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I Wish I Was Dead

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    Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to

    me and I would die because of it. Sometimes I wish I big truck would hit my car and kill me. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to walk into the Pacific Ocean with a backpack full of rocks. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to drive my car off a cliff. Death seems so...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F Apr 22

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    I just can't take this anymore.

    Im too much of a coward to commit suicide, but the thought has still crossed my mind. Im worthless and nobody would miss me anyways.
    laurenk2001 laurenk2001 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    i wish i could. i want to give up.

    i keep lying to myself that i could get better. but i have enough. i don't want to live another day. i don't want to keep up with my parents will. i'm ruined. i've been trying to fix it myself, but my parents force me into what they wanted anyway. they want me to be the best...
    makingausernameisdifficult makingausernameisdifficult 13-15, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I feel like I am not sick enough.

    Sure, I am depressed and I'm being treated with medicine, but I still feel like no one takes this seriously. At my monthly appointments with my psychiatrist I can pour my heart out. She listens, writes something down and then tries to prove my negative statements wrong by...
    katastrophywife katastrophywife 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I mean honestly guys?

    What's so pretty about that...nothing I would rather be dead than alive
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 1

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    sometimes I just wish I could just die already

    get it over with I am so sick of being sad all the time
    anneloves anneloves 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Being Dead

    There is absolutely nothing in the entire world I would want more, than being dead.
    Maddi3K Maddi3K 16-17, F 6 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    My gut is telling me it's time to let go.

    My heart is telling me the same thing. I have all the pretty pills all lined up but wonder if I have enough. I wonder if they are strong enough. Do I have everything in order? Hell no I don't. I have so much junk I need rid of. Needed to clean out some stuff. Too late to do all...
    cinch cinch 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    Indeed.

    I am not yet lost enough to want to end it. To want to die. But being dead, or never having existed, would be nice.... I just wish I wasnt alive, which I guess equates to wishing to be dead. But alas, I cant do it. Not watching Catherine and Sarahs family falling apart from it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 19 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    I don't know who I am any more.

    I feel trapped inside a monster , I am an onlooker stuck outside watching this person push everyone away but I can't control it. I can't stop it. All I want is to stop breathing. But I can't control it and I can't do it.The one thing I want and I can't give it to myself because...
    whybotherbreathing whybotherbreathing 16-17, F Jun 14

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    Depressed

    i was so happy, i was out and proud with a gorgeous girlfriend and really happy with my life, but my gf dumped me and im feeling depressed and i feel its time to end my life because there is nothing left for me
    AdeleJones AdeleJones 22-25, F 20 Responses Aug 19, 2013

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    All I do is sit in my room

    and wish I were dead. I feel so ******* empty.
    sunny97 sunny97 16-17, F 3 Responses May 30

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    Looking for ways to kill myself

    and not leave my body around.
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I don't want to get up in the morning,

    i don't want to talk anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to see your face anymore, i don't want you to make me feel i like a waste of space anymore, i just want to go to sleep and never wake up, this is not the first time you have made me feel like i should just...
    anneloves anneloves 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like cutting my chest

    so my heart will stop hurting and just bleed out :'(
    DreaSmurph DreaSmurph 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 11

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    I'm breathing but I'm not alive.

    I'm blinking but not seeing. I'm hearing but not listening. It's like I'm already dead. But my body isn't 6 feet under yet.
    fafawuvsu fafawuvsu 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Yea sure i'm emotional at times

    and do self-hurting sometimes too. But somehow i want to know how it feels to be dead. When peoples around me would be afraid of just being hurt, i rather found it strange. Death is like something completely alien to the living and it just make me wonder, really...
    makingausernameisdifficult makingausernameisdifficult 13-15, F Oct 28

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    But I'm held back by a few people

    and tbh if I lost them I'd probably shoot myself
    tagmepurple tagmepurple 18-21, M Nov 20

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    To be dead, its a wish I have,

    its something I dream about, something I have been aching for, but no one will ever know this, because I paint a smile on my face, and act like its all okay, and that I am fine all the time. No one sees the tears I shed, or when I am laying there, with the blade in my hand, so...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F Oct 12

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    WERE dead.... come on people.

