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I Wish I Was Dead

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    I feel empty. Everyone else is happy

    and cheery.. Meanwhile I'm hurting as I figure out a way to figure out what's wrong with me.. All the while, my parents and sister are holding my future hostage and pushing me deeper into depression and making thoughts of killing myself not sound so bad.. Maybe it would be...
    Asi15 Asi15 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    Pretty much... My ex was talking to me again.

    Im still crying because what he said about me. And then no one at my school is nice just a bully 24/7 so now I'm wondering what's the point of living? I know I'm gonna get at lease one comment saying go ahead and kill myself I've got that before but if you don't like then don't...
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 4

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    I just wanna die. I have the perfect suicide

    plan but I'm too afraid to actually do it. I'm just gonna hope I get hit by a bus, car or whatever. I'm so done with everything, with myself.
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F Jan 4

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    Indeed.

    I am not yet lost enough to want to end it. To want to die. But being dead, or never having existed, would be nice.... I just wish I wasnt alive, which I guess equates to wishing to be dead. But alas, I cant do it. Not watching Catherine and Sarahs family falling apart from it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    Think about it I'm gonna be dead eventually,

    why can't I just speed up that process...
    ellie32433 ellie32433 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I never found the point of being alive.

    Pain and struggle then you die. Might as well get it over with.
    SoulCoffee SoulCoffee 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    Today is just one of those days were im pissed

    off and just want my life to end ._.
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    It's Christmas Eve. My shadows never take a

    day off. It's ******* Christmas Eve and I'm posting on suicide boards. Here's to a Happy ****** New Year
    youcthrume youcthrume 36-40, M 7 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    Same ****, different day.

    Not enough strength to live, though not able to arrange my end. Why am I not allowed to take euthanasia pills, huh? People always have to keep their suicide plans a secret in order to achieve them. Shouldn't we have the right to end our lives, regardless of how much someone...
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    A Wish, Or Maybe A Dream...

    To be dead, its a wish I have, its something I dream about, something I have been aching for, but no one will ever know this, because I paint a smile on my face, and act like its all okay, and that I am fine all the time. No one sees the tears I shed, or when I am laying there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 19, 2010

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    How do people cover this stuff up?

    I'm just lonely like no other time. Why can't I just die already? This hurts, really awfully. It's like when you know they're going to put the IV in, but you can't do anything but cry. Why can't it just end? I just don't want to be here anymore. Death seems surprisingly pleasant...
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Shaaydixie Shaaydixie 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    I do I really do idk If I Can take another day

    I guess I might as well write all my goodbyes to my friends in case I'm not here Monday I'm just so sad I don't feel alive anymore I just feel dead but I'm walking around like a brainless zombie idk where I will go some people say if you kill your self you go to hell which I...
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    sometimes in life we have our ups

    and downs. Yes I've had plenty but for the most part, I've grown to except that life is all about what you can get out of it. I'm 28 going on 29 and I've been talked about, cheated on, beaten, seen and heard things I wouldn't even wish on mu worsted enemy. I feel like I've given...
    corazoncitoroto corazoncitoroto 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 5

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    I wish I was dead too.

    Please let me die.
    domo73 domo73 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I really do the love of my life my reason

    for being dosent want me anymore im done......
    TlovesLouise TlovesLouise 22-25, M Feb 10

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    I feel like cutting my chest

    so my heart will stop hurting and just bleed out :'(
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel like I am not sick enough.

    Sure, I am depressed and I'm being treated with medicine, but I still feel like no one takes this seriously. At my monthly appointments with my psychiatrist I can pour my heart out. She listens, writes something down and then tries to prove my negative statements wrong by...
    katastrophywife katastrophywife 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I mean honestly guys?

    What's so pretty about that...nothing I would rather be dead than alive
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    Are we seriously supposed to take hope from the

    small things? How do we when the big pile of **** were given daily keeps rising. how do you take any hope when all you wish is to close your eyes and never wake up. death is no enigma, it's real and it comes for us all. You can't escape it, it can't be reasoned with so why not...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I wish I'd just die already.

    I deserve it. What have I ever done to deserve this hell of a world? This wasn't my choice.
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    I wish I was dead because this world hates me.

