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I Wish I Wasn't So Depressing

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    I Wish I Wasn't...

    I wish I wasn't so damn depressing. I wish I could smile, and actually have it mean something other than trying to fool everyone in to thinking that I am okay, and have them not worry about them. I wish I didn't deal with the terrible thoughts that I deal with from day...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 23, 2009

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    I Don Worry Anymore...''colors In The Dark''

    i was thinking somethin yesterday bout the colors in the dark....imagine u r in a dark place but somewhere in the room there r paints...u think ''whats the point now using paints in a dark place?''but then what happens if u do try get those paints n when u find them u try start...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 21 Responses Feb 4, 2011

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    I Loathe Being A Downer.

    The majority of the time I'm content with my life. Sure, there're things I'd like to work on changing, but I never let it get to me all that much. I've been in a slump of sorts lately, however, and fear that in being down so much that I'm pulling those I love down as well. I don...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    I'm Sorry

    But sometimes I just feel like I kill the mood of happiness around me.  I wish I could cheer up a little when I'm with my friends but sometimes I'm in one of those moods.  I just feel like such a downer sometimes.  I wish I didn't because I used to be the happiest...
    DreamingOutLoud DreamingOutLoud 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    Hidden in a corner, Everything is dark.

    I see the world around me, But never taking part. My friends just overlook it, I don't think they can see, The thing inside, That is killing me. It tears at my heart and soul, Eating me alive. Sometimes I'm just wishing, That I could just die. I want someone...
    SexyLez101 SexyLez101 13-15, F Feb 21, 2014

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    This Is Not On Purpose!

    I would sell my soul just to have one good thing constantly going for me. I would trade all of my problems and disappointments for money, even if it meant me being alone forever. I'd rather be dead than be depressing. But, I can't pretend to be happy. I would trade my...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 3 Responses Aug 27, 2011

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    I sat around waiting

    for change,... And I did nothing about it
    djdas16 djdas16 16-17, M Nov 16, 2014

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    Negative

    I always feel like I'm really really negative. I always feel like I'm bringing up sad depressing stuff. But I can't help it, I don't know why. Its like all I want to talk about is sad stuff.
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 3, 2011

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    Dear Negativity,

    ...How I loathe you.   My friends have their issues, yes. I clearly have mine, which seemingly stem from nothing but being introverted and having self-esteem issues.  But, regardless, I am sick of it.  I am sick of being the negative person in a group, and...
    unknown311 unknown311 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    I Don't Like to Complain...

    I figured since I found this site, it was a great opportunity for me to vent and release all of the pent up frustration I've been feeling for years. Unfortunately, in doing so, I run the risk of sounding overly whiny and depressing to others. This really isn't intentional and I...
    EnigmaVest EnigmaVest 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    I Think I'm Just....

    Boring as hell to be around.
    concreteardrop concreteardrop 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2011

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    Depressed

    as long as i can remember ive always felt depressed and alone. i feel like ive drove everyone away through my depression. my relation ship has broke down after13yrs and he said i was never any fun and now i just cant handle it feeling like this. its the worst i felt ever. i'd end...
    longridge longridge 36-40, F May 10, 2011

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    ....

    I want to be the carefree person that I once was and for you all to see me always happy.  I don't mean to bring anyone down and I may go away for a while so that I don't continually bring you down but you have to understand for me this place is almost...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 23 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    I Definitely Have My Days...

    I'm not always depressing. You'll see that if you read my stories. Some of them are light-hearted, fun, and maybe even child-like. But right along with that light-hearted, playful side, there is also a dark, morbid, grotesque side. I guess if you take into account my...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 21, 2012

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    I Ruin Everybody's Day.

