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I Wish I Knew Why Im So Messed Up

A groupto share freely about our faults and imperfections. 291 People

    I have so many health problems,

    ugh. It saddens me. I just feel like I'm freaking crazy. It's a struggle.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    I have a chance to talk to a really hot guy

    and I mess it up talking about my family issues **** my life I scared another person off
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 23, 2014

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    My whole life I have struggled with severe

    social anxiety. In the past year I have had to struggle with my social anxiety worsening along with depression that I've had for 4 years, regular anxiety, OCD, panic attacks and have been diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that has kept me in immense pain for the past year...
    alaskamxrie alaskamxrie 18-21, F 4 Responses May 20, 2014

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    I'm failing in school,

    im depressed i have major anxiety issues that my friends seem to ignore and sometimes put me in situations where I start panicking. But I think I'm pretty strong for what I've gone thru but I have a feeling I'm not going anywhere in life , won't find love , won't be successful..
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F Mar 12

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    Why can't I just be a normal person like my

    friends when they get older they have there whole life planned what college what job every thing! And it's all perfectly planned. When are teacher in fourth grade which was a long Time ago said what do you wanna be when you grow up. I said a youtuber and she said right to my...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Step Inside

    I'm standing still, staring at myself, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I think about the ugly person that I am, that I have become. I wonder how I came to be this way, how I got lost and things went awry, how my path deviated to this direction. Where did I go wrong? I...
    lacedup77 lacedup77 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    Is it wrong I'm proud of the fact I haven't

    eaten in 24 hours:( I don't want to slip back into old habits again:(
    dearnobody dearnobody 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    tatikapaya tatikapaya 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    My life is so f...ed!

    Let's see my dad died in June 2010 followed by my husband informing me he had been having an affair with my friend and left me and my 2 sons.he kept coming back home and leaving 20 times actually.woman came after me running me off the road lying to police about me.i got...
    Pommy8 Pommy8 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Why is it no matter what I do I get blamed?

    Blamed for very thin nothing is ever his fault it's always mine I'm the bad guy he spends $120 on a dirt bike part and i now can't afford Easter for my four kids I know money ain't everything but there happiness is to me and to see them on Easter morning from the Easter bunny...
    mommaof3boys1girl mommaof3boys1girl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    Yeah i sometimes do wonder

    why i'm so messed up. When people ask you why you ask the way that you do and you try to trace every experience that you have that might flip the switch that made you the person that you are now. Then you realize that you don't know why. You just don't. Then it leaves you...
    kmgan kmgan 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    Like what happened to me down the line,

    I never used to be so messed in the head but now I cant stop thinking of all the wrong things, I just wish life would return to normal
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 26, 2014

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    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F Dec 25, 2014

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    I've been trying for a while.

    To be happy and optimistic. I always said, "Oh I have time." Except I don't cause it goes by way too quickly. Everyone around me is fine. Love, kids, husbands and wives and weddings and births. I have nothing really cause when those things happen friends who don't have them too...
    KatNW KatNW 22-25, F May 1, 2014

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F May 3, 2014

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    It Truly Is A Mystery.

    .... Oh Well! ^^
    ThatOneGothKidxD ThatOneGothKidxD 13-15, M Aug 17, 2014

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    I'm really ****** up.

    I don't know why but I know I am.
    sadiegirl347 sadiegirl347 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I sorta know why I'm messed up.

    I like serial killers, used to have a burn book, imagined killing people and other random creepy shizzle... XD
    JustAKittenArmy JustAKittenArmy 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    I mean seriously how did I get depression,

    anxiety, and anorexia. I also probably have more wrong with me...great. With the anorexia oh my god I broke down 3 times at the mall. Cause you know I felt so big I was going to explode but when I got home and showered I noticed what I felt was false, I have bones in my back...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I made a horrible mistake years ago,

    and it has affected my life to this day. Now, there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I am nothing but a monster. And the uncomfortable thing is that I know it is true.
    katfished katfished 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I'm detoxing I've stayed strong I'm very dizzy

    felling I probably need medical supervision can't afford it I'm On my own I've gone a long way to turn back now my mind is giving me every reason to use I feel so dizzy can't barely do any thing I need people to help me out a little bit I'm having a hard time right now
    jollybeard jollybeard 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I wish I could forget about you. I wish I could forget about how you made me feel, how happy you made me. I wish I could forget how you broke my heart.
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    that I think I'd still be willing to give us a second chance. That even though I'm much better now than when we were together, I wouldn't trying hard for us again. I wish you knew...
    toekneeow toekneeow 18-21, F Feb 28

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    I can wish and wish and wish all the time but it doesn't mean it will happen... There is this guy who claimed to like-like me but he also likes this other girl more. He knew me...
    TZPyrope TZPyrope 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I found a girl who loved me for me. I messed that up. Free school. Messed that up. Social life. Messed that up. Lungs? I managed to mess that up to and the brain. Lol.
    MyLifee99 MyLifee99 13-15 Mar 18

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    I wish I knew if he was lying to me... I wish I knew if he actually cares...I wish I knew if I annoy him....
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F Feb 28

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    Are you happy? Are you moving on with life? Are you over it? Do you still think about me? Do you still miss me? Do you keep hoping I'll talk to you? Or Do you hate me? Do you...
    quirkygirl520 quirkygirl520 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Why? Oh why? Why do I want things I can't have? There are things in front of me that I can easily get but why suffer wanting things I can't have.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I wish everyone loved life as much as I do and I'm sure there are plenty that do. But I read so many distressing stories on here of people that are so miserable. My heart goes out...
    Cathycc Cathycc 22-25, F 5 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    "Stupid Boy" Wish I will find a guy who thinks like the lyrics...pray upon a star Well, she was precious like a flower She grew wild, wild but innocent A perfect prayer in a...
    Kletsgo Kletsgo 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    (RE-POSTED CUZ MY OTHER ACCOUNT WAS BANNED) so it was friday yesterday (march 2014) and i tapped my parents for 20 nupe to go out for a lot of drinks. Im living in a city where i...
    TheCo0lestCat TheCo0lestCat 22-25, M Mar 16

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    What is wrong with holding a door for a lady? l was raised to be a gentleman and to treat ladies with respect and manners! l still believe in helping a lady with her coat, pulling...
    PSULLY63 PSULLY63 46-50, M 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Perspicares Perspicares 61-65, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I sometimes wish I wasn't born ._.
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response 45 mins ago

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    This crap keeps happening to me, why can't I just be normal.
    BrokenCats BrokenCats 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 2

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    I wish... That I was a genius That I didn't cut my hair That I never switched schools in 8th grade That my family didn't move That I didn't have a cleft lip and palate That I...
    blindedbylogic blindedbylogic 16-17 1 Response Mar 2

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    It's always been kind of messed up. I'm usually able to stay up till 3-5am and would sleep till like, noon/1pm. But 2 nights ago I was up till 6AM and only got an hour of sleep...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    this shot is a waste of time. I feel so sick, my stomach has gone rock solid which is concerning me. Im sick off the worrying. Ice had 3 strong negative pregnancy test and always...
    Midgetjem99 Midgetjem99 13-15, F Mar 7

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    I wish you knew all the **** that goes on inside of my head....then and only then would you truly know me.
    nonamerr nonamerr 13-15, F Mar 7

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    Now more than ever -- I am trying to correct my messed up circadian rhythm but it seems I've become a tightly wound drum that goes out of tune if the atmosphere is not just right...
    Tannasheart Tannasheart 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    If god is so good, why did he give me this kind of life? I'm tired of it. I'm sick of it.
    aespino06 aespino06 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 16