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I Wish I Was So Nuts I Forced Myself To Not Eat

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    More and more I find myself wondering why I can't stand the thought of ME. It's a very hard thing to come to grips with.
    theluckyduck theluckyduck 26-30, M Jul 24

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    ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ·ᴛ ᴍɪɴᴅ ʜɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ sᴏᴍᴇᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀɪɴɢ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. s...
    rosetheinnocent rosetheinnocent 16-17, F Jul 6

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    I hear people say I'm pretty or hot, but when I look in the mirror I don't understand and I remind myself of the guys who've let me go and think that there must be something wrong...
    flowerchloe48 flowerchloe48 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I've been trying to find a new job and it's been stressful on me. I'm feeling very frustrated. This weekend wasn't that great. I didn't go anywhere for July 4th, and went to the...
    bettygingham bettygingham 22-25, F Jul 8

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    It started when people in my school started calling me fat , so i started to diet but then i started eating less and less , then i completely stopped eating , i started exercising...
    Theworldismyhell Theworldismyhell 18-21, F Jul 6

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    Missing Child Fraud-For 10 years myself and younger siblings were "missing",but we did not know this. We thought we were living in Switzerland with our father. In 2007 when I was...
    Prosperar Prosperar 22-25, M 12 hrs ago

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8

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    The harder I try to eat healthy, the more junk food I eat. I try to eat the unhealthy stuff in moderation... but it never works out. I'm at the point where I'm ready to give up on...
    Ridiculousity Ridiculousity 18-21 5 days ago

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    I don't HATE looking in the mirror I just avoid it. Its so weird. I honest to God don't know if I'm hideous or mediocre or pretty or beautiful. I just don't know.. I mean growing...
    bluemoon93 bluemoon93 18-21, F Jul 13

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    Today i feel awful is like nobody is there. I feel bad about myself, i look in the mirror and i just want to brake it. I don't like me and i feel stupid about it. Nobody cares...
    havenoideaa havenoideaa 16-17, F Jul 19

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    Ever since I was in kindergarten I was picked on for being fat & for having hairy arms. Kids would tell me "why don't you shave" "Why don't go shave", that was the most common...
    DestroyToCreate DestroyToCreate 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I always wished I was pretty and skinny. I always been the chubby girl. I wish wouldn't compare myself to other girls, but at times. I just feel so gross.
    Idreamtowaketofindthefate Idreamtowaketofindthefate 18-21, F Jul 15

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    My Drug My Overdose! "We are going to stop the world tonight" he said softly in my ear. Brought chills all over my body The excitement like a little kid receiving a gift. His...
    natashaxxs natashaxxs 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Yes, I truly do. Before I go on, the purpose of this story is not to brag. Heavens no, I’m not like that. I’m not conceited. I’m not full of myself. I’m not a douche...
    BewareTheGonzo BewareTheGonzo 13-15 7 Responses Jul 20

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    So I finally got up the strength to post the rest of the story. The men started cutting my clothes off piece by piece. They said that if I moved they would stab me multiple times...
    staystrong111 staystrong111 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Before I enter any kind of food restaurants I attend to wash my hands then eat . I have seen people don't even think of washing their hands it really ****** me off so much that I...
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Even though Im 19, most of my friends are either my age or much younger than me. In addition to that, most of my friends are female, even though I am male. after that quick set up...
    ThunderST0RM1N ThunderST0RM1N 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    There's me complaining about people blocking and I realise I was doing it myself....hypocritical mwua!! I found myself behaving like a petuant child on occasion, blocking ppl coz...
    strikeslucky strikeslucky 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    ~Silent Thoughts~ I think it's like he feels at home inside his head, when he's alone selfishly alone at last his mind it just seems way to vast untold future, an unknown past...
    WaterfallDrops WaterfallDrops 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I remember when I was little, I was thinking about getting married (my mom had shown me wedding pictures) and I was so worried about having to kiss a girl, I was worrying over it...
    Mechawaffle Mechawaffle 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    Does anyone know what sort of spider bit me? Symptoms include respiritory difficulties, fever, hallucinations, sweating, pain and more pain. 5 days incapacitated. Australia.DAy 1...
    alienwarrior alienwarrior 51-55, M 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I am sufferibg from bulimia. I don't have body image issues. This was a trained behavior. I feel like I walk a tight rope trying not to slip . I feel the urge to purge all the time...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I'm popular at school everyone loves me, little do they know I find no joy or meaning in anything anymore. All I feel is pain and hurt, I think of the ways I could kill myself...
    teenghostt teenghostt 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    what i have for myself is beyond hate. i hate everything about myself. i hate my own existence. i hate my parents for having me. i hate god for creating such a weak helpless being...
    SlaveToMyBullshit SlaveToMyBullshit 18-21 21 hrs ago

