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I Wish I Wasn't Here Anymore

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    I Wish I Wasn't

    I wish I wasn't,Here no more,Need a change,I know,I'll take a break,Come back refreshed,Wondering,What this was all about.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    Feel Me Deeply

    ever since i was a kid im always alone. i don't mind until now. i tried my best to earn friends but ended up being left alone to suffer. then i said to my self "lets try a different approach". then i act like my self. i felt happy but as time passes i have noticed that everyone...
    Jp696 Jp696 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    Is It Over Yet?

    Life feels like a car ride. And I'm the annoying child that keeps asking "are we there yet? are we there yet?" I just want out.  I'm not going to join this group because then I'll have a happy day and feel silly, which is also why I'm glad there's not a lot of...
    kikis2 kikis2 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    AND

    Where would you rather be?
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    Isolation

    I used to have it all, or so i thought. but then i changed and the people around me changed, and i thought to myself, who would ever want to live in this world so full of pain and despair and sadness? so i drew a line between the people i had once loved and trusted and swore...
    laraj6 laraj6 16-17 Apr 28, 2012

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    I Am...

    Once you get to that point in your life where you know who matters and who doesn't. It just seems blatantly obvious what should happen next. And that is this...
    AloneintheWorld AloneintheWorld 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 2, 2007

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    Came So Close

    I had had moments in my past when I have thought of and even attempted to end things. The earliest was at age 8 or 9. The last was at around age 16. At 16 I was put on effexor for my depression. I stopped taking them because I didn't like the way they made me feel. I just decided...
    mizzT mizzT 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    My Story

    Those of you who have never had to deal with the constant daily struggles and pain of depression have no idea what I am going through on an every day basis, so you have no right to judge. That bit goes for my "family." I am the person nobody wanted to be stuck with in the end. My...
    asisufferinsilence asisufferinsilence 22-25, F May 12, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Tied to the bed...being pleasured in every way imaginable... But I wish it wasn't him...wishing and thinking it was someone else...
    MyLifeIsNow MyLifeIsNow 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    Tre's a food pantry where I live, idk if thats what you call it. But you go in sit down at a table ad the volunteers will bring you salads then your meal then your dessert. They...
    ahurley94 ahurley94 18-21, M Jun 28

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    On a silent night when friends are few, I close my eyes and think of you, a silent night, a silent tear, a silent wish that you were here ....❤️Happy Birthday cupcake🎂I hope...
    endlesslyyyforever endlesslyyyforever 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I have read the books from Crowley. His "Ars Goetia" (which is originally not from him but I come to it later), "Liber al vel legis", "magick" and a few grimoires written in latin...
    OnlyDeadHumansAreGoodHumans OnlyDeadHumansAreGoodHumans 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I didn't grow up in an overly nurturing environment. I was raised in a reasonably practical manner, but wasn't ever given much in the way of physical or emotional comfort. So I'm...
    Avotica Avotica 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Wish you were here with me😩but noooo gotta be on vacation don't yah....and didn't even take me lol😋😜
    XFallingAngelX XFallingAngelX 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    So me and my friend visited Berlin a couple of weeks ago. We went there over the weekend, fri-sat. I had a nice poop on friday before we left (in the toilet:( ) I didn't feel any...
    antebb90 antebb90 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 5

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I wish I could hide my emotions better sometimes or at least be more in control of them..Especially when it comes to certain people,I wish I could show them "I made it!!" "I don't...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    Well mostly everything I post upsets people to the 10th degree even though all I'm trying to do is share my honest concerns. It sure isn't easy being me, but I'm not 1 to complain...
    Sebastianblack Sebastianblack 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I wanna love but I am afraid to be hurt. I am stressed in life. I am lonely. I feel disable with controlling my emotions. I have bad headache. I really wanna be healthy but I don't...
    thelostsongbird thelostsongbird 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I am very naive and I take everything you say at face value. I'm innocent and don't get those innuendos. *wink* I also only understand English and didn't hear what you just called...
    Anonomdeplume Anonomdeplume 18-21, F Jun 28

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    I feel sexier at my current age than I did when I was 20. There's a certain confidence that comes with age. I know what I want, I don't play games and I realize that sexy doesn't...
    pixelita pixelita 36-40, F 8 Responses Jul 3

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    Yup.. not worried at all, since I am all sexy *feels cocky* :P No, actually it is not about being sexy, I just think that I look younger than my age anyway, so it will take longer...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    This man, I was blinded by love. After he turned me down and he chose the other lady with big breasts I was angry. 6 months later on the train I saw a man in the distance. He...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F Jul 6

