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I Wish I Had Never Been Born

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    I Wish They Never Wanted Someone...

    ...because they got me. I have no use by the people around me. And that's what I've always wanted. To be wanted. And even when I am, I don't deserve it, and eventually they realize it and leave me. Otherwise people will show interest in me... but then when I'm insulting and...
    MaryStrawberry MaryStrawberry 16-17 May 18, 2011

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    I am healthy. I have a loving wife whom I adore.

    I have supportive siblings. I have friends. I have numerous hobbies I enjoy. I am successful at work, and have a good, well-paying job. I have a nice home. And yet I spend most of my time wishing I had never been born. Always hopping from one small island of happiness to another...
    emarde emarde 46-50 2 Responses May 29, 2014

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    I wish I had never been born I just wish I

    hadn't. It wouldn't have changed anybody's life. It wouldn't have made anyone unhappy. On the opposite it feels like I'm an enormous burden. All my friends wouldn't have any worse lives, they would have had even better ones - without my mess. My family would have been so much...
    dartemi dartemi 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    So Close

    Well I was born, but then a few weeks or months later, I had an allergic reaction to one of my first shots, I didn't start showing until my mom found me unresponsive in my crib. I was rushed to the hospital via ambulance, and died a short time later in the hospital room. The...
    Elijahx Elijahx 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 5, 2013

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    Why Wasn'T I Aborted?

    It's always strange when the topic of abortion comes up. I defend a woman's right to choose what happens with her body, and I argue that making it illegal won't keep it from happening. What I don't say, what I'm always thinking, is that I wish my mother had aborted me. I envy...
    terrifiedofpeople terrifiedofpeople 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    I grew up with these sayings drilled into my

    mind by my mother. "You're my future. I only trust in you. You are my everything" "When you grow, you have to take care of me. And buy me everything I need." "When you grow up, you have to take care of your 10 year younger brother because I'll be too old to provide for him...
    trinityxsun trinityxsun 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2014

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    Hate Myself

    if i was never born it would be so much better i wouldnt have t suffer so much i hate life and everything in it
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 6 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    If Only....

    I have felt this way for as long as I can remember.  I can recall at the age of 4 asking my mother why she had me.  She just got angry and told me I was stupid. She got angry not because of the questions content, she did not care how I felt, she was mad because I was...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    All Messed Up

    i just wish i didnt exist. i wish i had never been put on this planet. everything is such a mess and there is no point to my life. i have no family and no friends. the only thing i have is the most wonderful little son in the world and i love him with all my heart. he's the...
    mikkiblu mikkiblu 22-25 1 Response Jun 28, 2010

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    This Repulsive World

    I am horrified at the fact that I was brought into this unbearable world thirty years ago. It was all well-intentioned of course; so many harmful things are well-intentioned after all. The first thing that happened in this miserable life of mine was that my biological parents...
    rahayel rahayel 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    I used to think that the world would be a much

    better place if I had not existed. I would not know pain. I would not know I missed on happiness. But then I thought about all the people whom I affected. People who were sad, and I made them laugh. People who needed help and I lend them a hand. Would someone else have been...
    kalila37 kalila37 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2014

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    I Dunno

    The things I hate in this world are all too real, and the things I love are all too often an illusion. I suppose that’s partly my fault. If I was given the choice to disappear right now and be totally forgotten, no one remembering my existence, I just might have to take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 14, 2008

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    .. All my family care about is themselves they don't care how they make the people around them feel
    nicola167 nicola167 16-17, F 1 Response May 29, 2014

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    I Absolutely, Whole-heartedly, Desperately Wish I Hadn't Been Born.

    My confession is similar to the other confessions in this group.  However, in my case, I do not hate the world.  I think the world is beautiful, and there are a lot of wonderful, kind, intelligent people in the world.  The world isn't the problem, I am.  I'm not good at life...
    Yo25 Yo25 31-35 3 Responses Jul 13, 2011

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    Non-existant

    Do you look so far into the dark realms Where daemons crawl and drain all emotion, Where only blood is found? Do you think you can find me here? However hard you try I am not here The only proof of me Is fallen bodies in red silk dresses But is that really me? Certainly not I am...
    MaiaTheBroken MaiaTheBroken 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    Life's too much of a hassle.

