I Wish I Was Dead

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    hi am a single A B who is trying to build a

    relationship with someone on EP I just fill alone & like this
    kittybaby1968age3 kittybaby1968age3
    46-50, M
    Mar 5

    I wish I could just fall asleep

    and never wake-up. Everyday I hide in my condo, alone, staring at the TV, crying. I wish I had something that I could overdose on that would for sure kill me in a painless way. It seems so right. I would welcome relief so fully. I've been retired for 7 years and I have all...
    Sunshine9001 Sunshine9001
    51-55, F
    5 Responses Jun 16, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I hate myself so much to the point

    that I feel like dying would make the pain go away. My mom just says it's an excuse and that's I'm just trying to get attention. My question is why do people say that when we cut its for attention when we try so hard to hide it?
    Hesmyvampireking Hesmyvampireking
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    Someone might as well just k!

    ll me.... No one likes me... My sisters treat me like crap they team up on me and they're my dad's favorite so it's like I don't exist... I'm ugly I'm a waste of space that just needs to die already.... I don't belong here... My sisters curse at me and they don't have any respect...
    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2015

    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 26, 2014

    My gut is telling me it's time to let go.

    My heart is telling me the same thing. I have all the pretty pills all lined up but wonder if I have enough. I wonder if they are strong enough. Do I have everything in order? Hell no I don't. I have so much junk I need rid of. Needed to clean out some stuff. Too late to do all...
    cinch cinch
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    I don't. I'm here to give you this message:

    Don't do it. Don't you dare take your life. I know what it's like to wish you could escape. I know what it's like to feel pain. I know what it's like to feel hopeless. I know what it's like to feel like your pain won't end. It might if you don't give up. You are a human being...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 9, 2014

    I seriously wish I was dead.

    I had fallen in love with someone on line and I find out yesterday they aren't who they say they are. I had already been hurt by an actual guy I really can't see what the point of living is. Everytime I get close to someone they hurt me and I am seriously considering ending...
    annemariew14 annemariew14
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Jan 3

    Same ****, different day.

    Not enough strength to live, though not able to arrange my end. Why am I not allowed to take euthanasia pills, huh? People always have to keep their suicide plans a secret in order to achieve them. Shouldn't we have the right to end our lives, regardless of how much someone...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2014

    My life has barley started

    but i am already tired of living it. Thinking about the future and how many years that i have left to live makes me so depressed. I have nothing here on earth. I've never had anybody to really care about me, I dont know where I went wrong. Whatever, lets wait to see how much...
    holly0001 holly0001
    18-21, F
    Jan 8

    Most people wish for death

    but are too scared to take the steps towards it. I'm not scared, but i am scared of failing and having to live with the consequences from trying to realease myself. I do have things i love here, but the bad always outweighs any good. there is simply no point to existing for me...
    Hunttheheartofblack Hunttheheartofblack
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2015

    I'm breathing but I'm not alive.

    I'm blinking but not seeing. I'm hearing but not listening. It's like I'm already dead. But my body isn't 6 feet under yet.
    fafawuvsu fafawuvsu
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014

    I wish I could kill myself.

    I wish I was strong enough to do it. I wish I was brave enough to let go. I wish I was selfish enough to end my own misery at the cost of everyone else's. I wish I could give up. Why do I keep holding on so tightly to things that aren't even there?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Oct 27, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to

    me and I would die because of it. Sometimes I wish I big truck would hit my car and kill me. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to walk into the Pacific Ocean with a backpack full of rocks. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to drive my car off a cliff. Death seems so...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83
    31-35, F
    Apr 22, 2014
    beeftitties01 beeftitties01
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 28

    I want to jump off a bridge,

    I'm tired of pushing forward when I'm just getting deeper into my own personal hell. My grades are awful and my dad yelled at me and told me I was a worthless piece of ****, called me ******* idiotic, a ******* failure, and forced me to lie over the phone to my mom, who is at my...
    Natapongo Natapongo
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015
    tommy2207 tommy2207
    18-21, M
    Nov 5, 2015

    I'm so sick of it this.

    I just want it all to end.
    huntersveil248 huntersveil248
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    I wish I could choose how I die without others

    trying to stop me. I have realized that my desire to die, may not just be a symptom of my depression. I will talk to my therapist about this feeling because it seems like I'm unaffected by the thought of dying. I personally just see it as a necessary part of life. I also wouldn...
    NightOwlGirl NightOwlGirl
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 18, 2015

    I already feel like the life has been sucked

    out of me. My exterior might as well match my interior.
    oddpodd oddpodd
    22-25, F
    Jan 2

    I don't want to kill myself,

    I'm too pathetic to do anything about it but I really wish I was dead.
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2014

    It just gets worse every day.

    .. And I have no one to talk to about it. The person I'm in love with really thinks I've done terrible things. They don't believe anything i say. They don't even believe how badly I'm hurting right now. And I didn't do anything. They tell me how terrible I am everyday. This...
    etibahu etibahu
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 29

    I'm so glad I found this site.

    I have been readying one post after another and can relate to them all. I have been suffering from depression all my life. Now at 44 and after 3 serious suicides attempts I started to see a doc and take meds to stablize my mood. In a way it has worked. I no longer walk around...
    Mabspoe Mabspoe
    41-45, M
    Nov 17, 2015

    I say that a lot. I don't really mean it.

    I mean if I had a choice for either happiness or death, I'd choose happiness. Because that's what I truly wish for. But if I can't have that I'd rather be dead. I just wish I lived in a perfect world without overpopulation, so I didn't need to worry about it. I wish humans and...
    Lolinondoda Lolinondoda
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    I feel like I'm better off.

