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I Wish I Was So Nuts I Forced Myself To Not Eat

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    I absolutely hate having to eat. I do it because I know I have to, but it isn't a priority at all to me. If I lived alone, I'd forget to eat a lot more. Don't get me wrong, I...
    HiddenAnger HiddenAnger 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    When i was a very little girl, between 2 - 5 i think. My daddy left us. Us being me, my brother, and my mom. She worked very hard to take care of us. Therefore I never had a lot of...
    CleverSiri CleverSiri 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's the sixth month of my ED now. I've lost five kilograms , don't feel weak at all tho. The same routine continues everyday college, studies, work , home, the tiring cycle...
    CrushednBroken CrushednBroken 26-30, F Aug 28

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    I hate my body. Does anyone have any ANA tips or when I'm forced to eat any foods to really avoid?
    kayleejames kayleejames 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 18

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    I wish I could be myself my mom always cracks jokes about how I am always eating or how much " the only time I get up is to look in the fridge" I hate how fat she makes me feel I...
    nadirah96 nadirah96 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    The urges are coming back stronger than ever and I'm going back to what I was doing before. I have 3 types of eating disorders, B.E.D (binge eating disorder) Anorexia, and bulimia...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Someone asked me today to write what I would wish for if I had only one single wish. That is an almost impossible decision. One wish when I have so many thoughts in my head. I...
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    Before, i was unable to tell this story. It was very hard. The only way i have managed to come through in speaking of it was to talk to a friend about it, then soon another friend...
    iris801 iris801 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Or I still am in one. I'm not sure. At the moment he's not here and he says he's not coming back but he always comes back. I don't want him to come back. I am frightened of him...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    1. I want to get my sight back some day 2. I want everyone to be happy 3. I want cancer to be destroyed 4. I want everyone to be naturally slim, or average. Whichever they...
    Mahsa99 Mahsa99 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just wish I could be myself. That's all I want
    InternetKid905 InternetKid905 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    oh i have a big appetite. I blame it on the fact that when i was younger I could eat a lot and get away with it by not putting on weight. That's changed now but teh appetite hasn't...
    surfdas surfdas 22-25, M Aug 21

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    My first kiss was for a play so it was scripted and I knew where to stand, but it was terrifying because it was in front of the entire audience and I was freaking out. I didn't...
    maddiegraddie maddiegraddie 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I like myself very much. I take care of myself. I never let anything go to waste. I find myself very attractive. I like myself very much. I knew I was going to live a happy life...
    lycheechan lycheechan 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    It took a long time for me to realize this but the first person who will help you live a full and happy life is in the mirror. Until I sought this person out and learned to love...
    subbbw subbbw 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I try to hide my singing voice because I don't think it's good, I really wanna be a singer though! Yesterday I was singing to myself at my locker when a girl walks past me and...
    HappensForAReason HappensForAReason 13-15, M Aug 19

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    When All You Can See Is My Beauty Mommy said, “Your beautiful, who cares about the rest?” She would fashion me in pretty dresses and bows and proclaim to the world, “Look...
    jfrender jfrender 31-35, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    This happened about 2 years after My original story where I was forced to basically be a girl.So as most of you know, my wardrobe at home consisted of only girl clothes, even down...
    Lovingthepanties Lovingthepanties 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I can't sleep or hardly even eat I keep crying myself to sleep the abuse started when I was 14 with guys I went to school with they would hold me down and touch me sometimes they...
    Kitten2514 Kitten2514 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    Ugh I don't know. Before you read this I'm just letting you know that I really hate the word "trigger" it's very misused and it makes me angry. So when I use this word, I am being...
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 5

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    I wish I knew that you would leave, God. If I had known, I'd still be able to feel it when people touch my arm. And I mean really feel it, you know? Feel the warmth and energy. Now...
    becswiggins becswiggins 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I've read a lot of things about the ideal weight. I'm supposed to be from 52-59 kg. So what - I'm 51 kg, I'm normal and I hate myself for it. Who likes normal?! I want to be skinny...
    elena1998 elena1998 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    Hello today I'm gonna write about an experience that happened to me when I was 12 years old tears still come to my eyes when I repeat the story because I really didn't deserve it...
    Kickingnscreaming Kickingnscreaming 56-60, M 6 days ago

