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I Wish I Was Dead

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    I wish I could choose how I die without others

    trying to stop me. I have realized that my desire to die, may not just be a symptom of my depression. I will talk to my therapist about this feeling because it seems like I'm unaffected by the thought of dying. I personally just see it as a necessary part of life. I also wouldn...
    NightOwlGirl NightOwlGirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 18

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    Nobody would miss me.

    I have no friends. Nobody would even notice i am gone. It will end all the pain. How can people make it so far in life?
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 19 Responses Jul 20

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    I mean honestly guys?

    What's so pretty about that...nothing I would rather be dead than alive
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to

    me and I would die because of it. Sometimes I wish I big truck would hit my car and kill me. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to walk into the Pacific Ocean with a backpack full of rocks. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to drive my car off a cliff. Death seems so...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F Apr 22, 2014

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    Shaaydixie Shaaydixie 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    I wish I could kill myself.

    I wish I was strong enough to do it. I wish I was brave enough to let go. I wish I was selfish enough to end my own misery at the cost of everyone else's. I wish I could give up. Why do I keep holding on so tightly to things that aren't even there?
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    TheDemonsInside TheDemonsInside 13-15, F May 25

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    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 6 Responses Mar 28

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    So I found out today

    that I am in the process of being evicted due to the fact that I missed 1 month of rent, and I thought it was clear as to why I was going to miss said payment due to the fact that I was on a breathing machine. Up until today I was a really good tenant I always paid on time, the...
    Dickard101 Dickard101 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M Feb 10

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    Are we seriously supposed to take hope from the

    small things? How do we when the big pile of **** were given daily keeps rising. how do you take any hope when all you wish is to close your eyes and never wake up. death is no enigma, it's real and it comes for us all. You can't escape it, it can't be reasoned with so why not...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I thought I had a chance.

    . But now that hope is gone... And all life in my heart is gone.. My ability to trust and love is decreasing each and every day.. Too much pain.. So my final words are keep going, I'm real proud of you. I love you and I wish it didn't have to be this way... I've suffered so much...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 4

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    Think about it I'm gonna be dead eventually,

    why can't I just speed up that process...
    ellie32433 ellie32433 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    sunuii sunuii 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    I feel like cutting my chest

    so my heart will stop hurting and just bleed out :'(
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    why should we live, if we rot someday?

    why should we live, in rounds of lies and courtesy? maybe world looks different in each eyes, but, those that didn't realized it's cold nature is blind.
    makingausernameisdifficult makingausernameisdifficult 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    I don't have any good purposes to be alive.

    Everyone around me, however, claims that I would be better off alive. But alive for what? For nothing. People tell me that I should be alive, but they never tell me why. So, I crave death. Death can be beautiful. Not all deaths are tragic. I want to die from a drug overdose...
    JadeOwl98 JadeOwl98 16-17, F Jun 24

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    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    I should of died with my friends.

    I miss you guys ;-;
    KirigayaKazuto2025 KirigayaKazuto2025 13-15, M Jun 16

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    I feel horrible wishing this

    and never thought I'd be in this dark place. I've hit my breaking point. My husband has betrayed me and we are on the verge of divorce. Our two kids have been a lot to handle lately. One has been really sick and the other has been acting out from I'm sure all of the problems...
    Lin17 Lin17 31-35, F Jul 30

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    I just want to die so bad.

    I want to just put a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. Nothing ever gets better. I can't kill myself. I have to stay and suffer for everything I've done. I've hurt so many people. I feel that punishing myself by staying alive is the least I can do. Killing myself would be...
    IchBinDeutsch IchBinDeutsch 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't. I'm here to give you this message:

    Don't do it. Don't you dare take your life. I know what it's like to wish you could escape. I know what it's like to feel pain. I know what it's like to feel hopeless. I know what it's like to feel like your pain won't end. It might if you don't give up. You are a human being...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 9, 2014

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    Ughhh I just wanna k!

    ll myself I'm just worthless I shouldn't be here anymore I'm a waste of space I cry everyday all I do is hurt I just don't know why I am here
    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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    No one cares about me I don't

    even exist everyone treats me like sh!t I just want to disappear nothing I do is good enough for anyone no matter what my sisters will always be the ones getting attention and love and I'll just always be the mistake that no one gives a sh!t about
    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I WISH I WAS NOT ALIVE AND AWAY FROM THIS HELL

    OF A WORLD THAT IS COLD AND IS FULL OF NOTHINGNESS
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M Jan 29

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I'm too pathetic to do anything about it but I really wish I was dead.
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2014

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    WERE dead.... come on people.

