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I Wish I Didn't Have a Heart

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    "I Wish I Didn't Have a Heart"

    Sometimes I really wish I didn't have a heart, without a heart, than you can't be heartbroken, you can't know this pain, the constant stabs going into your heart all day. It hurts so bad. And it is to the point, that I wish I didn't have a heart.
    DyinToBeLoved DyinToBeLoved 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2008

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    I Really Do

    If I had no heart I couldn't feel hurt. It wouldn't break. People wouldn't destroy it and stamp all over it. I wouldn't care if others treated me badly or didn't like me. I know there are some good things about having a heart, I suppose, but I think my life would be better if all...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    Love Hurts, Sometimes I Wonder If It's Worth It

    i'm not talking about romantic love, although that hurts too when it goes wrong. just any love. i've learnt that if i love someone, then 100% i will HAVE to feel pain because of that love .. whether it's because the love isn't returned, or the person you love goes away or dies...
    lilithmagdala lilithmagdala 46-50 1 Response Mar 26, 2011

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    Loneliness Is My Friends

    When I was in My Old School . I Believed I Have A Friends. but i realized They aren't.. They Are Talk behind my back. and Backbiting. They Are A fake. only if I Had A Time Machine. And If I Had Any problem they Forgot me.... And That Way A Friends Are nothing Just by the Name...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    I really wish I did not have a heart. I regret falling in Love so much right at this moment, because I am honestly feeling nothing but pain.  The texts, and the confessions just opened up all the pain, all over again, and it ******* HURTS! I wish I had enver meant him, i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 11, 2010

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    Sometimes I Do Not

    My heart has gotten me in numerous crappy situations over the years. It has led me away from my home of California twice for naught. It led me into guys beds that were losers when all I wanted was a relationship(ha!). Its destroyed my head many times. They don't work together at...
    Kittychanel Kittychanel 41-45, F Aug 6, 2012

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    Because....

    Sometimes it hurts really bad, and its one of the worst pains....
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 28, 2009

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    I wish I wouldn´t have a heart

    so nobody could hurt me again.
    Loretta78 Loretta78 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sometimes

    Sometimes I welcome the hurt, because emotional pain is part of life. Feeling it helps me feel that i am alive, that I am experiencing life. But other times it is too much, and I wish I didn't feel. I wish I were numb. It just hurts too much.
    accomplice accomplice 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 20, 2010

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    The Deepest Cut

    it hurts but sometimes I wish I'd have no heart anyomore...just so I wouldn't get hurt, and all the pain would stop. And that i would be numb. because it hurts too much already, and i would like it all to stop. But then again, life isn't life if there's no pain in it. It wouldn't...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 11, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    This section is becoming my most "popular" experience area, but I suppose it's easier to talk about something as I am experiencing it as opposed to in any other way. Today was, as...
    RaiseYourWhat RaiseYourWhat 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I had an epiphany today. Already. 7:30 in the mornin! I hadn't wanted to move on before (past few months) because it's scary. I didn't know what was ahead, what would happen in my...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 70+, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am female and thinking, if I was a man I wouldn't have to deal with a menstrual period every month like right now. And I have cramps too + bloated + period headache + cranky...
    FantasticMe FantasticMe 46-50, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    that awkward moment someone thinks this is a dating site and posts that they're looking for a serious relationship on here of all places! I'm just gonna pretend I didn't see that
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Today in the wonderful world of wanting someone I can't have I was reminded of how painful it is to know the "other person" really does exist. He and I were joking, all day long...
    RaiseYourWhat RaiseYourWhat 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    3 months ago he said he wanted just casual , now I notice on facebook he is in a relationship with a blonde tanned big boo ones angry looking woman who never smiles in her pictures...
    uncontrollabledesire88 uncontrollabledesire88 26-30, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    If I didn't have emotions then I wouldn't make all the stupid mistakes I make. I act impulsively based on my feelings and that just screws things up for me, I'm just too honest...
    ThePiggycorn ThePiggycorn 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It has been a comfort, being a member of this EP group, there are so many people in a similar boat and sharing a similar pain it is truly comforting. Emotions are such a...
    RaiseYourWhat RaiseYourWhat 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to have a really great relationahip with my dad, visit him on weekends, but when I was around 14 he started dating people. It didn't bother me that much its just that he...
    PoisonedxxApple PoisonedxxApple 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I started school and normally I get s text saying have a good first day of school but I didn't and I'm breaking down like a little ****! I lost it today so bad! he can't just...
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I definitely didn't wait until marriage as I have a bun in the oven!
    lisaW16 lisaW16 16-17, F 13 Responses 4 days ago

