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I Wish I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 224 People

    Someone Help.

    I just found this site tonight. Im really new at this. But I have an urge to want to be skinny so bad. I just gained 24lbs these past months. Ive had the worst year, my boyfriend of 4 years was cheating on me, and is now engaged and going to have a baby with this girl after...
    PartygirlBell PartygirlBell 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 5, 2010

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    It Is Easier Than Being Fat

    when I was very young I was told I'm fat when I wasn't overweight ..at then I didn't know much about dieting I believed I'm fat so I tried to diet by eating nothing & when I can't take it because I wasn't eating any ,I was hungry & crave everything you can imagine & can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 28, 2011

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    What Is Wrong With Me?

    I'm fat. So why don't i eat like a fat person. Instead I eat like an anorexic. Maybe I'm anorexic? I guess that would be better that being fat. and ugly. and a freak. and a terrible person.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    I Need To Be Thin

    hey , im nikki .. soon to be glamour model but at 9 stone 10lb im hateing it please someone make me a size 0 help me please.. i need someone i can stay in contact with to help me pleasee!
    nikkiLou nikkiLou 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    Recovering... But Hate It

    I have been a recovering anorexic for a month now and I hate it. Its really hard to make myself eat and I am paranoid each day thinking I'm getting over weight. To tell you guys the truth I only eat one meal a day so I don't freak out to much. I will maybe throw in a fruit bar...
    Tatteredheart Tatteredheart 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Anorexic Again

    My whole life I've been the fat kid. I hated myself so much for being fat, but the only way I knew how to comfort myself was by eating. After starting high school, I realized that all the popular people were thin-- something i definitely wasn't. After my boyfriend of a year...
    kayymonsturr kayymonsturr 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 26, 2009

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    Monday

    On Monday, I made it through the day without eating breakfast or lunch, only because I didn't have lunch money and I woke up too late to eat breakfast. Luckily, I had gum, so my hunger was hardly noticeable. Unfortunately, my mom made me eat dinner because she knew I hadn't eaten...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 16, 2013

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    I Hate My Body.

    I am 16 years old I am 4feet 10inches tall and I weigh 160lbs. My family says I need to loose weight and I can't go shopping or look in a mirror without bursting into tears. I see so many girls who are skinny and I want to be like that. Durring the week I hardly eat and I work...
    musicangel1 musicangel1 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Wishful Thinking...

    I want to loose weight! I used to be thin and i took it for granted but now im fat and im dying to be thin again. I dont know how though. I've tried the healthy way and the unhealthy way and nothing is working. I need tips and motivation. I get so upset about being fat that i go...
    SanityFix SanityFix 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 13, 2012

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    I Wish I Was A Better Anorexic

    ive always hated the way i looked even in like kindergarden i just saw myself as the fat kid or the wierd one with the curly hair but my sophmore year of HS i had enough and i figure i'd just stop eating and ever sense then anas become my drug almost. it keeps me from...
    undead3325 undead3325 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 17, 2010

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    Wishing To Be What I Once Was

    I was anorexic for 6 months a couple years ago, I got down to only eating 250 calories at most each day. And I am highly active so I easily burned all that, and more off. I had never felt better. Except at nights sometimes I would cry myself to sleep thinking I was still too...
    FairyDoll FairyDoll 16-17 1 Response Jun 24, 2012

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    Ugh

    Here lately I have gained so much weight. I just need someone to be here for me and tell me not to keep eating this junk food. I need some support. Any takers?
    jdfren26 jdfren26 18-21, F Apr 11, 2013

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    Heres My Plan....

    And I ask please don't comment on here about how I shouldn't do it and all that feel good about yourself and love you for you crap. Yea tried it doesn't work. So anyway.... I'll buy vitamins and sleeping pills and those diet pills that make you not feel hungry. I'll keep myself...
    Serabi Serabi 18-21, F 6 Responses May 29, 2011

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    I Still Feel The Same

    I posted a story here on 11/9/12. It's been nine months and I'm afraid I don't feel any different now than I feel at the time I posted my story. I still want to be anorexic, even mildly. I want to reach 85 pounds. I still wish I could starve myself and ignore the hunger pangs. I...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F Aug 3, 2013

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    Awesome Anorexic

    At 13 years old weight was never a problem. I would look in the mirror and just see me. But one summer at 14 I'd look in the mirror and see this big fat ugly person, not at all the girl I used to see. I tried dieting but nothing ever worked, and I just don't have the patience for...
    DramaQueen411 DramaQueen411 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 9, 2008

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    I Wish I Could Starve Myself More !

    Hi im emily :) I hate myself ;( ever sense I was little i use to be super secure about myself there was not one time I felt fat but it all changed i gain alot of wight i became chubby until one day i said im going to starve myself until im skinny i never did...until 2012 came i...
    flirtyemma121 flirtyemma121 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 3, 2013

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    Yes, I Really Do...

