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I Wish I Were Dead Now

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    I want to just get it over with!

    !!! I hate this life!!!! I'm so tired of everything! I just want to be happy!!! Is that too much to ask!???! Nobody would care if i was dead anyway. They're all caught up in their nauseating world of fake happiness!! If tables were turned they wouldn't be able to handle what i'm...
    defiantheart defiantheart 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    me in bed: i wish i was dead me peeing: i wish

    i was dead me eating: i wish i was dead me 24/7: i wish i was dead
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 13 Responses Nov 23

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    I wish I were dead now.

    Unfortunately, my father committed suicide when I was only 4 and I promised my mother I would not put her through that again. Once she passes, I will join her immediately. I am 42 and consider myself a successful, funny, generous and attractive woman. I work hard, own my...
    hzrn45 hzrn45 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2013

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    Soooo Tired

    Here I sit for the second time in a week contemplating the end. I have the means to end it out and ready. Today the loneliness and depression was heavy, like a giant burden that I carried all day long, I carry this burden most days anymore and i get soooo tired. Today I reached...
    zanobi zanobi 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    I don't think this is just a bad funk.

    I don't think I can come back from this. I'm convinced I've already hit the peak of my life and it's all just gone to ****. The depression has devoured and spit me out a mindless zombie. I've been trying to get help, but I'm afraid it's too late - I'm already dead on the inside...
    megmegmeggers megmegmeggers 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    Sweetaugust Sweetaugust 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    Gone From The World

    25 years... It might as well be an eternity. When you wake up alone everyday to go to a 12 hour work day, followed by yelling, pain, and sadness... you wonder why i keep going, day in and day out. 25 years and no one to love, no one who cares. God i don't know what a smile looks...
    Otacon29 Otacon29 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    Beautifully Broken

    there are so many like her. she gets up, early, and hates every inch of her skin. she covers it with make up... still not satisfied. she gets dressed, tries picking out the cutest outfit so people don't pay attention to her "ugliness".. she hates herself, but you don't know that...
    ImMalificent ImMalificent 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I just want to be gone.

    No one can seem to tell me why I am here, or what I mean to them. If I don't mean anything to you then why even waste your time on me? People constantly come in and out of my life. It's almost like they test drive me as if I'm a new car then leave me because they don't like they...
    kelsey0616 kelsey0616 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    An Imbecile

    I'm 37, I just got out of jail, spent a few weeks in there because some hillbilly was making fun of me and I told him I'd shoot him even though I don't have a gun. Came to the room I rent, and spent a week in isolated hell. My birthday came and went with no calls, not one word...
    pc7pc7 pc7pc7 36-40, M 3 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    It'S Really Not Worth It

    At this point there is truly very little keeping me safe from myself. Tonight I feel like I want to trace every vein in my arm with a knife, but I wont because there's one person that has been there for me and I don't want to keep letting them down. Nothing feels worth it anymore...
    ButterflyGirl9521 ButterflyGirl9521 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    I Hate My Life

    My current situation is this: I have no money, no means of transportation, I am forced to live with my elderly parents and I am so lonely for love I don't think I can keep going like this to much longer. My mother is not my the one I grew up with any more, now she is this selfish...
    milkman59 milkman59 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 18, 2012

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    ....

    I could die now without A CARE IN THE WORLD. I have some life left, but I am depressed, angry, sad ,scared, and I don't give a **** about anything. I have no regrets saying **** the world.
    AlpharedFox AlpharedFox 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

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    I Don't Want To Be Here

    Everything I do turns out to be a mistake. Or I'm wrong, or I end up failing. I'm never good enough. I spend most of my days saying, I wish I were dead, I wish I were dead. All day. Every day. I don't have the guts to kill myself, otherwise I would have done it a while ago. I...
    fuglywuggly fuglywuggly 26-30 4 Responses Mar 5, 2010

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    I just wish I could close my eyes

    and never wake up. I hate my life. My parents are mean and they don't understand me, school stresses me out, I don't have any real friends, I've been taken advantage of time after time and I'm sick of it. As much as I want to, I don't think I could ever kill myself... I just...
    KaleighAlena KaleighAlena 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 29

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    I Wish, But I Can't.......

