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I Wish I Wasn't So Depressing

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 219 People

    I Just Want It To Stop

    I hate it.I hate being so depressed all the time. I hate the feeling that comes when I realise that I'm crying every single day. Every single night I cry myself to sleep for no obvious reason. Anything can make me cry. Especially songs and my friends. Because they are people I...
    shadyca shadyca 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24, 2010

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    I Wish I Wasn't...

    I wish I wasn't so damn depressing. I wish I could smile, and actually have it mean something other than trying to fool everyone in to thinking that I am okay, and have them not worry about them. I wish I didn't deal with the terrible thoughts that I deal with from day...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 23, 2009

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    I Ruin Everybody's Day.

    At school I always find everything terrible. I'm sad and mad at how everybody's so happy and I'm just there, hating myself and being self conscious. I want to stop, but I can't help it. I ruin my friends days with just being with them. I always look sad or mad and I can tell my...
    AnonymousChika AnonymousChika 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    Dear Negativity,

    ...How I loathe you.   My friends have their issues, yes. I clearly have mine, which seemingly stem from nothing but being introverted and having self-esteem issues.  But, regardless, I am sick of it.  I am sick of being the negative person in a group, and...
    unknown311 unknown311 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    I Don Worry Anymore...''colors In The Dark''

    i was thinking somethin yesterday bout the colors in the dark....imagine u r in a dark place but somewhere in the room there r paints...u think ''whats the point now using paints in a dark place?''but then what happens if u do try get those paints n when u find them u try start...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 21 Responses Feb 4, 2011

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    I'm Sorry

    But sometimes I just feel like I kill the mood of happiness around me.  I wish I could cheer up a little when I'm with my friends but sometimes I'm in one of those moods.  I just feel like such a downer sometimes.  I wish I didn't because I used to be the happiest...
    DreamingOutLoud DreamingOutLoud 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    I Don't Like to Complain...

    I figured since I found this site, it was a great opportunity for me to vent and release all of the pent up frustration I've been feeling for years. Unfortunately, in doing so, I run the risk of sounding overly whiny and depressing to others. This really isn't intentional and I...
    EnigmaVest EnigmaVest 22-25, M 5 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    I Think I'm Just....

    Boring as hell to be around.
    concreteardrop concreteardrop 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2011

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    I Definitely Have My Days...

    I'm not always depressing. You'll see that if you read my stories. Some of them are light-hearted, fun, and maybe even child-like. But right along with that light-hearted, playful side, there is also a dark, morbid, grotesque side. I guess if you take into account my...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian 18-21, F Jan 21, 2012

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    Help

    my uncle died last year of lukemia im never happy any more he was my best friend in the whole world we did every thing
    jesusfreakjr jesusfreakjr 16-17, F Jan 25, 2010

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    Negative

    I always feel like I'm really really negative. I always feel like I'm bringing up sad depressing stuff. But I can't help it, I don't know why. Its like all I want to talk about is sad stuff.
    lolajonson lolajonson 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 3, 2011

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    ....

    I want to be the carefree person that I once was and for you all to see me always happy.  I don't mean to bring anyone down and I may go away for a while so that I don't continually bring you down but you have to understand for me this place is almost...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 23 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Hidden in a corner, Everything is dark.

    I see the world around me, But never taking part. My friends just overlook it, I don't think they can see, The thing inside, That is killing me. It tears at my heart and soul, Eating me alive. Sometimes I'm just wishing, That I could just die. I want someone...
    SexyLez101 SexyLez101 13-15, F Feb 21

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    Depressed

    as long as i can remember ive always felt depressed and alone. i feel like ive drove everyone away through my depression. my relation ship has broke down after13yrs and he said i was never any fun and now i just cant handle it feeling like this. its the worst i felt ever. i'd end...
    longridge longridge 36-40, F May 10, 2011

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    This Is Not On Purpose!

    I would sell my soul just to have one good thing constantly going for me. I would trade all of my problems and disappointments for money, even if it meant me being alone forever. I'd rather be dead than be depressing. But, I can't pretend to be happy. I would trade my...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 3 Responses Aug 27, 2011

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    I Loathe Being A Downer.

    The majority of the time I'm content with my life. Sure, there're things I'd like to work on changing, but I never let it get to me all that much. I've been in a slump of sorts lately, however, and fear that in being down so much that I'm pulling those I love down as well. I don...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    We met four years ago, life wasn't too grateful to me. We met at a football game and he cared enough to search me and find me on Facebook. If he hadn't messaged me and started...
    xoarmyfiancexo xoarmyfiancexo 16-17, F Oct 14

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    It gives someone permission to break your heart. I've been broken by my own family. I don't need it anymore. Being in love is a gift and a curse. I'm just afraid I'm going to be...
    lexrae lexrae 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I haven't blocked the person and they haven't blocked me. They are looking for me. Anybody else ever had this problem?
    nelby710 nelby710 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I was upset.Not because he or any of the others weren't real,but because they spent all those years lying to me and then all of a sudden:"Yeah,we actually made that up."
    KurMujun KurMujun 18-21, M 11 hrs ago

