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I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 140 People

    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2011

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    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6 16-17 Apr 28, 2012

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    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

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    monotony. every aspect of my "life" is wrong

    and between each thing that goes wrongs which has to be dealt with and recovered from is monotony.
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2015

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    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    I am just so tired.. So weary of the world.

    ..I don't want anything from this world... I just want to leave this world... I know I am young but I feel old... Like I have already lived my life... Even at a young age I wanted to escape and just want to leave the planet... It's not that I don't belong here.. Or maybe it is...
    Inhlex077 Inhlex077 22-25 Nov 4, 2015

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    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    AND

    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence 22-25, F 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I think this group may be the best place to write about this crush that I've been having for what feels like an eternity. And this post will be long and very detailed, so please...
    arcticray arcticray 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    And I hate myself for not being able to let go. Here's the story; I was friends with my ex friend for 4 years and that's all we were. I never wanted to be anything more because...
    awesomefallenangel awesomefallenangel 16-17, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I literally just realized that I don't love me husband anymore. We have two children and have been married 2 years but together for 10, he was 27and i was 19. Our relationship...
    idhaun idhaun 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I love you. I miss you. I need you. I want you. I need to feel your body next to mine. I need to feel your hand in mine. I need to smell your scent. I need to see your face. I need...
    HerTrueKing HerTrueKing 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    This is a true story of what happened to Greg Zaffuto. I have just experienced much the same and do not want this to happen to you, so I am sharing the following. I apologize for...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F 2 days ago

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    I am sick of all the lies from my employer. They decided to give me extra weekend work a few months ago, and I gladly agreed to it. They told me exactly what I had to do, and what...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    How did you find out that santa Claus isn't real?(sorry for any people or little kids who until just now believed in santa Claus) I found out that santa Claus isn't real when I was...
    LittleBroDillion LittleBroDillion 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I've never been able to keep a job for over 2-3 years. I always seem to get ... I don't know what it is ... exacerbated. So I quit. I get fed up. I dislike authority figures...
    dmcac dmcac 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    I love my mom, I really do but something has been bothering. Well, I talked to her recently and the topic went to about her being molested as well as a child by a family member of...
    XcookiexbakerXx XcookiexbakerXx 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    He lead me on. I was so weak at the time and he knew that. He told me he loved me and that he would never leave me. We talked every night until we went to sleep. After hanging out...
    MadisonDaWarrior MadisonDaWarrior 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    It's important to understand where I was at the time. I was married, not happy and yet not unhappy. It's like I wasn't yet awake, a robot maybe. We functioned very much like...
    pearlesque pearlesque 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    You are my aphrodisiac, and Jamaican me high.
    SailorsAngel SailorsAngel 41-45, F Jan 31

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    I am a recovering male anorexic, and I just finished an outpatient treatment program for eating disorders. On the whole, it wasn’t a helpful program. I may be at a healthy weight...
    Caridinals21 Caridinals21 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 31

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    Impossible .. I know But i still wish you are here now..
    nalbyan nalbyan 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    When my children were toddlers, I did a year with a Baptist church that was masquerading as a "Non-Denominational" church. Some of my friends attended this church, so I gave it a...
    Deedle623 Deedle623 51-55, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I have read so many stories about people wanting to die because of personal reasons. Now, i feel the same way too. hoping that it will come soon like a thief in the night. Why...
    darklife101 darklife101 46-50, M Jan 26

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    This man I met in July '15 has basically built a friendship with me that lead to more in October (without commitment). Well I fell in love with him. This issue is, he is mysterious...
    melibear melibear 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 25

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    Hello there people. I just need a place to vent for a bit. Lets start. I have this best girl friend whom i used to flirt with since i was in fifth grade. Now we're already in our...
    Nilanno19 Nilanno19 18-21, F Jan 25

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    I wish you were here I could put my arm around you Making you blush, the way you do I wish I could stare into your eyes More beautiful than any sunrise I wish our lips, could once...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M Jan 25

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    It's really going to happen. I mean really. I have to be perfectly honest. The eastern shore of Maryland is beautiful. It's special. The beaches are spectacular. It's also the most...
    simplysusan01 simplysusan01 46-50, F Jan 24

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    Seriously want to throw my computer into a pit of fire. I thought I had finally fixed my computer, but no as I try to finish my class assignment what happens? i get the BSOD again...
    Justeverdayme Justeverdayme 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    I'm tired of not experiencing a relationship. Whats its like to have a girl around and doing everything together. I don't know what its like to have a girlfriend. I was in a...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 24

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    In the middle of my sixth grade year I came out of the closet. Well more or less pushed out by my two best guy friends who knew I was gay. I took me a long time to tell them even...
    funnyfreak01 funnyfreak01 18-21 Jan 24

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    He becomes aggressively abusive more than ever. But i have to thank him, because if he wasn't that abusive, i could never discover that i'm mentally stronger than i think
    Alex1610 Alex1610 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    I can honestly say I wish I had never gotten married. we had our daughter a yr ago, and she has been so lazy for the last year. she sits around and does nothing all day long when...
    idkw2 idkw2 31-35, M 3 Responses Jan 23

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    Why am i so stupid and silly? If i wasn't, I wouldn't get bullied and picked on
    Tigerpop Tigerpop 31-35, F Jan 23

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    I'd like to first start off by saying I'm a 16 year old female that's been having severe family trouble. I just wanted to come on here to vent and ask what I should do because I...
    AwkwardSloth AwkwardSloth 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    ... Sometimes feel my heart is made of ice and black. I can compartmentalize things so well. it been a long time though since I played that game. I built those walls, and no one...
    ProfMeowS ProfMeowS 31-35, F Jan 22

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    so today I was at work and had the proper cliche moment of love at first sight.... properly got chatting found out what she does for work and a little about her and then sadly had...
    wetplayer wetplayer 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I either feel like I have crippling anxiety that will give me a heart attack or I feel bitter and angry. Today I wasn't anxious I went to...
    whatthefox whatthefox 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    Sometimes Precocious Sometimes,...inside the will of misguided determination lies the precociousness of a child, and that child has the strength of a thousand men and persistence...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45 2 Responses Jan 21

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