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I Wish I Had Never Been Born

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 168 People

    If Only....

    I have felt this way for as long as I can remember.  I can recall at the age of 4 asking my mother why she had me.  She just got angry and told me I was stupid. She got angry not because of the questions content, she did not care how I felt, she was mad because I was...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    Non-existant

    Do you look so far into the dark realms Where daemons crawl and drain all emotion, Where only blood is found? Do you think you can find me here? However hard you try I am not here The only proof of me Is fallen bodies in red silk dresses But is that really me? Certainly not I am...
    MaiaTheBroken MaiaTheBroken 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    I Wish They Never Wanted Someone...

    ...because they got me. I have no use by the people around me. And that's what I've always wanted. To be wanted. And even when I am, I don't deserve it, and eventually they realize it and leave me. Otherwise people will show interest in me... but then when I'm insulting and...
    MaryStrawberry MaryStrawberry 16-17 May 18, 2011

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    An Everyday Wish

    Ohh how I wish that I was never born, life would have been so much easier.  Constant rejection, always feeling like a failure and a loser.  The whole world looks at you like your crap on their shoe.  Why was I born anyway when im so meaningless. 
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 15, 2012

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    This Repulsive World

    I am horrified at the fact that I was brought into this unbearable world thirty years ago. It was all well-intentioned of course; so many harmful things are well-intentioned after all. The first thing that happened in this miserable life of mine was that my biological parents...
    rahayel rahayel 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    I Absolutely, Whole-heartedly, Desperately Wish I Hadn't Been Born.

    My confession is similar to the other confessions in this group.  However, in my case, I do not hate the world.  I think the world is beautiful, and there are a lot of wonderful, kind, intelligent people in the world.  The world isn't the problem, I am.  I'm not good at life...
    Yo25 Yo25 31-35 3 Responses Jul 13, 2011

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    So Close

    Well I was born, but then a few weeks or months later, I had an allergic reaction to one of my first shots, I didn't start showing until my mom found me unresponsive in my crib. I was rushed to the hospital via ambulance, and died a short time later in the hospital room. The...
    Elijahx Elijahx 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 5, 2013

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    Although I have a kind family.

    They love me. I am healthy that I grateful, But I hate myself ,I am nothing, I wish I had never been born
    hani89 hani89 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    I wish I had never been born I just wish I

    hadn't. It wouldn't have changed anybody's life. It wouldn't have made anyone unhappy. On the opposite it feels like I'm an enormous burden. All my friends wouldn't have any worse lives, they would have had even better ones - without my mess. My family would have been so much...
    dartemi dartemi 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    Only Sometimes

    I used to always feel this way, but not so much anymore. I am begining to feel more positive in my life, thanks to my EP friends and my new positive attitude! Of course I am still having bad days, thinking why me? I have my pity parties, lots of them, and thats okay, but I don't...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2008

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    .. All my family care about is themselves they don't care how they make the people around them feel
    nicola167 nicola167 16-17, F 1 Response May 29, 2014

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    Why Wasn'T I Aborted?

    It's always strange when the topic of abortion comes up. I defend a woman's right to choose what happens with her body, and I argue that making it illegal won't keep it from happening. What I don't say, what I'm always thinking, is that I wish my mother had aborted me. I envy...
    terrifiedofpeople terrifiedofpeople 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    Thanks, But No Thanks

    I don't mean to be nihilistic. Life has meaning for most people. It has its ups and downs, but basically it is worth living. For me, life has not been worth living since sometime in childhood. When, I don't exactly know. Can I identify a precise time? No. I find that doctors...
    diredepths diredepths 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2007

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    All Messed Up

    i just wish i didnt exist. i wish i had never been put on this planet. everything is such a mess and there is no point to my life. i have no family and no friends. the only thing i have is the most wonderful little son in the world and i love him with all my heart. he's the...
    mikkiblu mikkiblu 22-25 1 Response Jun 28, 2010

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    The Thought Is There Often

    I know things are looking better in some aspects but there are so many times, all too often, that I just feel, wish, wonder what the heck I'm doing here. I love my children and years ago I loved my life but only a few limited pictures that pop up. Snapshots of happiness that live...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F Feb 24, 2008

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    I used to think that the world would be a much

    better place if I had not existed. I would not know pain. I would not know I missed on happiness. But then I thought about all the people whom I affected. People who were sad, and I made them laugh. People who needed help and I lend them a hand. Would someone else have been...
    kalila37 kalila37 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2014

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    Sometimes

    Sometimes, Just sometimes, I wish I’d never been born! Life’s been hell! And anyway, What’s the point of living? Life’s been hell! 
    cndrewdrvr8 cndrewdrvr8 46-50, M Jul 2, 2011

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    Life's too much of a hassle.

