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I Wish I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 285 People

    I never had a problem with my weight

    until a couple of months ago. I have a love hate relationship with food and wish I could drop weight so I can resume modeling and feel confident again.
    misbrookelynn misbrookelynn 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    Wishing To Be What I Once Was

    I was anorexic for 6 months a couple years ago, I got down to only eating 250 calories at most each day. And I am highly active so I easily burned all that, and more off. I had never felt better. Except at nights sometimes I would cry myself to sleep thinking I was still too...
    FairyDoll FairyDoll 16-17 1 Response Jun 24, 2012

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    Ageless Battle

    This is an age old battle, being 46 I am still battling anorexia. After being a Irish step dancer for 27 years it was easy to keep the weight off. Now that I can no longer dance it is a struggle. I hope everyone can be healthy.
    Skinnycat Skinnycat 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2012

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    skinnyandfat skinnyandfat 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 10

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    How Dare You

    To all you wannarexics out there, how dare you wish you were anorexic. Do you hate yourself and your body that much that you would give up on life to instead sit in your room, alone, measuring your bones and staring your ghost face down in the mirror? Anorexia is a cursed life...
    Avit Avit 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 10, 2013

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    Monday

    On Monday, I made it through the day without eating breakfast or lunch, only because I didn't have lunch money and I woke up too late to eat breakfast. Luckily, I had gum, so my hunger was hardly noticeable. Unfortunately, my mom made me eat dinner because she knew I hadn't eaten...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 16, 2013

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    I literally love how

    now I can see my bones at the top of my stomach it makes me happy. I would love to be anorexic looking so I can stop being insecure and I'm a happy person from outside but my mind takes me to another world a dream.
    babygirl189960 babygirl189960 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    Wishing To Be Loved

    I'm 13 years old, 5ft 4in, and 118lbs and I think I'm fat. I've gone 2 days eating less than 600 calories a day and my stomach is growling so loudly during class, everyone laughs. I want to get Sensa or something like that but my mom won't let me. I did cross country 2 months ago...
    wishingtheimpossible14 wishingtheimpossible14 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    I don't feel comfortable in anything I wear,

    I'm at the heaviest I've been. I hate food but yet I keep eating it. Ana buddie anyone?
    prolongskinny prolongskinny 18-21, F 5 Responses May 5

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    Dear stupid people, being anorexic is not

    something you are able to 'want'. It's a disease and 10-20% of the people suffering from this disease die. You don't choose to be anorexic. It's just like cancer, and some scientist even say you can have it in your genes. You DON't want to be anorexic. You just want to be thin...
    FermeTesYeux FermeTesYeux 16-17, F 2 Responses May 30

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    I weigh 188 pounds and I want someone to help

    me becom at least 110 I'm 14 and 5'7" if any one is willing to help please let me know
    miminoel miminoel 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    So I currently weigh 155 pounds,

    I'm 5'4 and my goal weight is 85 pounds. Any suggestions? I've been fasting for the past few days and only drinking black coffee and tea with lemon. I usually try not to eat because once I eat one thing I won't stop lmfao. Any easy work outs for someone who isn't exactly that...
    sidorska sidorska 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 24

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    Yes, I Really Do...

    I'm 5'4" and weigh 135 pounds (last I checked). That's average height and weight for a woman, but you know what? I hate it! I feel short and fat and just wish I could've grown to at least 5'7". But of course, I can't change my height. I can change my weight, however, and I've...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    This group is such a sad thing to see.

    Don't do this to yourselves! You are worth so much more than the number on the scale. If you don't believe that you need to get help!
    scarletteharlot scarletteharlot 16-17, F Feb 23

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    I Hate My Body.

    I am 16 years old I am 4feet 10inches tall and I weigh 160lbs. My family says I need to loose weight and I can't go shopping or look in a mirror without bursting into tears. I see so many girls who are skinny and I want to be like that. Durring the week I hardly eat and I work...
    musicangel1 musicangel1 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    Looking for an ana buddy!