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    I hate myself for all the lies and deception I inflicted on my current boyfriend. I blame my family particularly. I am a cheater and this means I have broken my own value system. I...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I feel insignificant and I feel like no one would really care if I left. It would make no difference if I were never here in the first place, as I only burden others with my own...
    MellowCube MellowCube 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I am a 20 year old junior guy in college. I have never posted anything on this, but more than anything I am using this as a way to vent. So here I go. I hate myself. There are so...
    slopez7597 slopez7597 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 21

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    So for the past couple of years, (2011-now) i would go to school and just push through without eating, and by my last year in school I wasn't eating everyday, I could go the day...
    TaylaT21 TaylaT21 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I want to yell at the top of my lungs and never stop. Can't you see this is killing me and I don't know if I can survive this pain my heart torn to pieces my soulf shatted I wish...
    gem207 gem207 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I thought that I was alone in the building and decided it was a good time to try on some new knee boots with a black bra, cami, panties, and nylons. I had accidentally trigger the...
    JessicaDale JessicaDale 51-55, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    This one is going to be difficult for me to actually do as every male I've tried getting with gives up on us like it's all my fault but I'm the only one giving to receive nothing...
    lukeymrules lukeymrules 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I was a bad girl, and stopped exercising last year. Yeah, I know. Anyway, recently, I've started walking in the mornings (I love walking down the road from my house) for 30-40...
    aepteewS aepteewS 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I debated wether to join this group or one that uses the term "might have" an eating disorder. I've studied it. Logically I know I do. But sometimes I feel just utterly paranoid...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F Aug 27

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    I like men and women as friends. I have a bad back so I'm embarrassed to go out in public. I wish I could meet some gentle souls who could stop by to visit me. I don't need...
    SorrowofHeart SorrowofHeart 51-55, F Sep 7

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    My boyfriend who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with left me. We lived together, slept with each other every night. Took baths with each other made dinner for...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My boyfriend who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with left me. We lived together, slept with each other every night. Took baths with each other made dinner for...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate myself. I hate every single inch of myself; my eyes are too dull, my stomach is too fat. I hate how my thighs don't touch but still flatten out too largely when I sit down...
    magickalfiona magickalfiona 18-21 1 day ago

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    Food is one thing that relieves you from stress. Each time you feel stressed, you turn to food and start eating. It doesn't matter how much you eat when you are stressed coz...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M Aug 27

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    I force myself to eat. Not because I wouldn't eat if I didn't, because I would. And not because I need to gain weight, because I don't. I force myself to eat because it is...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F Sep 3

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    Red meat is my main intake for protein as legunes, soy beans, alfalfa, and all nuts will not allow me to live. However, I am very picky. Has to be grass fed, no hofmones...
    Soullovr Soullovr 56-60, M 1 Response Sep 5

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    So about a year ago, I got on a scale and I wasn't happy with what I saw... so I stopped eating. My mom made me start eating again and made me promise not to get back on the scale...
    smpoetry smpoetry 13-15, F 10 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't have many close friends except for two named Jason and Chris. lately, it feels as if we've been drifting apart because they each have love interests that they're interested...
    jamie1292 jamie1292 22-25, M Aug 19

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    Alright, I don't starve myself or make myself throw up or anything. But I binge. I haven't been eating as much in the past week or so (Not starving, I've just cut down and started...
    raehmm raehmm 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    Ha, trust me guys you don't. I eat loads and I love to eat, but I'm still on the verge of being put in a mental health clinic to see if I have a mental disorder. My bmi is like 17...
    JPSmith24 JPSmith24 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    It all started when I was fresh out of high school. I grew up in a small, rural German/Chzech town in central Texas. Needless to say, these small communities have a way of raising...
    Rawj777 Rawj777 26-30 Sep 2

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    You have ever walked through the rocky mountain. There are uneven passages, large boulders, little green, no life. That is more brutal when it is 115F and you have no water. Your...
    deltaofvenus deltaofvenus 22-25, M Sep 6

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