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I Wish My Heart Had An On-off Switch

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 387 People

    I So Do...

    ...because it's so broken and filled with grief and pain right now... So many hellish losses...  
    FriendofPromise FriendofPromise 51-55, F 7 Responses Nov 12, 2009

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    Turn It Off So I Can Heal Mentally First.

    Ive just gone through a major breack up, after 11 years its over. I want to be able to wrap my mind around it and use logic to get it straight so that when im right in the head i can turn my heart back on and mourn the loss without confusion, anger and a feeling of ineptitude...
    Dragon8370 Dragon8370 36-40, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    I So Wish It Did ...

    My heart hurts so much sometimes ... it's at those times I wish I could turn it off for a while.  Sometimes my heart soars and feels so full with love and blessings that I could just burst with the emotion.  At those times I wish I could just share it with ...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 11 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    I Do And I Don't Want To Flick The Switch...

     I sometimes wish I could flick the switch on my heart to a permanent off setting. But then I remember the person responsible for crushing my spirit thoroughly enough to make me feel this way. And then I also remember that he seemed to have his heart on a permanent off...
    parasitehostess parasitehostess 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    My Heart

    I Wish My Heart had a on-off switch, I would turn it off and that way I would never get Hurt
    countryboy52 countryboy52 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 10, 2009

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    Make Life A Little Easier

    It would make life so much easier if my heart had an on-off switch. That way, when I feel tired out and trampled by the world and all of the emotions around me, I could just flip the off switch and have one little moment to myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 29, 2009

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    It Would Be Easier

    Oh, it would be so much easier if I could just find that stupid switch!!  If I could, my life would simplify in an instant.  I could let go of him.  Finally let go.  Not hurt anymore knowing he's already decided to spend his future with another...one that...
    dyin2live dyin2live 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 16, 2010

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    Me

    On a hot summer day . A holiday where everyone are outside sitting under a shady tree having beers and the kids drinking soda and playing games. Cooking On a hot grill. Warring T-shirt and shorts and with a smile upon all of their faces laughing out loud telling jokes. Family and...
    swhasep20032003 swhasep20032003 56-60 Sep 15, 2012

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    On the not so literal approach.

    I would keep mine off everyday, all day, 7 days a week with no remorse. I would just be walking around town with my new Zombified Swag! 👊 TeamF*ckEverything
    NeeverForget NeeverForget 18-21, F Apr 13

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    Yes

    It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. ♥
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 17, 2009

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    Where's the Off Switch?

    Where's the ******* off switch?!?! Enough is enough! Make it stop! Too many sweet words, too few actions backing them.  Promises are just lies when not fulfilled. Stop the Merry go Round, I want off of the constant hoping, waiting, roller coaster of empty promises. Let me...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 5 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    I just wish I did't have feelings.

    I avoid intimac like the plague and I have no social circle. I have social anxiety and it is stinting my growth as a human. I could be better if I had no low self esteem, depression, etc. If I'm destined to be alone so far the I wish the desire for intimacy wasn't with me.
    Raptorpsychologist Raptorpsychologist 18-21, M Feb 4

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    There were times when I didn't want to be in

    love with someone as much as I wanted to. Sometimes the heart wants what the heart wants even if you don't want it be that way. My heart has gotten me in trouble many times and I've looked foolish in the process :/
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    HOW do you split the roads between the mind

    and a torn heart!? I don't know about you guys/ladies, But MY heart and mind sometimes 'never' intertwines, not in the slightest of times. Feeling pain and hate in the same distance of Love and loyalty, trying to stay calm while hitting the realization of never having control...
    PainfulDidactic PainfulDidactic 26-30, F 8 Responses Aug 31

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    God, Please Hurry And Heal My Heart

    I joined this group a few weeks ago.  I hadn't written my story because I wasn't feeling it.  Boy, what a difference a few weeks makes.  My heart is aching so bad!!!  I just don't know what to do or think.  I have had a broken heart many...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Nov 4, 2009

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    Protective ...

    My heart is in retreat and protect mode right now.  This is very unusual because my heart is usually open and unquestioning.  But, for the moment at least, I am being cautious, trying to look after myself.  Following the advice I usually give others.  Take...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 16 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    True Story

    I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call It's just another call from home And you'll get it and be gone And I'll be crying And I'll be begging you, baby Beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waiting...
    Joni84 Joni84 26-30, F Nov 15, 2013

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    Well I can't stop my feelings

    but I harbor them. I bottle them up and become emotionless when I'm sad or angry maybe that'll help
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F Aug 31

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    If It Did

    would i be here? would i burn, and bleed inside because I am away from her?
    Zoraine Zoraine 46-50, F Sep 22, 2012

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    Please Psot Address To Get The Switch

    as much as i do not want to forget most of my past. i would love to beable to turn off the pain of the loss of my wife so many years ago
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 27, 2011

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    My poor wreck of a heart would be in much

    better condition if he would just stay quiet and let the mind lead for once. He'd be happy, I'd happy...and she would be easier to deal with from here to eternity. Unrequited love, why must you follow me so? The heart....always so sure that he's right, disregards anything my...
    LReid23 LReid23 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    Then Everything Will Be So Simple....