    I wish I were dead right now.... I wish I wouldn't even have born.... I don't think people would miss me at all, and they shouldn't.... the ones who say that I can't do this because of my family and friends I just have one thing to say....... C'mon, grow up a little bit will you...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M 6 Responses Nov 14, 2011

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    Abused Wife

    Married for the past 7 years. But the itch in our relation began from the 3rd year of marriage on wards. My husband got abusive all of a sudden soon after our cute adorable son was born. Once he has smashed my glasses into my eyes...luckily didnt lose my vision. On another...
    adisritu adisritu 31-35, F 11 Responses Mar 21, 2010

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    The Big Sleep

    I live at the precipice of a dream. A future I can see stretched out before me; vast and ornate. But I only exist at this border. A fine line between happiness and time. I wander that edge. And every night before I fall asleep, I beg my mind, I pray to nothing. I ask for the...
    sleepdeep sleepdeep 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 12, 2013

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    It would make mine and everyone else around

    me's life so easier I am so selfish by being alive.
    JennaHurts JennaHurts 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I wish I had one person

    who knows how I feel. I hate school because I cant concentrate and simply dont care. I have no real friends and the ones that I think they are ignore me or make fun of me. My mom has such high standards for me and I hate her. She doesnt help me with anything because shes at work...
    Stressed14 Stressed14 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 8

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    I Can't

    I don't feel im wanted in this world and loved
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    I Think I Need More Help Than I Can Find

    Well, I almost actually did it, I came so close today to ending my suffering forever. My depression and loneliness hit an all time high when I had a disagreement with my only real friend. I then realized how much I depended on the daily interaction with him, talking and playing...
    zanobi zanobi 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 23, 2012

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    I Don't Know What My Problem Is...

    I couldn't tell you what was wrong with me if you asked. I know that I don't keep friends because I'm afraid of the things I'll eventually do. I'm a liar. I back out of arrangements. I break promises. I'm afraid. I've been told that I have "social anxiety problems" and I guess...
    leapflowerleap leapflowerleap 22-25 6 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    iloveyou984 iloveyou984 18-21, F May 2

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    The Better Never Outlasts The Worse

    My story is similar to yours. I'm 36, single, work fulltime, very small social network, and the smile I wear is painted on my face with cement. I think of suicide almost every day. From my office window, I stare at the same clouds and feel as if I'm in some sort of temporal time...
    ChloesChoice ChloesChoice 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 20, 2012

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    Blah

    Almost every night I go to bed hoping that the life will be snatched out of me in my sleep. The terrible thing is my life isn't bad, but it's not good either. I live under a non-stop trickle of listless "Why should I?" I have no one and nothing I can call my own, simply staring...
    FarPoint9 FarPoint9 22-25 1 Response Nov 1, 2012

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    I was engaged to the most wonderful person I

    will ever meet. We were doing long distance and were in our second year (just 8 more months to go). She started having some doubts (the long distance was always hard for her), and instead of being solid like I should have been, I freaked out and kissed another girl. After two...
    robinhoodoftheworld robinhoodoftheworld 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    If I Only Had A Gun.

    I'm about to turn 33, and have lived with depression as far back as I can remember. I knew someone once who said she'd never thought about suicide and I couldn't believe it, because I thought it was normal to have idle thoughts about killing yourself. There's nothing wrong with...
    nocanyonbody nocanyonbody 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    How can I just fall so low.

    ..what's bringing me down....I cry so much lately and I just feel like I want to die...
    Whothehellcares1 Whothehellcares1 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 12

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    I Am Alone

      I'm sick of feeling not good enough, not pretty enough. I'm sick to death of being the best of friends, but never more. It just makes me want to be dead. I don't understand why I can't have what others have found. I am alone, in pain, & have no one to share anything...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 16 Responses Aug 17, 2009

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    I JUST WANT TO DIE!!!

    !! There is no point to this STUPID THING SO CALLED LIFE!!!!
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response May 11

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    death is a thought that perpetually infects my

    mind; I have wanted to die since I was four, but never had the guts to do it. See if I died my life would be an empty page in the book that's life. Our world remembers inventors,heros, and all the good and amazing people in the world. There's no time for people like me. No time...
    worldonfire worldonfire 18-21, F 1 Response May 28

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    Story Of My Life

    I was supposed to die when I was born... didn't happen and now I can't help but think why am I still here I was almost raped by some classmates after school... suffered bullying through my whole elementary for being fat and ugly...ome... I'm 30 yo single mom and I've never ever...
    nigglywiggly nigglywiggly 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2013

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    String of failures. Nothing I can do about it.

