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I Wish I Knew Why Im So Messed Up

A groupto share freely about our faults and imperfections. 463 People

    I have a chance to talk to a really hot guy

    and I mess it up talking about my family issues **** my life I scared another person off
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 23, 2014

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    Like what happened to me down the line,

    I never used to be so messed in the head but now I cant stop thinking of all the wrong things, I just wish life would return to normal
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 26, 2014

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    I have recently begun dating again

    and this sh*t is hard. The girl I'm seeing isn't into a or ready for a relationship. I am hesitant too because I'm not sure we're right for each other. My trouble is, I think I'm falling for her. We've been dating 3 months and I know I need to hold back a bit but I also want to...
    trevor2525 trevor2525 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 28, 2015

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    Is it wrong I'm proud of the fact I haven't

    eaten in 24 hours:( I don't want to slip back into old habits again:(
    dearnobody dearnobody 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    My head is just all over the place.

    I have such weird thoughts but my actions don't match. I just feel like a messed up individual.
    omasonc omasonc 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 7, 2015

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    My whole life I have struggled with severe

    social anxiety. In the past year I have had to struggle with my social anxiety worsening along with depression that I've had for 4 years, regular anxiety, OCD, panic attacks and have been diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that has kept me in immense pain for the past year...
    alaskamxrie alaskamxrie 18-21, F 4 Responses May 20, 2014

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    tatikapaya tatikapaya 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I'm failing in school,

    im depressed i have major anxiety issues that my friends seem to ignore and sometimes put me in situations where I start panicking. But I think I'm pretty strong for what I've gone thru but I have a feeling I'm not going anywhere in life , won't find love , won't be successful..
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2015

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    Step Inside

    I'm standing still, staring at myself, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I think about the ugly person that I am, that I have become. I wonder how I came to be this way, how I got lost and things went awry, how my path deviated to this direction. Where did I go wrong? I...
    lacedup77 lacedup77 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 16-17, F May 3, 2014

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    I have so many health problems,

    ugh. It saddens me. I just feel like I'm freaking crazy. It's a struggle.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    My life is so f...ed!

    Let's see my dad died in June 2010 followed by my husband informing me he had been having an affair with my friend and left me and my 2 sons.he kept coming back home and leaving 20 times actually.woman came after me running me off the road lying to police about me.i got...
    Pommy8 Pommy8 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I mean seriously how did I get depression,

    anxiety, and anorexia. I also probably have more wrong with me...great. With the anorexia oh my god I broke down 3 times at the mall. Cause you know I felt so big I was going to explode but when I got home and showered I noticed what I felt was false, I have bones in my back...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I've been trying for a while.

    To be happy and optimistic. I always said, "Oh I have time." Except I don't cause it goes by way too quickly. Everyone around me is fine. Love, kids, husbands and wives and weddings and births. I have nothing really cause when those things happen friends who don't have them too...
    KatNW KatNW 26-30, F May 1, 2014

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    Yeah i sometimes do wonder

    why i'm so messed up. When people ask you why you ask the way that you do and you try to trace every experience that you have that might flip the switch that made you the person that you are now. Then you realize that you don't know why. You just don't. Then it leaves you...
    kmgan kmgan 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 13, 2015

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    Why is it no matter what I do I get blamed?

    Blamed for very thin nothing is ever his fault it's always mine I'm the bad guy he spends $120 on a dirt bike part and i now can't afford Easter for my four kids I know money ain't everything but there happiness is to me and to see them on Easter morning from the Easter bunny...
    mommaof3boys1girl mommaof3boys1girl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    It Truly Is A Mystery.

    .... Oh Well! ^^
    ThatOneGothKidxD ThatOneGothKidxD 16-17, M Aug 17, 2014

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    therealsydster therealsydster 16-17, F Dec 25, 2014

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    Why can't I just be a normal person like my

    friends when they get older they have there whole life planned what college what job every thing! And it's all perfectly planned. When are teacher in fourth grade which was a long Time ago said what do you wanna be when you grow up. I said a youtuber and she said right to my...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    So the guy that I love decided to tell me he's

    afraid of losing feelings for me and thinks that maybe we should just be friends. I cried in front of him and he changed his mind completely, saying he does want to be with me. All my friends say that if a guy said that to them, they would cut him off completely. But idk what to...
    izzyyxo izzyyxo 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 17, 2015

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    I sorta know why I'm messed up.

