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I Wish I Wasn't Me

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    I wish I wasn't me. I am told I am a great person, I am so sweet, I am an awesome friend but why do I feel like I don't really have any friends? Why can't I have people in my life who actually want to be my friend, a true friend who is there for me just as much as I am there for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 1, 2012

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    Can't be done I'm afraid. These are the things you have to live with. But yes. Lots and lots of things I wish hadn't happened. And some I wish did!
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