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I Wish I Wasn't So Depressing

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    Dear Negativity,

    ...How I loathe you.   My friends have their issues, yes. I clearly have mine, which seemingly stem from nothing but being introverted and having self-esteem issues.  But, regardless, I am sick of it.  I am sick of being the negative person in a group, and...
    unknown311 unknown311 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    Negative

    I always feel like I'm really really negative. I always feel like I'm bringing up sad depressing stuff. But I can't help it, I don't know why. Its like all I want to talk about is sad stuff.
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 3, 2011

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    I Don Worry Anymore...''colors In The Dark''

    i was thinking somethin yesterday bout the colors in the dark....imagine u r in a dark place but somewhere in the room there r paints...u think ''whats the point now using paints in a dark place?''but then what happens if u do try get those paints n when u find them u try start...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 21 Responses Feb 4, 2011

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    I Wish I Wasn't...

    I wish I wasn't so damn depressing. I wish I could smile, and actually have it mean something other than trying to fool everyone in to thinking that I am okay, and have them not worry about them. I wish I didn't deal with the terrible thoughts that I deal with from day...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 23, 2009

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    I Ruin Everybody's Day.

    At school I always find everything terrible. I'm sad and mad at how everybody's so happy and I'm just there, hating myself and being self conscious. I want to stop, but I can't help it. I ruin my friends days with just being with them. I always look sad or mad and I can tell my...
    AnonymousChika AnonymousChika 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    This Is Not On Purpose!

    I would sell my soul just to have one good thing constantly going for me. I would trade all of my problems and disappointments for money, even if it meant me being alone forever. I'd rather be dead than be depressing. But, I can't pretend to be happy. I would trade my...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 3 Responses Aug 27, 2011

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    I Just Want It To Stop

    I hate it.I hate being so depressed all the time. I hate the feeling that comes when I realise that I'm crying every single day. Every single night I cry myself to sleep for no obvious reason. Anything can make me cry. Especially songs and my friends. Because they are people I...
    shadyca shadyca 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 24, 2010

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    I'm Sorry

    But sometimes I just feel like I kill the mood of happiness around me.  I wish I could cheer up a little when I'm with my friends but sometimes I'm in one of those moods.  I just feel like such a downer sometimes.  I wish I didn't because I used to be the happiest...
    DreamingOutLoud DreamingOutLoud 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    I sat around waiting

    for change,... And I did nothing about it
    djdas16 djdas16 16-17, M Nov 16, 2014

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    Hidden in a corner, Everything is dark.

    I see the world around me, But never taking part. My friends just overlook it, I don't think they can see, The thing inside, That is killing me. It tears at my heart and soul, Eating me alive. Sometimes I'm just wishing, That I could just die. I want someone...
    SexyLez101 SexyLez101 13-15, F Feb 21, 2014

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    I Think I'm Just....

    Boring as hell to be around.
    concreteardrop concreteardrop 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2011

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    I Loathe Being A Downer.

    The majority of the time I'm content with my life. Sure, there're things I'd like to work on changing, but I never let it get to me all that much. I've been in a slump of sorts lately, however, and fear that in being down so much that I'm pulling those I love down as well. I don...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    I Definitely Have My Days...

    I'm not always depressing. You'll see that if you read my stories. Some of them are light-hearted, fun, and maybe even child-like. But right along with that light-hearted, playful side, there is also a dark, morbid, grotesque side. I guess if you take into account my...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 21, 2012

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    I Don't Like to Complain...

    I figured since I found this site, it was a great opportunity for me to vent and release all of the pent up frustration I've been feeling for years. Unfortunately, in doing so, I run the risk of sounding overly whiny and depressing to others. This really isn't intentional and I...
    EnigmaVest EnigmaVest 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Help

    my uncle died last year of lukemia im never happy any more he was my best friend in the whole world we did every thing
    jesusfreakjr jesusfreakjr 16-17, F Jan 25, 2010

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    ....

    I want to be the carefree person that I once was and for you all to see me always happy.  I don't mean to bring anyone down and I may go away for a while so that I don't continually bring you down but you have to understand for me this place is almost...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 23 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Depressed

    as long as i can remember ive always felt depressed and alone. i feel like ive drove everyone away through my depression. my relation ship has broke down after13yrs and he said i was never any fun and now i just cant handle it feeling like this. its the worst i felt ever. i'd end...
    longridge longridge 36-40, F May 10, 2011

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    I'm pretty young and most teenagers say they don't like their mom because they didn't buy them a new phone or any little reason like that. I don't like my mom because she is the...
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    I hate this. I hate my race even still exists. Everyone hates us. We even hate ourselves. Why did I have to be born into one of the slave races??? We ARE inferior I don't even have...
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    I'm a 26 year old male coming up on 27. It seems like everyone else is able to find someone except me. I feel like some of them just had it fall into their lap. I couldn't find it...
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    Mostly I find that this is because women don't genrally like me when they meet me. Unless (and this is not everyone) they're interested in a date. I don't know what it is about me...
    N0VERA N0VERA 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I wish I wasn't alive... People hate me... My family hates me... Why am I even here..
    ShantelH ShantelH 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I remember in grade school hearing about how everyone over the internet are dangerous. Of course, that's not true at all, but I eventually became too carefree and that really...
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    It's so hard. Guys are not what they say they are. The dates can go well. Once they dating you & hanging out with they're guys. They start changing. It's a whole different person...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 10 Responses 3 days ago

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    Things would be much simpler if I wasn't addicted to iv meth...
    Tstanley86 Tstanley86 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    My boyfriend is a second generation Indian. I have been with him for almost 8 years, but I haven't found much acceptance from his family members. I don't hate Indians, I just hate...
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    When I heard my first love story…I had this idea of what emotions would course through me. The excitement, overflowing joy…I wondered what it would be like and many times...
    1unusualLass 1unusualLass 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    i took care of my mom when she got very ill with Pancreatic cancer. i pretty much watch her slowly die. when she dies . i was relieved. she wasn't in pain anymore. the look of...
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    I've always had a problem with my dad. I never felt like I was living up to my sister or being the kid he wanted. He pushed me to join sports but I had no interest in them. He made...
    emaseraptor emaseraptor 18-21, F a week ago

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    It is going to be 100 degrees the rest of this week so I just want to take off my shirt and relax in the sun and swim. I love to float in the ocean but I wish I wasn't so shy...
    2tails 2tails 13-15, M a week ago

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    Soooooo,Hmm(clearing throat) I met a woman in college in 2009 after a breakup with another woman that just up and left me with these words ''Later on in life you'll see that it...
    SchizoEffective6 SchizoEffective6 36-40, M a week ago

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    My affair ended one sidedly by him! He got transferred back to his country...to his wife and kid for good! Yes! He is married too! When I found out, my heart shattered and I wouldn...
    Wynee Wynee 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    ElvisPrickly ElvisPrickly 51-55, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    I wish society wasn't so cruel and stupid. All the pain, hate, and corruption in the world is caused by other people. We as society make people homeless, kill each other, use each...
    Waqasauce01 Waqasauce01 18-21, M Jun 22

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    I just joined SpecialPeoples, a community of humans with extreme passion, condition, or behavior. I get rewarded for sharing my opinions with businesses and governments that are...
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    It was the first day of high school and I went into my 6th period Biology class already dreading the year I would have to spend in that stupid science class. I sat down in my...
    MargoRoth MargoRoth 13-15, F Jun 21

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    I used to be friends with this female. We had our fun as we were still in our teens but I was young, naive, and innocent. I let her walk all over me. So when I grew up and grew a...
    taminglife taminglife 22-25, F Jun 21

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