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I Wish I Was Dead

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    Death Is The Cure For Life

    I grew up in an abusive household and I actually started praying for my own death when I was seven. When I was younger I wouldn't chew my food all the way in hopes that I would choke to death. Things haven't gotten any better since I have gotten older once you have experienced...
    birdsofprey93 birdsofprey93 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 4, 2013

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    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F Mar 13

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    I'm slowly killing myself

    and then when time is right I'm going to kill myself is that wrong for a 15 year old to think is it from that I have major depression, anxiety, Biluma and starving my self at 15
    worthlessdancer worthlessdancer 13-15, F 5 Responses May 23

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    I'm not suicidal.. But I know death will be

    beautiful, I've died once before and I've never been so happy since then. I want to go back .. I can't wait to die , I welcome death with open arms
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective 18-21, F Jan 10

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    Is This Real?

    Do you ever feel like there's something that's just wrong? I feel like life isn't real sometimes. It all feels like just one big chapter in a book. Everyday is just another story. It gives life no meaning and no purpose. It's the same systematic thing everyday. Wake up go to...
    missspandabear missspandabear 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2013

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    Do It, I Dare You Do what ever it takes.

    Kill me if you have. I want you to but I don't. Just let it all be over. This feeling comes to often. Let me die.  No, save me. Kill my pain. Help me. I'm not insane. I can't and you shouldn't.  Please don't die on us
    musiqdreamer musiqdreamer 16-17, F Jan 22

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    I wish I was dead. I just can't take my family,

    my life anymore. My family is really cruel to me. They constantly tell me that the world would be better of if I were dead, or better yet if I had never existed in the first place. I always wonder if they are right. I can't take the constant ridicule I get from everybody. I...
    UchigawaNiShinda UchigawaNiShinda 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I've read a lot of things about the ideal

    weight. I'm supposed to be from 52-59 kg. So what - I'm 51 kg, I'm normal and I hate myself for it. Who likes normal?! I want to be skinny. I've tried everything. I've tried eating 500 kcal a day, and what - nothing. I eat less than 900 everyday for over a year, and what...
    elena1998 elena1998 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Do It, I Dare You Do what ever it takes.

    Kill me if you have. I want you to but I don't. Just let it all be over. This feeling comes to often. Let me die.  No, save me. Kill my pain. Help me. I'm not insane. I can't and you shouldn't.  Please don't die on us
    musiqdreamer musiqdreamer 16-17, F Jan 22

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    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 19 Responses May 16

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    Do It, I Dare You Do what ever it takes.

    Kill me if you have. I want you to but I don't. Just let it all be over. This feeling comes to often. Let me die.  No, save me. Kill my pain. Help me. I'm not insane. I can't and you shouldn't.  Please don't die on us
    musiqdreamer musiqdreamer 16-17, F Jan 22

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    WERE dead.... come on people.

    . if you're going to wish such a horrible thing... at least do it with correct grammar.
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 36-40, F 8 Responses Jan 23

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    Being Dead

    There is absolutely nothing in the entire world I would want more, than being dead.
    Maddi3K Maddi3K 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I don't know who I am any more.

    I feel trapped inside a monster , I am an onlooker stuck outside watching this person push everyone away but I can't control it. I can't stop it. All I want is to stop breathing. But I can't control it and I can't do it.The one thing I want and I can't give it to myself because...
    whybotherbreathing whybotherbreathing 16-17, F Jun 14

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    I'm Tired Of It

    I was first diagnosed with depression when I was four years old. Literally, I've never been happy. I don't know what it looks like or what it feels like or how to go about finding it. I feel a lot of the time that if I let go of all the pain and self-loathing, I'd just disappear...
    MadamAZC MadamAZC 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Looking for ways to kill myself

    and not leave my body around.
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    sometimes i try killing myself.

    .. but sometimes im just really scared you know im not prepared for the afterlife.. sometimes i think life would be better off without me plus ill be doing less sins so god wouldnt be that mad at me you know... maybe if i died i would stop hurting people you know and they would...
    heeeeey heeeeey 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    I Guess This Is Goodbye

    so night i shall die and no one will care if i fail i will try again tomorrow but i will be put down on this first to make it easier. i want to die and nothing can stop me this time. no person can stop me. no nothing goodbye all ep-ers you will forever be hunted by my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    Death , The Last Option, I Have.

    I have worked hard, and i have been successful. I want to run away to have my own life. But i am being treated like a breeding horse which has to run at wishes of its master. Every inch of my life is controlled, they blackmail with, pain for my mind , my body and even my soul. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 19, 2013

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    I am not suicidal. I just hate life.

    I hate the people in it and I just wish I was dead. I'm not depressed I just don't know how to function. My husband cheats constantly but I don't have the self worth to leave(before him I was literally homeless now I have the "white picket fence") my kids laugh at me mock me put...
    Timtam664 Timtam664 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    Do It, I Dare You Do what ever it takes.

    Kill me if you have. I want you to but I don't. Just let it all be over. This feeling comes to often. Let me die.  No, save me. Kill my pain. Help me. I'm not insane. I can't and you shouldn't.  Please don't die on us
    musiqdreamer musiqdreamer 16-17, F Jan 22

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    Depressed

    i was so happy, i was out and proud with a gorgeous girlfriend and really happy with my life, but my gf dumped me and im feeling depressed and i feel its time to end my life because there is nothing left for me
    AdeleJones AdeleJones 18-21, F 22 Responses Aug 19, 2013

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    A Wish, Or Maybe A Dream...

