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I Wish I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 263 People

    Ugh

    Here lately I have gained so much weight. I just need someone to be here for me and tell me not to keep eating this junk food. I need some support. Any takers?
    jdfren26 jdfren26 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2013

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    Help Me! I Wish I Was Anorexic....

    Hey im 17 and im HUGE. i have a boyfriend that loves me, friends that say im not fat and that i should be happy because im beautiful.. but I DONT THINK THAT AT ALL!!! they can say thtat all they want but it DOESNT change the way i feel about myself. if i was anorexic then i could...
    anorexicwishes anorexicwishes 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    Wishing To Be Loved

    I'm 13 years old, 5ft 4in, and 118lbs and I think I'm fat. I've gone 2 days eating less than 600 calories a day and my stomach is growling so loudly during class, everyone laughs. I want to get Sensa or something like that but my mom won't let me. I did cross country 2 months ago...
    wishingtheimpossible14 wishingtheimpossible14 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    This group is such a sad thing to see.

    Don't do this to yourselves! You are worth so much more than the number on the scale. If you don't believe that you need to get help!
    scarletteharlot scarletteharlot 16-17, F Feb 23

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    I don't feel comfortable in anything I wear,

    I'm at the heaviest I've been. I hate food but yet I keep eating it. Ana buddie anyone?
    prolongskinny prolongskinny 18-21, F 5 Responses May 5

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    I Wish I Could Starve Myself More !

    Hi im emily :) I hate myself ;( ever sense I was little i use to be super secure about myself there was not one time I felt fat but it all changed i gain alot of wight i became chubby until one day i said im going to starve myself until im skinny i never did...until 2012 came i...
    flirtyemma121 flirtyemma121 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 3, 2013

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    Monday

    On Monday, I made it through the day without eating breakfast or lunch, only because I didn't have lunch money and I woke up too late to eat breakfast. Luckily, I had gum, so my hunger was hardly noticeable. Unfortunately, my mom made me eat dinner because she knew I hadn't eaten...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 16, 2013

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    I Wish I Was Anorexic Again

    When I was 12 years I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. It happened quite accidentally. It started out as just watching my weight with the atkins diet but eventually i started eating less and less. Finally I went from being 140lbs to 99lbs. I was fitting in to size double zero...
    RubyBloodDrop RubyBloodDrop 22-25, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    Ageless Battle

    This is an age old battle, being 46 I am still battling anorexia. After being a Irish step dancer for 27 years it was easy to keep the weight off. Now that I can no longer dance it is a struggle. I hope everyone can be healthy.
    Skinnycat Skinnycat 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2012

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    I wanna be something I will only dream

    for . I wish to weigh 75 pounds
    babygirl189960 babygirl189960 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I Wish I Was A Better Anorexic

    ive always hated the way i looked even in like kindergarden i just saw myself as the fat kid or the wierd one with the curly hair but my sophmore year of HS i had enough and i figure i'd just stop eating and ever sense then anas become my drug almost. it keeps me from...
    undead3325 undead3325 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 17, 2010

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    marissa3468 marissa3468 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    Why Can't I Succeed?

    I wish I could stop loving the food that I hate so much. I wish I didn't have to eat. I wish i could fit into a size 7. I wish I wasn't afraid of being thin. I wish I didn't weigh 183 at the height of 5'2". I wish I didn't have to get that C-section. Maybe next time. I wish...
    Mamabreezy Mamabreezy 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2009

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    I literally love how

    now I can see my bones at the top of my stomach it makes me happy. I would love to be anorexic looking so I can stop being insecure and I'm a happy person from outside but my mind takes me to another world a dream.
    babygirl189960 babygirl189960 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    I Hate My Body.

