I Wish I Was Dead Most of the Time

I use to think this way for a very long time. Life was bad and that would of been the quickest relief. I didn't die though i am still here. Plan to stay here till i do die.

I am very unsure of me i have been down 90% of my life tried taking it a few times when i was younger only to wake in hospitals or the floor alone the false security i feel when at work or around people instantaneously disappears when i...

Thirty years of therapy, five different anti-depressant meds a day, great loving family. I was broken long ago but I have to take responsibility for being unable to rise above my obstacles. I spent a long time trying to manage the pain...

Where do i begin, had a great life, wife, 2 great kids a thriving business and the world seemed to by my oyster but this has turned out to be a clam.

A big legal case sent the business under followed 2 weeks later by the death of my...

I'm a 33 yr old nobody who lives at home with his parents. I used to work but now my back hurts so bad and has for so long I don't even want to live anymore. All the doctors say the same thing, "you need surgery, but it's a 30-40...

I hate my face, I hate my body, and obviously I hate life. I'm ugly, weird, quirky, and stupid. I hate most people because of their endless ignorance and unwillingness to educate themselves, along with some people who like to shove...

There are time,Wish I was dead,Life's so rough,Had enough,Can't take no more.

My son died when he was 47 days old. His twin lived. I can't focus - my therapist made go to the ER to be admitted in a psych ward but i just felt worse. My in-laws blame me for everything. My husband doesn't seem to help. I feel...

for the last few days ive been feeling very low in my depression and i cant even bring myself to going to college because of it. my dad keeps asking if im ok, which i hate. i hate talking...and my friends are annoyed because i didnt go...

For some reason I thought major depression was supposed to get better. It doesn't. I have been medicated for 24 years since I was 16. I have been very sad my whole life. Now I am 40 and I am still depressed. If my parents weren't alive...

Ok I wish I was died I had to be about three the frist time I thought about it 40 now my mom died 15 days after my 15th birthday aghust the 15th 17 days after my moms 34th birthday. She was my woruld littile did i know how much she...

I spent some time last night imagining what it might be like to die.  I think I'd have to take pills.  I tried slitting my wrists when I was a teenager but didn't have the guts to do a good enough job at it.  Maybe I...

Not much of a story. 50 year old guy here. Not really depressed, not suicidal (only because actually doing it is too much work), just want out most of the time. I don't have kids, dependents, debt or any baggage. Just feels...

so at 20 you should be out enjoying yourself right? well for me it's the total oposite! for about 3 years now i've been depressed. Nobody understands and in most social situations i'll totally break down and am a complete downer.

so id...

I wish i was dead, so do my parents. They could get on with their life without me. I'm there biggest burden, thats what they said, and i want to cut myself to ribbons and completely outta their life forever. I hate them, and they hate...

...and left it for my wife to find. I went and laid down on my bed. She wouldn't't be home for another 6 hours; plenty of time to stop breathing and slip away.

I realized no one would be there to hold my hand when I passed. My...

Well i been like this most of my life. U know i think about it everyday. I thought if there was a robbery they told you to do something i would do the opposite so maybe they would kill me or i think how hard would i have to drive my...

I dont know where to start but I see society leaving me behind and im losing my mind.i want to experience happiness but I dont like me and think i will mess up anything i try. I dont trust my body and feel like suicide is the best...

Twenty-two hours a day I confine myself to my prison. Shutting out the light of day, festering in a stale, hazy and forsaken room. In a day I may stand for a total of an hour, the rest of my time is spent sleeping nightmare plagued...

I hate myself.If you really knew me you'd probably hate me too. I long for death like someone drowning is desperate for air. I've already attempted suicide. I'll never forget the taste of charcoal gaging me, stealing me back. I'd kill...