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    I can't live without music. Life for me without music would be a rough life.Music is truly the only thing that keeps me going when I'm in hard times.When I'm depressed I listen to...
    GingerSlimSTL GingerSlimSTL 13-15, M Jul 8

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    i was way into my own head and planning the future to not think that everything could go wrong. if i knew what i know now i would have told myself that everything wasnt going to...
    3amthinker 3amthinker 18-21, F Jun 25

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    Really? Well, yes to the first part, i am a perfectionist and my own worst critic... but i am not sure, i know people say perfectionism is barrier to progress, but i do not find...
    yulico yulico 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 25

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    I cry way too much. If something upsets me, If I'm angry, If I'm sad, If I'm lonely. I cry a lot over myself, because I have major self esteem issues, and I cry when I lose a...
    weby667 weby667 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My mom was too lazy to wrap my presents and Santa's with different wrapping paper haha.
    Cleanandclear Cleanandclear 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    Lol.. I get sexier the older I become.. I DO miss that 20 year old *** I used to have!!
    lillyclaire lillyclaire 41-45, F 12 Responses Jun 30

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    I was finishing work when the urge to poop came upon me. I wanted to get out of there so I held it in and headed to the car. Big mistake. The drive home is about 40 minutes but...
    sstarkey01 sstarkey01 46-50 2 Responses Jul 3

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    well I am sick of my so called coworkers backstabbing jackasses. I happy that they are understaffed today. It serves them right for the BS I have put up with the last month. I want...
    catch77 catch77 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Omg yes I'm done,this 1 experience sums me up completely
    greatinbedchick greatinbedchick 16-17, F Jul 8

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    I'm young and learning. Anyone got any advice?
    shaunrain shaunrain 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    I know he/they all have talked to me online before about my 'issues' but it seems to go nowhere. I just need to find more things to do otherwise I'm an empty shell.
    Yleng Yleng 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I wish I didn't exist, that I had never existed. Before I go to sleep at night, l wish and pray for it. I fantasise about it. I close my eyes and picture a darkness, not of evil...
    glassprison glassprison 31-35, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    Hi guys! Ok, so long story short.. Its been a while since I've realised I was emotionally unavailable coz of my past, found someone who made me realise the emotional waves of...
    Trainedheart Trainedheart 26-30, F 1 Response 55 mins ago

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    I am in love. He loves me and he loves her. This would be fine, if she wasn't his long ago ex and still in love with him too...and she didn't mentally abuse him. I am completely...
    TheWomanWhoDid TheWomanWhoDid 36-40 11 hrs ago

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    I wish I wasn't always feeling like someone less than equal. I wish I was out of the relationship I am in now, and in a relationship with a person who could love me for me. When I...
    Momma1985 Momma1985 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    After 7 years of being in a relationship and living together for the past year, my boyfriend and I ended our relationship and cut all contact. About a month ago there was an...
    beachbum18 beachbum18 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I have a family but I'm not apart of my family...... Well anyways when I was younger I have had only one family member in my life my cousin but then one day he tells me Your not...
    christinababy23 christinababy23 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    This is absolutely 100% true. Nothing made up. A little long but I'd love to hear your opinion. I don't speak to my parents anymore. My mom and dad are broke, they did not manage...
    Hallowes27 Hallowes27 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I ran across this quote/poem the other day: "I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between...
    laurisilva laurisilva 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    This is absolutely 100% true. Nothing made up. A little long but I'd love to hear your opinion. I don't speak to my parents anymore. My mom and dad are broke, they did not manage...
    Hallowes27 Hallowes27 36-40, F Jul 1

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    Do you ever feel like the relationship is destined to fail? I've been seeing this guy for a little over a year now and we've had some issues. He's not that affectionate towards me...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 14

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    She was a wonderful mother. I will not lie and say she mistreated me,though she had every right to. My birth came as a result of her rape by a White man(she's Korean) and I was...
    DoonJi DoonJi 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 4

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    To Jenni and others: I have been an EP member for a long time now and have met so many ...some amazing, some not so amazing. Several have really come to mean a lot to me...
    Whym Whym 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 9

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    I'm 24 and the oldest of 3 girls. I'm in that age where people think I should be at the peak of my life, they say I should already have a stable job, so that I can help my family...
    gehanalyanna gehanalyanna 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13