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I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

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    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence 22-25, F May 12, 2013

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    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

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    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6 16-17 Apr 28, 2012

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    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    I feel I must give you a little back story. My sister is about 4 years younger than me and has always had a bit of a competitive side. I guess I was never paying much attention to...
    Trinitey779 Trinitey779 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Tonight I wish you were here with me... You don't know how thankful I am because I met you. ❤️
    VirgoGal1106 VirgoGal1106 26-30, F Sep 19

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    It's been just over 24hrs since the anaesthetic wore off, and my stitches are pulling under the heavy bandaging. Theatre surgeons freak me out, I don't know if it's their blue...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F Sep 19

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    One of the most unattractive qualities in people is being too selfish and self absorbed to understand others or see things from a more objective and realistic perspective. Being so...
    shannonymous shannonymous 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    Something just occurred to me. I had thought to ask a question, something along the lines of "Do you like to consider yourself evil? If so, why?" Then it occurred to me that anyone...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I'm feeling really lonely again. This isn't unusual for me though. I always feel like this. I haven't seen my love interest in about two days. I haven't talked to him either. I...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F Sep 4

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    It's really sad because when your little, you think the world is a wonderful place, where nothing bad can happen to you and everyone will show you kindness. Almost everything...
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 6

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    On this website. I feel like the consistent spam from sexual posts really distracts people and takes so much away from meaningful discussion and conversation. Then again I don't...
    HeyIThappens HeyIThappens 18-21 14 hrs ago

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    So here's the update on my drab love life. I've been crushing on this guy for over a year, but we hardly ever talk, which makes me look insane to still have feelings for him even...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 9

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    To give me a birthday kiss and a hug. But he mostly likely isn't thinking about me so shy should I be thinking about him....right ?
    DessyLove DessyLove 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    But I don't know you. But I really like you. So what am I supposed to do?
    LadyWhatever LadyWhatever 18-21, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I don't know about sexy, but why worry about getting older it's not as if you can slam the breaks on and stop it. My recommendation grow old disgracefully and have fun.
    Wheels64 Wheels64 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    Yea! The "you know who" ruined everything!
    LilHltler LilHltler 13-15, M Sep 5

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    Evils of the real world, let the game begin...
    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F Sep 5

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    i workout namely yoga , pilates , cardio , and weights,have been doing this for 2 to 3 years now if i ever missed a day i would do it twice as much the next day ,i have had muscle...
    chethan92 chethan92 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I really need someone to be with me right now ...
    nicky85 nicky85 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    Today is one of those days where I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out...where no one can see me...
    kleopard88 kleopard88 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 8

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    Someone to care about me. Not the friend/fanily care that is obligated. The kind of care a guy gives a girl. Helping her when shes sad. Cuddling her when shes cold. Anything and...
    Dontlookbackk Dontlookbackk 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    But they cant be. They dont exist. Modern society warped the chance. Because deadlines and quotas do that. And are made so that a small few profit. While suffering...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I woke up like dis. I woke up like dis. Flawless.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 2

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    Well I reached a point in my life where I felt unloved and not touched so in turn I did not feel sexy. Now I am feeling good about me ,,, at last!!!
    saxappeal saxappeal 46-50, F 8 Responses Sep 3

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    It did save me, years ago. I'd die without it
    HisDaysAreNumbered HisDaysAreNumbered 18-21, M Sep 18

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    Music has saved my life on multiple occasions
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F Sep 19

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    Not too worried about aging because I looked at my mother and saw a reflection of beauty..
    NightMagic367 NightMagic367 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    I am just so drained. The feeling of "not being good enough" strikes again and it's killing me. Im losing my motivation. Can anyone help me get back on track?
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    People tell me that my looks have improved with age. I sound like a vintage wine. Wow!.................. :)
    ItsOnlyAPaperMoon ItsOnlyAPaperMoon 46-50, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    I recently had a fight with a close friend and now she hates me and all the people I knew that knew here hate me now. I am often alone and now my friends who don't even know her...
    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 17

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    Last night was tumultuous. I can't drive quite yet, and I was going to a cafe to meet up with some of my dearest friends whom I hadn't seen in a very long time. I felt as though I...
    Em518 Em518 13-15, F Sep 6

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    I lost my Dad when I was four so yea....I have a had a lot of time to think about his death, fathers, him and well, everything. I was four and although I was in the room right...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 13

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    A lie I tell myself:I'll forget I loved you a someday. Because the memory will become faint. And the feelings will dissipate. And the thought of you won't make me hurt anymore.And...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Sep 16

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    I'm 19. Last week, I lost my virginity. It wasn't amazing. There wasn't "sparks", it was not like the movies. He wasn't even my boyfriend, he was just a work friend (he's 21...
    Geegee14 Geegee14 18-21, F 16 Responses 5 days ago

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    In this weird way, I find it hilarious. Maybe its just the situation surrounding it, and my coping mechanism? Who knows... But, I moved out it August... I had to. I had originally...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Sep 14

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    Lies, Lies, and more Lies. I got out of a relationship at the beginning of August. I was in it since March, but the guy said he wasn't happy the last two months we were together...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 6 Responses Sep 16

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    I'm getting so fat now, when I was 12 I was soo skinny, but then my older sister, who was quite fat wanted me to start eating a lot more to put weight on...then within two years I...
    fatgirl96 fatgirl96 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 9

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    I miss you so much most nights I can't breathe. The weirdest things make me cry. A song. A T-shirt. I see a face in a crowd and for a second it's yours before morphing into a...
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F Sep 13

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    In summer 2012, I moved to a new country with my family. I was looking forward to starting school and meeting new people. I was very social and not shy at all. First day of school...
    Meghan00 Meghan00 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2

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    my childhood.i was watching local videos today about politicsand I started thinking about my elementary schools zoning policies and how they used to be trying to shut my side of...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M a week ago

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    My partner of 4 years broke up with me a week ago. We were planning to be married next year. We are originally from India but currently live in the US. When I first met him, I was...
    mkist mkist 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    My father was a big man. And he used his size effectively. I remember him as cold, domineering, unapproachable. Even after I had a family of my own, I was still intimidated by him...
    Lannes Lannes 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 19

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    I see the last post here wasn't since June, but here I am, anyway. I figure this is at least closer to doing my homework than responding to random threads and surfing EP. So...I...
    rollingdoro rollingdoro 22-25, F a week ago