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I Wish I Had a Dad

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    I Hate Him... I Think

    Well, actually I'm not too sure. Sometimes I hate him, sometimes I love him. I've never seen him. From before I was born he used to abuse my sisters sexually. Shortly after I was born, my mom found out and sent the police on him. He went to prison for ten years, I think. When I...
    TrueBlueKid TrueBlueKid 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    I Wish I Had Just One Childhood Memory of Him

    Every so often I just get sad I've always wished that I had just one childhood memory of him. My mom and dad had me when my mom was 15 and my dad was 17. I get that they were scared and everything. Who wouldn't be? But then they separated when I was 8. I didn't know how and why...
    imnottypical imnottypical 18-21 1 Response Oct 26, 2008

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    Technically I Do.

    In a way I feel bad about joining this group because I know a lot of people are in far worse situations with their dads than me. Technically, I do have a dad. I know him & he's somewhat been a part of my life. But not as big of a part as I, or probably even he, wishes that he...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F Apr 22, 2010

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    It Isn't Fair

    For as far back as I can remember, my dad had been abusive. He would yell at and physically abuse me and my mom and eventually my younger sister, even after my parents got divorced when I was 10. I can't remember a time in my life when I didn't wish I had a different dad. I...
    gypsygirl2 gypsygirl2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2011

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    We Don't Choose Our Dads,do We?

    My father left when I was 2 years old. My mom was 8 months pregnant with my sister. I have a memory of him lifting me out of my crib and saying goodbye. My mother remarried 4 years later. I did not think much about having a dad at 6 years old. He was and still is a very cold...
    Lynne48 Lynne48 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2010

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    My Dad

    SOME PEOPLE DONT HAVE DADS, BUT DONT WAIT FOR THEM JUST HAVE FUN WITH YOUR LIFE! :) When I was young my mom could not keep me because she drank and took drugs when I was in her stomach So when I was only 5 days old I went into foster care. My birth mom well...  I have always...
    Mia198 Mia198 13-15 May 15, 2011

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    A Real Dad

    I have my biological father, but he doesn't act like a good father. He is actually a bad father to me and my older sister, i honestly think he doesn't care about us or my mom. It's all about him, him, him. He acts like a child and i can't wait to move out when i turn 18...
    LielleRose LielleRose 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 11, 2013

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    My Dad

    When I saw Mr Scott on the religious channel. He spoke of the importance of being a good dad to his children. Tears came to my eyes. It was a beautiful thing to know that there are still families out there with two nurturing parents. I never had a dad. I would have given...
    Michael32 Michael32 41-45 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    A Letter To My Father.

    Your face I only knew in Photographs. You left this world, someone took you away. How I wish you could have been  there for my first date, taught me to play guitar, Pushed me on the swing.  I do not have a single memory I can hold in my heart, Only the...
    CheekyGeek CheekyGeek 41-45 4 Responses Apr 23, 2010

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    I Don't Have a Title. :/

     I used to be a daddy's girl when I was younger, when my mom would make me mad, I'd tell her "I'm telling my dad!". He was a funny guy and was always there. He was a fantastic dad. But after my brother died, then a few years later when my grandparents - his...
    tasertag tasertag 16-17 2 Responses Dec 23, 2008

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    Daddy I Miss U

    today was the first time i've realized how much i miss my dad. I always knew something was wrong with me from the past two years. i was attracted to every guy that was nice to me. i didn't really like them but just fantasized about a friendship with a guy whom i could share my...
    bhavyasai3 bhavyasai3 13-15 1 Response May 3, 2012

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    Not Sure

    Well, how to begin... My father was the best man in the world and he always will be to me...He was a electrician, helped everyone that needed for free... always so kind and respectful, everyone that knew him that I meet say that he was a good man, so he is my example... I loved...
    FlavioW FlavioW 18-21, M 2 Responses May 24, 2011

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    I lost my Dad when I was four

    so yea....I have a had a lot of time to think about his death, fathers, him and well, everything. I was four and although I was in the room right next to his when he shot himself in the head and had been with him...like minutes ago and despite the fact I clearly remember each...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 13

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    Is There Anyone There?