    It's like the perpetual running on a hamster wheel. Utterly tiring, and you have to struggle just to keep up with it. Most days I just wish I were dead honestly. Life is just an endless struggle signifying nothing. In the end, whether now or 100 years from now, you will be dead...
    arrowoftime arrowoftime 18-21 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    selfish thoughts

    I've had a privileged life. Married, supportive parents; skill in school; even owing horses. They are the only things that being me joy now. I am a horrible procrastinator. Nobody ever taught me how to deal with stress; everyone just started expecting me to do so many things at...
    Apres Apres 18-21 Sep 8, 2013

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    Sometimes

    Sometimes, Just sometimes, I wish I’d never been born! Life’s been hell! And anyway, What’s the point of living? Life’s been hell! 
    cndrewdrvr8 cndrewdrvr8 46-50, M Jul 2, 2011

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    Thanks, But No Thanks

    I don't mean to be nihilistic. Life has meaning for most people. It has its ups and downs, but basically it is worth living. For me, life has not been worth living since sometime in childhood. When, I don't exactly know. Can I identify a precise time? No. I find that doctors...
    diredepths diredepths 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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    An Everyday Wish

    Ohh how I wish that I was never born, life would have been so much easier.  Constant rejection, always feeling like a failure and a loser.  The whole world looks at you like your crap on their shoe.  Why was I born anyway when im so meaningless. 
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 15, 2012

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    Only Sometimes

    I used to always feel this way, but not so much anymore. I am begining to feel more positive in my life, thanks to my EP friends and my new positive attitude! Of course I am still having bad days, thinking why me? I have my pity parties, lots of them, and thats okay, but I don't...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2008

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    Although I have a kind family.

    They love me. I am healthy that I grateful, But I hate myself ,I am nothing, I wish I had never been born
    hani89 hani89 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    The Thought Is There Often

    I know things are looking better in some aspects but there are so many times, all too often, that I just feel, wish, wonder what the heck I'm doing here. I love my children and years ago I loved my life but only a few limited pictures that pop up. Snapshots of happiness that live...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F Feb 24, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I have presented many ideas for making the world a better place and some people have responded that "things have always been this way". The truth is that few things about now have...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 6 hrs ago

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    I just saw someone I use to like at the movies last week. But the thing is, she was with someone. As soon as I saw her, memories of me and her started to flush through my mind. Of...
    Dkdjd Dkdjd 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    I am 18 and have never been kissed, or have dated. I feel pathetic for writing this because I know that the vast majority off people my own age have at least gone on a date. I have...
    Narp12 Narp12 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    I have never been in a relationship. I'm 36, gay and never been in a relationship with a male or female. I'm scared out of my mind because I'm sensitive to people and there...
    monteJ monteJ 31-35, M a week ago

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    well I've never been but I have an immediate family member that has and let me tell you that once you get out society doesn't let you forget that you've been in. probably why so...
    sleepyphotograher sleepyphotograher 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I'm 26 and have never been kissed. It's just gotten to the point where I'm too embarassed that it will be my first kiss to have my first kiss. if that makes sense.
    sfoss21 sfoss21 26-30, F 9 Responses Feb 16

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    I have never been kissed I am still waiting for a girl to kiss me
    paul642 paul642 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I never been in a 3 year relationship. I should say 2 but I be lying. In the 2 years it was off and on. The max of my relationships was 6 months total.
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F a week ago

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    He has brought such amazing feelings back into my heart that haven't been there in a long time. But along with those great feelings have been really horrible ones. I don't know...
    irishred122 irishred122 51-55, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm 24 years old and being the wheel around your friends who are all couples just sucks. Sleeping alone at night in a big bed hugging pillows wishing it was a person instead, then...
    nubianprince21 nubianprince21 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    It was always my father that wanted me to do it, else I may never have done. But I don't care for the blame game, I've shaved my beard over 5 times, and mustache only once. I...
    SwimSingh SwimSingh 18-21, M Feb 12

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    This is not a regret, it's something I've known would happen. Parents thankfully divorced at age 4. My dad had weekend custody and is a great dad. Still, I saw how hard being a...
    MissASC77 MissASC77 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    It's a little past midnight, and here I am thinking about a conversation I had with someone earlier. He pm'd me and asked, what one thing I really want in life. My answer was to...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 12

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    Never was on a date, never had a chance to go on one. Seems like I'm just not what girls are looking for these days :D
    SorrowSong SorrowSong 18-21, M Feb 4

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    I mean I'm 13 what do you expect? 😂 I've had boyfriends but nothing deep
    Uhilikepizza Uhilikepizza 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    The only one I had was a online one but I don't count that, and I'm 15 I find it a little sad, but I know I will find a girl I like later in life.
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm 35 years old, and I've never kissed a woman. I'd like to, but I never seem to get to the point where it would be a reciprocated feeling. I've often tried to imagine what it's...
    halfblind79 halfblind79 31-35, M Feb 6

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    I've been in jail once for 4 months after they investigate that I wasnt the one who did the damage. It made me realize what the true meaning of life is, not just being trapped in a...
    annaambrose annaambrose 16-17 1 Response Feb 5

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    Not to sure it sounds too great tbh though I am partial to a glass of cider. I did shots out of egg cups once with my friend and we got a bit tipsy but never drunk
    Minutes2Midnight Minutes2Midnight 13-15, F Feb 11

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    I have never tho or real one fake people
    ridleyswaq ridleyswaq 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I really want a bf and to just make out. kisses on the neck, maybe being felt up, no sex but you get the idea. I'm scared i won't kiss anyone or even have a bf by the time high...
    khf99 khf99 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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