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I Wish I Was So Nuts I Forced Myself To Not Eat

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    I'm semi-trying to recover from a serious eating disorder, but an obstacle to recovery is that I forget to eat a lot. In all honesty, I sometimes don't eat by choice, but I also...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I absolutely hate having to eat. I do it because I know I have to, but it isn't a priority at all to me. If I lived alone, I'd forget to eat a lot more. Don't get me wrong, I...
    HiddenAnger HiddenAnger 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    When i was a very little girl, between 2 - 5 i think. My daddy left us. Us being me, my brother, and my mom. She worked very hard to take care of us. Therefore I never had a lot of...
    CleverSiri CleverSiri 13-15, F 6 Responses Sep 12

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    I wish I could be myself my mom always cracks jokes about how I am always eating or how much " the only time I get up is to look in the fridge" I hate how fat she makes me feel I...
    nadirah96 nadirah96 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    The urges are coming back stronger than ever and I'm going back to what I was doing before. I have 3 types of eating disorders, B.E.D (binge eating disorder) Anorexia, and bulimia...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F Sep 13

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    Or I still am in one. I'm not sure. At the moment he's not here and he says he's not coming back but he always comes back. I don't want him to come back. I am frightened of him...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 10

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    1. I want to get my sight back some day 2. I want everyone to be happy 3. I want cancer to be destroyed 4. I want everyone to be naturally slim, or average. Whichever they...
    Mahsa99 Mahsa99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    I just wish I could be myself. That's all I want
    InternetKid905 InternetKid905 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    Today I dropped a full bowl of goulash on the floor. In that moment you could see my heart break. I was so excited to eat it, but no that full bowl got wasted! :'( I did get...
    OliviaOcean OliviaOcean 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16

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    Ok get this my worst experience ever . so i was always a little curious when it came to women then one i was in my moms room she downstairs and i said i would take a shower. So...
    georgeuzimaki georgeuzimaki 13-15 Sep 21

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    The depression went away i was back to myself. After the summer was over i became depressed again. Everyday i wake up i just stay in my bed my house is a mess . The summer house...
    sadmoma sadmoma 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    INTO THE WILD † The Next Generation | One Youth Australia | I recently just returned from Youth Camp and it was amazing! I have always followed God but i was slowly drifting...
    Sib232228 Sib232228 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well step dad I was raped for 7-12 and in 16 and it's still with me now I can never get over it i have know one to talk to as I am a lad and this is embarrassing but it started...
    tommiebourne22 tommiebourne22 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    At a sleepover with my friends and they all think I have an eating disorder and made me eat a two meals and it was horrible and I hate food so much too cause all I want to be is...
    starvetobeskinny starvetobeskinny 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Before you say you hate yourself please read this...about me I assure you. You'll feel better about yourself. I'm 24-years-old still living with my parents and although I don't...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 5 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    This happened about 2 years after My original story where I was forced to basically be a girl.So as most of you know, my wardrobe at home consisted of only girl clothes, even down...
    Lovingthepanties Lovingthepanties 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I can't sleep or hardly even eat I keep crying myself to sleep the abuse started when I was 14 with guys I went to school with they would hold me down and touch me sometimes they...
    Kitten2514 Kitten2514 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I sorta do but I just wish I was thinner. Also I wish my hair was customizable without money an hair dye xD
    EmptyAgain EmptyAgain 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Ugh I don't know. Before you read this I'm just letting you know that I really hate the word "trigger" it's very misused and it makes me angry. So when I use this word, I am being...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 5

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    I used to be TURKEY6 previously on this board but I deactivated for almost a year. I was the other woman in a strange tumultuous relationship for 2 years (off and on). We haven't...
    tinyivory tinyivory 31-35, F 5 hrs ago

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    I was always jealous of futuristic fiction where they swallow a couple pills and they are full. I tend to put off eating until I'm ravenous because I just don't like it. For me...
    sillyjuice sillyjuice 51-55, F Sep 20

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    Okay so I found this on my I pod and I thought I'd share this. It was written 12/31/10 so it's a bit old. Now warning I have no clue what the hell I was smoking (says the...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 16-17, F Sep 18

