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I Wish I Was Happy With Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 195 People

    Lost It!

    I was committing my life to education and research to assist individuals with learning disabilities or inadequate primary educations. I had a manic episode, had all my best friends at the time turn their backs on me, got kicked out of my place, and due to living circumstances had...
    tsalmavet tsalmavet 18-21, M Feb 19, 2012

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    I Really Am Not…

    I hate the way I look, I hate the way I dress & I hate the way I am! I have low self esteem, lack of confident and get the stares every single day. I always focus on the negative things about me and never think of the positive. People who know me will find it hard to believe I...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    I Wish I Could Love Myself

    everyday something happens to me and start thinking that why I am here right now.
    tyranicki2 tyranicki2 16-17, F Nov 9, 2013

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    More and more I find myself wondering

    why I can't stand the thought of ME. It's a very hard thing to come to grips with.
    theluckyduck theluckyduck 26-30, M Jul 24

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    Overall It's Not Bad, But Every Day It's Unbearable!

    I know that most of what I am saying and feeling can be blamed on my age and the fact that I am "hormonal". I know what everyone would tell me (if I said anything) that I have so much going for me and I am so beautiful...etc. I know that I am fortunate and privileged, but I am...
    IwishIwasideal IwishIwasideal 13-15, F Jul 16, 2012

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    I Am Happy

    People go in search of happiness their whole lives. But when do we know when we have found happiness. We simply decide. Therefore. I am happy.
    ArdenBennett ArdenBennett 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 13, 2012

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    I'm Just Not...

    I'm not really sure why. I know there's a lot of things about me that are really awesome, but I just don't feel like thats good enough. Not good enough for other people or myself. Most of the time I'm really hard on myself if I did something wrong, or made a mistake. I just am...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 5, 2009

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    I Am Glad That The One Thing I Am Most Unhappy With

    is something I can definitely change, if I'll just stick with it.I am talking about the fact that I am unhappy with my lack of enough muscularity (not enough muscles). I AM fairly strong, already, and have been working out (discontinuously) for about 3 years, now, but am still...
    GodsLovedMan GodsLovedMan 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 28, 2012

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    Shipwrecked

    You know, I don't think I've ever been at a place of truly being happy with who I am. There are times where I'm hilarious and easy to get along with. I make tons of friends and am almost never shy. But after the social interactions fade and I find myself at my apartment alone I...
    sethberto sethberto 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 18, 2012

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    I Just Feel It.

    I just dont want to go to sleep or wake up. Im lonely. Im alone. I dont feel pretty, or like a good person. Im going through the motions, not really living sometimes.
    narratorwithoutstory narratorwithoutstory 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    I Don't Know If I Ever Will Be

    I wish I was happy with myself.  I wish I could be happy.  I wish I could be proud of myself, even though I have nothing to be proud of anyways.  I don't know if I'll ever understand why I'm still here on earth, and why I'm not burning in hell like the rest of...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2010

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    I Know It's Bad...

    I know it's bad that I hate my body and hate the way that I have to lie to everyone for them to accept me. I've tried to show them myself and instead got shunned, so I know that I can't be that person...not for a while at least.... I know it's bad that I want to be but skin and...
    Lonliness Lonliness 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2010

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    i have been experiencing some rotten people that i thought was my friends, my best friends.... but they just abandonned me at the time where i needed them.... they left me at the...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    i am happy with my life but curious about everything.. how other people doing and why exactly are they here..
    wandererdreamer wandererdreamer 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 10

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    I used to hate myself ( people know how to make you hate yourself!) I worked hard on myself and I reached the point where I had Love-hate Relationship With Myself now it is...
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 20 hrs ago

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    Love people to watch Me play with myself! Anyone interested?
    Latinsensation Latinsensation 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 8

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    Sometimes flying solo is a damn good thing, even listening to other women moan turns me on (mostly while watching ****) but damn I love playing with myself.
    suxsco suxsco 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    New to here, but I was spanked with a belt growing up. Actually just ended few years ago when I was 17. Growing up in rural area it is very common, especially for strong Christian...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 31

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    I get spanked with the belt most times now, but not when I was little. I do remember the first time I got the belt. I was 8 years old and we were on a family hike. On the hike I...
    BananaAnna15 BananaAnna15 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 14

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    I got my mouth washed out with soap this morning for saying the F word to my husband. He does not just put the bar in my mouth and make me hold it, he rubs it around and around. I...
    Rosebud123987 Rosebud123987 36-40 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Happy birthday in heaven to the great actor Alan Ladd who was born on this date in1913. He was the star of probably the greatest western ever made: SHANE, a must see!!!
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Sep 3