    I wish my heart had an on-off swith... then everything will be so simple... But what if you chose to turn it off and turn your back on "THE ONE"?
    heartofanoldsoul heartofanoldsoul 31-35 1 Response Oct 5, 2012

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    Just save enough for the on switch back again
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I over think everything Ok I am usually prepared for anything but Im also prepared for 101 other things that never happen, its like an out of control computer in my head that just...
    Daveschoice Daveschoice 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 23

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    People say money is the root of all evil and doesn't buy happiness or love but I think differently from personal experience. the love of money is better then you think. without the...
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    I'm beginning to feel like I'm at a crossroad. I work part time in a shop and part time as an artist. Well barely feel like an artist right now. This is the first time I've sat...
    Guilaxaw Guilaxaw 22-25, F Sep 25

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    That subject is the only thing that seemed to fit my situation. But the real tragedy is that my Rx drug induced movement disorder might have been prevented if the medical...
    Boshie Boshie 61-65, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    Five years ago I cut my friendship off with my main "close" friends. I never felt accepted in the gang, there was too much backstabbing and judging and... Yeah, not so much...
    Hubblr Hubblr 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 12

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    I've had a close group of friends for about 2-3 years now, but the more I think they know me, they don't. I have to watch what I say around all of them, and to do so means I can...
    queercutie queercutie 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    When I was working my Summer job. My sister who's a teacher by the way doesn't work during the summer because they only get paid during the school term. Was crying poor mouth...
    skydefintion skydefintion 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Especially tonight. I'm thinking about things that cant be undone, worrying about tomorrow and the week ahead. It does me no good .
    karenmbrown karenmbrown 51-55, T 2 Responses Sep 22

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    GREAAAT... There's overthinking something then there's whatever the **** my brain decided to do. Bloody hell!!
    Shiningstar26 Shiningstar26 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    Soooo much thinking, thoughts, and stress. Even when I'm sleeping I still dream of what I'm stressing over.
    teeegreen teeegreen 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    I hear everything. Even the things I don't want to hear. I notice everything... every move....every facial expression....every gesture. I overthink things when I shouldn't . I...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I honestly have such mixed emotions about this... Almost 6 years have passed since I met my middle school teacher that I became so very infatuated with. I had never felt this...
    anonymousobsession anonymousobsession 16-17, F Oct 8

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    Hey I'm 17 everyday I wake up wishing I had been born a girl I dress like a girl so I guess u can call me a transgender or cross dresser but I prefer to just be called a girl I...
    alexis6263 alexis6263 18-21, T 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    No ones ever seriously told me theyve liked me, hell I have yet to hear a member of the opposite sex find me attractive. Actually, scratch that theres one guy, the only guy I've...
    CassieWithAnO CassieWithAnO 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    every time I get detention at school now im to receive the switch in the diaper position, ive had my first switching today.
    tony2014 tony2014 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 1

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    I feel helpless. It really is out of my control. I don't know if there's anything else that I can do. I'm frustrated because I had just typed out a long paragraph and it got erased...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I know we have a weird relationship and that we never officially said what we are but when I heard you went out with another girl this weekend it broke my heart and the thought of...
    spence96 spence96 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I have really been stalled out emotionally since the end of June when I finished my graduate degree. I had no free time prior to that to really entertain my thought patterns, that...
    ironandcoffee ironandcoffee 46-50, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Okay, it wasn't an accident, but... I woke up yesterday with what I suspected was pink eye. I decided to go to the nearby CVS minute clinic instead of my regular physician for an...
    Briefing0007 Briefing0007 36-40, M 1 Response Sep 24

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              Pulling Together 2014                    Nete Mot I'm new to EP but for my first post i though I would give the people something interesting but I will...
    tpgrls5647 tpgrls5647 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    Twinkle twinkle little star ☆, Let me get hit by a car 🚘💢💥, How I really wish to die 😣, Jump off the roof and try to fly 😇, Twinkle twinkle little knife...
    esalma98 esalma98 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    it was late at night, me and my motorcycle club (mc) were on our way home from a 1000 + mile trip in one sitting. half the group decided to stop in reno for the night, but me...
    geee0h geee0h 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 28

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    I decided on my butt tattoo in all of about 5 minutes.my first tattoo. i was really nervous but i picked the perfect area to get it. it started off hurting just a little bit but...
    snelletrail snelletrail 22-25, F 6 days ago

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