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I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 117 People

    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence 22-25, F 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6 16-17 Apr 28, 2012

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    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    monotony. every aspect of my "life" is wrong

    and between each thing that goes wrongs which has to be dealt with and recovered from is monotony.
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

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    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    I saw this caption type thing today about a girl who killed herself recently and the whole thing was just saying how everyone is too late and how no one speaks up and asks if...
    yoursecretlifestylee yoursecretlifestylee 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Another morning here and another day in an empty bed. Laying here wishing someone would curl up with me or hear someone say good morning. I just hate being alone.
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M Mar 6

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    weight was an issue but not anymore. I just sip tea and watch the weight shed away. you tired of being overweight? I have what you need. its all Natural Tea. www.iasotea.com...
    leotaleota57 leotaleota57 41-45, M Mar 12

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    I'm paying for it. I should get to choose whether or not I attend. I mean, it's my loss, right? A professor of mine once said, "College is the only thing I know of for which...
    quirkygirl520 quirkygirl520 22-25, F Mar 4

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    recently, i've been ridiculed about being black. i've had stereotypes placed on me, i've been called the n-word, and some people of other races get shocked when they find out i'm...
    hashiba hashiba 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 13

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    As long as you're healthy, I don't care how much or little you weigh. People who say that you can only be pretty by being skinny are stupid. People who say real women have curves...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I can't be with people, I know it's wrong but their mistakes and choices **** me off and I can't deal with it
    Sadfate Sadfate 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    It's been months and it feels like forever. I miss your voice. I miss your laugh. I want to touch you. I want to smell you.
    Some1umayNo Some1umayNo 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 3

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    I ssem to be getting better as i get older
    pauly673 pauly673 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 8

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    Research proves it. But family swears i aint adopted.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M a week ago

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    I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, this is my first post. Here it goes. It's crazy really, I'm not sure if this is depression or what but I get sick of being...
    anontori32 anontori32 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    my kids, hubby, would be much better off if I wasn't here.
    DanaDane84 DanaDane84 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I'm 23 and have dealt with suicidal ideations on and off since I was 17. No one cares that I wish I was dead and they keep just telling me I should stay alive without giving me any...
    GirlieSwirl GirlieSwirl 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I don't have any friends and don't know how to make any. I feel pretty pathetic being 24 with not one friend to even hang out with or just say hey to and feel like I'm cared about...
    ktr4790 ktr4790 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I wanted to share my story about my relationship with my ex-boyfriend, I'll call him Mark. We met at university, we were in the same friendship group. Mark was the shy, nerdy...
    drakewood drakewood 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So I'm going to come off as spoiled kid but I don't care because I need to know if what happened was normal. My day started normal as usual and I had no troubles at all except for...
    A20s A20s 22-25, F 8 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I've always been a play by the book sort and follow the rules sort ( eye roll) you know a so called good girl .....school marriage babies that's what I was shooting for ... Came...
    Prettibrowngirl Prettibrowngirl 70+, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Well..there's so much stuff in my mind that I want to say at once, but I suppose I've got to start somewhere. Compared to my peers, I suppose I could be called 'lucky' for having...
    ratsio ratsio 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    I guess I still love her in a way. I need to learn not to think of her when i am in a vulnerable position. I have tried to fix my relationship with mom since I left home in 2007...
    Theaudienceofdeath Theaudienceofdeath 70+, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    This life wow! I just don't know what I feel anymore. I just know I'm tired. I have these dreams of driving through the country air. Fresh and beautiful trees. Green pretty grass...
    ptsdlady ptsdlady 26-30, F Mar 18

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    I am so lonely. I've always been lonely, but I don't think I've ever been as much as I am now. I love being alone, but it's because I can't be left alone that it makes me feel...
    BlueRio BlueRio 18-21, F Mar 2

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    I draw, that is my talent. I draw whenever I have free time. I learned how to multitask so that I could just draw anytime. I also bring my Sketchpad anywhere we go, It calms me...
    ZairinChan ZairinChan 13-15 Mar 7

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    I don't have any real friends, I mean, I have some friends over every once in a blue moon but we normally just watch movies and hang out then I drive them home, very boring life I...
    Apollymi357 Apollymi357 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I've been in love for 10 years... With an unreachable angel. When I realized my true love orientation I really felt weird. Asexual panromantic and poly romantic. I suffer this...
    Becca92mx Becca92mx 22-25, T Mar 18

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    You know, part of me wonders why I am so damned infatuated with you. You are so very intruiging, yet I've only known you for 4 months. Part of that time we barely even spoke. But I...
    EtherealAmethyst EtherealAmethyst 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Especially when these people are close to you, be it friends, or in-laws. In my case its the ol' bad in-law story. I've fallen in love with a very good man and he's in love with me...
    Msprissy Msprissy 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    My boyfriend was being cranky so I threatened to drive to San Dieago (from la). He of course became more passively cranky and was like "well I'm not paying for gas or a hotel when...
    Fidge3 Fidge3 22-25, F a week ago

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    My whole life I was constantly in a state of (like a heart monitor) flatline. Between my family going through daily fights, abuse from my now ex boyfriend and alcohol. It was...
    AllyLauren AllyLauren 16-17, F a week ago

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    I have recently found myself in a place where I don’t know anymore. I constantly feel like a failure. I feel like I can’t do anything right. I mess up everything. I can’t...
    Hindercat Hindercat 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    I wish... That I was a genius That I didn't cut my hair That I never switched schools in 8th grade That my family didn't move That I didn't have a cleft lip and palate That I...
    blindedbylogic blindedbylogic 16-17 1 Response Mar 2

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    I've been with my boyfriend for a few months, however he's been my best friend for over a year. We've always been very close, and I thought we were completely open with each other...
    wednesdayy wednesdayy 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    High school wasn't perfect for me, but the one thing that makes me miss it is the fact that I used to have friends. I would see them every day, we'd talk/text all the time, and we...
    eforempathy eforempathy 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    Many girls are beautiful I'm sure it's a great life to never have to question what your worth. I always feel like I have to fight for my confidence. It is very draining. I wish I...
    theolecarpenter theolecarpenter 18-21, M Mar 9

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