    ..I'm just afraid of the pain of death and what would happen to me afterwards. I'm afraid of dying and going to hell which is the only reason I'm still here. I feel like I'll never be able to change the way I want to. I try to trust in God but nothing is happening here even...
    Jason947 Jason947
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Mar 6
    Mylo248 Mylo248
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014

    I don't have anything to live for.

    Nobody would miss me anyway... I honestly don't know why I haven't killed myself yet. Too cowardly I guess? I just keep hoping things will get better but they never do. You guys don't have to respond to this or anything, I'll probably end up deleting it sooner or later. I just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    57 Responses Nov 9, 2014

    I feel like cutting my chest

    so my heart will stop hurting and just bleed out :'(
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

    It seems as if this night has gotten

    progressively worse. I know I'll be up for a while, there's no way I could trick my brain into resting right now. Everything always seems to fall apart at once. My thoughts are going from one place to another.
    calumnious calumnious
    16-17, F
    Feb 1

    Everyday I wish that I would die.

    I feel like I have no one. I can't talk to my parents or my friend. Once when I tried talking to my parents about my feelings they said I was queer. I only have one friend and I don't want to lose her because of my feelings. I don't think we're good friends anyway. I feel...
    Caseyyo Caseyyo
    16-17, F
    Jan 1
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 27

    I have been bullied since first grade.

    I have been suicidal before, but recently I have been cyber-bullied. I've been told that no one will love me because I am the way I am. I've never wanted to hurt myself as much as I want to right now, and dying seems like a great idea at the moment.
    meggiebeth125 meggiebeth125
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 2

    I really wanna die. Everything's going

    so bad for me right now. I know it's not going to get better because it never does. I wish i could choose to be dissociated whenever i don't wanna feel anything, but whenever i am dissociated, it's at a bad time. I wouldn't be surprised if i ended back up in the hospital...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Dec 1, 2014

    I don't want to get up in the morning,

    i don't want to talk anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to see your face anymore, i don't want you to make me feel i like a waste of space anymore, i just want to go to sleep and never wake up, this is not the first time you have made me feel like i should just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 16, 2014

    Indeed.

    I am not yet lost enough to want to end it. To want to die. But being dead, or never having existed, would be nice.... I just wish I wasnt alive, which I guess equates to wishing to be dead. But alas, I cant do it. Not watching Catherine and Sarahs family falling apart from it...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    19 Responses Apr 15, 2008
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 5

    It's moments like these

    that make you wish you would have finished the job a long time ago. And it's that sentiment that makes me want to do that service now so my future self will never have to feel this way again. Life does have its good moments, but those are so easily tainted by how terribly tragic...
    Taynkbot Taynkbot
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 5, 2015
    Shaaydixie Shaaydixie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2014

    Every single day I wish I was dead,

    I'm so looking forward to die and being buried in my grave.
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101
    22-25, M
    Mar 7

    Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless.

    Little white flowers will never awaken you... not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 28, 2015

    WERE dead.... come on people.

    . if you're going to wish such a horrible thing... at least do it with correct grammar.
    SweetKiester SweetKiester
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Jan 23, 2014

    Nobody would miss me.

    I have no friends. Nobody would even notice i am gone. It will end all the pain. How can people make it so far in life?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    12 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    I don't know why I don't just kill myself

    already im already invisible it's not like anyone would notice
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    9 Responses May 31, 2015
    snowballcupcake snowballcupcake
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 20

    I mean honestly guys?

    What's so pretty about that...nothing I would rather be dead than alive
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

    I want to die so bad.

    I want to die. My friends are insensitive ******** and my mom is a complete utter *****. I ******* hate her. I want her to know how much I hate her. Maybe then she'll give a **** about me. I wish that my dad had never married that piece of **** and brought me into the world. I'd...
    AllieKat17 AllieKat17
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2015

    Think about it I'm gonna be dead eventually,

    why can't I just speed up that process...
    ellie32433 ellie32433
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 27, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2015

    sometimes in life we have our ups

    and downs. Yes I've had plenty but for the most part, I've grown to except that life is all about what you can get out of it. I'm 28 going on 29 and I've been talked about, cheated on, beaten, seen and heard things I wouldn't even wish on mu worsted enemy. I feel like I've given...
    corazoncitoroto corazoncitoroto
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 5, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    All I do is sit in my room

    and wish I were dead. I feel so ******* empty.
    sunny97 sunny97
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 30, 2014

    I want to run away from home,

    but I think dying would be better. that way there's no way I'll ever come back. I'm not sure if I want to do it though.... I need some advice, someone to talk to. I'm not sure if I can ask anywhere else
    Melody6517 Melody6517
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Mar 29

    I am ******* done with people.

    They fake their way to bitter ends. I have been nothing but loyal to everyone and I don't get how I still get treated like **** sometimes. I don't like my friends. And I can't make new friends cause of my anxiety and depression and others. I feel like if I just died everything...
    HayleyCroneoff15 HayleyCroneoff15
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 20

    my life sucks. I feel disconnected from my

    school. I try not to talk in school so ppl won't laugh.. Then I picture my self lonely when I start high school.
    xXHalfaliveXx xXHalfaliveXx
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    Ever since I was young I don't remember ever

    feeling loved...it's not that I don't think it happens. Right now I have a father figure in my life and he means the world to me and he has helped me so much, but as close as I am to him I know he is not my dad and that when he does things on the weekend he has a family, a wife...
    hatewhoivebecome hatewhoivebecome
    16-17, F
    Sep 29, 2015
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