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I Wish I Was Never Born

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    I am 58 years old. Upto the age of 46 I was

    doing well as a computer consultant. Then I became paranoid and delusional and quite my work and stayed home. Now I have lost my career , got divorced , have become poor and alone and my kids detest me. I live in a cheap rented apartment with little money. In addition my 24 year...
    josephj1989 josephj1989 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 21

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 6

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    If I had one wish this would be it: Or to be

    a strong, confident, independent woman. But only my mind is strong and independent. We always fight to change things for the better. But this is what causes our grief. I need to accept that I'll always be a damsel in distress type of woman. Maybe with this acceptance I will...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 3

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    I joined this website mainly

    because I feel I can't talk to anyone else about what I'm thinking. This is a good place to vent my frustrations about my life and not be judged or ridiculed. I really wish that I was never born. I am near middle age and have had no truly happy experiences in my life. No...
    Wednesdayschild15 Wednesdayschild15 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2014

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    I dream of another world,

    a place were nobody can hurt me, this is the only way I know how to keep on living. I dream of a world where I am loved. I have been treated badly since I was very little, and I was taught at a very young age that I was a mistake, which is something I still believe. I don't...
    DeepenedSadness DeepenedSadness 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 5

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    i have a beautiful childhood,

    it was amazing.. but since highschool i have wished i was never born. i dont understand, i was studying hard for the national exam to get a good highschool, but ended up having a bad score and this school, for me the pressure in this school from bullying by my senior was hard...
    kevindraarza kevindraarza 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    I hate the fact that I was born,

    why do they do this selfishly then regret us
    demoness68 demoness68 46-50, F 2 Responses May 18

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    When I was growing up,

    my dad was an alcoholic, the teachers were abusive, and I was threatened by my mom. This all was happening when I was in kindergarten. It is strange how experiences can leave a scar on you, one that doesn't seem to go away. This scar has been surfacing and ripping open for...
    earthelement earthelement 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 19

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    Nothing Special

    Same as everybody else, I never asked for this life. It's not like any of us were ever given a chance. You know, if someone would have asked beforehand "would you like to experience people close to you dying or the feeling of being rejected or passed over for jobs you are over...
    nobody5000 nobody5000 41-45 2 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    If I Had The Choice.

    If I had the choice I would observe this planet for like a few minutes and say no thank you. I do not want to be some drone. Envying what I will never have, wishing to win the lottery. Then wanting to spend the money helping others, while those in power would do everything to...
    smilemovie smilemovie 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    I yelled at my mom the other day,

    wondering why the hell she bothered giving birth to me when I'd end up ruining not only her life, but my own as well...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I Wish I Was Never Born!

    I hate life!  The problem is I believe in an afterlife, so I know if I blow my brains out, things won't be any better there.  I am constantly miserable.  I am a failure at everything I have tried.  I can never complete a task.  I fall asleep at night...
    rickym4055 rickym4055 41-45 10 Responses Aug 7, 2009

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    I know it sounds extreme,

    but everyone has a thought like that at least once in their life.
    BladeTheDejectedLooney BladeTheDejectedLooney 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 5

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    Im me And im stupid I don't

    even feel like talking about what I just did
    nedyacbackwords nedyacbackwords 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I'm so angry at society

    and all the things that are expected of me. I've been wasting my whole life in school and now I have 2 years left of college and I still don't know what I want to do. I'm pissed that there is so much out there that I can't do. And it all comes down to money. That's why I've been...
    Lemon127 Lemon127 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    No Reason, No Purpose, No Way Through Tough Times

    Before I could say why I wish I wasn't born, let me say that the blame is not with the parents, mom, dad, Bros and sis', my life with them was great, everything went normal until a year after my HS graduation. Its like every positive thing I think of or felt good from turns bad...
    Dragonblade Dragonblade 22-25 2 Responses Jul 12, 2010

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    I sometimes wish I was never born,

    whereas no one can actually stigmatize me of who I am ....
    gaybottomsocal99 gaybottomsocal99 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    I'm a waste of a human being.

    ................................
    xGNFx xGNFx 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I am 14 almost 15 and I suffer from severe

    depression and anxiety I cut... my family ignores me. They call me names all the time... "mistake" thats there favorite to call me... I hate myself so much. I am told to kill myself all the time. I have tried many times but never succeed..
    itsNicole itsNicole 13-15, F 10 Responses Apr 19

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    No Good Reason

    I don't want to kill myself. I do what I have to do. I fight, struggle, whatever you call it. I was just dropped here, and have been cursed by the day I was born. I will go on, but I really think it was a waste my mother didn't abort.   Updated June, 10, 2008: I am meant...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Feb 9, 2008

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    Further, I resent my parents

    for bringing me into this awful world to have to endure this awful thing called life. I was a Pollyanna once upon a time. Back then I was delusional, young and naive. That quickly withered away as I got older, and especially after I graduated college and got into the real...
    LG1987 LG1987 26-30, M Aug 1

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    i see pictures of my parents

    before i was born and they appear so happy. i make everyone around me miserable and i do nothing good to help society. i wish i was never born.
    beccabohemian beccabohemian 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    And So Do Others

