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I Wish I Was So Nuts I Forced Myself To Not Eat

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    More and more I find myself wondering why I can't stand the thought of ME. It's a very hard thing to come to grips with.
    theluckyduck theluckyduck 26-30, M Jul 24

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    I hear people say I'm pretty or hot, but when I look in the mirror I don't understand and I remind myself of the guys who've let me go and think that there must be something wrong...
    flowerchloe48 flowerchloe48 13-15, F Jul 30

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    Before, i was unable to tell this story. It was very hard. The only way i have managed to come through in speaking of it was to talk to a friend about it, then soon another friend...
    iris801 iris801 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Gosh! Where to begin? So it’s fair to say that I haven’t been suffering for as long as some people with their eating disorders but I can’t dismiss the fact that I HAVE been...
    Thatgirl889 Thatgirl889 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    My first kiss was for a play so it was scripted and I knew where to stand, but it was terrifying because it was in front of the entire audience and I was freaking out. I didn't...
    maddiegraddie maddiegraddie 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I hate my body. Does anyone have any ANA tips or when I'm forced to eat any foods to really avoid?
    kayleejames kayleejames 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Over 5 years ago now, it wasn't serious bullying! Still pi**ed me off though. For 3 years of high school, i had this one real good friend called Jack. We were always together, i...
    Ryanholmes20375 Ryanholmes20375 18-21, M 9 Responses Aug 6

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    The harder I try to eat healthy, the more junk food I eat. I try to eat the unhealthy stuff in moderation... but it never works out. I'm at the point where I'm ready to give up on...
    Ridiculousity Ridiculousity 18-21 Jul 27

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    Every day is a burden. It is really hard to pass each second of this life that I have been needlessly dragged into. I just want it to end, quickly and painlessly. I know how to but...
    Ricky2701 Ricky2701 18-21, M Aug 3

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    I do it all the time when I'm alone. If I did it in public, people would think I was nuts. But no matter. I always pretend I'm talking to another family even though it's me.
    baraccio baraccio 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 10

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    Ever since I was in kindergarten I was picked on for being fat & for having hairy arms. Kids would tell me "why don't you shave" "Why don't go shave", that was the most common...
    DestroyToCreate DestroyToCreate 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I have been doing so much writing lately, keeping an online journal of my most innermost thoughts, desires, dreams, wishes, fantasies and hopes. I keep so much of this private...
    Indigolesbian70 Indigolesbian70 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    My Drug My Overdose! "We are going to stop the world tonight" he said softly in my ear. Brought chills all over my body The excitement like a little kid receiving a gift. His...
    natashaxxs natashaxxs 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    I sometimes wish I could kill myself and never leave a mark, though that seems very plausible as of the moment. Someone call child services because it may be soon.
    hatredofmyself hatredofmyself 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    So I finally got up the strength to post the rest of the story. The men started cutting my clothes off piece by piece. They said that if I moved they would stab me multiple times...
    staystrong111 staystrong111 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    Before I enter any kind of food restaurants I attend to wash my hands then eat . I have seen people don't even think of washing their hands it really ****** me off so much that I...
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    I think it's like he feels at home/ inside his head, when he's alone/ selfishly alone at last/ his mind, it just seems way to vast/ untold future, an unknown past/ derailed the...
    WaterfallDrops WaterfallDrops 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    So I met my friend at the the bus stop and I had over slept my alarm and hasn't had a chance to pee. I told her and she said she hadn't peed yet either! So we agreed to play the...
    Sexypeepanties Sexypeepanties 18-21, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    I remember when I was little, I was thinking about getting married (my mom had shown me wedding pictures) and I was so worried about having to kiss a girl, I was worrying over it...
    DreadlockJesus DreadlockJesus 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    I try to hide my singing voice because I don't think it's good, I really wanna be a singer though! Yesterday I was singing to myself at my locker when a girl walks past me and...
    HappensForAReason HappensForAReason 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I was a bad girl, and stopped exercising last year. Yeah, I know. Anyway, recently, I've started walking in the mornings (I love walking down the road from my house) for 30-40...
    aepteewS aepteewS 41-45, F 13 hrs ago