    What's the point in living if all that's in store for me is disappointing the people around me?
    BrokenMelodies BrokenMelodies 22-25, M 5 Responses Aug 22

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    I had a great job. But due to health issues

    and the sudden death of my Dad, and my Mom's subsequent falling apart, and a few other reasons, I moved in with Mom. That was in 2006. I am now 42. That was a mistake. Long story short....I had to take jobs that I was unsuited for and totally hated. They were outside my field...
    DarkAngel200 DarkAngel200 41-45, F Jan 14

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    I wish my life were over.

    ... had a restraing order on me because my child's mother lied about me, claiming I would threaten and stalk her. Got into drugs and depression bad because she kept me away from child, so one day i called so i can possibly see my child (stupid mistake). Went to jail because of...
    deadmanwalking1233 deadmanwalking1233 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I'm so angry all the time.

    It's kind of destroying my life but weirdly I just wanna keep being angry. At least no one can hurt when I'm this mad. I think I wanna be happy but I'm not sure how to be or if I even can. Sometimes I get so mad I imagine making someone hurt as bad as I do. I hate people anyway...
    idneverbemissed idneverbemissed 22-25, F Mar 17

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    I just got fired, again.

    I can't function in a job with a lot of people, but what options do I have. Introverts don't stand a chance. If I were dead I wouldn't have to keep going through this. At my age, everything good is behind me anyway.
    chomshell chomshell 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Better Dead Than Alive

    I don't know how this is going to sound but I need to say this.The way I feel right now I just think Death would be easier then living. After trying trying 4 times to kill myself and being hospitalized 7 times I just don't see a point in trying anymore.Sometimes I just want to...
    animalwatcher animalwatcher 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Whats Wrong With Ppl?

    why ppl fear death?its a ****** rest for ppl who have nothing to lose ,ppl who r full with anger ,sadness,hurt,pain,suffering who r alive because they just breath , ppl who r already dead ,just not buried yet ,ppl like me who never felt alive
    dead6 dead6 22-25 3 Responses May 10, 2012

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    i take anti-depressants.

    please, if you are on this site, go to a doctor and get on them. i am currently requesting a change in my anti-depressants. they do need adjusting occasionally. i am 55. depression has gotten worse for me. i have a daughter and a mother who need me. i, like probably you...
    screwyou23 screwyou23 51-55 1 Response Feb 25

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    Everyone Seems Better Than Me, Maybe Im Just a Waste of Space

    6th form now, thought it would be really good it kinda has you know, but i feel like an outcast just like in year11 and i feel like everyone else is having all the fun and getting relationships and stuff and i just seem to stay the same, also got abuse form a boy at bus stop...
    Patopag Patopag 16-17, M 3 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    If i was going to have a life like this i wish

    i had died long time ago its a curse its not someone wants to live like ....
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 7 Responses Dec 9

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    What Am I Living For?

    I just lost my reason of living, I don't know why am I still alive on this world... I lost everything... I don't know what is wrong with me, but I kept on hurting my parents. I must be a very horrible person that they hate me so much. They are ashamed of me, and they wonder why...
    Kaslyne Kaslyne 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    im so depressed right now

    and i dont know what to do? it seems like everyone i trust turns there back on me, girls like me and we date but aperently im to nice or any other bullshit exuse they can come up with, i feel like i have no one to turn to or talk to right, and to be honest i wish i wasnt even...
    rhys2013 rhys2013 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    The dead are lucky they don't to endure a

    boring life, they don't have any worries, any fears, any boredom, they don't have loneliness
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 27

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    I Feel Lost And Dead

    I am a 53 year old man who lost his job in Manhattan, NY a few months ago. I have very little margin financially and owe both the state and fed back taxes, both of whom I was paying when I had full time employment. .A year ago I was found to have a massive amount of blood clots...
    dogmatik dogmatik 51-55, M 5 Responses Jan 5, 2011

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    Dissapointed Every Morning

    Every night  I go to sleep, I just say a short prayer that I do not wake up. Every morning I wake up disapointed.  What is the point of working in a job I hate, every day just trying to kill the day, get to next weekend, get to next month, get to next year, only to...
    HIMYM50 HIMYM50 31-35, M 12 Responses Feb 3, 2010

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    I Wish

    I wish i were dead now. Because i thought life is easy but now realized that its not.
    Nido1111 Nido1111 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 28, 2012

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    lovelinessbathes lovelinessbathes 31-35, M Nov 9

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    The game of life is hard to play,

    I'm gonna lose it anyway. The losing card I'll someday lay, So this is all I have to say. The sword of time will pierce our skins. It doesn't hurt when it begins. But as it works its way on in, The pain grows stronger...watch it grin. Music. <3
    bluefrogs247 bluefrogs247 18-21, F Mar 5

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