    At school I always find everything terrible. I'm sad and mad at how everybody's so happy and I'm just there, hating myself and being self conscious. I want to stop, but I can't help it. I ruin my friends days with just being with them. I always look sad or mad and I can tell my...
    AnonymousChika AnonymousChika 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    Help

    my uncle died last year of lukemia im never happy any more he was my best friend in the whole world we did every thing
    jesusfreakjr jesusfreakjr 16-17, F Jan 25, 2010

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    I Just Want It To Stop

    I hate it.I hate being so depressed all the time. I hate the feeling that comes when I realise that I'm crying every single day. Every single night I cry myself to sleep for no obvious reason. Anything can make me cry. Especially songs and my friends. Because they are people I...
    shadyca shadyca 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 24, 2010

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    My parents never hugged or kissed me when I was a child. They never told me they loved me. I get angry and sad when I hear people talk about how blessed they are to have a great...
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    It took some time before I know what sex I was attracted to. Doesn't anyone else find this so?
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    When nothing goes right, go left.
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    I created a fake account to talk to him as he is not replying my texts on my real one. He started to talk with the fake girl. When I text him, he does not reply, when the fake one...
    Liillii Liillii 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 19

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    I'm far too nice, and forgiving.
    fulloflov3 fulloflov3 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    I want and need a true girlfriend who will love me for who I am and not use me.
    Sam2616 Sam2616 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 21

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    I get taken for granted all the time I'm starting to think no more nice girl
    Hollybird17 Hollybird17 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I see all these couples and all their smiling faces and hand holding...But where is mine I mean I try to look nice try to be me but is the real me not enough? I just want someone...
    kankuro18 kankuro18 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Haha….I just HAD to add this to my profile….. :D
    AutumnBliss AutumnBliss 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    Some girls worry about their body as they get older. Not me! I just know I'm going to be awesome no matter my age ;p
    emyleejane emyleejane 26-30, T Apr 5

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    Me too lol ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
    pauly673 pauly673 46-50, M Apr 5

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    TIRED AF................................. :/
    meetmeinthepouringrain meetmeinthepouringrain 22-25, M Apr 12

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    Last week my husband and I were at the beach and this really cute couple walked by. He turned and told me he remembered when we were just like that. We look younger than our age...
    happywallflower happywallflower 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    So basically we got together when I was 18 and he was 22. I was lonely and young and hurting from being recently dumped and he made me feel good. Looking back on it it wasn't that...
    alunna alunna 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Today was the day I told my mother about it.... We were in the middle of a topic that was already heated and then she wanted me to release anything else into the open... I burst...
    xxblasianxx xxblasianxx 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I wish I could tell the people I love, I love you. I wish I wasn't so quiet. I wish that the good wishes of people come true.
    LoveWithoutEnd LoveWithoutEnd 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    I met my husband in high school and we've been inseparable ever since. At first our love was one in a million, we'd spend hours on the phone, hours telling each other how much we...
    stupidlove00 stupidlove00 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    I just wish she wasn't that far from me....I pray that I wake up next to her tomorrow.. I wish she knew it
    FazyH FazyH 18-21, M Apr 6

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    (Continuing from previous post)...... So on Monday lunch I tell her I did to her if we we're ever best friends what would you do and as soon as I told her that her face lit up and...
    FriendshipQ FriendshipQ 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    So I somehow /like/ this guy in my university. I saw him on my first day at the university. I was just sitting on a bench, waiting for a classmate I met on Facebook. I was looking...
    jumjong jumjong 18-21, F Apr 16

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    Let's see were do I begin... Maybe this is just what I needed to say. I sadly didn't wait until marriage. I'm on the short side of 33 and you know what I truly wish I had. To those...
    Beanbella Beanbella 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    You told me today I pushed you away and I can`t even tell you were wrong. I do, I push you away, because it hurts too much to be around you. To see you, to talk to you, it makes me...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 5

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    When I was of school age I went to a private boys boarding school run on a army style regime where corporal punishment was the norm and using nudity as a punishment or just cause...
    nakednudist nakednudist 46-50, M Apr 7

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    I may not have a brother and this guy might be about 4 years younger than I am, BUT he is protective and 6 feet tall and we're close so I'll take him as a my brother any day. He's...
    ClaireH19 ClaireH19 18-21, F Apr 17

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    what's crazy is that's the person I'm thinking of wasn't who'd you'd expect. but I wish we could have tried....
    lyrics4me lyrics4me 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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