Starting to feel desperate now, gotta wait a few days for my pills to arrive. think i should start sorting my stuff out, then there will be less to do for who ever has to get rid of my stuff. Plus it may well distract me for a few hours.
I know this may seem like one of those "attention-seeking" or "feel sorry for me" or "talk me out of it", but it's not.
I just need to put into words how I'm feeling, and if I do that with anyone in person I'm guessing that something will stop me taking my life.
This is not a...