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I Wish I Knew Why Im So Messed Up

A groupto share freely about our faults and imperfections. 247 People

    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F May 3, 2014

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    It Truly Is A Mystery.

    .... Oh Well! ^^
    ThatOneGothKidxD ThatOneGothKidxD 13-15, M Aug 17, 2014

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    Is it wrong I'm proud of the fact I haven't

    eaten in 24 hours:( I don't want to slip back into old habits again:(
    dearnobody dearnobody 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    My life is so f...ed!

    Let's see my dad died in June 2010 followed by my husband informing me he had been having an affair with my friend and left me and my 2 sons.he kept coming back home and leaving 20 times actually.woman came after me running me off the road lying to police about me.i got...
    Pommy8 Pommy8 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    tatikapaya tatikapaya 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I have so many health problems,

    ugh. It saddens me. I just feel like I'm freaking crazy. It's a struggle.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    Step Inside

    I'm standing still, staring at myself, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I think about the ugly person that I am, that I have become. I wonder how I came to be this way, how I got lost and things went awry, how my path deviated to this direction. Where did I go wrong? I...
    lacedup77 lacedup77 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    Why can't I just be a normal person like my

    friends when they get older they have there whole life planned what college what job every thing! And it's all perfectly planned. When are teacher in fourth grade which was a long Time ago said what do you wanna be when you grow up. I said a youtuber and she said right to my...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I've been trying for a while.

    To be happy and optimistic. I always said, "Oh I have time." Except I don't cause it goes by way too quickly. Everyone around me is fine. Love, kids, husbands and wives and weddings and births. I have nothing really cause when those things happen friends who don't have them too...
    KatNW KatNW 22-25, F May 1, 2014

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    I mean seriously how did I get depression,

    anxiety, and anorexia. I also probably have more wrong with me...great. With the anorexia oh my god I broke down 3 times at the mall. Cause you know I felt so big I was going to explode but when I got home and showered I noticed what I felt was false, I have bones in my back...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I have a chance to talk to a really hot guy

    and I mess it up talking about my family issues **** my life I scared another person off
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 23, 2014

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    I'm really ****** up.

    I don't know why but I know I am.
    sadiegirl347 sadiegirl347 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    Like what happened to me down the line,

    I never used to be so messed in the head but now I cant stop thinking of all the wrong things, I just wish life would return to normal
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 26, 2014

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    I'm detoxing I've stayed strong I'm very dizzy

    felling I probably need medical supervision can't afford it I'm On my own I've gone a long way to turn back now my mind is giving me every reason to use I feel so dizzy can't barely do any thing I need people to help me out a little bit I'm having a hard time right now
    jollybeard jollybeard 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    My whole life I have struggled with severe

    social anxiety. In the past year I have had to struggle with my social anxiety worsening along with depression that I've had for 4 years, regular anxiety, OCD, panic attacks and have been diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that has kept me in immense pain for the past year...
    alaskamxrie alaskamxrie 18-21, F 4 Responses May 20, 2014

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    I made a horrible mistake years ago,

    and it has affected my life to this day. Now, there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I am nothing but a monster. And the uncomfortable thing is that I know it is true.
    katfished katfished 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I sorta know why I'm messed up.

    I like serial killers, used to have a burn book, imagined killing people and other random creepy shizzle... XD
    JustAKittenArmy JustAKittenArmy 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    Why is it no matter what I do I get blamed?

    Blamed for very thin nothing is ever his fault it's always mine I'm the bad guy he spends $120 on a dirt bike part and i now can't afford Easter for my four kids I know money ain't everything but there happiness is to me and to see them on Easter morning from the Easter bunny...
    mommaof3boys1girl mommaof3boys1girl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F Dec 25, 2014

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    Everyday in this life is another battlefield so much evil hatred violence chaos corruption negativity and I can go on with the list however it's so much to deal with mentally...
    UniversalVisions UniversalVisions 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    ive been through "friends" that were never on my side and always against me. I've been through "friends" that never showed up to my events. I've been through "friends " that...
    Purpletears17 Purpletears17 16-17, F 39 mins ago

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    Just once could I be happy? Not beat down and told everything that he doesn't feel is right. I'm here at his mercy. I do all he needs at the house, if he asks for something I make...
    Txwoman123 Txwoman123 41-45, F Feb 22

