I Wish I Were Dead Now

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    Walking over a bridge,

    it's very tempting to jump.Being around knives, it's tempting not to put it through my nonexistent heart and die
    Insanexx Insanexx
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jun 19, 2014

    I Don't Know What My Problem Is...

    I couldn't tell you what was wrong with me if you asked. I know that I don't keep friends because I'm afraid of the things I'll eventually do. I'm a liar. I back out of arrangements. I break promises. I'm afraid. I've been told that I have "social anxiety problems" and I guess...
    leapflowerleap leapflowerleap
    6 Responses Sep 8, 2013

    The Better Never Outlasts The Worse

    My story is similar to yours. I'm 36, single, work fulltime, very small social network, and the smile I wear is painted on my face with cement. I think of suicide almost every day. From my office window, I stare at the same clouds and feel as if I'm in some sort of temporal time...
    ChloesChoice ChloesChoice
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jul 20, 2012

    Everyone thinks I'm all together,

    but in reality it's a chore to be alive. I hate that I have to love people when eventually I will lose them, hate I have to give myself stress from school/work when someday I will die. I don't see the point of living of one day it will all go away. I just wish I could be dead...
    TheEleventhDoctorWho TheEleventhDoctorWho
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2015

    It'S Really Not Worth It

    At this point there is truly very little keeping me safe from myself. Tonight I feel like I want to trace every vein in my arm with a knife, but I wont because there's one person that has been there for me and I don't want to keep letting them down. Nothing feels worth it anymore...
    ButterflyGirl9521 ButterflyGirl9521
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2013

    I Can't Take This Anymore

    I have been suffering from clinical depression since I was 15. I am 18 now. I have been waiting, hoping, working, and praying to make things better, that I might be happy. I am in pain every single day. I cry almost everyday. I have been seeing a psychiatrist, I have been seeing...
    Imhurtingtoo Imhurtingtoo
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Mar 13, 2012

    I was engaged to the most wonderful person I

    will ever meet. We were doing long distance and were in our second year (just 8 more months to go). She started having some doubts (the long distance was always hard for her), and instead of being solid like I should have been, I freaked out and kissed another girl. After two...
    robinhoodoftheworld robinhoodoftheworld
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 18, 2014

    I Hate My Life

    My current situation is this: I have no money, no means of transportation, I am forced to live with my elderly parents and I am so lonely for love I don't think I can keep going like this to much longer. My mother is not my the one I grew up with any more, now she is this selfish...
    milkman59 milkman59
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2012


    !! There is no point to this STUPID THING SO CALLED LIFE!!!!
    cristina44 cristina44
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 11, 2014
    Eyedea9 Eyedea9
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2015

    I Feel Lost And Dead

    I am a 53 year old man who lost his job in Manhattan, NY a few months ago. I have very little margin financially and owe both the state and fed back taxes, both of whom I was paying when I had full time employment. .A year ago I was found to have a massive amount of blood clots...
    dogmatik dogmatik
    51-55, M
    5 Responses Jan 5, 2011

    Story Of My Life

    I was supposed to die when I was born... didn't happen and now I can't help but think why am I still here I was almost raped by some classmates after school... suffered bullying through my whole elementary for being fat and ugly...ome... I'm 30 yo single mom and I've never ever...
    nigglywiggly nigglywiggly
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 8, 2013

    dying in my sleep is the best I can hope

    for in my future. Tonight would be best. Wish me luck!
    Myzery Myzery
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2016

    The dead are lucky they don't to endure a

    boring life, they don't have any worries, any fears, any boredom, they don't have loneliness
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    I Am Alone

      I'm sick of feeling not good enough, not pretty enough. I'm sick to death of being the best of friends, but never more. It just makes me want to be dead. I don't understand why I can't have what others have found. I am alone, in pain, & have no one to share anything...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven
    36-40, F
    16 Responses Aug 17, 2009

    I want to just get it over with!

    !!! I hate this life!!!! I'm so tired of everything! I just want to be happy!!! Is that too much to ask!???! Nobody would care if i was dead anyway. They're all caught up in their nauseating world of fake happiness!! If tables were turned they wouldn't be able to handle what i'm...
    defiantheart defiantheart
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 2, 2014
    iloveyou984 iloveyou984
    18-21, F
    May 2, 2014

    I am not suicidal, but I am

    so sick of this chronic illnss. My stomach, nausea daily, I am sick 24/7! If it was just a stomach ache, or the *****, or even pain I could deal with it, but it's severe gastric pain with nausea and vomiting. I **** you not!! I just got thru with a 10 day bout of nausea and lost...
    thebooboo thebooboo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    I wish my life were over.

