I Wish My Heart Had An On-off Switch

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 477 People

    I Do And I Don't Want To Flick The Switch...

     I sometimes wish I could flick the switch on my heart to a permanent off setting. But then I remember the person responsible for crushing my spirit thoroughly enough to make me feel this way. And then I also remember that he seemed to have his heart on a permanent off...
    parasitehostess parasitehostess
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 8, 2009

    Protective ...

    My heart is in retreat and protect mode right now.  This is very unusual because my heart is usually open and unquestioning.  But, for the moment at least, I am being cautious, trying to look after myself.  Following the advice I usually give others.  Take...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    15 Responses Sep 28, 2009

    matters of the heart change.

    cruel but true. and there are sooo many beating hearts. its not always easy .. well OK hard. but if u really want one pressed on yours keep looking!
    fairone fairone
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 1, 2015

    Me

    On a hot summer day . A holiday where everyone are outside sitting under a shady tree having beers and the kids drinking soda and playing games. Cooking On a hot grill. Warring T-shirt and shorts and with a smile upon all of their faces laughing out loud telling jokes. Family and...
    swhasep20032003 swhasep20032003
    56-60
    Sep 15, 2012

    I So Do...

    ...because it's so broken and filled with grief and pain right now... So many hellish losses...  
    FriendofPromise FriendofPromise
    51-55, F
    7 Responses Nov 12, 2009

    Well I can't stop my feelings

    but I harbor them. I bottle them up and become emotionless when I'm sad or angry maybe that'll help
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack
    13-15, F
    Aug 31, 2014

    On the not so literal approach.

    I would keep mine off everyday, all day, 7 days a week with no remorse. I would just be walking around town with my new Zombified Swag! 👊 TeamF*ckEverything
    NeeverForget NeeverForget
    18-21, F
    Apr 13, 2014

    Will I ever find someone I loved

    as much as I loved you then? Will I ever find someone who loves me the way you told you you did? Will I ever feel complete in a relationship again? Can I love for real again? Am I lovable? Is something wrong with me?
    MissAutumn MissAutumn
    18-21, F
    Apr 29, 2015

    Where's the Off Switch?

    Where's the ******* off switch?!?! Enough is enough! Make it stop! Too many sweet words, too few actions backing them.  Promises are just lies when not fulfilled. Stop the Merry go Round, I want off of the constant hoping, waiting, roller coaster of empty promises. Let me...
    zillaron zillaron
    51-55, M
    5 Responses Sep 28, 2009

    True Story

    I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call It's just another call from home And you'll get it and be gone And I'll be crying And I'll be begging you, baby Beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waiting...
    Joni84 Joni84
    31-35, F
    Nov 15, 2013

    "I am so tired of feeling like a shattered vase

    across a slippery floor and I am so tired of watching you tip toe around the pieces so you do not cut yourself on me." -tkg
    chloejune chloejune
    18-21, F
    Aug 21, 2015

    Then Everything Will Be So Simple....

    I wish my heart had an on-off swith... then everything will be so simple... But what if you chose to turn it off and turn your back on "THE ONE"?
    heartofanoldsoul heartofanoldsoul
    31-35
    1 Response Oct 5, 2012

    It Would Be Easier

    Oh, it would be so much easier if I could just find that stupid switch!!  If I could, my life would simplify in an instant.  I could let go of him.  Finally let go.  Not hurt anymore knowing he's already decided to spend his future with another...one that...
    dyin2live dyin2live
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Apr 16, 2010

    Turn It Off So I Can Heal Mentally First.

    Ive just gone through a major breack up, after 11 years its over. I want to be able to wrap my mind around it and use logic to get it straight so that when im right in the head i can turn my heart back on and mourn the loss without confusion, anger and a feeling of ineptitude...
    Dragon8370 Dragon8370
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Nov 7, 2009

    Yes

    It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. ♥
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 17, 2009

    Make Life A Little Easier

    It would make life so much easier if my heart had an on-off switch. That way, when I feel tired out and trampled by the world and all of the emotions around me, I could just flip the off switch and have one little moment to myself.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 29, 2009

    If It Did

    would i be here? would i burn, and bleed inside because I am away from her?
    Zoraine Zoraine
    46-50, F
    Sep 22, 2012

    My Heart

    I Wish My Heart had a on-off switch, I would turn it off and that way I would never get Hurt
    countryboy52 countryboy52
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Nov 10, 2009

    HOW do you split the roads between the mind

    and a torn heart!? I don't know about you guys/ladies, But MY heart and mind sometimes 'never' intertwines, not in the slightest of times. Feeling pain and hate in the same distance of Love and loyalty, trying to stay calm while hitting the realization of never having control...
    PainfulDidactic PainfulDidactic
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    My poor wreck of a heart would be in much

    better condition if he would just stay quiet and let the mind lead for once. He'd be happy, I'd happy...and she would be easier to deal with from here to eternity. Unrequited love, why must you follow me so? The heart....always so sure that he's right, disregards anything my...
    LReid23 LReid23
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2014

    Please Psot Address To Get The Switch

    as much as i do not want to forget most of my past. i would love to beable to turn off the pain of the loss of my wife so many years ago
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Jun 27, 2011

    I So Wish It Did ...

    My heart hurts so much sometimes ... it's at those times I wish I could turn it off for a while.  Sometimes my heart soars and feels so full with love and blessings that I could just burst with the emotion.  At those times I wish I could just share it with ...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    11 Responses Nov 8, 2009

    I just wish I did't have feelings.

    I avoid intimac like the plague and I have no social circle. I have social anxiety and it is stinting my growth as a human. I could be better if I had no low self esteem, depression, etc. If I'm destined to be alone so far the I wish the desire for intimacy wasn't with me.
    Raptorpsychologist Raptorpsychologist
    22-25, M
    Feb 4, 2014

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