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    How to make a very long story, very short? I dated a boy (we shall call him Darlin), a coworker, for 6 months. My high school sweetheart and best friend (who we shall call Bug...
    quirkygirl520 quirkygirl520 22-25, F Feb 21

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    You were my bestfriend since 2 years.I shared all my secret with you but from inside I loved a the most.After my brakeup I never looked for any guy but don't know why I fell for...
    tinadhar007 tinadhar007 26-30, F Feb 22

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    ... I wish I could sleep in the arms of Starlight ... to drop my defense to it's warm glow, and alow it to float me to the heavens. Placing me on the crest of the cescent moon...
    Einwulf Einwulf 26-30, M 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    With my life... Want to continue but want to halt the continuation... Tired of being depressed, feeling inadequate and tired of people harping at me... Nothing makes me feel worse...
    4NeonFun 4NeonFun 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I have been with my husband since 2008. When we first met, I laughed and we talked a lot. Then he slowly took over my life. He started coming over to my house when I was at work to...
    mom4ce mom4ce 51-55, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I have tried an tried again to be what he wants. I can never be. The moment I have any happiness. He has to crush it. Why do I not just go away? Six foot under cant be that bad. No...
    Txwoman123 Txwoman123 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    that I think I'd still be willing to give us a second chance. That even though I'm much better now than when we were together, I wouldn't trying hard for us again. I wish you knew...
    toekneeow toekneeow 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    well, he isn't an ex, but he's a guy who has been in love with me for a little over 2 years or so. we used to be really good friends, but then he started to get really weird and...
    LostandFading LostandFading 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wish I knew if he was lying to me... I wish I knew if he actually cares...I wish I knew if I annoy him....
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I didn't sleep at all Monday night through Tuesday morning, and I felt so nauseous afterwards that I couldn't attend classes without feeling like I was going to be sick. But now I...
    Cephaloria Cephaloria 18-21, F Feb 5

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    I know no emotion beyond love. a lot of people do not seem to understand what love is, and those who do, don't know how to explain or express it. love is not a feeling. love is a...
    SprinklesINF SprinklesINF 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 6

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    well it's just gone 7 am and im deffo not sleeping all day again it's to unproductive so im off to the shop to buy enough red bull's and pasties to keep me going till 10 tonight...
    XUD9 XUD9 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 12

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    That i didnt waste my early twenties on a very bad heroin addiction. I talked to this 18 year girl and she made me realize how badly i messed up, her telling me all the fun she had...
    braster25 braster25 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    Didn't sleep well again. Weird dreams and cold weather. I feel so exhausted I want to sleep but I can't it's like this disease in my head won't let me close my eyes and rest. I...
    LoathsomeBear LoathsomeBear 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    i wish i could articulate things better,I wish I knew when to use a coma or a period? or a question mark..I wish i didnt have to re read what i had just written in order to...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Ehh. I wouldn't say it's messed up, but more like a scattered sleep schedule... I never get to sleep around the same times, or get the same hours of sleep every night, simply...
    LostandFading LostandFading 18-21, F Feb 12

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    I stayed up until 4am last night, woke up at 8am this morning and felt great, but now I want to take a nap. This look like the start of a messed up sleep schedule.
    1curiouslady 1curiouslady 22-25, F Feb 12

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    I wrote this a year ago, almost to the day. So much has changed and so much is still exactly the same. A couple of lines from this have been coming back to me recently so I...
    laurisilva laurisilva 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    It's not so much messed it up as lost life. I fear I am too dead inside and will need counseling later maybe. I'm dead and trying to live.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Hey everyone! Happy Valentine's day to all our friends and loved ones! Since its Valentine's day today, I've decided to post a poem WITH the translation! Many people on here have...
    IloveAllah90 IloveAllah90 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 14

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    I wish i knew how to describe how im feeling properly so that the people in my life could truly understand it. But thats just not going to happen. My moods swings are immense...
    rachlin50 rachlin50 22-25, F Feb 22

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    I wish I could escape the life that is my home. I just want to be who I am without being judged for it. Is that too much to ask for? And they wonder why I spend so much time in my...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F