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I Wish I Knew Why Im So Messed Up

A groupto share freely about our faults and imperfections. 370 People

    Is it wrong I'm proud of the fact I haven't

    eaten in 24 hours:( I don't want to slip back into old habits again:(
    dearnobody dearnobody 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F Dec 25, 2014

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    Why can't I just be a normal person like my

    friends when they get older they have there whole life planned what college what job every thing! And it's all perfectly planned. When are teacher in fourth grade which was a long Time ago said what do you wanna be when you grow up. I said a youtuber and she said right to my...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Step Inside

    I'm standing still, staring at myself, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I think about the ugly person that I am, that I have become. I wonder how I came to be this way, how I got lost and things went awry, how my path deviated to this direction. Where did I go wrong? I...
    lacedup77 lacedup77 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    I'm really ****** up.

    I don't know why but I know I am.
    sadiegirl347 sadiegirl347 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I have so many health problems,

    ugh. It saddens me. I just feel like I'm freaking crazy. It's a struggle.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    Like what happened to me down the line,

    I never used to be so messed in the head but now I cant stop thinking of all the wrong things, I just wish life would return to normal
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 26, 2014

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    I mean seriously how did I get depression,

    anxiety, and anorexia. I also probably have more wrong with me...great. With the anorexia oh my god I broke down 3 times at the mall. Cause you know I felt so big I was going to explode but when I got home and showered I noticed what I felt was false, I have bones in my back...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    It Truly Is A Mystery.

    .... Oh Well! ^^
    ThatOneGothKidxD ThatOneGothKidxD 16-17, M Aug 17, 2014

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    I have a chance to talk to a really hot guy

    and I mess it up talking about my family issues **** my life I scared another person off
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 23, 2014

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    My whole life I have struggled with severe

    social anxiety. In the past year I have had to struggle with my social anxiety worsening along with depression that I've had for 4 years, regular anxiety, OCD, panic attacks and have been diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that has kept me in immense pain for the past year...
    alaskamxrie alaskamxrie 18-21, F 4 Responses May 20, 2014

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    I've been trying for a while.

    To be happy and optimistic. I always said, "Oh I have time." Except I don't cause it goes by way too quickly. Everyone around me is fine. Love, kids, husbands and wives and weddings and births. I have nothing really cause when those things happen friends who don't have them too...
    KatNW KatNW 22-25, F May 1, 2014

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    I'm failing in school,

    im depressed i have major anxiety issues that my friends seem to ignore and sometimes put me in situations where I start panicking. But I think I'm pretty strong for what I've gone thru but I have a feeling I'm not going anywhere in life , won't find love , won't be successful..
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    I made a horrible mistake years ago,

    and it has affected my life to this day. Now, there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I am nothing but a monster. And the uncomfortable thing is that I know it is true.
    katfished katfished 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I sorta know why I'm messed up.

    I like serial killers, used to have a burn book, imagined killing people and other random creepy shizzle... XD
    JustAKittenArmy JustAKittenArmy 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    Sometimes I'm happy sad depressed

    but mostly I'm depressed and sad and suicidal. I hate feeling like this.I have attempted suicide 4 times and never succeeded. I'm so sorry for all the people I hurt I really am.I just hate feeling like this.
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    So the guy that I love decided to tell me he's

    afraid of losing feelings for me and thinks that maybe we should just be friends. I cried in front of him and he changed his mind completely, saying he does want to be with me. All my friends say that if a guy said that to them, they would cut him off completely. But idk what to...
    izzyx15 izzyx15 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F May 3, 2014

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    tatikapaya tatikapaya 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I'm detoxing I've stayed strong I'm very dizzy

    felling I probably need medical supervision can't afford it I'm On my own I've gone a long way to turn back now my mind is giving me every reason to use I feel so dizzy can't barely do any thing I need people to help me out a little bit I'm having a hard time right now
    jollybeard jollybeard 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Yeah i sometimes do wonder

    why i'm so messed up. When people ask you why you ask the way that you do and you try to trace every experience that you have that might flip the switch that made you the person that you are now. Then you realize that you don't know why. You just don't. Then it leaves you...
    kmgan kmgan 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    My life is so f...ed!

    Let's see my dad died in June 2010 followed by my husband informing me he had been having an affair with my friend and left me and my 2 sons.he kept coming back home and leaving 20 times actually.woman came after me running me off the road lying to police about me.i got...
    Pommy8 Pommy8 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Why is it no matter what I do I get blamed?

    Blamed for very thin nothing is ever his fault it's always mine I'm the bad guy he spends $120 on a dirt bike part and i now can't afford Easter for my four kids I know money ain't everything but there happiness is to me and to see them on Easter morning from the Easter bunny...
    mommaof3boys1girl mommaof3boys1girl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    I wish I could delete all those times when I thought I knew where I stood with someone just from text messages and my own imagination. I am almost always wrong. In other words I...
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    I will alwaysbe queit and no say much unlike others because I'm focused on other things like on time I had wet and messed my diaper in group and it was full and I was trying to...
    Groter Groter 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Ive been through so many cycles of sexual abuse, only the most extreme and brutal things excite me anymore. I've largely lost my desire and zeal for life and wish to be used...
    ebonytabicat ebonytabicat 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Fathers day was such an awkward moment and hurtful time for me. His seated right there, as people go all "to all fathers" and i fake puke in my head. Dude hasn't done **** for us...
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Wish my ep pals knew me as long as local pals did. And were local. Or could visit. When damage from seroquel. Makes me dangerous in public.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    lets reverse.. back to that day i saw you at those gates, i'd shake your hand and wish you a nice day and plant myself in your memory. I'd sit in that class room and wait for you...
    Friendship0nlyPlease Friendship0nlyPlease 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Arghhhh we were playing sub-reddit 50/50 and we got some really messed up stuff on it.
    roofedpower roofedpower 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was fine, just laying.. And then I started thinking.. Looking back. Everyone I knew used me, I have a good heart, I'm always nice to people, and the took adventage of that...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    whatever it is the I feel for him, it's consuming me, just wish I knew how he feels about me
    lauren2500 lauren2500 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I wish i knew how to love my mom unconditionally, i wish i knew the things i know now about her sickness, i wish i knew things what i know now. About relationships I wish i knew my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have been foolishly innocent most part of my life. Being kind to another human has always been my religion. No matter what they did to me despite all my affection, I do not feel...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I wish I had a mother figure. My birth mother is still alive ($#*%!!)... however, but she's never established any emotional connection w/ me. I really wish I knew what true...
    ImaPrincess344 ImaPrincess344 18-21, F a week ago

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    "Nothing happens to the wise man against his expectation nor do all things turn out for him as he wished but as he reckoned - and above all he reckoned that something could block...
    KCrick KCrick 22-25, F Jun 19

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    I wish I appreciated being innocent and carefree when I was in my teens as when you're an adult, your eyes are open more and you learn that the world is corrupt
    EmaHope EmaHope 26-30, F 8 Responses Jun 18

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    I wish I wouldn't have married so young.. Wish I didn't rush to say yes. My life with you is so miserable and for some reason I'm still here... If I knew then that this is what my...
    x3NiNAx3 x3NiNAx3 18-21, F 30 Responses Jun 18

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    I wish I knew for sure that someone was there. Watching out for me. Someone to catch me when I fall.
    Littlemissshy25 Littlemissshy25 46-50, F Jun 18