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I Wish I Knew Why Im So Messed Up

A groupto share freely about our faults and imperfections. 247 People

    Is it wrong I'm proud of the fact I haven't

    eaten in 24 hours:( I don't want to slip back into old habits again:(
    dearnobody dearnobody 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    My whole life I have struggled with severe

    social anxiety. In the past year I have had to struggle with my social anxiety worsening along with depression that I've had for 4 years, regular anxiety, OCD, panic attacks and have been diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that has kept me in immense pain for the past year...
    alaskamxrie alaskamxrie 16-17, F 4 Responses May 20, 2014

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    I've been trying for a while.

    To be happy and optimistic. I always said, "Oh I have time." Except I don't cause it goes by way too quickly. Everyone around me is fine. Love, kids, husbands and wives and weddings and births. I have nothing really cause when those things happen friends who don't have them too...
    KatNW KatNW 22-25, F May 1, 2014

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    I made a horrible mistake years ago,

    and it has affected my life to this day. Now, there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I am nothing but a monster. And the uncomfortable thing is that I know it is true.
    katfished katfished 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    Like what happened to me down the line,

    I never used to be so messed in the head but now I cant stop thinking of all the wrong things, I just wish life would return to normal
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 26, 2014

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    I mean seriously how did I get depression,

    anxiety, and anorexia. I also probably have more wrong with me...great. With the anorexia oh my god I broke down 3 times at the mall. Cause you know I felt so big I was going to explode but when I got home and showered I noticed what I felt was false, I have bones in my back...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I have a chance to talk to a really hot guy

    and I mess it up talking about my family issues **** my life I scared another person off
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 23, 2014

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    I'm really ****** up.

    I don't know why but I know I am.
    sadiegirl347 sadiegirl347 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    tatikapaya tatikapaya 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I have so many health problems,

    ugh. It saddens me. I just feel like I'm freaking crazy. It's a struggle.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    Why can't I just be a normal person like my

    friends when they get older they have there whole life planned what college what job every thing! And it's all perfectly planned. When are teacher in fourth grade which was a long Time ago said what do you wanna be when you grow up. I said a youtuber and she said right to my...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F May 3, 2014

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    It Truly Is A Mystery.

    .... Oh Well! ^^
    ThatOneGothKidxD ThatOneGothKidxD 13-15, M Aug 17, 2014

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    I'm detoxing I've stayed strong I'm very dizzy

    felling I probably need medical supervision can't afford it I'm On my own I've gone a long way to turn back now my mind is giving me every reason to use I feel so dizzy can't barely do any thing I need people to help me out a little bit I'm having a hard time right now
    jollybeard jollybeard 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I sorta know why I'm messed up.

    I like serial killers, used to have a burn book, imagined killing people and other random creepy shizzle... XD
    JustAKittenArmy JustAKittenArmy 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    Step Inside

    I'm standing still, staring at myself, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I think about the ugly person that I am, that I have become. I wonder how I came to be this way, how I got lost and things went awry, how my path deviated to this direction. Where did I go wrong? I...
    lacedup77 lacedup77 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    I would love to be normal

    and stop being a "crazy" person that I have been called and known as. It would make my life easier.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    My life is so f...ed!

    Let's see my dad died in June 2010 followed by my husband informing me he had been having an affair with my friend and left me and my 2 sons.he kept coming back home and leaving 20 times actually.woman came after me running me off the road lying to police about me.i got...
    Pommy8 Pommy8 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F Dec 25, 2014

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    Why is it no matter what I do I get blamed?

    Blamed for very thin nothing is ever his fault it's always mine I'm the bad guy he spends $120 on a dirt bike part and i now can't afford Easter for my four kids I know money ain't everything but there happiness is to me and to see them on Easter morning from the Easter bunny...
    mommaof3boys1girl mommaof3boys1girl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    It does. I have no idea how. Maybe because things are bad at home now. Maybe because, my father hates us Maybe because I miss my mother, she isn't dead, thank god, she's just...
    iamnoor iamnoor 13-15, F Jan 1