    I know others doo. I see it, I hear it, I know it. I am only here, because a doctor lied to my mom, and by the time she found out she was pregnant it was too late to abort, my her mother wouldn't let her give me up, idk why, my life migh have been a bit better if i wasn't to grow...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    we're all gonna die in the end

    so who cares if I just cut my life short. I'm a nobody and no one cares so why tf not? Can't wait to see what's on the other side.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 28

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    Similar. Maybe not that I was never born -

    what a thing to wish for! Sure wish my life was different though. When I graduated from high school there was a school organized trip to Europe but my parents decided no for me as I was still age 17 and only 4"11. So I spent the summer at home in the sun and grew an inch...
    1234NCW 1234NCW 46-50, F Aug 4

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    If i could just disappear from everyone

    and everyone forgot about me i would be so happy.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 4 Responses May 10

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    Good Until 3

    I am like many of you, not suicidal but deeply regretful of my conception. I think I had about 3 good years on this earth and, coincidentally, those 3 years were from birth until age 3, the ages where you can't remember anything. When I was almost 4 years old, my eyes began to...
    JackofNothing JackofNothing 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    i wish someone else was born instead of me.

    someone better and i just want to vanish
    yurotic yurotic 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    As much as I try to make the people closest to

    me feel happier, I really am depressed myself. Very, very depressed. I feel like I was born amidst the wrong group of people, and I've yet to find a home in this world. I'm always thinking about whether to end it all or run away or be a coward and do nothing. And my true friends...
    insidious2014 insidious2014 18-21, M 6 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    I Wish I Was Never Born

    it is easier than wishing death everyday
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    all i can say is that I didnt ask

    for this life and i really dont want it. however someone gave it to me when i had my back turned and now...... i got no choice but to find the end and i do hope its soon
    diaperlock diaperlock 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 29

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    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    My life feels like cosmic joke a lot of the

    time. **** this world and the worthless humans that inhabitant it. Life's a *****..then you die. Truer words were never written/spoken!
    Smoray100 Smoray100 22-25, F Jul 8, 2014

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    I Think It's Just How Life Goes On...

    hey everybody, well sometimes i wish i was never born to never feel what i felt. i learned in the hard way :(now i live my life without a soul just like a zombie, i don't have no friends anymore & even my family i don't feel like i belong to themi think i'm feeling broke inside...
    butterfly210 butterfly210 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 22, 2011

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    As an oldest child, I don't regret my siblings

    being born, so this isn't a simple wish, but I can't help but feel if I hadn't been born, my parents would have realized they weren't right for each other, and avoided two decades of misery. Honestly, I'm not sure anyone is better for having met or known me; isn't that a basic...
    jdhammer84 jdhammer84 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    it's not like nobody cares

    that I exist, been hated by all, ignored, no one understands me and been through a lot all my life so I think it's best I never existed even if the world is getting worse
    craz3f8g craz3f8g 18-21 5 Responses Mar 4

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    Even The Good Times Are Bad

    Most sharing stories stories here on this subject are a lot younger than me at 55. However, I feel connected because I've hated life since I was 12. The bottomline is that life is much more a struggle than it is a adventure. There's far more pain 'n sorrow than joy 'n happiness...
    Mvb76 Mvb76 56-60, M Sep 24, 2013

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    Actually, things are more complicated

    than just this but I feel like I need to talk.. I did a lot of things in my life, travelled a bit, took drugs, got drunk, had parties with friends, I had my heart broken a few years ago, I don't really regret any of those things, and there is still things that I want to do, and...
    SandPanda SandPanda 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 27

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    I feel like I'm just waiting to die.

    Like I was created by mistake and I'm just waiting to be erased. I can't remember when I've lived last. The life I've lived 26 years with my husband has been a complete waste. We aren't even partners. I don't feel love or passion for him. This is the life I chose, basically...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    Whoami30 Whoami30 31-35, M 2 Responses May 10

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    I'm not depressed any more

    and have come past anxiety. Over each year things seem to get slightly better. I built a family a company, a free life, I feel healthy and normally energetic. At times I can really be touched by music or events around me. Yet in all that, the balance of the 40+ years struggle to...
    rbrtoo rbrtoo 41-45 3 Responses Jun 6

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    My childhood wasn't awful,

    not as bad as some I'm sure, but it wasn't good. I'm from a single parent household and my mom had bouts of depression throughout my child hood. She wouldn't let me see anyone else in the family because she'd been sexually abused by her Dad when she was little and she was...
    channers1 channers1 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 19, 2014

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    I am curious to know how young people were

    when they felt/were mature enough to know they never wanted to be born?
    resurglee resurglee 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I Wish I Was Never Born

    And not only do I wish I were never born, I'm angry about being born. I had no say in the matter. If I had been given the choice, I'd absolutely choose to have never been born. What a miserable, hopeless mess this life is. My purpose in posting this is not to seek advice or...
    Philliebuster Philliebuster 26-30, M 144 Responses Dec 14, 2008

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    Even when I was 8 or so,

    I thought about never being born. This thought never left me and it kept dominating my head especially after my mom told she almost didn't keep me. To be honest, I feel like I would have rather been never born. I'm an atheist but a part of me wants to believe in reincarnation...
    nuwandaisaphony nuwandaisaphony 16-17, F Mar 31

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