    Pretty well all my friends have a dad but not me, I dont think even my mum knows who he is. I live with my mum and she's great but cant keep me out of trouble any more. Im 13 and getting into all sorts of stuff and wonder if i had a dad if he would make sure i didnt. My best...
    EmmaJayne13 EmmaJayne13 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 11, 2013

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    Not Saying Yes Or No But...

    I've never met my father, I didn't know his last name until this year.  I didn't know his first name until a few years ago either. I still don't know exactly what he does for a living or where he lives.  I'm 99% sure I have a step-mom and half-brother or step...
    axelval axelval 18-21, T Dec 24, 2008

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    Its Just Not Fair! She Gets to Have a Dad...

    ive been living with my mom and my now 18 year old sister without seeing or knowing about my dad. When I was young I never asked about my dad because it just seemed normal. So when I was about 12 my mom got a boyfriend and that was the first time I was ever really in contact with...
    jenelleelaine jenelleelaine 16-17 1 Response Jan 21, 2009

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    I Wish I Had A Dad.

    I've lived in many different places. I was born in Germany while my dad was doing war business. I can only remember some of those times, barely. The old mobile home I used to live in, the fields I explored with my dad... We ended up moving again, across the state. In our...
    Abrum Abrum 13-15, M Nov 21, 2009

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    Missing Dad

    I have a living father. But he's not a dad. My parents divorced shortly after I became 4 years old. I remember seeing one of their fights when I was 3...I was hiding behind the piano and I was just sitting there, watching it. It's scarred me. I still flinch ...
    rockgirl rockgirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2007

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    Never Had a Dad!!!

    Well i did have a dad but he past when i was two years old my mother won't tell me how he died i always try to find out. Al i know is that he went threw a lot of pain before he died. Well I just really wish he never would have left me. I see other girls with there dads just with...
    ddb1 ddb1 18-21 2 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    I Wish I Had A Real Father!

    Almost all my childhood I think I had a normal family with my mother and father (but I never had a normal family because I always lived with my grandparents). But once my mom divorce my "father", my grandmother one night decide to told me that the man I used to call fatheer is...
    biarodrigues95 biarodrigues95 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Could've Been Different

    I had one for the first five years of my life and after he and my mom divorced had only seen him twice within the next five years and that was with some begging on my part just to see him. When I look back on it I feel I missed out on all of the things a father and son would do...
    alivetobefree alivetobefree 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 18, 2011

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    Jiggalo....

    My father has been a jiggalo since even before i was born, at one point he cheated on my mom with 20 other women when i was only 6 months old, then left when i was 1 an 1/2. He wasn't even there when i was born!....where was he?? Smoking weed outside the hospital....and now 18...
    Theonethatlivesatnight Theonethatlivesatnight 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 22, 2012

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    my dad left when I was small I've never seen

    him since... I wish I knew if he ever wonders how I am or if I'm ok :/
    kittykittyoxc kittykittyoxc 18-21, F Dec 6

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    I Used To Have A Dad

    My dad sent me a postcard deep in the Afghanistan war. When I opened it I saw a blood stain over it so I knew it had to be important. When I started reading it it said "Son I want you tell the family that....I am dead. I will be dead by the time you have reached this sentence. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 18, 2012

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    Confusion

    When I was a few months old my father took off and left my mom and I. My mom always sent pictures and asked him to come to florida (from Brooklyn where he lived) to visit me, he never did though. I never got a birthday card, and I have never seen him, I just have an old picture...
    lilychop lilychop 16-17, F Mar 26, 2012

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    No One Understands

    Well to be honest I do have a dad, but no one would ever know. And to add on to that I even have a stepdad ...if you want to call him that. When I was little it was me, my mom, and my dad. From what I can remember it was the happiest time of my life. My dad was always there to...
    Happypeoplesmile Happypeoplesmile 18-21 Jul 8, 2013