    It's like the perpetual running on a hamster wheel. Utterly tiring, and you have to struggle just to keep up with it. Most days I just wish I were dead honestly. Life is just an endless struggle signifying nothing. In the end, whether now or 100 years from now, you will be dead...
    arrowoftime arrowoftime 18-21 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    selfish thoughts

    I've had a privileged life. Married, supportive parents; skill in school; even owing horses. They are the only things that being me joy now. I am a horrible procrastinator. Nobody ever taught me how to deal with stress; everyone just started expecting me to do so many things at...
    Apres Apres 18-21 Sep 8, 2013

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    I Dunno

    The things I hate in this world are all too real, and the things I love are all too often an illusion. I suppose that’s partly my fault. If I was given the choice to disappear right now and be totally forgotten, no one remembering my existence, I just might have to take...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 14, 2008

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    I am healthy. I have a loving wife whom I adore.

    I have supportive siblings. I have friends. I have numerous hobbies I enjoy. I am successful at work, and have a good, well-paying job. I have a nice home. And yet I spend most of my time wishing I had never been born. Always hopping from one small island of happiness to another...
    emarde emarde 46-50 2 Responses May 29, 2014

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    Hate Myself

    if i was never born it would be so much better i wouldnt have t suffer so much i hate life and everything in it
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 6 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    I grew up with these sayings drilled into my

    mind by my mother. "You're my future. I only trust in you. You are my everything" "When you grow, you have to take care of me. And buy me everything I need." "When you grow up, you have to take care of your 10 year younger brother because I'll be too old to provide for him...
    trinityxsun trinityxsun 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    one of my great life achievements so far is I've never been arrested or done anything that would potentially lead to an arrest. I also have never yet had a crime committed against...
    louisetiger1 louisetiger1 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    We were poor when I was a kid. I was the youngest of 7 kids. All my life I felt like a burden on my family. They didn't need another mouth to feed. Besides, if I had never existed...
    mombo1969 mombo1969 41-45, M Apr 24

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    I wish I never dated and met a lot of ppl
    xSweetnessx xSweetnessx 16-17, F Apr 12

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    I wish I never dated and met a lot of ppl
    xSweetnessx xSweetnessx 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Not that i've never been in a relationship, let's just say i've never been in a real relationship. I never experience getting kissed goodnight, cuddling during movies. I crave for...
    callmegee callmegee 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm 29 years old, no kids, educated, has a dream and goals for my future, and I've never been in a relationship. I have been trying so hard not to turn into a bitter b!tch but I...
    MJP88 MJP88 26-30, F 7 Responses Apr 12

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    I'm 21 and never been kissed...never been asked out. All my guy friends tell me I'm pretty and funny and great but if only I would 'try' a little more. Wear makeup all the time...
    Ddnmddbf Ddnmddbf 18-21, F Apr 20

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    I am a pansexual teenager and have never been in a relationship... I would love to connect to some one on that level it's just me I'm so damaged so dark....who would possibly want...
    nonamerr nonamerr 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    It's true lol. I've never known what it feels like haha. I don't really care That I've never been kissed- it just means the right guy hasn't come along yet :)
    TundraIvy TundraIvy 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I have never been homesick before, but now I am. For a place that isn't even my home ..
    HighxHopes HighxHopes 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    ​So the other day I had ordered some breast forms because they were significantly on sale. I wasnt sure if they would help or hurt and just be a reminder that I dont have breasts...
    Napeti Napeti 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 10

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    I was born and raised here in England, yet it has never fully felt like home. I always feel lost and alone. But whenever I see America on TV I feel a tug at my heart, I get the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's taken me a long time to get around to writing this letter. I've been putting it off for years, to be honest. I suppose that I was waiting for you to get in touch with me. An...
    courtney24850 courtney24850 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    If I've ever been in love I wouldn't be typing here with a Starbucks coffee on a lonely depressed table that probably haven't been spanked by a clean sponge in a few weeks now. I...
    DarkPhoenix1985 DarkPhoenix1985 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 5

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    An old friend of mine and I were very close.. Very close. And her mother was very nice to me.. I miss the both of them terribly.. I wish her mom was my mom and that I lived with...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T a week ago

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    I'm 19 years old and I've been kissed and never made out. I've also never had a boyfriend. I'm beginning to think that there is something wrong with me. i don't' think that i'm bad...
    dreamingthinmo dreamingthinmo 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 6

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    I'm 18 and still never had a boyfriend, don't mention kissing. There were guys... there IS a guy whom i fancy, but he just don't notice me. We talk time to time in school, almost...
    martacold martacold 18-21, F Apr 8

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    I have never had my first kiss, boyfriend, or crush. And now I think I do. How do I know if I actually do like him?
    Tsubaki16 Tsubaki16 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    "If only" I had my life to live over - I would never get in a relationship. I have received nothing but pain and abandonment from the opposite, so called fairer, sex.
    moenoodleman2 moenoodleman2 56-60, M Apr 12

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    yeeeeah never :p If my crush likes me back I really hope he will be my first because I've had some guy who I thought I wanted to be my first but I realized I didn't but I'm pretty...
    shamrok11 shamrok11 13-15, F Apr 16

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