    First of all I am stuck in a loveless marriage.This morning one of my kids called me fat.I spanked her for it.My husband called his mother and started running his mouth.He told his mother that I had hit her.Which I didn't.Well my day only got worse.She got on the phone calling me...
    Amethystgem98 Amethystgem98 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    I don't want to get up in the morning,

    i don't want to talk anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to see your face anymore, i don't want you to make me feel i like a waste of space anymore, i just want to go to sleep and never wake up, this is not the first time you have made me feel like i should just...
    anneloves anneloves 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    My gut is telling me it's time to let go.

    My heart is telling me the same thing. I have all the pretty pills all lined up but wonder if I have enough. I wonder if they are strong enough. Do I have everything in order? Hell no I don't. I have so much junk I need rid of. Needed to clean out some stuff. Too late to do all...
    cinch cinch 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2014

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    I feel so empty im dead already.

    Im great at pretending tho. Id kill for the chance to feel the pleasures in life ive desired for far to long. I will never have my deserving right into the passage of womanhood. Death as always is my welcome friend. And yet my unhappiness never leaks through my damagingly...
    2lil2L8 2lil2L8 26-30, F Feb 26

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I'm too pathetic to do anything about it but I really wish I was dead.
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    life just doesn't seem to be going

    for me right now so....
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    why should we live, if we rot someday?

    why should we live, in rounds of lies and courtesy? maybe world looks different in each eyes, but, those that didn't realized it's cold nature is blind.
    makingausernameisdifficult makingausernameisdifficult 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I imagine myself unbuckling my seatbelt,

    finding a deserted part of town, and flooring the gas into a tree.
    Littlegirlblue22 Littlegirlblue22 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    No one cares about me I don't

    even exist everyone treats me like sh!t I just want to disappear nothing I do is good enough for anyone no matter what my sisters will always be the ones getting attention and love and I'll just always be the mistake that no one gives a sh!t about
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    That's it I'm so ******* done.

    I can't take all this bullshit anymore.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F Dec 10, 2014

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    my life sucks. I feel disconnected from my

    school. I try not to talk in school so ppl won't laugh.. Then I picture my self lonely when I start high school.
    Hannahsgirl08 Hannahsgirl08 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to

    me and I would die because of it. Sometimes I wish I big truck would hit my car and kill me. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to walk into the Pacific Ocean with a backpack full of rocks. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to drive my car off a cliff. Death seems so...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F Apr 22, 2014

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    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M Feb 10

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    I WISH I WAS NOT ALIVE AND AWAY FROM THIS HELL

    OF A WORLD THAT IS COLD AND IS FULL OF NOTHINGNESS
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M Jan 29

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    I really wanna die. Everything's going

    so bad for me right now. I know it's not going to get better because it never does. I wish i could choose to be dissociated whenever i don't wanna feel anything, but whenever i am dissociated, it's at a bad time. I wouldn't be surprised if i ended back up in the hospital...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    PinkBunnyBlackHeart PinkBunnyBlackHeart 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    WERE dead.... come on people.

    . if you're going to wish such a horrible thing... at least do it with correct grammar.
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm breathing but I'm not alive.

    I'm blinking but not seeing. I'm hearing but not listening. It's like I'm already dead. But my body isn't 6 feet under yet.
    fafawuvsu fafawuvsu 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    All I do is sit in my room

    and wish I were dead. I feel so ******* empty.
    sunny97 sunny97 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30, 2014

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    Death , The Last Option, I Have.

    I have worked hard, and i have been successful. I want to run away to have my own life. But i am being treated like a breeding horse which has to run at wishes of its master. Every inch of my life is controlled, they blackmail with, pain for my mind , my body and even my soul. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 19, 2013

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    I don't have anything to live for.

    Nobody would miss me anyway... I honestly don't know why I haven't killed myself yet. Too cowardly I guess? I just keep hoping things will get better but they never do. You guys don't have to respond to this or anything, I'll probably end up deleting it sooner or later. I just...
    VulcanAutomaton VulcanAutomaton 18-21, F 64 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I wish I could choose how I die without others

    trying to stop me. I have realized that my desire to die, may not just be a symptom of my depression. I will talk to my therapist about this feeling because it seems like I'm unaffected by the thought of dying. I personally just see it as a necessary part of life. I also wouldn...
    NightOwlGirl NightOwlGirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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