I Wish I Was Never Born

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    I'm a waste of a human being.

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    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Jul 3, 2014

    I'm not depressed any more

    and have come past anxiety. Over each year things seem to get slightly better. I built a family a company, a free life, I feel healthy and normally energetic. At times I can really be touched by music or events around me. Yet in all that, the balance of the 40+ years struggle to...
    rbrtoo rbrtoo
    41-45
    Jun 6, 2015

    i wish someone else was born instead of me.

    someone better and i just want to vanish
    yurotic yurotic
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 26, 2015

    Maybe no one is going to read this,

    but to be honest I am glad I found this thread/ forum. It means I am not alone. See, ever since 11 I never liked my life, my mom is this biggest child manipulator of all time who gets mad at the slightest wrong move or frown, the matter of which I fail to know exactly. But deep...
    berlin92 berlin92
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 13

    Although it is the childfree

    who are accused of being selfish, the truth is exactly the opposite: the pinnacle of selfishness is having a child. These people are weaklings, unable to overcome their primal urges, bowing down to societal pressure, wanting a slave to care for them in their old age. And...
    oberjunker oberjunker
    26-30, M
    Mar 9

    No Good Reason

    I don't want to kill myself. I do what I have to do. I fight, struggle, whatever you call it. I was just dropped here, and have been cursed by the day I was born. I will go on, but I really think it was a waste my mother didn't abort.   Updated June, 10, 2008: I am meant...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    13 Responses Feb 9, 2008

    When I was growing up,

    my dad was an alcoholic, the teachers were abusive, and I was threatened by my mom. This all was happening when I was in kindergarten. It is strange how experiences can leave a scar on you, one that doesn't seem to go away. This scar has been surfacing and ripping open for...
    earthelement earthelement
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Jan 19, 2015

    I can't wait until I'm grown

    and can hopefully actually make a true friend. I'm so tired of this sh*t, I really am. I guess you could say I'm ready to be dead honestly. Pretty sad, only 15 and I'm sick of this sh*t earth.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

    It have been getting worse.

    I constantly have negative thoughts and I have stopped caring about anything. I just want to run away, to disappear. Life is just meaningless and I want to kill myself.
    anibit anibit
    22-25, M
    Jul 24, 2015

    If i could just disappear from everyone

    and everyone forgot about me i would be so happy.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 10, 2015

    I wanted to believe there was a reason I am

    here. My mother is mentally ill and should never have had me. She used very poor judgement when getting pregnant. She isn't able to see beyond what she wants in any given moment. She had a child with a very unstable man and no money. She psychologically, mental, and emotionally...
    theforgotten1one theforgotten1one
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jan 26, 2014

    I yelled at my mom the other day,

    wondering why the hell she bothered giving birth to me when I'd end up ruining not only her life, but my own as well...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 12, 2015

    I feel like I don't know what I am doing with

    myself. It all feels wrong. I look forward to very little and feel anxious about almost everything. I want to feel like life is worth something, but I see little value. I don't wish I was dead though. I'm optimistic enough to hope something will click. I just wish I was never...
    bellaunq bellaunq
    18-21, F
    Jan 5

    I joined this website mainly

    because I feel I can't talk to anyone else about what I'm thinking. This is a good place to vent my frustrations about my life and not be judged or ridiculed. I really wish that I was never born. I am near middle age and have had no truly happy experiences in my life. No...
    Wednesdayschild15 Wednesdayschild15
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Apr 5, 2014
    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes
    31-35, M
    5 Responses May 5, 2014

    My life feels like cosmic joke a lot of the

    time. **** this world and the worthless humans that inhabitant it. Life's a *****..then you die. Truer words were never written/spoken!
    Smoray100 Smoray100
    26-30, F
    Jul 8, 2014

    If I was never born..