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    Since I'm a little kid I wanted to be fat. I always put a ballon under my shirt to look like I would be fat, when my mom came in I always said that I was playing being pregnant...
    ChocolateCroissant ChocolateCroissant 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I know I have a problem, but how do I get over it? Advice would be appreciated. I am morbidly obese. I weigh 340 pounds and I am 5'10. I am not your typical fat girl though. I...
    BlueHeartSong BlueHeartSong 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    So I'm not anorexic or anything, it's just sometimes I don't have an appetite. I had some sunflower seeds and a little dry cereal. My little brother fixed me a little leftover...
    MiniMe57 MiniMe57 13-15, F 20 hrs ago

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    For him. Its funny how confident I am in other parts of my life & question myself "am I good enough" for this person. I suppose since were still dating, I am but I wish he'd be...
    IntomeYousee IntomeYousee 36-40, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    This time in front of co-worker~called a liar. And things were brought up that were irrelevant. I didnt lie, she misread what was explained. REWIND-We quickly became "Besties...
    sgg2013 sgg2013 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    I cut myself today. I am so ashamed. I haven't done something like that since I was a teenager. I used to cut myself all the time when I was younger. I had some issues growing up I...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    YES YES YES! I love pizza toooo much! I could eaaaaasily eat pizza for every meal, EAAAASILY! :D And in between meals...and whenever. :D Picture this... Breakfast...Pizza with...
    InternationalDarkness InternationalDarkness 13-15, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F Jul 27

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    I just feel empty all the time, not empty in my stomach like I haven't eaten.. An emptyness in my chest :/ but the problem is is that I don't even know the problem, how the hell...
    Destinyeastwest Destinyeastwest 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    So basically i have an eating disorder and i think my teacher was figuring out that i had one and i need to know if you guys think that he started to figure it out or not. At lunch...
    flowerqueenx flowerqueenx 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    It is a need and not a want That slowly spreads my thighs I wish that at this moment I could look into your eyes Instead my memory has to serve To sweeten my time alone Included...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 6 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I just kind of wonder sometimes. It seems so much easier in the scheme of things, or at least at my age. A female my age could get a man to take care of her for the rest of her...
    SparkyPantsL SparkyPantsL 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I have it was a few weeks ago I was driving home and I really needed to go pee but my house was only like 15 minutes away so I decided I should be able to hold it until I got there...
    AmandaDefiantWings AmandaDefiantWings 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    At sixteen I met my now husband and a few months after meeting got pregnant with our now 13 year old son. When I met my husband all those years ago I was heartbroken and sad over...
    truloveit84 truloveit84 26-30, F 22 hrs ago

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I grew up with a mother who has slowly become morbidly obese. All my life she was overweight but as I grew older I began to notice just how overweight she was becoming. My dad is...
    tracy1990 tracy1990 22-25, F Jul 24

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    I wrote 50 random facts about myself last night. and i'm bored so i'm going to write another 50. so um yea... here we go. 51- I have met a lot of bands. 52- 90% of my wardrobe...
    sugarcakes143 sugarcakes143 18-21, F Jul 28

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    Cuffed and detained during the holiday season. I wasn't really caught in the act of crossdressing but I was caught with the clothes for crossdressing. I actually had told this...
    banannasplitz09 banannasplitz09 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 31

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    I always wanted to be a traveller - Photographer and explore things, i wanted to free fly, i wanted to learn people. i wanted to read them, i wanted to be a freelancer , i wanted...
    Nitish288 Nitish288 22-25, M a week ago

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    I feel insignificant and I feel like no one would really care if I left. It would make no difference if I were never here in the first place, as I only burden others with my own...
    MellowCube MellowCube 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I dont want to sound like a typical dramatic teen but i wish sometimes that i wasnt here. Like me being put on earth was a mistake. When im alone i feel so amazing i love my own...
    Alwaysfalling Alwaysfalling 16-17, F 5 hrs ago

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    When I was 15 I went to my friend's house for the day. We were going to the mall in town but my friend told me that she had arranged to meet a couple of boys and go to out of town...
    Tina303 Tina303 41-45, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    Nuts...now I only have two
    thebigtexrock thebigtexrock 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I'm a very level headed teenager. And then I got told I had an eating disorder and now it controls my life... Every day I think about food constantly, I don't eat it but I...
    justsmile1990 justsmile1990 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    How many people out there who suffering with all conditions sleep disorder / social anxiety and chronic depression ! Are we enough still strong to facing ourself collapsing day...
    Adl5000 Adl5000 26-30, F 14 hrs ago

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    Turning back the hands of time....sounds perfect at first. I have so many wrongs I could make right. I have decisions in my life I could change. I have loves I could have explored...
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 2 Responses