    I'm 5'4" and weigh 135 pounds (last I checked). That's average height and weight for a woman, but you know what? I hate it! I feel short and fat and just wish I could've grown to at least 5'7". But of course, I can't change my height. I can change my weight, however, and I've...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    This group is such a sad thing to see.

    Don't do this to yourselves! You are worth so much more than the number on the scale. If you don't believe that you need to get help!
    scarletteharlot scarletteharlot 16-17, F Feb 23

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    Ageless Battle

    This is an age old battle, being 46 I am still battling anorexia. After being a Irish step dancer for 27 years it was easy to keep the weight off. Now that I can no longer dance it is a struggle. I hope everyone can be healthy.
    Skinnycat Skinnycat 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2012

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    How Dare You

    To all you wannarexics out there, how dare you wish you were anorexic. Do you hate yourself and your body that much that you would give up on life to instead sit in your room, alone, measuring your bones and staring your ghost face down in the mirror? Anorexia is a cursed life...
    Avit Avit 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 10, 2013

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    Still Trying.

    I am not sure how many of you are still part of this group but I thought I would let you all in my secret. I have been trying super hard. I drink my water take my vitamins. Try to keep count of my cals. Trying to get into an exercise routine. I have been restricting unnecessary...
    Mamabreezy Mamabreezy 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    Wishing For The Impossible

    when i was 14 i was anorexic and i was happy, i met my husband when i was 24 and a size 6, contentment has made me fat. 2 kids later amnd i'm size 18 bordering on 20 i want to lose weight but the only way i know is obsesive! should i be anorexic again?? How do i lose it healthly...
    lozxena lozxena 31-35 2 Responses Oct 15, 2010

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    Beginning Of Anorexia.. Lost

    the begging of anorexia.. Lost I am 5'1and 150 I know I am fat that is why I have turned to anorexia though I have no self control more like a wannabe anorexic I try filling up on water watching my calories exercising daily, but like i said before I have no self control I need...
    help26 help26 13-15 1 Response Jun 23, 2012

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    Anorexia Would Be A Blessing

    Yes, I know many individuals who have anorexia don't like that they have it, and I know many people struggle with it. But when you're obese and don't like it and you hear a thin person griping about how thin they are...try as you may to understand what they mean, you just can't...
    StrawberryPocky StrawberryPocky 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    I Want A New Life

    I sooooooo hate myself. I was once in top shape and served in a Special Op’s, Airborne unit, I was a regular little Rambo. I regret the day I chose to become a civilian and wish I never left the military. Lately my life has turned and now I am unable to work temporally due to a...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45 3 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    Being Anorexic At A Young Age

    Wen I was little I was so confident I was so secure but what happen to me? I sundely saw I was gainging weight I hated looking on the mirror I thought it would crack I cried everyday praying to be skinny but it dint work...so I stopped eating I dint eat I trew my break fest...
    flirtyemma121 flirtyemma121 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2012

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    Fat

    i am soo fat i need to be thine anyone know how to help
    blueredgreen101 blueredgreen101 13-15 4 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Why Can't I Succeed?

    I wish I could stop loving the food that I hate so much. I wish I didn't have to eat. I wish i could fit into a size 7. I wish I wasn't afraid of being thin. I wish I didn't weigh 183 at the height of 5'2". I wish I didn't have to get that C-section. Maybe next time. I wish...
    Mamabreezy Mamabreezy 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2009

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    Desperate To Be Thin

    I wish i would have the will power to eat few. Calories a day, i feel so frustrated becouse i cant lose weight
    Odiseabc Odiseabc 31-35, F Sep 17, 2013

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    I.wish

    I eish i.was or bulimic.one.or the other i wanna be skinny so bad!!! I.excirse daily and ive tried to.become.both of these but i cant make myself throw up.no.matter how hard i try and parents make eat so.....
    idontmatterandneverwill idontmatterandneverwill 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    Am I Ana?

    I eat about 200 calories a day. When i binge i eat up to 1,000. Why am i so disgusting?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    Can Anybody Help.

    i really need some support on my ED i dont like eaing and i ate for too days and i even ate met which i dont even like to i really need some more supprot can anybody help me
    xstarkeeyax xstarkeeyax 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    :'(

    I am 5"4 and 170lbs . i am getting too fat for the cute junior clothes in the mall and have to start wearing plus size . when i look in the mirror i see this fat ugly nasty girl but others completely disagree . i wish i could grt this weight off and get it off fast . if it wasnt...
    bandgeek2 bandgeek2 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    I Wish I Was Anorexic Again

    When I was 12 years I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. It happened quite accidentally. It started out as just watching my weight with the atkins diet but eventually i started eating less and less. Finally I went from being 140lbs to 99lbs. I was fitting in to size double zero...
    RubyBloodDrop RubyBloodDrop 22-25, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    Yes

    I wish i could say o to food. I wish when I said "this is the last time" to a Binge/Purge it would actually be the last time. I wish I had control over food not food over me.
    2bperfect 2bperfect 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    It'S Rough..