    I am 16 years old I am 4feet 10inches tall and I weigh 160lbs. My family says I need to loose weight and I can't go shopping or look in a mirror without bursting into tears. I see so many girls who are skinny and I want to be like that. Durring the week I hardly eat and I work...
    musicangel1 musicangel1 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    I Want A New Life

    I sooooooo hate myself. I was once in top shape and served in a Special Op’s, Airborne unit, I was a regular little Rambo. I regret the day I chose to become a civilian and wish I never left the military. Lately my life has turned and now I am unable to work temporally due to a...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 3 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    Wishing To Be What I Once Was

    I was anorexic for 6 months a couple years ago, I got down to only eating 250 calories at most each day. And I am highly active so I easily burned all that, and more off. I had never felt better. Except at nights sometimes I would cry myself to sleep thinking I was still too...
    FairyDoll FairyDoll 16-17 1 Response Jun 24, 2012

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    I need an Ana buddy! Someone anyone

    who is willing to talk to me and keep me on track.
    Superanaslut Superanaslut 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    Being Anorexic At A Young Age

    Wen I was little I was so confident I was so secure but what happen to me? I sundely saw I was gainging weight I hated looking on the mirror I thought it would crack I cried everyday praying to be skinny but it dint work...so I stopped eating I dint eat I trew my break fest...
    flirtyemma121 flirtyemma121 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2012

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    Can Anybody Help.

    i really need some support on my ED i dont like eaing and i ate for too days and i even ate met which i dont even like to i really need some more supprot can anybody help me
    xstarkeeyax xstarkeeyax 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    I want to be anorexic!

    I see so many beautiful skinny girls and I won't nothing more than to be skinny! I feel fat and I feel so insecure I want to feel beautiful, will anyone help me? Would anybody like to be my Ana buddy?
    butterflygirl28 butterflygirl28 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 11

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    It'S Rough..

    My name is kaity. I am currently 19 years old. When I was 17 I had my son. Before I had him, I was not super skinny, but I loved my body and was very comfortable in the skin I was in. when I had my son, I was back to my normal weight in days, and felt really good about myself, as...
    Bossierossie Bossierossie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Anorexia Would Be A Blessing

    Yes, I know many individuals who have anorexia don't like that they have it, and I know many people struggle with it. But when you're obese and don't like it and you hear a thin person griping about how thin they are...try as you may to understand what they mean, you just can't...
    StrawberryPocky StrawberryPocky 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    I used to like never eat

    and i felt skinny and now i eat and feel fat. I weigh 5pounds more than my boyfriend and it bothers me. How do i get back to being thin/anorexic
    oreosmores oreosmores 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 27

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    Dear stupid people, being anorexic is not

    something you are able to 'want'. It's a disease and 10-20% of the people suffering from this disease die. You don't choose to be anorexic. It's just like cancer, and some scientist even say you can have it in your genes. You DON't want to be anorexic. You just want to be thin...
    FermeTesYeux FermeTesYeux 16-17, F 1 Response May 30

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    What Is Wrong With Me?

    I'm fat. So why don't i eat like a fat person. Instead I eat like an anorexic. Maybe I'm anorexic? I guess that would be better that being fat. and ugly. and a freak. and a terrible person.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    Yes, I Really Do...

    I'm 5'4" and weigh 135 pounds (last I checked). That's average height and weight for a woman, but you know what? I hate it! I feel short and fat and just wish I could've grown to at least 5'7". But of course, I can't change my height. I can change my weight, however, and I've...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Am I Ana?

    I eat about 200 calories a day. When i binge i eat up to 1,000. Why am i so disgusting?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    :'(

    I am 5"4 and 170lbs . i am getting too fat for the cute junior clothes in the mall and have to start wearing plus size . when i look in the mirror i see this fat ugly nasty girl but others completely disagree . i wish i could grt this weight off and get it off fast . if it wasnt...
    bandgeek2 bandgeek2 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    Awesome Anorexic

    At 13 years old weight was never a problem. I would look in the mirror and just see me. But one summer at 14 I'd look in the mirror and see this big fat ugly person, not at all the girl I used to see. I tried dieting but nothing ever worked, and I just don't have the patience for...
    DramaQueen411 DramaQueen411 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 9, 2008

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    Anorexic Again

    My whole life I've been the fat kid. I hated myself so much for being fat, but the only way I knew how to comfort myself was by eating. After starting high school, I realized that all the popular people were thin-- something i definitely wasn't. After my boyfriend of a year...
    kayymonsturr kayymonsturr 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Fat

    i am soo fat i need to be thine anyone know how to help
    blueredgreen101 blueredgreen101 13-15 3 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    How Dare You