    ... had a restraing order on me because my child's mother lied about me, claiming I would threaten and stalk her. Got into drugs and depression bad because she kept me away from child, so one day i called so i can possibly see my child (stupid mistake). Went to jail because of...
    deadmanwalking1233 deadmanwalking1233
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    Gone From The World

    25 years... It might as well be an eternity. When you wake up alone everyday to go to a 12 hour work day, followed by yelling, pain, and sadness... you wonder why i keep going, day in and day out. 25 years and no one to love, no one who cares. God i don't know what a smile looks...
    Otacon29 Otacon29
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Sep 9, 2012
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 16, 2015
    decemberfairytales decemberfairytales
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 9, 2015

    If I Only Had A Gun.

    I'm about to turn 33, and have lived with depression as far back as I can remember. I knew someone once who said she'd never thought about suicide and I couldn't believe it, because I thought it was normal to have idle thoughts about killing yourself. There's nothing wrong with...
    nocanyonbody nocanyonbody
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jul 8, 2012

    How can I just fall so low.

    ..what's bringing me down....I cry so much lately and I just feel like I want to die...
    Whothehellcares1 Whothehellcares1
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2014

    Better Dead Than Alive

    I don't know how this is going to sound but I need to say this.The way I feel right now I just think Death would be easier then living. After trying trying 4 times to kill myself and being hospitalized 7 times I just don't see a point in trying anymore.Sometimes I just want to...
    animalwatcher animalwatcher
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 21, 2011

    Why doesn't he notice me?

    Aren't a I skinny enough? I'm not that ugly..am I? I'm not too short and I'm not too tall. He should love that, shouldn't he? My eyes are brown and sometimes turn green. That's average enough for him, right? Am I not good enough?? Why won't he notice me like he noticed her. They...
    GarasaurausRex GarasaurausRex
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    I'm so angry all the time.

    It's kind of destroying my life but weirdly I just wanna keep being angry. At least no one can hurt when I'm this mad. I think I wanna be happy but I'm not sure how to be or if I even can. Sometimes I get so mad I imagine making someone hurt as bad as I do. I hate people anyway...
    idneverbemissed idneverbemissed
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 17, 2014

    Whats Wrong With Ppl?

    why ppl fear death?its a ****** rest for ppl who have nothing to lose ,ppl who r full with anger ,sadness,hurt,pain,suffering who r alive because they just breath , ppl who r already dead ,just not buried yet ,ppl like me who never felt alive
    dead6 dead6
    2 Responses May 10, 2012

    I really do. I would post it on Facebook,

    but I know someone who commited suicide today...and I do not wish to upset their family further... but I envy them...
    Myzery Myzery
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    I wish I were dead now.

    Unfortunately, my father committed suicide when I was only 4 and I promised my mother I would not put her through that again. Once she passes, I will join her immediately. I am 42 and consider myself a successful, funny, generous and attractive woman. I work hard, own my...
    hzrn45 hzrn45
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2013
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Sep 13, 2014

    I hate when you feel like you're about to have

    a brake down and you are with a group of people Like things just get really bad but you can't do anything about it.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015

    I wish I had one person

    who knows how I feel. I hate school because I cant concentrate and simply dont care. I have no real friends and the ones that I think they are ignore me or make fun of me. My mom has such high standards for me and I hate her. She doesnt help me with anything because shes at work...
    Stressed14 Stressed14
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 8, 2014

    I Wish

    I wish i were dead now. Because i thought life is easy but now realized that its not.
    Nido1111 Nido1111
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2012

    Beautifully Broken

    there are so many like her. she gets up, early, and hates every inch of her skin. she covers it with make up... still not satisfied. she gets dressed, tries picking out the cutest outfit so people don't pay attention to her "ugliness".. she hates herself, but you don't know that...
    ImMalificent ImMalificent
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2013

    Everyone Seems Better Than Me, Maybe Im Just a Waste of Space

    6th form now, thought it would be really good it kinda has you know, but i feel like an outcast just like in year11 and i feel like everyone else is having all the fun and getting relationships and stuff and i just seem to stay the same, also got abuse form a boy at bus stop...
    Patopag Patopag
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Oct 5, 2009

    I find it impossible to find happiness.

