I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 132 People

    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2011

    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 2, 2012

    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6
    16-17
    Apr 28, 2012

    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 12, 2013

    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696
    16-17, M
    6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

    I am just so tired.. So weary of the world.

    ..I don't want anything from this world... I just want to leave this world... I know I am young but I feel old... Like I have already lived my life... Even at a young age I wanted to escape and just want to leave the planet... It's not that I don't belong here.. Or maybe it is...
    Inhlex077 Inhlex077
    22-25
    Nov 4, 2015

    AND

    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather
    61-65, M
    3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

    monotony. every aspect of my "life" is wrong

    and between each thing that goes wrongs which has to be dealt with and recovered from is monotony.
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2015

    Related Experiences

    Well, it's been a lovely time floating through Experience Project. I'd like to thank my few friends, the intelligent peeps, the fakers, the short-tempered, the perverts, etc. You...
    SlipperyHawk SlipperyHawk
    13-15, M
    Apr 21
    I will miss EP. Thankfully I am lucky enough to have met a few people I will never forget and especially a special someone here. We are together today and having a wonderful time...
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    So I will just say see you soon ep. I made a lot of good friends on here. They have helped me get thru one the hardest times of my life. Might never have made it out of the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 21
    I I love her but she didn't love me back. I think of her consistently and not just when I'm lonely, even when I'm busy midday. I try my best to stop or hinder how I feel, but I can...
    LostHaze LostHaze
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Oh no! I just found out about this site today, and it's closing down tomorrow...this really sucks.
    helloitssme helloitssme
    16-17, F
    Apr 20
    fitting my last Ep note would be to someone who brought me here. it would be ironic if you were here the whole time but i didnt know. Brandie.....my green eyed angel. you will...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    I want to delete all my memories of the people I love.. They're gone but their memories haunt me every minute. Even in my sleep, I am plagued with nightmares. My mind feels like it...
    IAmDaenerysTargaryen IAmDaenerysTargaryen
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    This morning I woke up, and as usual, as soon as I am showered I check EP. So now I am sitting here, checking EP for the last morning, tonight at 1AM here in Europe EP goes down...
    whoizzupdude whoizzupdude
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Apr 20
    I guess being in a relationship wasn't in the cards for me to begin with. Just more of a fantasy and a never ending hope that isn't going to come true. I've never been on a date or...
    MysteriousRose MysteriousRose
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    I am a 15 year old girl with two almost divorced parents. I am so sad and I have been so depressed during the past two weeks I didn't know what to do. Seeing my mom hurting and...
    wondur wondur
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    Simple and sincere language. I wish more people would listen to a song like this, because it deserves some ears. The content is not rly that applicable, but I'll set this as a...
    SparkofDecency SparkofDecency
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    All of this, this group and all the stories here, are really impressive... in the most horrible of the possibile ways. What I'm most impressed with are the amount and similarity of...
    TotalVoid TotalVoid
    26-30
    Apr 19
    My only consolation is that I take my best friends with me.
    Loretta78 Loretta78
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 19
    Help me..... I want to disappear. I'm married to someone I don't love to the point that I can't stand being with him..... I'm not happy. I feel depressed. No one want to hear me...
    diniatq diniatq
    22-25, F
    Apr 19
    You came into my life in EP purely by chance. I remember the morning well. Your princess was posting and I could not stop reading about the love she felt for this special man in...
    Lee124 Lee124
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 18
    waiting for the wish to come true...i had made some frnds on here though still I can't talk to them on ny topic..i wish i had few frnds with whom i can hangout sometimes,talk to...
    MysteriousLion MysteriousLion
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    I guess no more being alex... :'((
    TransgenderAlex TransgenderAlex
    13-15, T
    1 Response Apr 18
    I wish i had at least one person i could talk to, who would truly listen. i wish i had someone with whom i could share my thoughts and feelings. I wish i had someone i could tell...
    neitheratomboynoragirlygirl neitheratomboynoragirlygirl
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Apr 17
    I wish I could jump into one of my books and live in that world, I hate it here at this house.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 17
    As good as the likes of Cambridge & Oxford are, the Unis I'm interested in are outside my home of the UK. That's no coincidence. I came here from my birthplace of Australia at the...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    Apr 17