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    This isn't really anywhere close to anyone else's experiences, most others dated or even married someone, only to have their heart broken. My experience isn't exactly like that...
    Venum21 Venum21 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    7 months ago, I met this guy and I felt like we clicked. Unfortunately, we had sex the first time we met. I learned that he was going through a divorce. We got close very quickly...
    EmberBishop EmberBishop 26-30, F 13 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was previously seeing someone who I fell for. Cut the long story short, he woo'd me and done everything to make me fall for him. I was in a really bad relationship before I met...
    cancerian19 cancerian19 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    And it made me never want to love someone like that ever again. I'd actually met this guy when we were both in first grade. He and I attended the same elementary school for a while...
    Curlatte3845 Curlatte3845 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    My first experience of love was begin when I was in 11th standard.. he was my classmate from 6th class to 12th class.. but till 10th class we've never talked,but in 11th class we...
    Cutieeshweta52 Cutieeshweta52 18-21, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    I was abused at three and abused for ten years from 7 to 15 starting cutting at seventeen and going from hospital to hospital but been saved at 19 or 20 years old where I learned...
    Nikkilight25 Nikkilight25 22-25 1 Response Aug 26

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    I hate emotions.I think they r useless and painful and really unnecessary.I mean why do people have to feel pain and sadness and everything else we feel?Its a little easier for me...
    Shireene92 Shireene92 16-17, F Aug 25

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    I love him... But now I know.. He never loved me. All the time wasted.. Why? Why can't someone just be honest for once and say what they feel? I poured my heart n soul into him...
    ocenblu ocenblu 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    The biologic was a violent drunk, who only came home when he'd run out of panhandling money, and winter was setting in (he lived under a bridge in the warmer months). Mom finally...
    SemperFido SemperFido 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 25

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    No ones gonna save me. They didn't then. They arent now. They won't when the future comes. I can't even save myself. Yet- onward.
    coerietheraven coerietheraven 22-25, M Aug 25

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    When i saw this group, i was torn between feeling this way and yet at the same time not. I had a fairly decent childhood as far as anyone could see. My parents were good at hiding...
    sherbear182 sherbear182 18-21, F Aug 25

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    well I don't think she did, It basically started when our IT teacher told the boys to sit down but make sure that a seat was available next to us, then she told the girls to sit in...
    Ralbarda Ralbarda 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    I had an abusive childhood and I told so many people about it (my distant family who didn't believe me because my stepfather was so charming, charismatic, and manipulative around...
    BunheadSalamander BunheadSalamander 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Before my husband came out of the closet he destroyed me as a human being. I just didn't know.
    ajeanshadow ajeanshadow 51-55, F 8 Responses Aug 24

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    A Letter to A Customer, I know you're busy. So am I. But I wanted to take a moment to let you know that caught your daughter climbing the shelves in my department yesterday. Her...
    BabyRottie BabyRottie 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Well it started when I was in middle school his name was Nelson and I can say that I love him. Although I never told him how I felt...he was just a good friend haha yeah. All of my...
    Taniays Taniays 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    people Ignores meI know I'm ugly but I didn't create myselfthat's not fairanyway I get used to be alone I feel that I'm beastI'm not talkin about mself that what she said I'm so...
    minoSosimple minoSosimple 18-21, M Aug 21

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    But on the bright side, Im making enchiladas tomorrow. Im pretty effing stoked about that.
    NaniStorey NaniStorey 18-21, F Aug 21

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    Disclaimer: I'm not posting this to change anybody's mind or challenge any beliefs, this is simply my take on how sex affected me. No, I didn't wait. There was a time when it...
    Teedge Teedge 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I think some people shouldn't have kids. I'm not trying to be mean or rude, but I think in many casses, it's simply irresponsible. It's irresponsible as a inhabitor or this planet...
    FallenButterflies FallenButterflies 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    i think the teenagers or young adults like myself shouldn't have a baby. if the only thing you want to do is go out and party. and just expect other people to watch your kid for...
    Clb037 Clb037 18-21 4 Responses Aug 18