    I like serial killers, used to have a burn book, imagined killing people and other random creepy shizzle... XD
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    I'm detoxing I've stayed strong I'm very dizzy

    felling I probably need medical supervision can't afford it I'm On my own I've gone a long way to turn back now my mind is giving me every reason to use I feel so dizzy can't barely do any thing I need people to help me out a little bit I'm having a hard time right now
    jollybeard jollybeard 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I made a horrible mistake years ago,

    and it has affected my life to this day. Now, there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I am nothing but a monster. And the uncomfortable thing is that I know it is true.
    katfished katfished 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I'm really ****** up.

    I don't know why but I know I am.
    sadiegirl347 sadiegirl347 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    Which is more deadly?

    A gun or a thought? A gun gives you the opportunity but a thought pulls the trigger.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 16, 2015

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    Nothing like receiving 100 text msgs from a mad-woman who is really P.O. at her man.., and she's giving details of how pitiful this poor guy is that I don't know cause SHE IS...
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    Doesn't everybody wish they knew important things sooner ? That's why I admire the young and intelligent people , they have a better start in life . Sadly my younger years were...
    NatalieWoods NatalieWoods 36-40, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I hurt so bad for so long. I don't even remember what I was like before this. Why did you leave like that? I have spouts of joy where I momentarily forget you. But your always...
    Villear007 Villear007 31-35, M 16 hrs ago

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    Thinking too much , depression and stress affect my sleep schedule . I don't feel comfortable enough to fall asleep. There's always something on my mind that is annoying me. I wish...
    NatalieWoods NatalieWoods 36-40, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I wish I could sleep more than 2 hours at a time. I exercise, I eat clean, I've tried melatonin... Gr.
    blakelii blakelii 26-30, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Now you send me a message: "Hello. Are you okay?" just an hour after "We're done. I'm not into you anymore.? You ripped me apart, how do you think I am doing, all alone in this...
    LeeLooLeeLoo LeeLooLeeLoo 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I wish I had the power to see into the future, so I could exploit the stock market. Then, with my power I would fund NASA to do whatever the heck I want like build a moon base or...
    BenBrown25663 BenBrown25663 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I don't have a messed up sleep schedule... I have a non-existent one!
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was coming home to be with you even before I was supposed to leave this lonely country but I never knew until 2 days ago that for 6 months now you've been cheating on me and...
    LeeLooLeeLoo LeeLooLeeLoo 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    This sudden incomprehensible feeling of hollowness in my chest that left my heart plucked out from the ribcage in its entirety and it's called misery. I feel very lost and all...
    LeeLooLeeLoo LeeLooLeeLoo 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I'm a great shame, and a great disappointment to my family. They won't say it, it's obvious by the way and i can really see it in them sometimes. And because of it im starting not...
    ciijei ciijei 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Okay. Think, dammit! The 14th of Feb. is Sunday and this means only one thing. It means my amazing idea that had been in a process of developing (by the time I knew about Sunday...
    Tourion Tourion 22-25, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Five years of being together, one year of being away from each other. For the past six months I was being cheated on and lied on. I only knew about this yesterday. I wish I knew...
    LeeLooLeeLoo LeeLooLeeLoo 26-30, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    He raised his legs in gesture as if to kick me but stopped. He threw a glass cup aiming at us and hurled vulgarities. He destroyed few of our furniture at home. He tried to assault...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am in my mid thirties. I have two daughters who live with me. I just finished going through my second divorce, and my heart is pretty broken. Just two weeks prior to her walking...
    JoeGlas JoeGlas 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I am my fathers' son of that I have no doubt. I miss him dearly with a gentle sadness and loneliness that follows me through my days and calls to me in my darkest hours and...
    Chagos Chagos 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    Why do I have to strap my t*ts up to my chin every day? What if I let those t*tties loose and let 'em wobble all over and what if I were proud of them? I sometimes wish I had...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago