machine. And If I Had Any problem they Forgot me.... And That Way A Friends Are nothing Just by the Name...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    Sometimes

    Sometimes I welcome the hurt, because emotional pain is part of life. Feeling it helps me feel that i am alive, that I am experiencing life. But other times it is too much, and I wish I didn't feel. I wish I were numb. It just hurts too much.
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 20, 2010

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    I really wish I did not have a heart. I regret falling in Love so much right at this moment, because I am honestly feeling nothing but pain.  The texts, and the confessions just opened up all the pain, all over again, and it ******* HURTS! I wish I had enver meant him, i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 11, 2010

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    I Really Do

    If I had no heart I couldn't feel hurt. It wouldn't break. People wouldn't destroy it and stamp all over it. I wouldn't care if others treated me badly or didn't like me. I know there are some good things about having a heart, I suppose, but I think my life would be better if all...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    Because....

    Sometimes it hurts really bad, and its one of the worst pains....
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2009

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    The Deepest Cut

    it hurts but sometimes I wish I'd have no heart anyomore...just so I wouldn't get hurt, and all the pain would stop. And that i would be numb. because it hurts too much already, and i would like it all to stop. But then again, life isn't life if there's no pain in it. It wouldn't...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 11, 2008

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    "I Wish I Didn't Have a Heart"

    Sometimes I really wish I didn't have a heart, without a heart, than you can't be heartbroken, you can't know this pain, the constant stabs going into your heart all day. It hurts so bad. And it is to the point, that I wish I didn't have a heart.
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    did anyone honestly wait? ur "husband" probably didn't wait either. so why should you?
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