    I wouldn't have to live through the pain I do today. If I was never born this world would've been perfect. If I was never born people would've been happy. If I was never born I wouldn't wanna die today. I just wish I was never born.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 19, 2015

    I hate the fact that I was born,

    why do they do this selfishly then regret us
    demoness68 demoness68
    46-50, F
    2 Responses May 18, 2015

    I sometimes wish I was never born,

    whereas no one can actually stigmatize me of who I am ....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 18, 2015

    Further, I resent my parents

    for bringing me into this awful world to have to endure this awful thing called life. I was a Pollyanna once upon a time. Back then I was delusional, young and naive. That quickly withered away as I got older, and especially after I graduated college and got into the real...
    LG1987 LG1987
    26-30, M
    Aug 1, 2015

    Similar. Maybe not that I was never born -

    what a thing to wish for! Sure wish my life was different though. When I graduated from high school there was a school organized trip to Europe but my parents decided no for me as I was still age 17 and only 4"11. So I spent the summer at home in the sun and grew an inch...
    1234NCW 1234NCW
    51-55, F
    Aug 4, 2015

    I can’t stay positive

    for a whole hour. I can’t take this anymore. I don’t have the will to hang on. I don’t even want things to get better now. I’m bitter. I am cold and dead inside. I’ve lost all hope. If a good opportunity presents itself I will refuse it. I have only hate now. All of my...
    ZHC74 ZHC74
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jan 5

    Good Until 3

    I am like many of you, not suicidal but deeply regretful of my conception. I think I had about 3 good years on this earth and, coincidentally, those 3 years were from birth until age 3, the ages where you can't remember anything. When I was almost 4 years old, my eyes began to...
    JackofNothing JackofNothing
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 5, 2013

    I am a failure that is not good at anything.

    My family don't like me and people tend to avoid me. I fail at even the easiest of things. I used to think that everyone can be useful in life...until I finally acknowledged the pointless person that I am.
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822
    18-21, F
    Mar 27

    I wish the whole planet was never made.

    What's the point of living if only some undeserving idiots get good lives and others have to struggle to come up to the top? Thanks for making us, God.
    BloodEpiphone BloodEpiphone
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 13, 2014

    Today I found out that my second oldest brother

    (who is 14 years older than I) and his wife and 2 kids are coming back from China in 4 weeks for Christmas. I haven't seen him in over a year and I don't have any kind of relationship with him. I'm still living in my parents house because I cant move out until my loans are paid...
    JustBeHere JustBeHere
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 17, 2014

    If I Had The Choice.

    If I had the choice I would observe this planet for like a few minutes and say no thank you. I do not want to be some drone. Envying what I will never have, wishing to win the lottery. Then wanting to spend the money helping others, while those in power would do everything to...
    smilemovie smilemovie
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jun 8, 2012

    I'm 21 and I feel like I wish I was never born.

    I've missed out on so much in my life already because of my severe social anxiety and my fear of failure. I didn't play sports or get involved as a kid or a teen nor did I have many friends, nor could I even get close to the most beautiful, most amazing girl in the world. I was...
    Jason947 Jason947
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jan 23

    I'm homeless as of December can't find help my

    parents didn't want me my siblings I barely knew don't want me my kids don't want me cause I'm a burden to them I can't afford a apartment cause I'm on social security really 733 can't pay a deposit and rent and utilities you ask for help you have to wait its not fair I didn't...
    nobodywants46 nobodywants46
    46-50, F
    Nov 17, 2015

    Even The Good Times Are Bad

    Most sharing stories stories here on this subject are a lot younger than me at 55. However, I feel connected because I've hated life since I was 12. The bottomline is that life is much more a struggle than it is a adventure. There's far more pain 'n sorrow than joy 'n happiness...
    Mvb76 Mvb76
    56-60, M
    Sep 24, 2013

    I dropped out of college

    after 3 years in medical school. I'm currently living with my parents and I'm not looking for a job. I don't want to do anything. I don't go out except to get food if there is nothing to eat at home. I'm sleeping at day and waking at night. I try to avoid my family as much as I...
    Khrona Khrona
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 13

    It doesn't feel right.

    I have everything I need to be happy : loving family, an awesome friend, enough money to buy what I need and what I want... The thing is, I wish I was never born. I hate myself because I am a bad person. I lie to the ones I love and I even lie to myself. I don't often achieve...
    TodayIsAGoodDayToDie TodayIsAGoodDayToDie
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

    Life is not easy nor do I believe it ever is

    for anyone. There really isn't much point to living, especially now when the world is such a crappy over populated place to live. Sometimes I feel like the there are so many people I can't breathe. I get tired of waking up every day too and following the same old boring routine...
    nonamenome nonamenome
    26-30
    Jan 2, 2015