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    I'm attracted to crazy. The intensity is amazing, but the end is always such an f'ing catastrophe. Not that I'm judging. I'm just as crazy.
    rsgalindo01 rsgalindo01 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 17

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    Being lonely feels like you're the last one on earth because their was a time you use to have friends who seemed to cared how you were doing. Than everything changes and it makes...
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 19

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    I get very shy and awkward when it's time to speak my mind and it's a huge hindrance..
    unsociablex unsociablex 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    This sucks. I'm not ready for this to happen and am having trouble dealing. It'll be ok, it always is. Just hate this part of life :( Not ready to lose my Dad..
    brackenreedfro brackenreedfro 41-45, F 8 hrs ago

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    I just **** myself (; it felt so good,but I feel ashamed of myself );
    swaged123 swaged123 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 10

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    Just **** myself on purpose and ive been sitting in it for like 10 minutes
    swaged123 swaged123 13-15, M Oct 13

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    My friend of 20 years got married today. I knew it was going to be a small family affair....but thanks to facebook I am HEARTBROKEN at the pictures posted of the day. Is our...
    TearsWW TearsWW 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 18

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    My birthmother gave me up for drugs and she is the reason i am blind, the foster parents i had abused me, the people that adopted me blame me for everything
    ivvywolf ivvywolf 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 23

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    Anyone wanna try to make me pee my pants I have to pee 7/10 and just drank a big glass of milk and ps I'm 14 not 70!!!!
    swaged123 swaged123 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    I've brought knifes, and daggers in middle school for self defence and had a pocket knife on me 75% of the time
    swaged123 swaged123 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    We Italians just get better and better with age...hey..the Roman Empire lasted for over 1000 years...;)
    SouthernItaliano SouthernItaliano 51-55, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    SANTA IS REAL!! Nah. Not really :P. I was like 9 years old when I found out. I was really sad about it. Lol I actually saw my dumb as father placing the gifts so...
    RebeccaMontero RebeccaMontero 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    i wish i could be happy, smile all the time, have that perfect fairy tale of a life, be able to be ME most of all..... i hate having to pretend like i'm someone else in a messed up...
    BumpsInTheRoad BumpsInTheRoad 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    I wish I was dead everyday of my life. I have had suicidal thoughts and tendencies since I was 11 years old. My parents divorced when I was 1 year old. Ever since I could remember...
    Meatball20 Meatball20 22-25, M Oct 14

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    I'm sad ... today was an awful day. without any mention that I feel broke because of my love Ahmad , other things happened to me which made me feel worse.  Firstly, I used to...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F Oct 23

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    I'm sad ... today was an awful day. without any mention that I feel broke because of my love Ahmad , other things happened to me which made me feel worse.  Firstly, I used to...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F Oct 23

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    I wish, That I wasn't in a bad relationship with my dad, I wish, That everything would go back to the way it was, I wish, That we could all be friends, I WISH!
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 23

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    that is all really... I wish i believed and i wish my confidence wasn't a problem
    jaesavv jaesavv 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I've battled with depression, anxiety and borderline personality disorder since a little after puberty began. My life as a teenager wasn't all great but wasn't all bad. In these...
    rachelbarnett96 rachelbarnett96 18-21 1 Response Oct 6

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    I just realized I don't even know how to forgive someone that hurt me (and this someone doesn't even care that she screwed with me forever). I wish I did, because this is holding...
    cursedswan cursedswan 26-30, F Oct 7

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    If I could just be happy being the man that provides a good life for my wife and daughters... That would be incredible! I SO wish I wasn't me, emotionally... I'm tall, strong and...
    Christinamarie3095 Christinamarie3095 41-45, T Oct 10

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    I have written about my dad and my step mother on here, and now I feel like I should start writing about my mother. The ***** that caused all my problems. She was 17 when I was...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F Oct 11

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    Is timing everything is a relationship? I think it is in my case. D: I met my friend back in March after a few months of hanging out and texting. He confessed he had feelings for...
    Idreamtowaketofindthefate Idreamtowaketofindthefate 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    When I was 18 I got hit with a double whammy on my body. I was pregnant and diagnosed with gall bladder disease. Ultrasounds showed a growth along the inside lining of the pesky...
    flypiggie flypiggie 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am starting to feel that my resentment for my parents is never going to go away. It's been 4 years since the majority of it happened, it's been a year since I moved out. I'm 22...
    WishForRain WishForRain 22-25, F 16 hrs ago

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    I have a younger brother! But sometimes I wish I wasn't the oldest :)
    papercastles papercastles 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 18

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    I wasn't caged and played like a puppet. I wish my life was different, Don't want to be sensitive: I just want to be cleansed.
    AcousticLover AcousticLover 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I wish I wasn't born Christian so I wouldn't have to live with the knowledge that I'm going to hell everyday. Maybe I could have found a religion where I had a chance at...
    Verndari Verndari 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I feel like I'm just waiting to die. Like I was created by mistake and I'm just waiting to be erased. I can't remember when I've lived last. The life I've lived 26 years with my...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 9