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I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 106 People

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    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6 16-17 Apr 28, 2012

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    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

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    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence 22-25, F May 12, 2013

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    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I feel I must give you a little back story. My sister is about 4 years younger than me and has always had a bit of a competitive side. I guess I was never paying much attention to...
    Trinitey779 Trinitey779 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    We met four years ago, life wasn't too grateful to me. We met at a football game and he cared enough to search me and find me on Facebook. If he hadn't messaged me and started...
    xoarmyfiancexo xoarmyfiancexo 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    It gives someone permission to break your heart. I've been broken by my own family. I don't need it anymore. Being in love is a gift and a curse. I'm just afraid I'm going to be...
    lexrae lexrae 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I just want to feel happy for once,I feel so alone and worthless. It sounds clichéd but I'm beyond lonely. I wish I had a soulmate but I know I don't 😰
    Naggi12 Naggi12 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    On this website. I feel like the consistent spam from sexual posts really distracts people and takes so much away from meaningful discussion and conversation. Then again I don't...
    HeyIThappens HeyIThappens 18-21 Sep 30

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    But I don't know you. But I really like you. So what am I supposed to do?
    LadyWhatever LadyWhatever 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    Just got back from homecoming and lets just say it was boring and very depressing. Don't want to go to another dance again.
    Dontlookbackk Dontlookbackk 16-17, F Oct 5

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    I get very shy and awkward when it's time to speak my mind and it's a huge hindrance..
    unsociablex unsociablex 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    i workout namely yoga , pilates , cardio , and weights,have been doing this for 2 to 3 years now if i ever missed a day i would do it twice as much the next day ,i have had muscle...
    chethan92 chethan92 22-25, M Sep 26

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    I'm attracted to crazy. The intensity is amazing, but the end is always such an f'ing catastrophe. Not that I'm judging. I'm just as crazy.
    rsgalindo01 rsgalindo01 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Being lonely feels like you're the last one on earth because their was a time you use to have friends who seemed to cared how you were doing. Than everything changes and it makes...
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 22-25, M 12 hrs ago

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    Someone to care about me. Not the friend/fanily care that is obligated. The kind of care a guy gives a girl. Helping her when shes sad. Cuddling her when shes cold. Anything and...
    Dontlookbackk Dontlookbackk 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    But they cant be. They dont exist. Modern society warped the chance. Because deadlines and quotas do that. And are made so that a small few profit. While suffering...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 29

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    JenZ10 JenZ10 18-21, F Oct 2

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    i bet you do!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Not too worried about aging because I looked at my mother and saw a reflection of beauty..
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    I am just so drained. The feeling of "not being good enough" strikes again and it's killing me. Im losing my motivation. Can anyone help me get back on track?
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    People tell me that my looks have improved with age. I sound like a vintage wine. Wow!.................. :)
    ItsOnlyAPaperMoon ItsOnlyAPaperMoon 46-50, F 6 Responses Sep 28

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    I just **** myself (; it felt so good,but I feel ashamed of myself );
    swaged123 swaged123 70+, M 1 Response Oct 10

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    Just **** myself on purpose and ive been sitting in it for like 10 minutes
    swaged123 swaged123 70+, M 6 days ago

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    My friend of 20 years got married today. I knew it was going to be a small family affair....but thanks to facebook I am HEARTBROKEN at the pictures posted of the day. Is our...
    TearsWW TearsWW 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've battled with depression, anxiety and borderline personality disorder since a little after puberty began. My life as a teenager wasn't all great but wasn't all bad. In these...
    rachelbarnett96 rachelbarnett96 18-21 1 Response Oct 6

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    I have written about my dad and my step mother on here, and now I feel like I should start writing about my mother. The ***** that caused all my problems. She was 17 when I was...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F Oct 11

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    Is timing everything is a relationship? I think it is in my case. D: I met my friend back in March after a few months of hanging out and texting. He confessed he had feelings for...
    Idreamtowaketofindthefate Idreamtowaketofindthefate 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I can't do it anymore. I wanted to be strong. I don't want to guilt him. I didn't guilt him last time. He came back on his own. I only left him two messages, neither pressuring nor...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 3

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    I got my first hallucination while driving. I always feared having a hallucination while driving because that could severely impact my driving. I felt even worse about...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm 19. Last week, I lost my virginity. It wasn't amazing. There wasn't "sparks", it was not like the movies. He wasn't even my boyfriend, he was just a work friend (he's 21...
    Geegee14 Geegee14 18-21, F 16 Responses Sep 26

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    i wish i could be happy, smile all the time, have that perfect fairy tale of a life, be able to be ME most of all..... i hate having to pretend like i'm someone else in a messed up...
    BumpsInTheRoad BumpsInTheRoad 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    my childhood.i was watching local videos today about politicsand I started thinking about my elementary schools zoning policies and how they used to be trying to shut my side of...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M Sep 23

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    I see the last post here wasn't since June, but here I am, anyway. I figure this is at least closer to doing my homework than responding to random threads and surfing EP. So...I...
    PerspectiveDetective PerspectiveDetective 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    It sucks, it sucks being a bi-sexual. Sometimes I wish I was normal, when I say normal I mean " Straight " . I wish I could share out everything that I'm feeling deep inside to...
    HopelesslyLove HopelesslyLove 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I'm not unhappy, but I'm not happy either. I don't want to kill myself, and I look forward to a potential future, but I just feel like my life won't turn out the way I want it to...
    minnielong minnielong 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    I wish I was dead everyday of my life. I have had suicidal thoughts and tendencies since I was 11 years old. My parents divorced when I was 1 year old. Ever since I could remember...
    Meatball20 Meatball20 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I'm dating a guy who doesn't think certain things are important. I've never received flowers from a guy. I've dated this man for a year and he can't spend five dollars on me. When...
    NotaDisneyPrincess NotaDisneyPrincess 18-21, F Oct 7

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    Sooo my dilemma is a very frustrating one ... This story has years of history behind it but I'm not writing a book so long story short I have been livid with my mother for over a...
    denisestephanie denisestephanie 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    just thinking about this puts so much anger back into my soul.... you're going to think I'm the biggest idiot after reading this,but here goes.... I was fifteen years old. He was...
    jaycer jaycer 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    I wish I could If only I could My only thoughts are of you Constantly of you Nothing but you Wishing you were here With me as of now Waiting for something.. That's not going to...
    Roimata Roimata 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I just realized I don't even know how to forgive someone that hurt me (and this someone doesn't even care that she screwed with me forever). I wish I did, because this is holding...
    cursedswan cursedswan 26-30, F Oct 7

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    If I could just be happy being the man that provides a good life for my wife and daughters... That would be incredible! I SO wish I wasn't me, emotionally... I'm tall, strong and...
    Christinamarie3095 Christinamarie3095 41-45, T Oct 10

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    I have a younger brother! But sometimes I wish I wasn't the oldest :)
    papercastles papercastles 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago