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I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 121 People

    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence 22-25, F 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6 16-17 Apr 28, 2012

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    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

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    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    AND

    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    monotony. every aspect of my "life" is wrong

    and between each thing that goes wrongs which has to be dealt with and recovered from is monotony.
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    Related Experiences

    I really wish I wasn't. For starters, most of the time I already think a little low of myself at times. So when someone tells me something, it really gets to me, and I start to...
    iAteYourCrayon iAteYourCrayon 13-15, F May 13

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    There are so many mean people in the world! I wish I didn't care about what anyone says! I take every freakin thing to heart and it sucks! I get made fun of all the time! I get my...
    godsloveiseverything90 godsloveiseverything90 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I just don't care. **** it all. I was let go of the best job I ever had because I was developing a mental illness and they didn't want to deal with me anymore. Isn't that called...
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    *sighs *... Wish it WEREN'T so..... And ya'll call yourselves perfectionists. ..... *grins*
    SvveetKiester SvveetKiester 41-45, F 2 Responses May 11

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    It's time for me to make a decision. A decision that will influence my life in a big way. A decision that might cast disapproval and disappointment down upon me, but one that I...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Sometimes we used to look up above and wish that everything was just a dream, that you were just sleeping and that was just a nightmare. But tears were just shed on your pillow...
    EmSandy EmSandy 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    i seriously wish i could talk to her now, sigh. fml
    kragoth135 kragoth135 18-21, M May 8

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    I would say that THIS is the best title that I have come across here on EP. No, I am not getting old soon!
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe 41-45, F 11 Responses 3 days ago

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    Don't hate me cuz I'm beautiful... :-)
    foxness foxness 31-35, F 7 Responses May 7

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    I don't like making things too long, so I guess this should complete the whole plan guide. The calculations in the first photo would not be 100% accurate, so would the ones in pink...
    iTetraZazicII iTetraZazicII 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    People annoy me . Ugh, I quit . So through with errbody . 😤👊😒😒😒
    jhastme jhastme 18-21, F 1 Response 35 mins ago

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    I see all these couples and all their smiling faces and hand holding...But where is mine I mean I try to look nice try to be me but is the real me not enough? I just want someone...
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M Apr 28

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    it was real. He pushing me away. Him having to turn away. All crashing down.
    evolnillef evolnillef 70+, F 1 day ago

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    So basically we got together when I was 18 and he was 22. I was lonely and young and hurting from being recently dumped and he made me feel good. Looking back on it it wasn't that...
    alunna alunna 22-25, F Apr 29

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    Guys I need some help and some advise. Be kind please I'm very fragile. 6 weeks ago my boyfriend and best friend of two years left me. Heartbroken doesn't even begin to cover it...
    Lostnemo Lostnemo 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4

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    It was a Tuesday, I think…maybe a Thursday I can’t remember. At the time, I was content with where I was in life. Single…healthy, happy, no debt, free to live life as I chose...
    1StateAway 1StateAway 36-40, M 4 Responses May 5

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    I'm a 20 year old girl who has experienced some really strange things and can't keep it all to myself anymore. I'm hoping that coming here and letting these things out will...
    stars34 stars34 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I used to have a great relationship with this girl. We had just started talking but there was no romance just fun. We then started developing feelings for each other and I she was...
    Jeenyu Jeenyu 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    Soo one of my friends on here got reported because she wasn't her actual age. Shes not coming back which is sad. she had good stories and she was normal and not here for the dating...
    Mleader1 Mleader1 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    I need to get this off my chest, and since I can't say this to him I will here... Am I a terrible person? This is what I keep asking myself as the thoughts in my mind twist and...
    LonelySnake LonelySnake 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11

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    from time to time when i no longer can control my heart i write here at ep each time i hope she will read it some day after each time i write i wonder why my words cant win her...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 1

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    Whatever else may happen in my life, I know this much is true...that I am blessed beyond measure to have my two beautiful children in my life, and to be able to call myself their...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 14 Responses May 10

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    I wish I was older so I could do things that older people do without stigma. Things like drinking wine, or smoking. Or partying or being able to go out late and having fun. I...
    BenedictJones BenedictJones 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Maybe SOME minors are problems but it's FAR from okay for ******* old *** people to come to MINORS and want to talk about dirty things even AFTER the age has been revealed. Just...
    CyanideY CyanideY 70+, F 17 hrs ago

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    This is to my love and my friend. I had deleted my account (seems like it takes days to actually do it), but now you have cut off all other channels of communication, so I will...
    ToughEddie ToughEddie 36-40, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    It feels like forever ago since I played high school sports even if it has only be about 5ish years. I was never really one for the high school scene. College was more of my...
    Haywee123 Haywee123 22-25, F Apr 28

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    My parents and I never had a very close relationship. I will admit that it is partially my fault, but it felt it necessary since I was little to put a distance between myself and...
    Marchi Marchi 22-25 May 6

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    I am not feeling well. I was here a couple years ago trying to deal with a break up. Now I'm back with another horror story. This time with a narcissist. A complete jerk. He loves...
    anonymous2015x anonymous2015x 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wish this everyday, every night. I just want to give up. I don't want to be here anymore. I can't be the cause of their pain and heartache. No matter what I do nothing ever fixes...
    JustWantItToWork JustWantItToWork 26-30, F 4 Responses May 9

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    Happy Mothers day to everyone. mothers day is kinda happy and dad for me. one reason being that my mother wasn't a very good mother and she abused me terribly but I am grateful...
    AiymaSnikies AiymaSnikies 22-25, F May 10

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    Someone might as well just k!ll me.... No one likes me... My sisters treat me like crap they team up on me and they're my dad's favorite so it's like I don't exist... I'm ugly I'm...
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 5 Responses May 12

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    Ughhh I just wanna k!ll myself I'm just worthless I shouldn't be here anymore I'm a waste of space I cry everyday all I do is hurt I just don't know why I am here
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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