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    Ana is been my best friend for as long I can remember... She eat all body away pretty... Put me the hospital so many times... I wish she would just leave...
    MichaelOKBurns MichaelOKBurns 13-15, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Really wish pizza was healthy ugh
    WendyDarlin WendyDarlin 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I have had morphea since 1965 at the age of 14. Back then it was extremely rare to find a doctor who even knew what morphea was. My morphea started as a round spot on my wrist...
    Muffygirl Muffygirl 61-65, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    It was there, right in front of me, begging me to bury my face in it and eat it all up. So sweet, so juicy, warm, wet, pulsing, glistening. God it was good. She was good.
    shouldIquestionmark shouldIquestionmark 46-50, M 8 hrs ago

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    Why can't my mother understand! Every night I destroy myself into tears cause I feel like I didn't eat that much food. Now that dad is away and mom is working I'm forced to stay...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    Feeling truly lonely today. Sad, forgotten and alone. Not one person to talk to or to be with. No one to comfort me and to tell things will be ok. I just want to eat my feelings...
    GramOfCoal GramOfCoal 36-40, F 9 hrs ago

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    Let my start off by saying that I'm a Christian and I am gay. I live with both my parents and my younger brother and I have a dog. I've been dating a guy for the past 2 months. We...
    jowaymedina jowaymedina 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I am an emotional eater. I eat when depressed that means I eat a lot. I am sad way to much. I also think I eat out of habit.
    lonesojourner lonesojourner 46-50, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I wish i was good enough, but i'm not. Never was and never will be
    BleedingAngel BleedingAngel 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    This time in front of co-worker~called a liar. And things were brought up that were irrelevant. I didnt lie, she misread what was explained. REWIND-We quickly became "Besties...
    sgg2013 sgg2013 46-50, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Lately I've been questioning myself a lot lately, "How was I not worth it?" Or "Was I not worth it for him to fight on my side?" I would replay our time together and all the...
    stella517 stella517 26-30, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    What can i do, say to make you see that we are the ones who should be together. That you are the one who makes me feel alive, i can breath when you are near me. I wish i could make...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 9 hrs ago

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    It happened over and over again .. it wasn't really anyone's fault but my own. It's a part of me to never say, No. The thing is I'm just afraid to loose people,but aren't we all to...
    hulkgirl hulkgirl 18-21 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    Obviously, I’m not a relationship expert but I am an expert on my failed relationships😛 It wasnt working out for me andwhy it didn't quite work out(my version off course,not...
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    I don't know of this is really an eating disorder, but... I lose my appetite sometimes for days at a stretch and can only really eat one meal in the day and sometimes I don't eat...
    Loner1990 Loner1990 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    My older sister passed away 3 years ago (age 21). That year was horrible yet amazing. It opened my eyes and made me experience something I will never forget. I had a dream the week...
    bellaluvsbats5 bellaluvsbats5 16-17, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    The desire deep within his soul The urge to touch unstoppable The lust in his eyes burning bright Begging for affection I see burden in his eyes God I wish he wanted me I...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Each day is another struggle. All these bad things happen and I just keep thinking them over and over again and wishing I could go back and change them. It's tough to keep my head...
    TP40514 TP40514 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    My mother abandoned me two years ago while I was going through a divorce. She found out that I had been seeing another man while I was still married, and really lashed out at me...
    Amelia3611 Amelia3611 31-35, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    For over a year now, I've been on the verge of anorexia. I go two, maybe three days without eating or eating very small amounts, then I stop. I know it's terrible, but there's a...
    PairOfTrees PairOfTrees 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    I don't like eating alone. I end up not really eating because of it. I'll have a protein bar and coffee in the morning and then at like 4pm be so fatigued that I remember I should...
    CoffeeBrewin14 CoffeeBrewin14 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    If you exist God, I just want to say thanks. Thanks for bringing me into this world an awkward only child that is so alone he slowly goes insane. The type of mental development...