    Message me if you're serious!
    sidorska sidorska 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 24

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    Yes

    I wish i could say o to food. I wish when I said "this is the last time" to a Binge/Purge it would actually be the last time. I wish I had control over food not food over me.
    2bperfect 2bperfect 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    Can Anybody Help.

    i really need some support on my ED i dont like eaing and i ate for too days and i even ate met which i dont even like to i really need some more supprot can anybody help me
    xstarkeeyax xstarkeeyax 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    BrokenButterfly10 BrokenButterfly10 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I used to like never eat

    and i felt skinny and now i eat and feel fat. I weigh 5pounds more than my boyfriend and it bothers me. How do i get back to being thin/anorexic
    oreosmores oreosmores 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 27

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    It'S Rough..

    My name is kaity. I am currently 19 years old. When I was 17 I had my son. Before I had him, I was not super skinny, but I loved my body and was very comfortable in the skin I was in. when I had my son, I was back to my normal weight in days, and felt really good about myself, as...
    Bossierossie Bossierossie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    anorexicwannabe anorexicwannabe 13-15, F Nov 12

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    I need an Ana buddy! Someone anyone

    who is willing to talk to me and keep me on track.
    Superanaslut Superanaslut 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    I want to be anorexic!

    I see so many beautiful skinny girls and I won't nothing more than to be skinny! I feel fat and I feel so insecure I want to feel beautiful, will anyone help me? Would anybody like to be my Ana buddy?
    butterflygirl28 butterflygirl28 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 11

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    I Still Feel The Same

    I posted a story here on 11/9/12. It's been nine months and I'm afraid I don't feel any different now than I feel at the time I posted my story. I still want to be anorexic, even mildly. I want to reach 85 pounds. I still wish I could starve myself and ignore the hunger pangs. I...
    BelleofApril BelleofApril 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2013

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    I'm 180 lbs and I'm tired of being

    so ******* fat I'm tired of being the fat friend in my group of friends I wanna get to 110 lbs I will do anything I've been thinking about jus starving myself becc I'm suppose to be meeting my bf soon and I want him to be able to pick me up and just hold me...I need help fast I...
    capicornaluda capicornaluda 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 27

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    Ugh

    Here lately I have gained so much weight. I just need someone to be here for me and tell me not to keep eating this junk food. I need some support. Any takers?
    jdfren26 jdfren26 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2013

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    I Wish I Was Anorexic Again

    When I was 12 years I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. It happened quite accidentally. It started out as just watching my weight with the atkins diet but eventually i started eating less and less. Finally I went from being 140lbs to 99lbs. I was fitting in to size double zero...
    RubyBloodDrop RubyBloodDrop 22-25, F 16 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    marissa3468 marissa3468 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    Recovering... But Hate It

    I have been a recovering anorexic for a month now and I hate it. Its really hard to make myself eat and I am paranoid each day thinking I'm getting over weight. To tell you guys the truth I only eat one meal a day so I don't freak out to much. I will maybe throw in a fruit bar...
    Tatteredheart Tatteredheart 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    :'(

    I am 5"4 and 170lbs . i am getting too fat for the cute junior clothes in the mall and have to start wearing plus size . when i look in the mirror i see this fat ugly nasty girl but others completely disagree . i wish i could grt this weight off and get it off fast . if it wasnt...
    bandgeek2 bandgeek2 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    I Want A New Life

    I sooooooo hate myself. I was once in top shape and served in a Special Op’s, Airborne unit, I was a regular little Rambo. I regret the day I chose to become a civilian and wish I never left the military. Lately my life has turned and now I am unable to work temporally due to a...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M 3 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    That Scale Is Off 46 Pounds

    Im 15 and i used to be at a healthy 109 consistant weight. then i started just eating my feelings away. My mother who hates me has never failed to point out when i got a little bigger around my face and most of my clothes were to tight for me to fit in. Have u ever seen a girl 30...
    pangirl pangirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    I wanna be something I will only dream

    for . I wish to weigh 75 pounds
    babygirl189960 babygirl189960 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I Wish I Could Starve Myself More !