    Actually, things are more complicated

    than just this but I feel like I need to talk.. I did a lot of things in my life, travelled a bit, took drugs, got drunk, had parties with friends, I had my heart broken a few years ago, I don't really regret any of those things, and there is still things that I want to do, and...
    SandPanda SandPanda
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015

    If I was never born I would never have the body

    that I have now, I would have never lost my sister I would still be close to my grandma, I would never have the problems that I have that I do today. If I had the option to be here or not I would pick not whoever decides that made the wrong choice by letting me live and my...
    Snowflake107 Snowflake107
    26-30, F
    Jan 4

    I know it sounds extreme,

    but everyone has a thought like that at least once in their life.
    BladeTheDejectedLooney BladeTheDejectedLooney
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 5, 2015

    why was even concived?

    what was the purpose of my being born? to be abused by parents that didn't want me.to be a laughing stock for my other siblings. to be be hated by every family member.close or distance. to be a scapegoat.one to point the finger at. and say it's your fault.place all our sins and...
    wolfserpent wolfserpent
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Apr 11

    Nothing Special

    Same as everybody else, I never asked for this life. It's not like any of us were ever given a chance. You know, if someone would have asked beforehand "would you like to experience people close to you dying or the feeling of being rejected or passed over for jobs you are over...
    nobody5000 nobody5000
    41-45
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2010

    As an oldest child, I don't regret my siblings

    being born, so this isn't a simple wish, but I can't help but feel if I hadn't been born, my parents would have realized they weren't right for each other, and avoided two decades of misery. Honestly, I'm not sure anyone is better for having met or known me; isn't that a basic...
    jdhammer84 jdhammer84
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015
    Eren123 Eren123
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015
    burnner burnner
    56-60, M
    1 Response Nov 1, 2015

    has not been worth my experiences sad most

    of time can't keep faking
    kayburt kayburt
    51-55, F
    1 Response Sep 16, 2015
    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 6, 2015

    As much as I try to make the people closest to

    me feel happier, I really am depressed myself. Very, very depressed. I feel like I was born amidst the wrong group of people, and I've yet to find a home in this world. I'm always thinking about whether to end it all or run away or be a coward and do nothing. And my true friends...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Nov 8, 2014

    i wish not to borned i give pain to everyone

    so if was dead no one will care
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 4

    sometimes I wish I was born American.

    I'm trapped in between two worlds, I can't go back as I feel lost, I can't stay here as I don't belong. I hate my skin, I hate my life.
    LoneWarrior94 LoneWarrior94
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 25

    I Wish I Was Never Born

    And not only do I wish I were never born, I'm angry about being born. I had no say in the matter. If I had been given the choice, I'd absolutely choose to have never been born. What a miserable, hopeless mess this life is. My purpose in posting this is not to seek advice or...
    Philliebuster Philliebuster
    26-30, M
    163 Responses Dec 14, 2008

    I Wish I Was Never Born

    it is easier than wishing death everyday
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 8, 2013

    My childhood wasn't awful,

    not as bad as some I'm sure, but it wasn't good. I'm from a single parent household and my mom had bouts of depression throughout my child hood. She wouldn't let me see anyone else in the family because she'd been sexually abused by her Dad when she was little and she was...
    channers1 channers1
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2014

    All of this, this group

    and all the stories here, are really impressive... in the most horrible of the possibile ways. What I'm most impressed with are the amount and similarity of meaningful replies present to these stories... Only a few of them are from idiots that want to "set things right" with a...
    TotalVoid TotalVoid
    26-30
    Apr 19
    PigMonkeyHybrid PigMonkeyHybrid
    18-21, M
    Mar 11

    I don't really have much to say about it.

    It's pretty simple - The very few moments of pleasant experiences don't make the 8 decades or so of awkward and painful struggling worth it. But it's the only game in town right? Life is a nightmare and then you wake up in hell
    ZHC74 ZHC74
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    And So Do Others

    I know others doo. I see it, I hear it, I know it. I am only here, because a doctor lied to my mom, and by the time she found out she was pregnant it was too late to abort, my her mother wouldn't let her give me up, idk why, my life migh have been a bit better if i wasn't to grow...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 15, 2010

    I feel like I'm just waiting to die.

    Like I was created by mistake and I'm just waiting to be erased. I can't remember when I've lived last. The life I've lived 26 years with my husband has been a complete waste. We aren't even partners. I don't feel love or passion for him. This is the life I chose, basically...
    Ludavin Ludavin
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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