    My name is kaity. I am currently 19 years old. When I was 17 I had my son. Before I had him, I was not super skinny, but I loved my body and was very comfortable in the skin I was in. when I had my son, I was back to my normal weight in days, and felt really good about myself, as...
    Bossierossie Bossierossie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    So I'm 14 and I don't know

    where to start my story. When I was younger I was really active, flexible and skinny. I didn't have eating disorders. It started around the age of 13 I would see pretty, young models in crop tops, etc. I wanted to be like them, I would try to force myself not eating but I couldn...
    madie012 madie012 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    I used to like never eat

    and i felt skinny and now i eat and feel fat. I weigh 5pounds more than my boyfriend and it bothers me. How do i get back to being thin/anorexic
    oreosmores oreosmores 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 27

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    Help Me! I Wish I Was Anorexic....

    Hey im 17 and im HUGE. i have a boyfriend that loves me, friends that say im not fat and that i should be happy because im beautiful.. but I DONT THINK THAT AT ALL!!! they can say thtat all they want but it DOESNT change the way i feel about myself. if i was anorexic then i could...
    anorexicwishes anorexicwishes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    marissa3468 marissa3468 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    That Scale Is Off 46 Pounds

    Im 15 and i used to be at a healthy 109 consistant weight. then i started just eating my feelings away. My mother who hates me has never failed to point out when i got a little bigger around my face and most of my clothes were to tight for me to fit in. Have u ever seen a girl 30...
    pangirl pangirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Ive always been insecure about my weight

    and since quite some time I want to be super skinny so I stopped eating but it didnt last long coz after a week something happenend and I started binging, im still trying to loose a lot of weight but it keeps going up and down from starving to binging to guilty to starving its...
    lastchoice1 lastchoice1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Wishing To Be Loved

    I'm 13 years old, 5ft 4in, and 118lbs and I think I'm fat. I've gone 2 days eating less than 600 calories a day and my stomach is growling so loudly during class, everyone laughs. I want to get Sensa or something like that but my mom won't let me. I did cross country 2 months ago...
    wishingtheimpossible14 wishingtheimpossible14 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I have always been obsessing with being thin ever since I was little. I have never allowed myself to get to a size 3 in pants, I am currently a size 0 and sometimes go down to a 00...
    petite19 petite19 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I'm new to this site, in fact I have no idea how to really use it yet ;-; oh well though. I've been anorexic/bulimic since the summer of 2013, I'll lost 45 pounds so far. I've...
    paigeypaigey paigeypaigey 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I wasn't supposed to start this again. When my mom found out, she was trying to help me stop. But it's not that simple. The voices in your head telling you you're fat don't stop...
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Umm..hi ^^ so I was just searching around for places where I could, um, relate to people. Stumbled upon here :) I don't know why I seem morbidly cheery um, I'm sorry. Uh anyways...
    justbeskinny justbeskinny 16-17, F Apr 7

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    I'm so sick of being anorexic, I can't be a normal teen. I was pulled out of school to go treatment, then when I come home I have to be homeschool and go to all these doctors...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    People judge you by your image ..... When you meet someone you don't judge by image you look at personality but some Sticks can't seem to get that through their skinny little heads...
    musicdance814 musicdance814 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Anorexics, please answer this for me. How long did it take you to get to your LW??
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F Apr 7

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    Hello, My name is Megan and I'm 30 years old. For the past 8 years, I've been struggling with anorexia/bulimia. I was officially diagnosed two years ago and up until then I had no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 31

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    I got bullied all my life, I hated it! I wanted to die. I would starve myself, because I was fat. I hated how I looked....when I was 14 1/2 years old, (my boyfriend) started...
    Tanequa11 Tanequa11 16-17, F a week ago

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    I was bullied from kindergarten to my current grade (8th) Every little thing I did was an opportunity for me to get called names. I wear a pink shirt I'm gay. I don't wear a pink...
    Marissaxoxo Marissaxoxo 13-15, F Mar 19

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    Last night, I dreamt I was in someone else's body and I was thin. It warmed my heart. <3
    EmilyTheWise EmilyTheWise 18-21, F Apr 6

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    Lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks… I don't know we other to be happy because I lost weight or disappointed because it was over 2 weeks not one week… :/
    lost1234567 lost1234567 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 21

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