    So sick of people messaging me off other people's phones my friends boyfriend was messaging me off her phone pretending to be her I knew it wasn't her as she never talks like that...
    Kitty79 Kitty79
    36-40
    Apr 17
    I just wanted to write my good-bye before the closing. EP, has helped me up when I've felt down and connected me with caring people. I've made a lot of friends in just over a year...
    Benny412 Benny412
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 16
    I was told by someone close to me that no one will ever care for me or love me more than I will. At first I thought that's not true my family loves me way more that I do. (HA) It...
    miazhane miazhane
    18-21, F
    Apr 16
    It wud never happen to me In the movie "letters to juliet" They talk about a woman married for 25 years having 10 children and still make "passionate love every night". She is...
    hopelesslyromantic hopelesslyromantic
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    I have been feeling that yesterday mostly at the end of the day. I wish I had a friend or a group of people who can make me feel better who can hug me and tell me I'm going to be...
    Blueberrybliss Blueberrybliss
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 15
    In few days this journey will come to end and i cant help myself than smile how my life is still standing still on the same point. Now also i have to be loud to speak my heart.No...
    trappedwings trappedwings
    26-30, F
    Apr 15
    Dear Beloved EP Friends, I know I will see many of you at R2T, or Exp2 in the near future, so this is not good-bye. But we are experiencing an eviction of sorts—a forced...
    WindSylph WindSylph
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Apr 15
    I've been crying my eyes out because in this 2yr relationship I fell in love. I have never loved anyone like that. I didn't care about his background, I didn't care that everyone...
    linzzy linzzy
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 15
    I shower very rarely and I almost never brush my teeth I don't work out I eat junk food and drink soda everyday. I'm overweight and I love my life. I just wish I could find a girl...
    Sabrebel Sabrebel
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 14
    I joined EP in 2013. Obviously, I haven't been around for a long time. Today is my first time using the app. I remember being on this site. I remember the things I wrote, and I...
    milldc milldc
    16-17, F
    Apr 13
    I have met a few people on here, but they always stop replying or logging on. I hear about people meeting their best friend on here, and I haven't even made an acquaintance. I'm...
    143irama 143irama
    13-15, F
    7 Responses Apr 13
    Since EP is closing I'll join experienceagain.com and http://exp2.xyz with the same username as here (Carolina2000) My email: carolinarodrigues2000@yahoo.com
    Carolina2000 Carolina2000
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    Alright. Now how do I deal with this? "Okay. Now stop thinking you're being such a hardworker. Stop thinking and save those thoughts for another day. Okay? Alright. I'm telling...
    SparkofDecency SparkofDecency
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    For the last time...I was not drunk. It's a long story, I was on this website that was supposed to be satirical and tried to convince a group of trolls to leave my favorite...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    Every year, starting this year, on April 21st, in memorial of EP, I'm writing down all my insecurities on my arm. Who's with me?
    HELPTAKENhelpused HELPTAKENhelpused
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 12
    Nine days until ep closes...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 12
    The concept of God with which I was raised is obviously the most familiar to me. This was the christian deity of Yaweh who I was told is omnimax - capable of anything, knowing...
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 12
    Why do I always go through this. You know when you really care about someone and they mean everything to you. Those people who impact your life unexpectedly. I fell in love with...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope
    13-15, F
    Apr 12
    When don't I hate you? I should, I really should. But I don't even now, when I really think about it I should. I should hate you because every time we get "close" we are pushed...
    yalefred yalefred
    22-25, M
    Apr 11
    When don't I hate you? I should, I really should. But I don't even now, when I really think about it I should. I should hate you because every time we get "close" we are pushed...
    yalefred yalefred
    22-25, M
    Apr 11
    I wish my dad's priorities didn't come in this order; Work, himself, social life, family. I wish my dad was a protective father to me. I wish he didn't see my short high school...
    sillysweetgirl9 sillysweetgirl9
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 11
    since it's been a few days since my last update, i may as well post something to let everyone know i'm still alive. i've arrived back in CA, Kaito and i are still engaged. i...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 10
    I feel icky... I feel like I'm hung over and just got off a weekend bender!! Except I didn't even drink on drop of alcohol and much less take anything I wasn't supposed to! I can't...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 10
    Noo no don't close I'll do anything plz this app is my life
    Justaweirdo11 Justaweirdo11
    13-15, F
    Apr 9
    Really Only Dealt With Him When Forced&Now Refuse To Speak To Him At All- my mother was his first and last interracial intercultural relationship and he left our household under a...
    ToBeDiskovered ToBeDiskovered
    22-25, M
    Apr 9
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