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I Wish I Knew Why Im So Messed Up

A groupto share freely about our faults and imperfections. 362 People

    Yeah i sometimes do wonder

    why i'm so messed up. When people ask you why you ask the way that you do and you try to trace every experience that you have that might flip the switch that made you the person that you are now. Then you realize that you don't know why. You just don't. Then it leaves you...
    kmgan kmgan 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    I have so many health problems,

    ugh. It saddens me. I just feel like I'm freaking crazy. It's a struggle.
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    My life is so f...ed!

    Let's see my dad died in June 2010 followed by my husband informing me he had been having an affair with my friend and left me and my 2 sons.he kept coming back home and leaving 20 times actually.woman came after me running me off the road lying to police about me.i got...
    Pommy8 Pommy8 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Why can't I just be a normal person like my

    friends when they get older they have there whole life planned what college what job every thing! And it's all perfectly planned. When are teacher in fourth grade which was a long Time ago said what do you wanna be when you grow up. I said a youtuber and she said right to my...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I sorta know why I'm messed up.

    I like serial killers, used to have a burn book, imagined killing people and other random creepy shizzle... XD
    JustAKittenArmy JustAKittenArmy 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    I'm failing in school,

    im depressed i have major anxiety issues that my friends seem to ignore and sometimes put me in situations where I start panicking. But I think I'm pretty strong for what I've gone thru but I have a feeling I'm not going anywhere in life , won't find love , won't be successful..
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Like what happened to me down the line,

    I never used to be so messed in the head but now I cant stop thinking of all the wrong things, I just wish life would return to normal
    Verix Verix 18-21, M Jul 26, 2014

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    Sometimes I'm happy sad depressed

    but mostly I'm depressed and sad and suicidal. I hate feeling like this.I have attempted suicide 4 times and never succeeded. I'm so sorry for all the people I hurt I really am.I just hate feeling like this.
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    Is it wrong I'm proud of the fact I haven't

    eaten in 24 hours:( I don't want to slip back into old habits again:(
    dearnobody dearnobody 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    I'm detoxing I've stayed strong I'm very dizzy

    felling I probably need medical supervision can't afford it I'm On my own I've gone a long way to turn back now my mind is giving me every reason to use I feel so dizzy can't barely do any thing I need people to help me out a little bit I'm having a hard time right now
    jollybeard jollybeard 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Why is it no matter what I do I get blamed?

    Blamed for very thin nothing is ever his fault it's always mine I'm the bad guy he spends $120 on a dirt bike part and i now can't afford Easter for my four kids I know money ain't everything but there happiness is to me and to see them on Easter morning from the Easter bunny...
    mommaof3boys1girl mommaof3boys1girl 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    I made a horrible mistake years ago,

    and it has affected my life to this day. Now, there's a voice in my head that keeps telling me that I am nothing but a monster. And the uncomfortable thing is that I know it is true.
    katfished katfished 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    My whole life I have struggled with severe

    social anxiety. In the past year I have had to struggle with my social anxiety worsening along with depression that I've had for 4 years, regular anxiety, OCD, panic attacks and have been diagnosed with a chronic stomach illness that has kept me in immense pain for the past year...
    alaskamxrie alaskamxrie 18-21, F 4 Responses May 20, 2014

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F May 3, 2014

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    I mean seriously how did I get depression,

    anxiety, and anorexia. I also probably have more wrong with me...great. With the anorexia oh my god I broke down 3 times at the mall. Cause you know I felt so big I was going to explode but when I got home and showered I noticed what I felt was false, I have bones in my back...
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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    I have a chance to talk to a really hot guy

    and I mess it up talking about my family issues **** my life I scared another person off
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 23, 2014

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    It Truly Is A Mystery.

    .... Oh Well! ^^
    ThatOneGothKidxD ThatOneGothKidxD 16-17, M Aug 17, 2014

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    tatikapaya tatikapaya 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    I've been trying for a while.

    To be happy and optimistic. I always said, "Oh I have time." Except I don't cause it goes by way too quickly. Everyone around me is fine. Love, kids, husbands and wives and weddings and births. I have nothing really cause when those things happen friends who don't have them too...
    KatNW KatNW 22-25, F May 1, 2014

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    Step Inside

    I'm standing still, staring at myself, looking at my reflection in the mirror. I think about the ugly person that I am, that I have become. I wonder how I came to be this way, how I got lost and things went awry, how my path deviated to this direction. Where did I go wrong? I...
    lacedup77 lacedup77 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    pxthetic pxthetic 13-15, F Dec 25, 2014

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    I'm really ****** up.

    I don't know why but I know I am.
    sadiegirl347 sadiegirl347 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2014

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    So the guy that I love decided to tell me he's

    afraid of losing feelings for me and thinks that maybe we should just be friends. I cried in front of him and he changed his mind completely, saying he does want to be with me. All my friends say that if a guy said that to them, they would cut him off completely. But idk what to...
    izzyx15 izzyx15 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    I'm so messed up. I can't even explain why, because it would seem so stupid and ridiculous but horrible at the same time. Ughhh. Sorry. Needed to get it off my chest. xD
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    I definitely wish I had known the paths my life would take in my earlier years.  Everyone has to pay their dues, and everyone develops and matures over time.  I just...
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