    . if you're going to wish such a horrible thing... at least do it with correct grammar.
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 8 Responses Jan 23

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    I wish I was dead everyday of my life.

    I have had suicidal thoughts and tendencies since I was 11 years old. My parents divorced when I was 1 year old. Ever since I could remember my mom abused me in every way possible physically, mentally, emotionally, and even sexually. She treated my like a slave and her own...
    Meatball20 Meatball20 22-25, M Oct 14

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I'm too pathetic to do anything about it but I really wish I was dead.
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 27

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    Think about it I'm gonna be dead eventually,

    why can't I just speed up that process...
    ellie32433 ellie32433 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 27

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    I don't have anything to live for.

    Nobody would miss me anyway... I honestly don't know why I haven't killed myself yet. Too cowardly I guess? I just keep hoping things will get better but they never do. You guys don't have to respond to this or anything, I'll probably end up deleting it sooner or later. I just...
    VulcanAutomaton VulcanAutomaton 16-17, F 66 Responses Nov 9

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    I feel like everything just keeps going wrong.

    I've barely eaten for a whole week, but i mean i'm used to not eating because i spent 4 years starving myself. At first, it was because i was stressed. Now, it's like a relapse thing. I'm skipping every meal, & when i eat, it hurts my stomach. I mean my stomach's also been...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    That's it I'm so ******* done.

    I can't take all this bullshit anymore.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't. I'm here to give you this message:

    Don't do it. Don't you dare take your life. I know what it's like to wish you could escape. I know what it's like to feel pain. I know what it's like to feel hopeless. I know what it's like to feel like your pain won't end. It might if you don't give up. You are a human being...
    RuthieAnja RuthieAnja 18-21, F Nov 9

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    Shaaydixie Shaaydixie 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 26

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    yes i honestly do. ether

    that i wish i lived a better life :/ its actually quite the struggle to ether keep myself alive or just to end it all.
    lexik123 lexik123 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 10

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    All these days i feel like the time had stopped

    for me. It feels like time march on and leaving me. I also starting to forget things, or remembering things when i'm not supposed to - it just pop out of nowhere. I started to feel empty and feel out everyone. It feels like i had died, yet i'm here...
    makingausernameisdifficult makingausernameisdifficult 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Hey! What can I say I'm sick of being me

    and the only reason why I'm writing this is because I think maybe I will change but who knows. I may live myself like this forever.
    jellyrolls34 jellyrolls34 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    I wish I could kill myself.

    I wish I was strong enough to do it. I wish I was brave enough to let go. I wish I was selfish enough to end my own misery at the cost of everyone else's. I wish I could give up. Why do I keep holding on so tightly to things that aren't even there?
    InsanityIsTheButterflysDrug InsanityIsTheButterflysDrug 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 27

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    Whats the point about

    even being here of i am not happy. I'm always stressed out, i over think to much. I wish i could die you know , i don't see why not.
    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    lexik123 lexik123 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I really wanna die. Everything's going

    so bad for me right now. I know it's not going to get better because it never does. I wish i could choose to be dissociated whenever i don't wanna feel anything, but whenever i am dissociated, it's at a bad time. I wouldn't be surprised if i ended back up in the hospital...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 1

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    Death , The Last Option, I Have.

    I have worked hard, and i have been successful. I want to run away to have my own life. But i am being treated like a breeding horse which has to run at wishes of its master. Every inch of my life is controlled, they blackmail with, pain for my mind , my body and even my soul. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 19, 2013

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    miz0217 miz0217 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 3

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    PinkBunnyBlackHeart PinkBunnyBlackHeart 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    A Wish, Or Maybe A Dream...

    To be dead, its a wish I have, its something I dream about, something I have been aching for, but no one will ever know this, because I paint a smile on my face, and act like its all okay, and that I am fine all the time. No one sees the tears I shed, or when I am laying there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 19, 2010

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    whenever i walk past a busy rosd i think about

    stepping out into the traffic or throwing myself in front of a train. there is no reason for me to be here. i just want to stop everything going on and maybe stab myself in the face bc im such trash
    debaeca debaeca 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    I would give anything to be dead right

    now I hurt too much I don't want to feel anymore :'(
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 22

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