    Hi im emily :) I hate myself ;( ever sense I was little i use to be super secure about myself there was not one time I felt fat but it all changed i gain alot of wight i became chubby until one day i said im going to starve myself until im skinny i never did...until 2012 came i...
    flirtyemma121 flirtyemma121 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 3, 2013

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    Help Me! I Wish I Was Anorexic....

    Hey im 17 and im HUGE. i have a boyfriend that loves me, friends that say im not fat and that i should be happy because im beautiful.. but I DONT THINK THAT AT ALL!!! they can say thtat all they want but it DOESNT change the way i feel about myself. if i was anorexic then i could...
    anorexicwishes anorexicwishes 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    Well, I used to be anorexic in 2012,

    I really miss my body, I want to get back in time, help me!
    thiniamins thiniamins 22-25, F Aug 7

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    Desperate To Be Thin

    I wish i would have the will power to eat few. Calories a day, i feel so frustrated becouse i cant lose weight
    Odiseabc Odiseabc 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2013

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    Fat

    i am soo fat i need to be thine anyone know how to help
    blueredgreen101 blueredgreen101 13-15 3 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Day 1, I weigh 110 LBS,

    I've only eaten 4 biscuits, don't know if I should just skip supper, or maybe eat another biscuit?.. Hmm..
    MaciP MaciP 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 12

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    It Is Easier Than Being Fat

    when I was very young I was told I'm fat when I wasn't overweight ..at then I didn't know much about dieting I believed I'm fat so I tried to diet by eating nothing & when I can't take it because I wasn't eating any ,I was hungry & crave everything you can imagine & can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 28, 2011

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    Anorexia Would Be A Blessing

    Yes, I know many individuals who have anorexia don't like that they have it, and I know many people struggle with it. But when you're obese and don't like it and you hear a thin person griping about how thin they are...try as you may to understand what they mean, you just can't...
    StrawberryPocky StrawberryPocky 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    I Need To Be Thin

    hey , im nikki .. soon to be glamour model but at 9 stone 10lb im hateing it please someone make me a size 0 help me please.. i need someone i can stay in contact with to help me pleasee!
    nikkiLou nikkiLou 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    So I'm 14 and I don't know

    where to start my story. When I was younger I was really active, flexible and skinny. I didn't have eating disorders. It started around the age of 13 I would see pretty, young models in crop tops, etc. I wanted to be like them, I would try to force myself not eating but I couldn...
    madie012 madie012 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    I'm anorexic and I hate looking at my body. My friend is skinny and pretty and has a nice body but I don't know how she manages to keep her figure. I try my best but I always find...
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    me in bed: i wish i was dead me peeing: i wish i was dead me eating: i wish i was dead me 24/7: i wish i was dead
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 10 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I'VE BEEN SINGLE FOR OVER THE PAST 15 YRS.. I JUST WISH THERE WAS SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO WOULD GET TO KNOW ME & LOVE ME. SINCE I FEEL YOUNG MENTALLY, ONLY YOUNG WOMEN INTEREST ME...
    LITTLEBOYINSIDE LITTLEBOYINSIDE 41-45, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    i wish i was white sometimes so my life wouldnt be so miserable
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    I always end up saying stuff without thinking. I was sharing anecdotes from the time when I started working. Now in our work place there are two people who arent fond of each other...
    bujji14 bujji14 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    problem with this experience is that's your first wish you only have 2 left :) lol
    fenrirandimpachi fenrirandimpachi 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Apparently my face hit hard in reality. The guy who I thought was sending me signals that he might be interested in me turns out was just playing around for fun sake. The guy...
    Kahai3 Kahai3 18-21, M 1 Response 1 hr ago