    To be dead, its a wish I have, its something I dream about, something I have been aching for, but no one will ever know this, because I paint a smile on my face, and act like its all okay, and that I am fine all the time. No one sees the tears I shed, or when I am laying there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 19, 2010

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    Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to

    me and I would die because of it. Sometimes I wish I big truck would hit my car and kill me. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to walk into the Pacific Ocean with a backpack full of rocks. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to drive my car off a cliff. Death seems so...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F Apr 22

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    I should have been aborted.

    Period. End of my horrible ******* life and all of my horrible ******* mistakes. This world will be better without me.
    SarabearPark SarabearPark 18-21, F Dec 26, 2013

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    All I do is sit in my room

    and wish I were dead. I feel so ******* empty.
    sunny97 sunny97 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    I dont want to sound like a typical dramatic

    teen but i wish sometimes that i wasnt here. Like me being put on earth was a mistake. When im alone i feel so amazing i love my own company and any interraction with people ****** me off and makes me wish i was dead. I prayed to god once asking him to take me away easy and...
    Alwaysfalling Alwaysfalling 16-17, F Aug 20

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    In The Middle Of The Spectrum

    The thought of me dying pleases me. I have dealt with depression for several years. I've had several unsuccessful suicide attempts. I know I sound like a jerk when I speak of ending my life. There are countless people that will give anything for more time on this earth, but I was...
    sillygirl2889 sillygirl2889 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 29, 2013

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    Dying Sounds Great Right About Now.

    I really want it all to be over- I keep trying but nothing ever f****** lasts. My social life has become practically nonexistent outside of EP. There's nothing to live for at this point. People? The only people I care about at this point are-you guessed it-on EP. Future? The one...
    ExtremelyPointless ExtremelyPointless 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    Going No Where, This Isn't How I Planned Life.

    I just don't see mylife going anywhere, it's.a rutt. Everyone.around me is successful either career or relationship wise if not both. I have a job it's going nowhere I have nobody to grieve my issues with, no relationship it's hard to commit when I can not trust anybody. My...
    thedrew thedrew 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 28, 2013

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    Today is the worse day well I should say the

    beginning of the day was good at work but then I come home and **** hits the fan. Just because I sad I did not like the color of the stain he used on the fence now he is all pissed off and fight with me about everything. I should have just keep my fucken mouth shut. Now for the...
    Bettyjb Bettyjb 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    I wish I was dead because I do not have the

    means to financially support myself. I work full time and I sill have financial problems. It has been 6 years since u have been officially living on my own and supporting myself and my financial situation gets worse and worse. I'm tired of people telling me things will get...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F May 17

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    Fkit

    never been happy ever..... nothin but isolation abandonment and loneliness in my life
    Stonerloner Stonerloner 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 21, 2012

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    In late 2002, i was about to take my the exam

    for my Last year of hight school when i had braces for a month and couldn't take it anymore! and then a wrong operation was made In my nose! Now, ever since that happen I been struggling with four issues in my nose, that led to a n issue in my jaw, which then led to migraine...
    SM1BLE SM1BLE 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 15

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    Sometimes I feel like I am not sick enough.

    Sure, I am depressed and I'm being treated with medicine, but I still feel like no one takes this seriously. At my monthly appointments with my psychiatrist I can pour my heart out. She listens, writes something down and then tries to prove my negative statements wrong by...
    katastrophywife katastrophywife 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    Death

    I think for me death is better right now. My life has brought too much pain and hurt for me to handle much longer. I wish I was dead most of the time. Too much hurts for me anymore.
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2009

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    Even though I don't believe in organized

    religion, I still believe in god and I still think suicide is wrong. So, I can't commit suicide. But - I can take up a dangerous sport. Or if I notice some bad health symptoms, I can ignore them and not get medical treatment. Illness could be God's get-out-of-jail-free card...
    PopcornForDinner PopcornForDinner 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    Indeed.

    I am not yet lost enough to want to end it. To want to die. But being dead, or never having existed, would be nice.... I just wish I wasnt alive, which I guess equates to wishing to be dead. But alas, I cant do it. Not watching Catherine and Sarahs family falling apart from it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    Im so sick of everything.

    im on the verge of suicide. I have no way to kill myself though. I live with my parents and we don't exactly have anything that could be used to kill yourself. Im 14 so I cant just go to the store to buy sleeping pills to overdose on. I have no sleeping pills so I cant overdose...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    it's hard to write a suicide note

    when you're ready to leave but you aren't ready to say goodbye
    Katelynann30 Katelynann30 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 10

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    secretstokeep secretstokeep 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    Waking Up

    Every night I go to bed I hope that I will never wake up. And when I wake up, well...it's the worst feeling in the world. I want to fall asleep and never wake up. I wish I had the courage to end my own life, but so far I am too afraid of pain. It's weird really, being alive is so...
    LonelyGirl1230 LonelyGirl1230 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    I have no reason to live.

    no friends, no life, no talents, no hobbies, no interest's, nothing. im just a waste of space. im no body. I just a stupid depressed teenager who no body notices, Im to depressed to function. I cant get out of bed and live my life, I cant handle school, im online schooled. im...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 6

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    but i can't kill myself

    because then my friend would kill herself. i just want to be with my dad and escape the pressures and horrors of this world.
    fxllxnangel fxllxnangel 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 9

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