    I hate my life, I hate my job, my friends are all in relationships and have forgotten about me, the guy I have feelings for treats me like dirt. Why do I exist unless it's to constantly feel like ****? I wish I was dead and there is nothing in my life that can take this pain...
    autocue autocue
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 14, 2015

    I Can't

    I don't feel im wanted in this world and loved
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

    Do you know why you should not live

    for other people ? Because they will leave you. Always.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 16, 2015

    I don't think this is just a bad funk.

    I don't think I can come back from this. I'm convinced I've already hit the peak of my life and it's all just gone to ****. The depression has devoured and spit me out a mindless zombie. I've been trying to get help, but I'm afraid it's too late - I'm already dead on the inside...
    megmegmeggers megmegmeggers
    22-25, F
    Nov 7, 2014

    I really want to tell my councilor

    that I think I need medication but I don't want it to like like I'm asking for attention. It also gives me sucking anxiety so you know best just leave it alone I guess
    deleted deleted
    Sep 15, 2015

    Soooo Tired

    Here I sit for the second time in a week contemplating the end. I have the means to end it out and ready. Today the loneliness and depression was heavy, like a giant burden that I carried all day long, I carry this burden most days anymore and i get soooo tired. Today I reached...
    zanobi zanobi
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2012

    I Wish, But I Can't.......

    I wish I were dead right now.... I wish I wouldn't even have born.... I don't think people would miss me at all, and they shouldn't.... the ones who say that I can't do this because of my family and friends I just have one thing to say....... C'mon, grow up a little bit will you...
    TheX TheX
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2011

    String of failures. Nothing I can do about it.

    What's the point in living if all that's in store for me is disappointing the people around me?
    BladeofSilver BladeofSilver
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Aug 22, 2014

    death is a thought that perpetually infects my

    mind; I have wanted to die since I was four, but never had the guts to do it. See if I died my life would be an empty page in the book that's life. Our world remembers inventors,heros, and all the good and amazing people in the world. There's no time for people like me. No time...
    worldonfire worldonfire
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 28, 2014

    Abused Wife

    Married for the past 7 years. But the itch in our relation began from the 3rd year of marriage on wards. My husband got abusive all of a sudden soon after our cute adorable son was born. Once he has smashed my glasses into my eyes...luckily didnt lose my vision. On another...
    adisritu adisritu
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Mar 21, 2010

    If i was going to have a life like this i wish

    i had died long time ago its a curse its not someone wants to live like ....
    anasteel2 anasteel2
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Dec 9, 2014

    And these are the times

    when I wish I had my therapist back. But even she doesn't want me
    GarasaurausRex GarasaurausRex
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 26, 2015

    me in bed: i wish i was dead me peeing: i wish

    i was dead me eating: i wish i was dead me 24/7: i wish i was dead
    Angelcum Angelcum
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Nov 23, 2014

    Dissapointed Every Morning

    Every night  I go to sleep, I just say a short prayer that I do not wake up. Every morning I wake up disapointed.  What is the point of working in a job I hate, every day just trying to kill the day, get to next weekend, get to next month, get to next year, only to...
    31-35, M
    12 Responses Feb 3, 2010

    I am so tired of the pain.

    It feels like my heart physically hurts from the emotional pain that i'm feeling. I just took 5 sleeping pills, i want to take 5 more. Will that be enough for me to not wake up in the morning? I wish i didn't have any more tears to cry, but the tears just keep falling. I want to...
    defiantheart defiantheart
    31-35, F
    Jun 17, 2015

    I just want to be gone.

    No one can seem to tell me why I am here, or what I mean to them. If I don't mean anything to you then why even waste your time on me? People constantly come in and out of my life. It's almost like they test drive me as if I'm a new car then leave me because they don't like they...
    kelsey0616 kelsey0616
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    I Don't Want To Be Here

    Everything I do turns out to be a mistake. Or I'm wrong, or I end up failing. I'm never good enough. I spend most of my days saying, I wish I were dead, I wish I were dead. All day. Every day. I don't have the guts to kill myself, otherwise I would have done it a while ago. I...
    fuglywuggly fuglywuggly
    4 Responses Mar 5, 2010
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