I Wish I Had Never Been Born

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    I Absolutely, Whole-heartedly, Desperately Wish I Hadn't Been Born.

    My confession is similar to the other confessions in this group.  However, in my case, I do not hate the world.  I think the world is beautiful, and there are a lot of wonderful, kind, intelligent people in the world.  The world isn't the problem, I am.  I'm not good at life...
    Yo25 Yo25
    31-35
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2011

    All Messed Up

    i just wish i didnt exist. i wish i had never been put on this planet. everything is such a mess and there is no point to my life. i have no family and no friends. the only thing i have is the most wonderful little son in the world and i love him with all my heart. he's the...
    mikkiblu mikkiblu
    22-25
    1 Response Jun 28, 2010

    Sometimes I feel like the world would be

    so much better off without me. I have done some pretty sick and mean stuff in my life that I am not proud of. When I got depressed then that started dragging down my family as well, which I saw and made me feel worse. I don't like anything about myself, I am a fat, ugly, no...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 16, 2015

    selfish thoughts

    I've had a privileged life. Married, supportive parents; skill in school; even owing horses. They are the only things that being me joy now. I am a horrible procrastinator. Nobody ever taught me how to deal with stress; everyone just started expecting me to do so many things at...
    Apres Apres
    18-21
    Sep 8, 2013

    I wish I had never been born I just wish I

    hadn't. It wouldn't have changed anybody's life. It wouldn't have made anyone unhappy. On the opposite it feels like I'm an enormous burden. All my friends wouldn't have any worse lives, they would have had even better ones - without my mess. My family would have been so much...
    dartemi dartemi
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 16, 2014

    Although I have a kind family.

    They love me. I am healthy that I grateful, But I hate myself ,I am nothing, I wish I had never been born
    hani89 hani89
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 29, 2014

    Thanks, But No Thanks

    I don't mean to be nihilistic. Life has meaning for most people. It has its ups and downs, but basically it is worth living. For me, life has not been worth living since sometime in childhood. When, I don't exactly know. Can I identify a precise time? No. I find that doctors...
    diredepths diredepths
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2007

    If Only....

    I have felt this way for as long as I can remember.  I can recall at the age of 4 asking my mother why she had me.  She just got angry and told me I was stupid. She got angry not because of the questions content, she did not care how I felt, she was mad because I was...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2007

    I grew up with these sayings drilled into my

    mind by my mother. "You're my future. I only trust in you. You are my everything" "When you grow, you have to take care of me. And buy me everything I need." "When you grow up, you have to take care of your 10 year younger brother because I'll be too old to provide for him...
    trinityxsun trinityxsun
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2014

    Why Wasn'T I Aborted?

    It's always strange when the topic of abortion comes up. I defend a woman's right to choose what happens with her body, and I argue that making it illegal won't keep it from happening. What I don't say, what I'm always thinking, is that I wish my mother had aborted me. I envy...
    terrifiedofpeople terrifiedofpeople
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2013

    Life's too much of a hassle.

    It's like the perpetual running on a hamster wheel. Utterly tiring, and you have to struggle just to keep up with it. Most days I just wish I were dead honestly. Life is just an endless struggle signifying nothing. In the end, whether now or 100 years from now, you will be dead...
    arrowoftime arrowoftime
    18-21
    1 Response Sep 3, 2014

    Hate Myself

    if i was never born it would be so much better i wouldnt have t suffer so much i hate life and everything in it
    rageandhate rageandhate
    18-21
    6 Responses Sep 12, 2013

    I Wish They Never Wanted Someone...

    ...because they got me. I have no use by the people around me. And that's what I've always wanted. To be wanted. And even when I am, I don't deserve it, and eventually they realize it and leave me. Otherwise people will show interest in me... but then when I'm insulting and...
    MaryStrawberry MaryStrawberry
    16-17
    May 18, 2011

    Non-existant

    Do you look so far into the dark realms Where daemons crawl and drain all emotion, Where only blood is found? Do you think you can find me here? However hard you try I am not here The only proof of me Is fallen bodies in red silk dresses But is that really me? Certainly not I am...
    MaiaTheBroken MaiaTheBroken
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2012

    I used to think that the world would be a much

    better place if I had not existed. I would not know pain. I would not know I missed on happiness. But then I thought about all the people whom I affected. People who were sad, and I made them laugh. People who needed help and I lend them a hand. Would someone else have been...
    kalila37 kalila37
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 5, 2014

    I am healthy. I have a loving wife whom I adore.

    I have supportive siblings. I have friends. I have numerous hobbies I enjoy. I am successful at work, and have a good, well-paying job. I have a nice home. And yet I spend most of my time wishing I had never been born. Always hopping from one small island of happiness to another...
    emarde emarde
    51-55
    3 Responses May 29, 2014

    Sometimes

    Sometimes, Just sometimes, I wish I’d never been born! Life’s been hell! And anyway, What’s the point of living? Life’s been hell! 
    cndrewdrvr8 cndrewdrvr8
    46-50, M
    Jul 2, 2011

    Sometimes I feel like the world would be a

    better place without me in it. I wish I could just fade from existence, a better person seamlessly taking my place as better mother to my kids and better wife to my husband. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I don't feel like I'm ever going to be good enough.
    sunrae08 sunrae08
    26-30, F
    Jun 14, 2015

    This Repulsive World

    I am horrified at the fact that I was brought into this unbearable world thirty years ago. It was all well-intentioned of course; so many harmful things are well-intentioned after all. The first thing that happened in this miserable life of mine was that my biological parents...
    rahayel rahayel
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 17, 2013

    I Dunno

    The things I hate in this world are all too real, and the things I love are all too often an illusion. I suppose that’s partly my fault. If I was given the choice to disappear right now and be totally forgotten, no one remembering my existence, I just might have to take...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Mar 14, 2008

    hi this I can really relate to I did use to

    feel like this I have been hated since I was born and I was being bullied about the way they thought I was born the bullys at school that is and they were teasing me and so I braved it and asked my horrible mum to be only told that I was actually an accident and one of my online...
    lor44 lor44
    16-17, F
    Oct 16, 2015

    An Everyday Wish

    Ohh how I wish that I was never born, life would have been so much easier.  Constant rejection, always feeling like a failure and a loser.  The whole world looks at you like your crap on their shoe.  Why was I born anyway when im so meaningless. 
    WhyBother22 WhyBother22
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 15, 2012

    I don't know what to do anymore.

    .. All my family care about is themselves they don't care how they make the people around them feel
    nicola167 nicola167
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 29, 2014

    The Thought Is There Often

    I know things are looking better in some aspects but there are so many times, all too often, that I just feel, wish, wonder what the heck I'm doing here. I love my children and years ago I loved my life but only a few limited pictures that pop up. Snapshots of happiness that live...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    Feb 24, 2008

    I know we all got problem's

    but sometimes i feel that most of the problems has came to me only.... I wish if I were not born so that my parents would have better life ... I think that they would be haapier without me... I have only, taken from them but never given anything.... Iam feeling sad
    Sorang Sorang
    16-17, M
    Oct 16, 2015

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