    To all you wannarexics out there, how dare you wish you were anorexic. Do you hate yourself and your body that much that you would give up on life to instead sit in your room, alone, measuring your bones and staring your ghost face down in the mirror? Anorexia is a cursed life...
    Avit Avit 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 10, 2013

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    BrokenButterfly10 BrokenButterfly10 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Recovering... But Hate It

    I have been a recovering anorexic for a month now and I hate it. Its really hard to make myself eat and I am paranoid each day thinking I'm getting over weight. To tell you guys the truth I only eat one meal a day so I don't freak out to much. I will maybe throw in a fruit bar...
    Tatteredheart Tatteredheart 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    That Scale Is Off 46 Pounds

    Im 15 and i used to be at a healthy 109 consistant weight. then i started just eating my feelings away. My mother who hates me has never failed to point out when i got a little bigger around my face and most of my clothes were to tight for me to fit in. Have u ever seen a girl 30...
    pangirl pangirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    skinnyandfat skinnyandfat 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 10

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    I Still Feel The Same

    I posted a story here on 11/9/12. It's been nine months and I'm afraid I don't feel any different now than I feel at the time I posted my story. I still want to be anorexic, even mildly. I want to reach 85 pounds. I still wish I could starve myself and ignore the hunger pangs. I...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2013

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    Desperate To Be Thin

    I wish i would have the will power to eat few. Calories a day, i feel so frustrated becouse i cant lose weight
    Odiseabc Odiseabc 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2013

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    I never had a problem with my weight

    until a couple of months ago. I have a love hate relationship with food and wish I could drop weight so I can resume modeling and feel confident again.
    misbrookelynn misbrookelynn 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    Well, I used to be anorexic in 2012,

    I really miss my body, I want to get back in time, help me!
    thiniamins thiniamins 22-25, F Aug 7

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    I Need To Be Thin

    hey , im nikki .. soon to be glamour model but at 9 stone 10lb im hateing it please someone make me a size 0 help me please.. i need someone i can stay in contact with to help me pleasee!
    nikkiLou nikkiLou 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    It Is Easier Than Being Fat

    when I was very young I was told I'm fat when I wasn't overweight ..at then I didn't know much about dieting I believed I'm fat so I tried to diet by eating nothing & when I can't take it because I wasn't eating any ,I was hungry & crave everything you can imagine & can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 28, 2011

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    Yes

    I wish i could say o to food. I wish when I said "this is the last time" to a Binge/Purge it would actually be the last time. I wish I had control over food not food over me.
    2bperfect 2bperfect 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    So I'm 14 and I don't know

    where to start my story. When I was younger I was really active, flexible and skinny. I didn't have eating disorders. It started around the age of 13 I would see pretty, young models in crop tops, etc. I wanted to be like them, I would try to force myself not eating but I couldn...
    madie012 madie012 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    Related Experiences

    Long time ago, now I'm fat.
    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername 18-21, F Jul 23

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    I think it's like he feels at home/ inside his head, when he's alone/ selfishly alone at last/ his mind, it just seems way to vast/ untold future, an unknown past/ derailed the...
    WaterfallDrops WaterfallDrops 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    its been a while since i've posted here. A lot has changed since doing so. For one my attitude to anorexia as a whole. Two my anorexia state. And three my long term health...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I'm really sorry but it's true.. I want to be anorexic.. Yeah i know the risk of it, i've watched documentaries, movies and even have friends who are... Idk but i just wanna be...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I was weighing 170-190 pounds and I stopped eating, had stomach problems, or I would eat very little. I lost a lot of weight because of what was happening. I weighed between 140-15...
    PeaceBatman PeaceBatman 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I wish I can see the skinny me wen people tell me ... I look at myself so fat
    sf619 sf619 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    I'm not ashamed of who I am, but yes I'm anorexic I have been to hospitals and have been stared at in public and I really want to talk to someone who is struggling the same thing
    katie4399 katie4399 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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