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    I really feel like my life has turn out for the better after that disastrous last semester. Flashback of last semester: Met a guy - have lots of fun - texting a lot with him...
    YongTauFoo YongTauFoo 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Happy birthday in heaven to the splendid splinter HOFER Ted Williams(1918-2002) of the Boston Red Sox.The greatest hitter to ever live! Williams served both in WW2 and Korea. He...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Aug 30

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    RUBYJUTT RUBYJUTT 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    Happy birthday in heaven to singer Patsy Cline born on this date in 1932.
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Sep 8

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    I love things but I make myself believe I don't love them. I hate things and I try to love them. I know how am I yet I try to change! I know that I want to be intersting yet I try...
    Idonotcareanymore Idonotcareanymore 18-21 Sep 13

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    Happy 64th birthday to actor/comedian Bill Murray. Stripes, Caddyshack, GroundHog Day, Scrooged and What About Bob are just a few film favorites of mine.
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Sep 21

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    I feel like most girls don't watch **** but I find myself watching it almost every night and touching myself till I c_m. I am always thinking sexually throughout the day so it's...
    wayyfarer wayyfarer 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    Once again, I met someone new. I liked him, he was ok... for a while. I lost interest and I don't know why. I can't explain myself how it happens. It just does... I don't wanna see...
    Ushuaia Ushuaia 26-30, F Sep 9

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    I just wish someone was here laying right next to me on this warm autumn evening.. Sometimes I wonder how can being alone feel so empty.. Maybe my fingers and my mouth will have to...
    asiangirl2014 asiangirl2014 18-21, F 21 Responses Sep 3

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M Sep 10

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    Especially when other people are in the picture. When others speak fondly of me, I get upset. I want them to just shut up, and that makes me feel like a bad person. Some days I...
    iKitKat iKitKat 18-21, F Sep 10

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    I've been feeling so damn ******* happy about life ever since last night like I'm so lucky to have the family I have....
    BrutallyHonest316 BrutallyHonest316 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I'm gonna say I'm in a pretty good place with my life, finally. Got a wonderful husband to be who I love with every bit of my heart. Got 2 wonderful step sons in my life who look...
    mrsmitchell15 mrsmitchell15 22-25, F Sep 11

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    I am losing myself. My mind is totally black. I feel that I'm a machine doing what I do because of one man. My husband of 14 years destroyed me. He enjoyed abusing me mentally and...
    sad2forget sad2forget 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    You will be shocked when you discover how easy it is in life to part ways with people forever. That's why when you find someone you want to keep around, you do something about it.
    charmee26 charmee26 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 7

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    Mine would say: Caution, unstable and easily damaged. Handle with caution. When broken, shards can be dangerous, do not pick up. Someone else I know would say: Hold grudges more...
    OsyriaRose OsyriaRose 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    I swear, this has been the most pathetic run of dates... I meet these men, spend lots of time creating a relationship of just friends even.. and then when it is time to get...
    WendyBlabs WendyBlabs 36-40, F 15 hrs ago

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    The talk with my boyfriend went very well about some of the fantasies I have. Feels good that I can open up with him without the fear of judgement.
    Callipygian99 Callipygian99 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    It's always interesting to step back and see how you have changed and grown within yourself…. I haven't been on EP in quite a while, I've obviously missed a lot with a few old...
    LovingLaughs94 LovingLaughs94 18-21, F Sep 6

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    I look in the mirror and see a fake. I look at my skin and see scars. If I looked below a bridge would I see my reflection.....or a way out. In the end I guess it's all the...
    Chocolate29 Chocolate29 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was in Hawaii, involved with this priest from around 23 years of age. This man was 43 at the time. I was his receptionist at the Parish on Saturdays. We started being intimate...
    rcasillas93 rcasillas93 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    This is another story about dad and his infamous slipper. Mom was spanking my little bro in our room while Dad , sister and me were watching tv in living room. Suddenly mom...
    rcarlos72 rcarlos72 36-40, M 3 Responses Sep 7

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    Growing up with a very Italian mom made me very familiar with the wooden spoon. From ages 6-12 the wooden spoon was my best friend. My mom would not hesitate to pull out the spoon...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 31

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    Very often at school, sometimes I think just for being. It was not just me but the whole class. Right through school from eleven on. Front of class, drop shorts, and according...
    jamestheswat jamestheswat 66-70, M 2 Responses Sep 21

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    From the Middle Ages to the Salem witch trials and much more, witches have been hung, burned, etc. But what was really wrong with them. I'm sure people were scared of being cursed...
    funteenagegurl funteenagegurl 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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