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    68th post. What is this feeling? It's back again, the dread and hollowness inside. I don't understand why..I was starting to feel better. Today it's here with a vengeance. I feel...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I believe with utmost conviction that if god loved me he would not have allowed me to be born. Because of both who I am and my life experiences I will be punished in hell for...
    Verndari Verndari 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    I understand now, why you didn't stay. I see it clearly for what it was. It was not that you didn't love me that you left, but because you did love me and couldn't see any other...
    Lunarflowerrr Lunarflowerrr 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    If I could go back in time I would because I have messed up so many things that I wish I could do better and re do things that I should have done. I'm a hesitant person and...
    NoraCipirano NoraCipirano 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    She lives in the shadow of a lonely girl Voice so quiet you don’t hear a word Always talking but she can’t be heard You can see it there if you catch her eye I know she’s...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    well....another year has gone by, and another year ive wasted. honestly,ive done nothing with myself and my life. im 27 and still live at home,but this yearr,im going to get out of...
    VoloNoscere VoloNoscere 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    Am I the only one that doesn't want to feel happy? Most of the time i'm just 'not the in the mood' to act happy, especially around my family. And I know that sounds stupid but i'm...
    ImYourLady ImYourLady 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 1

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    Fell asleep around 4:00am and woke up at 1:00pm. Yeah not exactly the greatest sleeping schedule especially since I've got projects due! Wish me luck!
    Maicat1 Maicat1 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I did. Here I was having the chance of my life with the guy I loved. I guess things happened for some good reasons. I kinda thought about us lately and maybe I was just overwhelmed...
    Ranessa Ranessa 16-17, F Jan 10

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    Wishful thinking at best haha especially in my country there aren't many nutters or crazies with guns, so I guess I'll be waiting a long time ha.
    tangledweb94 tangledweb94 18-21, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    first off i'm not looking for attention i'm looking for a way out of heart break and any suggestions are ok. i messed up when i moved away from my boyfriend of 3 yrs (fiancee for...
    beautifuldisaster1206 beautifuldisaster1206 18-21, F Dec 28, 2014

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    i have messed up when I left the wife and kids the biggest mistake of my life I did it for a woman and her daughter cause they were in a abusive relationship i was her boss and I...
    Samueldllll Samueldllll 51-55, M Dec 28, 2014

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    I trust my own judgment when it comes to other people. If someone I found actually trustworthy turned their back on me, then it was likely something I did. *sigh* I am not so...
    MyNamesNotFrench MyNamesNotFrench 31-35 3 Responses Jan 4

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    I seriously have a messed up sleeping schedule. I think I have insomnia :/ I can go days without sleeping & it gets me so frustrated haha
    ashleeyj5 ashleeyj5 13-15, F Jan 5

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    I gave my boyfriends roses that he bought for me to my mom. He said that she might get the wrong idea because roses are for love. He says that if my nom starts making moves on him...
    Karinas2 Karinas2 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    Yes. When you hear about Ferguson, Middle East, bombings, I just hate it so much. Why can't we all get along? :(
    juliettecf juliettecf 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    My head is so messed up constantly. I don't know what to think or what to do. It's like I'm not even alive. I'm living but I'm not alive, and it's the worst feeling to ever have. I...
    LoneFox29 LoneFox29 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Omg I srsly have a messed up body clock :))) It's 1:30pm here and I kind of just woke up because of sleeping so late earlier haha
    ashlyn110 ashlyn110 18-21, F Jan 15

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    I hurt a really important person in my life and I can't go back in the past and change it. I'm all messed up now I keep remembering what I did and I just want to cry at random...
    cassyc cassyc 16-17, F Jan 18

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    Why am I still awake ??????????
    jenapoobear jenapoobear 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 19

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    Ughhhh i am so messed up i need motivation buddy locally i am going insane i need a break i need a change i need love !!!!!!!
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I was talking to this guy named William and I didn't really like him. William always put this bestfriend Diego on the phone while we were talking so I started to like him. We start...
    Victoria1212 Victoria1212 18-21, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I believe with all my heart that God has a special plan for everyone but sometimes I wish I knew what mine was.. I always wonder what my plan is that God has lined up. Has anyone...
    Supermanslover143 Supermanslover143 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    what you're dealing with . I hope you don't get attached . I hope you're everything I thought you were. I hope I don't tell you because I like you . I want you around temporarily...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    If I knew then what I knew now, Many would never be hurt..hell I'd save myself some heartache as well. I wouldn't run to the lottery or exploit my knowings..I would give everything...
    NickO28 NickO28 18-21, M Jan 9

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    I do wish I knew, but I don't have regrets...I have two beautiful adult children from all that heart ache
    heavenlygrace heavenlygrace 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Do you ever just have those moments, where you make such monumentally huge mistakes that you know will hurt loads of people? Yeah? As I sit back and think about my life so far, I...
    BeccaLouise40 BeccaLouise40 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14