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    Not because the girl I liked treated me bad, not because at my previous work, people ostracized me and my team and laid us off because we weren't chatty and fake enuf like them...
    sjyul sjyul 26-30, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Hello today I'm gonna write about an experience that happened to me when I was 12 years old tears still come to my eyes when I repeat the story because I really didn't deserve it...
    Kickingnscreaming Kickingnscreaming 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    I think I might be in love with myself... Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Well, I don't really care. I am most important to me. Of course, I don't always put myself first. I...
    ashfaaqb ashfaaqb 18-21, M 6 hrs ago

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    I want to wish my friends for Navratri.Yesterday night I was out till late at night visiting Durga Puja pandals.I also saw Goddess Kali idols being made for Dewali.Had a great time...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I wish I had someone's I could tell everything too. Someone to cheer me up when I'm down. Someone I can be there for as well! Even if it was someone on here I could be close to, I...
    JustDevy JustDevy 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I am dealing with a panic disorder with agoraphobia, depression and seizures and was currently discharged from the military. I developed all of this when I was admitted in a...
    Liddoturrboo Liddoturrboo 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I remember admiring a group of hip-hop dancers presenting for the school festival. I was amaze of their athletic capabilities and body movement, doing flips and other movements I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 16-17 14 hrs ago

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    I try to be the best I can, and improve what I can about me. One of the great hardships with this is if you are in a companion relationship or marriage, is the gap that widens when...
    MrsJoanieBNH MrsJoanieBNH 56-60, T 2 hrs ago

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    I love eating. My appetite hasn't gone away. But sometimes I just forget to eat. I don't always feel hungry when I'm supposed to. I just feel sick after a while because I'm so low...
    thunderstruck14 thunderstruck14 18-21 Sep 18

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    I have been doing so much writing as of late, I find that it helps me focus on the here and now. I write about my day, my goals, dreams, desires...I write about so much. I have...
    Indigolesbian70 Indigolesbian70 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Does anyone else eat cucumber and cheese sandwiches? Like the cucumber slices are the bread and the cheese is in the middle? Other people seem to think its a weird combination :P
    waterwolflover waterwolflover 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    So for the past couple of years, (2011-now) i would go to school and just push through without eating, and by my last year in school I wasn't eating everyday, I could go the day...
    TaylaT21 TaylaT21 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I want to yell at the top of my lungs and never stop. Can't you see this is killing me and I don't know if I can survive this pain my heart torn to pieces my soulf shatted I wish...
    gem207 gem207 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I thought that I was alone in the building and decided it was a good time to try on some new knee boots with a black bra, cami, panties, and nylons. I had accidentally trigger the...
    JessicaDale JessicaDale 51-55, T 1 Response Sep 13

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    This one is going to be difficult for me to actually do as every male I've tried getting with gives up on us like it's all my fault but I'm the only one giving to receive nothing...
    lukeymrules lukeymrules 22-25, M Sep 14

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    I like men and women as friends. I have a bad back so I'm embarrassed to go out in public. I wish I could meet some gentle souls who could stop by to visit me. I don't need...
    SorrowofHeart SorrowofHeart 51-55, F Sep 7

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    My boyfriend who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with left me. We lived together, slept with each other every night. Took baths with each other made dinner for...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    My boyfriend who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with left me. We lived together, slept with each other every night. Took baths with each other made dinner for...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    I hate myself. I hate every single inch of myself; my eyes are too dull, my stomach is too fat. I hate how my thighs don't touch but still flatten out too largely when I sit down...
    magickalfiona magickalfiona 18-21 1 Response Sep 14

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    "I was depressed at one time, I was suicidal as a matter of fact, and I would have killed myself. But I was in analysis at the time with a strict Freudian, and if you kill yourself...
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I force myself to eat. Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F Sep 3

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    So about a year ago, I got on a scale and I wasn't happy with what I saw... so I stopped eating. My mom made me start eating again and made me promise not to get back on the scale...
    smpoetry smpoetry 13-15, F 10 Responses Sep 14

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    STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO EAT! I am sick of this. I do lots of sport, I know. That means I need to eat more, I KNOW. But I eat enough okay? I have breakfast, I have an apple at...
    Missinghim99 Missinghim99 13-15, F Sep 19

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    A little vent/update... (1) Well, exAP certainly didn't get what he wanted for his birthday. He put in a real concerted effort to seduce me into phone sex if not an actual visit...
    dropdeadredhead dropdeadredhead 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    i am exactly what society hates and finds unattractive and i have to wake up in disgust for myself every ******* day. im not even wanted by any man. i look like a boy in the body...
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 6 Responses