    . if you're going to wish such a horrible thing... at least do it with correct grammar.
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    idk what to do with my life anymore.

    ..I wish I was dead...or never born...I hate my life...I hate everything
    rockyboo rockyboo 16-17, F Aug 6

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    Someone might as well just k!

    ll me.... No one likes me... My sisters treat me like crap they team up on me and they're my dad's favorite so it's like I don't exist... I'm ugly I'm a waste of space that just needs to die already.... I don't belong here... My sisters curse at me and they don't have any respect...
    SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo SheMoansAyyoBbyBoo 16-17, F 2 Responses May 12

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    Indeed.

    I am not yet lost enough to want to end it. To want to die. But being dead, or never having existed, would be nice.... I just wish I wasnt alive, which I guess equates to wishing to be dead. But alas, I cant do it. Not watching Catherine and Sarahs family falling apart from it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    Same ****, different day.

    Not enough strength to live, though not able to arrange my end. Why am I not allowed to take euthanasia pills, huh? People always have to keep their suicide plans a secret in order to achieve them. Shouldn't we have the right to end our lives, regardless of how much someone...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    my life sucks. I feel disconnected from my

    school. I try not to talk in school so ppl won't laugh.. Then I picture my self lonely when I start high school.
    Hannahsgirl08 Hannahsgirl08 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    yup - wish I was!!!!!

    ! wish I was dead!!!
    Selfishpunk Selfishpunk 41-45, T 1 Response May 13

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    I don't have anything to live for.

    Nobody would miss me anyway... I honestly don't know why I haven't killed myself yet. Too cowardly I guess? I just keep hoping things will get better but they never do. You guys don't have to respond to this or anything, I'll probably end up deleting it sooner or later. I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 62 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    mermaid23stoner mermaid23stoner 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 19

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    I do I really do idk If I Can take another day

    I guess I might as well write all my goodbyes to my friends in case I'm not here Monday I'm just so sad I don't feel alive anymore I just feel dead but I'm walking around like a brainless zombie idk where I will go some people say if you kill your self you go to hell which I...
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    I'm breathing but I'm not alive.

    I'm blinking but not seeing. I'm hearing but not listening. It's like I'm already dead. But my body isn't 6 feet under yet.
    fafawuvsu fafawuvsu 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I don't want to get up in the morning,

    i don't want to talk anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to see your face anymore, i don't want you to make me feel i like a waste of space anymore, i just want to go to sleep and never wake up, this is not the first time you have made me feel like i should just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    sometimes in life we have our ups

    and downs. Yes I've had plenty but for the most part, I've grown to except that life is all about what you can get out of it. I'm 28 going on 29 and I've been talked about, cheated on, beaten, seen and heard things I wouldn't even wish on mu worsted enemy. I feel like I've given...
    corazoncitoroto corazoncitoroto 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 5

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    I never found the point of being alive.

    Pain and struggle then you die. Might as well get it over with.
    SoulCoffee SoulCoffee 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    I feel so empty im dead already.

    Im great at pretending tho. Id kill for the chance to feel the pleasures in life ive desired for far to long. I will never have my deserving right into the passage of womanhood. Death as always is my welcome friend. And yet my unhappiness never leaks through my damagingly...
    2lil2L8 2lil2L8 26-30, F Feb 26

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    I wish I could just fall asleep

    and never wake-up. Everyday I hide in my condo, alone, staring at the TV, crying. I wish I had something that I could overdose on that would for sure kill me in a painless way. It seems so right. I would welcome relief so fully. I've been retired for 7 years and I have all...
    Sunshine9001 Sunshine9001 51-55, F 7 Responses Jun 16

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    I really wanna die. Everything's going

    so bad for me right now. I know it's not going to get better because it never does. I wish i could choose to be dissociated whenever i don't wanna feel anything, but whenever i am dissociated, it's at a bad time. I wouldn't be surprised if i ended back up in the hospital...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    All I do is sit in my room

    and wish I were dead. I feel so ******* empty.
    sunny97 sunny97 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I wish I was dead because this world hates me.

    First of all I am stuck in a loveless marriage.This morning one of my kids called me fat.I spanked her for it.My husband called his mother and started running his mouth.He told his mother that I had hit her.Which I didn't.Well my day only got worse.She got on the phone calling me...
    Amethystgem98 Amethystgem98 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 24

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