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    My Dad

    My dad died when i was 3 , 10 years ago . He suffered from drug abuse , this started as he was abused as a child . My mum always tells me how much he loved me and how he would never be around any of us when he took drugs . After he became clean , he suffered with depression and...
    xPrincessOfPain xPrincessOfPain 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2010

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    My father was in the military and there was no room for error or personal opinions. We grew up with everything we wanted materially and very little of what we needed emotionally...
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    help me grow up. I wish I wasn't wishing for someone else to be my guide. I wish someone would care enough to want to hold my hand. I wish someone was firm enough to lay me...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    .....And therefore, I am. This is my New Year's wish to you. May yours be light and happy wishes. That wishes sent to you be gentle and loving. I wish all your coming years to...
    yellowsoul yellowsoul 51-55, F 7 hrs ago

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    It's a terrible thing to know that you have always disappointed your own father, yet at 34 years old this is the realisation that I have gradually awakened to. Every year, I...
    Kitty786 Kitty786 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I wrote a post not to long ago...here is what I found waiting for me... When a sky lantern landed in this father’s driveway the words on it touched his heart deeply. Now he is...
    Blanche08 Blanche08 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 6

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    Come on daddy fill my pretty little hole up please I'm begging daddy, fill me up.
    tentaclebro tentaclebro 18-21 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My Dad is a lecturer at the university here, and he has told me about a new visiting lecturer from Malmö, in Sweden, a certain Jacob Östberg. I met him about a week ago at the...
    Skjeggstad Skjeggstad 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I feel like this year I have watched as every last crumb of my own childhood has been washed away. I was still fairly young when I bought my first house, and shortly after, I...
    danteflorz danteflorz 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    My traumatic childhood is complicated in a way and kind of just said my whole life story sorry for how long it is..... i mean like really long. Okayy i am going to start with my...
    chocolate1616 chocolate1616 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17

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    My parents always told their little girl not to trust boys, so I trusted girls instead. Be careful what you wish for.
    stompey stompey 16-17 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I love having a much older daddy that uses his little girl as a toy. I don't mind being a young girl who is naive and doesn't know anything about sex. I also like pain, humiliation...
    littleone90 littleone90 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    Spent today looking after my little sister. She can be a brat sometimes and is a right tomboy but I do love her dearly even when I want just to smack her! Well mum and daddy were...
    Susanna96 Susanna96 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 6

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    I'm 20. My dad died when i was 3. I just wish i had some memories of him. I don't know what it is like to have a father. I don't know what it is like to run into his arms or just...
    Taureanmon Taureanmon 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 10

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    Happy Birthday to my daddy in heaven. I miss you and love you so much. I wish I could just talk to you one more time. I wish I was able to tell you how sorry I am. we drifted a lot...
    MeowOnMe MeowOnMe 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6

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    60th post. I hope everyone takes the time to read this post. This happened about half an hour ago, but let me start at the beginning. It's Sunday 2.20am when I started writing this...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    As a teenager, I did not have friends come over my house. The reason for this was because girls never wanted me, so I did not hang out or talk to girls. I always had guy friends...
    Niko864 Niko864 41-45, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    27th post. So basically my husband bashed me for years and years. There were things thrown at me such as plates, glass ashtrays, tables, punches, choking, whatever he felt like at...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    Last night daddy was sitting in his chair like always. I was cleaning the house with my black shear top on and nothing else. this pleased daddy so much he called me over to hold...
    leannabee leannabee 26-30, F Dec 15

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    Tomorrow is my birthday and six days after that dad's first death anniversary. Dad passed away on Christmas.. Just don't understand how do I celebrate my big day. Every year...
    Waldena Waldena 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    In May of 2013, the 23rd to be exact, my entire world flipped upside down. I guess I should start with the week before so you aren't confused. It was just a few weeks since Mom...
    JaneEbony JaneEbony 18-21, F Dec 4

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    65th post.. Totally unrelated but I was looking in the mirror earlier to apply my old ladies face cream, when I noticed something scary. A grey hair. No, not on my head like most...