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I Wish I Was Dead

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    I say that a lot. I don't really mean it.

    I mean if I had a choice for either happiness or death, I'd choose happiness. Because that's what I truly wish for. But if I can't have that I'd rather be dead. I just wish I lived in a perfect world without overpopulation, so I didn't need to worry about it. I wish humans and...
    Lolinondoda Lolinondoda 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 18, 2015

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    Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless.

    Little white flowers will never awaken you... not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 28, 2015

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    It seems as if this night has gotten

    progressively worse. I know I'll be up for a while, there's no way I could trick my brain into resting right now. Everything always seems to fall apart at once. My thoughts are going from one place to another.
    calumnious calumnious 16-17, F a week ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 27

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    I don't. I'm here to give you this message:

    Don't do it. Don't you dare take your life. I know what it's like to wish you could escape. I know what it's like to feel pain. I know what it's like to feel hopeless. I know what it's like to feel like your pain won't end. It might if you don't give up. You are a human being...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 9, 2014

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    my life sucks. I feel disconnected from my

    school. I try not to talk in school so ppl won't laugh.. Then I picture my self lonely when I start high school.
    xXHalfaliveXx xXHalfaliveXx 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 18, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jul 19, 2015

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    I wish I could choose how I die without others

    trying to stop me. I have realized that my desire to die, may not just be a symptom of my depression. I will talk to my therapist about this feeling because it seems like I'm unaffected by the thought of dying. I personally just see it as a necessary part of life. I also wouldn...
    NightOwlGirl NightOwlGirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 18, 2015

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    Someone might as well just k!

    ll me.... No one likes me... My sisters treat me like crap they team up on me and they're my dad's favorite so it's like I don't exist... I'm ugly I'm a waste of space that just needs to die already.... I don't belong here... My sisters curse at me and they don't have any respect...
    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo 16-17, F 2 Responses May 12, 2015

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    Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to

    me and I would die because of it. Sometimes I wish I big truck would hit my car and kill me. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to walk into the Pacific Ocean with a backpack full of rocks. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to drive my car off a cliff. Death seems so...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F Apr 22, 2014

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    Shaaydixie Shaaydixie 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    Nobody would miss me.

    I have no friends. Nobody would even notice i am gone. It will end all the pain. How can people make it so far in life?
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    Ever since I was young I don't remember ever

    feeling loved...it's not that I don't think it happens. Right now I have a father figure in my life and he means the world to me and he has helped me so much, but as close as I am to him I know he is not my dad and that when he does things on the weekend he has a family, a wife...
    hatewhoivebecome hatewhoivebecome 16-17, F Sep 29, 2015

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    I want to die so bad.

    I want to die. My friends are insensitive ******** and my mom is a complete utter *****. I ******* hate her. I want her to know how much I hate her. Maybe then she'll give a **** about me. I wish that my dad had never married that piece of **** and brought me into the world. I'd...
    AllieKat17 AllieKat17 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2015

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    I hate myself so much to the point

    that I feel like dying would make the pain go away. My mom just says it's an excuse and that's I'm just trying to get attention. My question is why do people say that when we cut its for attention when we try so hard to hide it?
    Killingmesoftly78 Killingmesoftly78 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 12, 2015

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    I don't have anything to live for.

    Nobody would miss me anyway... I honestly don't know why I haven't killed myself yet. Too cowardly I guess? I just keep hoping things will get better but they never do. You guys don't have to respond to this or anything, I'll probably end up deleting it sooner or later. I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 62 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    WERE dead.... come on people.

    . if you're going to wish such a horrible thing... at least do it with correct grammar.
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    idk what to do with my life anymore.

    ..I wish I was dead...or never born...I hate my life...I hate everything
    rockyboo rockyboo 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2015

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    I just want to die so bad.

    I want to just put a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. Nothing ever gets better. I can't kill myself. I have to stay and suffer for everything I've done. I've hurt so many people. I feel that punishing myself by staying alive is the least I can do. Killing myself would be...
    IchBinDeutsch IchBinDeutsch 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2015

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    I wish I could kill myself.

