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I Wish I Wasn't So Depressing

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    Hidden in a corner, Everything is dark.

    I see the world around me, But never taking part. My friends just overlook it, I don't think they can see, The thing inside, That is killing me. It tears at my heart and soul, Eating me alive. Sometimes I'm just wishing, That I could just die. I want someone...
    SexyLez101 SexyLez101 13-15, F Feb 21, 2014

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    I'm Sorry

    But sometimes I just feel like I kill the mood of happiness around me.  I wish I could cheer up a little when I'm with my friends but sometimes I'm in one of those moods.  I just feel like such a downer sometimes.  I wish I didn't because I used to be the happiest...
    DreamingOutLoud DreamingOutLoud 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    ....

    I want to be the carefree person that I once was and for you all to see me always happy.  I don't mean to bring anyone down and I may go away for a while so that I don't continually bring you down but you have to understand for me this place is almost...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 23 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Help

    my uncle died last year of lukemia im never happy any more he was my best friend in the whole world we did every thing
    jesusfreakjr jesusfreakjr 16-17, F Jan 25, 2010

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    I Don Worry Anymore...''colors In The Dark''

    i was thinking somethin yesterday bout the colors in the dark....imagine u r in a dark place but somewhere in the room there r paints...u think ''whats the point now using paints in a dark place?''but then what happens if u do try get those paints n when u find them u try start...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 21 Responses Feb 4, 2011

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    I Just Want It To Stop

    I hate it.I hate being so depressed all the time. I hate the feeling that comes when I realise that I'm crying every single day. Every single night I cry myself to sleep for no obvious reason. Anything can make me cry. Especially songs and my friends. Because they are people I...
    shadyca shadyca 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24, 2010

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    Negative

    I always feel like I'm really really negative. I always feel like I'm bringing up sad depressing stuff. But I can't help it, I don't know why. Its like all I want to talk about is sad stuff.
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 3, 2011

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    This Is Not On Purpose!

    I would sell my soul just to have one good thing constantly going for me. I would trade all of my problems and disappointments for money, even if it meant me being alone forever. I'd rather be dead than be depressing. But, I can't pretend to be happy. I would trade my...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 3 Responses Aug 27, 2011

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    I Don't Like to Complain...

    I figured since I found this site, it was a great opportunity for me to vent and release all of the pent up frustration I've been feeling for years. Unfortunately, in doing so, I run the risk of sounding overly whiny and depressing to others. This really isn't intentional and I...
    EnigmaVest EnigmaVest 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    I Ruin Everybody's Day.

    At school I always find everything terrible. I'm sad and mad at how everybody's so happy and I'm just there, hating myself and being self conscious. I want to stop, but I can't help it. I ruin my friends days with just being with them. I always look sad or mad and I can tell my...
    AnonymousChika AnonymousChika 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    I Loathe Being A Downer.

    The majority of the time I'm content with my life. Sure, there're things I'd like to work on changing, but I never let it get to me all that much. I've been in a slump of sorts lately, however, and fear that in being down so much that I'm pulling those I love down as well. I don...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    I Wish I Wasn't...

    I wish I wasn't so damn depressing. I wish I could smile, and actually have it mean something other than trying to fool everyone in to thinking that I am okay, and have them not worry about them. I wish I didn't deal with the terrible thoughts that I deal with from day...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 23, 2009

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    Depressed

    as long as i can remember ive always felt depressed and alone. i feel like ive drove everyone away through my depression. my relation ship has broke down after13yrs and he said i was never any fun and now i just cant handle it feeling like this. its the worst i felt ever. i'd end...
    longridge longridge 36-40, F May 10, 2011

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    I Definitely Have My Days...

    I'm not always depressing. You'll see that if you read my stories. Some of them are light-hearted, fun, and maybe even child-like. But right along with that light-hearted, playful side, there is also a dark, morbid, grotesque side. I guess if you take into account my...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 21, 2012

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    I Think I'm Just....

    Boring as hell to be around.
    concreteardrop concreteardrop 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2011

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    I sat around waiting

    for change,... And I did nothing about it
    djdas16 djdas16 16-17, M Nov 16, 2014

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    Dear Negativity,

    ...How I loathe you.   My friends have their issues, yes. I clearly have mine, which seemingly stem from nothing but being introverted and having self-esteem issues.  But, regardless, I am sick of it.  I am sick of being the negative person in a group, and...
    unknown311 unknown311 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    Aishashishi Aishashishi 13-15, F Dec 8, 2014

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