I Wish I Was Strong Enough to Fix Me

I'm so scared of change.... I'm not even sure I'd want to. Is it better to be miserable and safe, or happy & terrified? 543 People

    this is not an easy task.

    I'm not exactly broken, i just expect the worst from people. and they never let me down with that.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 22, 2015

    I am so broken right now

    and I know time will come that someone can put the pieces back together.
    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 8

    I can't sleep. I can't work.

    I can't stop thinking. I am so angry. Why do you have to lie to yourself so that you can live with the fact that you had been such a jerk to me?
    Qtrelle Qtrelle
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I've gotten so good at lying it scares me.

    I will look people straight in the eye and tell them a lie, and I'm angry for not even feeling guilty about it afterwards. I feel nothing, not an ounce of regret when I do it and that scares me. When other people do it, however, I get furious. Is this something other people have...
    MyThoughtsExactly07 MyThoughtsExactly07
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2015

    I'm sick of my anxiety controlling my life.

    It is so much better than it used to be, and I am way better than I was last year when I hit rock bottom. It's just frustrating feeling such a strong response when I am just trying to go about my day-to-day life. I have gotten better but I wish it was something I could just be...
    meadowes meadowes
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2015

    I wish I was determined

    and smart enough to fix me. I have all the tools but I don't know how to use them, or I don't want to know how to use them.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 30, 2015

    No money or time for meds

    or a therapist. I have no idea what to do anymore other than just continue on like this...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 30, 2015

    I really wish I am. You don't become a whole

    other person in a day or two. It changes you slowly, flows through you easily and captures you effectively. I want to break free of all the bad choices I am making now.
    EmotionJammer EmotionJammer
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2015

    So the meds aren't working much anymore

    and I'm stuck in my own head. Fortunately, I'm intuitive enough to realize when my emotions are dictating my thoughts. Pretty sure that's the only reason I was wise not to do anything stupid a couple of hours ago. I understand that pain can be a great teacher but I don't get the...
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    I feel like I have no motivation to change my

    life and my own willpower isnt enough
    lostpersona lostpersona
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 23, 2015

    Great Spirit, whose voice I hear in the winds

    and whose breath gives life to all in the world, hear me. I am small and I am weak and I need your strength and your wisdom. Let me walk in beauty and let my eyes ever behold the red and purple sunsets that you have created with me. Make my hands respect the things that...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 25

    That moment when you have to beg yourself to

    stop crying and tell yourself "BE STRONG"
    KrissiaGeramie KrissiaGeramie
    18-21, F
    May 22, 2015

    I wish i knew what was wrong with me.

    I wish i knew how to fix me. I am scared of what life is bringing me. My world is going crazy. I feel like im always messing everything up. No matter what i do, it wrong. I try my bestto raise my children correct and to love them non stop to give them what they need and want, to...
    live2love2laph2always live2love2laph2always
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015
    Tianalovesher Tianalovesher
    18-21, F
    Jun 9, 2015

    I have been battling with myself

    that I need to get better. I have 100 scars all over my body from self harm. Please help me get better. Someone.
    galaxystorm0620 galaxystorm0620
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 8, 2015

    But I guess I HAVE to.

    There is no one else to lean on but myself. All I have I me. KthxBye
    JuanaChange JuanaChange
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2015

    I really wish I was I've had my heart

    and other parts of me emotionally broken and I can't trust any one now. I wish I could fix me
    LeeMcguck LeeMcguck
    13-15, M
    Jun 10, 2015

    But the only thing I want to fix is this

    beautiful soul and love we share.
    meganjEmpress meganjEmpress
    18-21, F
    Jun 9, 2015

    I feel so scared right now.

    i hate this feeling. i feel this way because a storm is coming with tornadoes and i am terrified of them because of associated childhood memories. Memories when my uncle used to tell me that there was a bad tornado coming and he had to "get on top of me" to protect me. As a four...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 26

    I am doing nothing though I realize

    that finals are soon. I wish I accomplish many things in one day, work hard and feel satisfied. I am waiting for a motivation. How can I change my boring life routine? I wanna feel enthusiastic to do things which benefits me!
    tota12 tota12
    22-25, F
    Apr 12, 2015
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