    I wish I was strong enough to do it. I wish I was brave enough to let go. I wish I was selfish enough to end my own misery at the cost of everyone else's. I wish I could give up. Why do I keep holding on so tightly to things that aren't even there?
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    sometimes in life we have our ups

    and downs. Yes I've had plenty but for the most part, I've grown to except that life is all about what you can get out of it. I'm 28 going on 29 and I've been talked about, cheated on, beaten, seen and heard things I wouldn't even wish on mu worsted enemy. I feel like I've given...
    corazoncitoroto corazoncitoroto 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 5, 2015

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    I have been bullied since first grade.

    I have been suicidal before, but recently I have been cyber-bullied. I've been told that no one will love me because I am the way I am. I've never wanted to hurt myself as much as I want to right now, and dying seems like a great idea at the moment.
    meggiebeth125 meggiebeth125 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've been nothing but miserable

    as a (I think) born again Christian (became one two years ago) My home life is awful. I have no job, no support from anyone, no life, no friends and no happiness. I have constant physical pain which I've had since March last year. I can't get the medical help I need and I'm...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 46-50 3 Responses a week ago

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    That's it I'm so ******* done.

    I can't take all this bullshit anymore.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F Dec 10, 2014

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    Think about it I'm gonna be dead eventually,

    why can't I just speed up that process...
    ellie32433 ellie32433 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I do I really do idk If I Can take another day

    I guess I might as well write all my goodbyes to my friends in case I'm not here Monday I'm just so sad I don't feel alive anymore I just feel dead but I'm walking around like a brainless zombie idk where I will go some people say if you kill your self you go to hell which I...
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 17, 2015

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    I mean honestly guys?

    What's so pretty about that...nothing I would rather be dead than alive
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    I feel horrible wishing this

    and never thought I'd be in this dark place. I've hit my breaking point. My husband has betrayed me and we are on the verge of divorce. Our two kids have been a lot to handle lately. One has been really sick and the other has been acting out from I'm sure all of the problems...
    Lin17 Lin17 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2015

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    sunuii sunuii 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 11, 2015

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    I want to jump off a bridge,

    I'm tired of pushing forward when I'm just getting deeper into my own personal hell. My grades are awful and my dad yelled at me and told me I was a worthless piece of ****, called me ******* idiotic, a ******* failure, and forced me to lie over the phone to my mom, who is at my...
    Natapongo Natapongo 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

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    I seriously wish I was dead.

    I had fallen in love with someone on line and I find out yesterday they aren't who they say they are. I had already been hurt by an actual guy I really can't see what the point of living is. Everytime I get close to someone they hurt me and I am seriously considering ending...
    annemariew14 annemariew14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 3

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    It's moments like these

    that make you wish you would have finished the job a long time ago. And it's that sentiment that makes me want to do that service now so my future self will never have to feel this way again. Life does have its good moments, but those are so easily tainted by how terribly tragic...
    Taynkbot Taynkbot 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 5, 2015

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    isaiahjanowiak isaiahjanowiak 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 25, 2015

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    I'm so sick of it this.

    I just want it all to end.
    huntersveil248 huntersveil248 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 8, 2015

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    Everyday I wish that I would die.

    I feel like I have no one. I can't talk to my parents or my friend. Once when I tried talking to my parents about my feelings they said I was queer. I only have one friend and I don't want to lose her because of my feelings. I don't think we're good friends anyway. I feel...
    Caseyyo Caseyyo 16-17, F Jan 1

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    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    Indeed.

    I am not yet lost enough to want to end it. To want to die. But being dead, or never having existed, would be nice.... I just wish I wasnt alive, which I guess equates to wishing to be dead. But alas, I cant do it. Not watching Catherine and Sarahs family falling apart from it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    I really wanna die. Everything's going

    so bad for me right now. I know it's not going to get better because it never does. I wish i could choose to be dissociated whenever i don't wanna feel anything, but whenever i am dissociated, it's at a bad time. I wouldn't be surprised if i ended back up in the hospital...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I'm too pathetic to do anything about it but I really wish I was dead.
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2014

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    I feel like cutting my chest

    so my heart will stop hurting and just bleed out :'(
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    All I do is sit in my room

    and wish I were dead. I feel so ******* empty.
    sunny97 sunny97 18-21, F 3 Responses May 30, 2014

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    My gut is telling me it's time to let go.

    My heart is telling me the same thing. I have all the pretty pills all lined up but wonder if I have enough. I wonder if they are strong enough. Do I have everything in order? Hell no I don't. I have so much junk I need rid of. Needed to clean out some stuff. Too late to do all...
    cinch cinch 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2014

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