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I Wish My Heart Had An On-off Switch

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 439 People

    I So Do...

    ...because it's so broken and filled with grief and pain right now... So many hellish losses...  
    FriendofPromise FriendofPromise 51-55, F 7 Responses Nov 12, 2009

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    God, Please Hurry And Heal My Heart

    I joined this group a few weeks ago.  I hadn't written my story because I wasn't feeling it.  Boy, what a difference a few weeks makes.  My heart is aching so bad!!!  I just don't know what to do or think.  I have had a broken heart many...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Nov 4, 2009

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    On the not so literal approach.

    I would keep mine off everyday, all day, 7 days a week with no remorse. I would just be walking around town with my new Zombified Swag! 👊 TeamF*ckEverything
    NeeverForget NeeverForget 18-21, F Apr 13, 2014

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    My poor wreck of a heart would be in much

    better condition if he would just stay quiet and let the mind lead for once. He'd be happy, I'd happy...and she would be easier to deal with from here to eternity. Unrequited love, why must you follow me so? The heart....always so sure that he's right, disregards anything my...
    LReid23 LReid23 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 3, 2014

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    Turn It Off So I Can Heal Mentally First.

    Ive just gone through a major breack up, after 11 years its over. I want to be able to wrap my mind around it and use logic to get it straight so that when im right in the head i can turn my heart back on and mourn the loss without confusion, anger and a feeling of ineptitude...
    Dragon8370 Dragon8370 36-40, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    Me

    On a hot summer day . A holiday where everyone are outside sitting under a shady tree having beers and the kids drinking soda and playing games. Cooking On a hot grill. Warring T-shirt and shorts and with a smile upon all of their faces laughing out loud telling jokes. Family and...
    swhasep20032003 swhasep20032003 56-60 Sep 15, 2012

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    I So Wish It Did ...

    My heart hurts so much sometimes ... it's at those times I wish I could turn it off for a while.  Sometimes my heart soars and feels so full with love and blessings that I could just burst with the emotion.  At those times I wish I could just share it with ...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 11 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    HOW do you split the roads between the mind

    and a torn heart!? I don't know about you guys/ladies, But MY heart and mind sometimes 'never' intertwines, not in the slightest of times. Feeling pain and hate in the same distance of Love and loyalty, trying to stay calm while hitting the realization of never having control...
    PainfulDidactic PainfulDidactic 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    If It Did

    would i be here? would i burn, and bleed inside because I am away from her?
    Zoraine Zoraine 46-50, F Sep 22, 2012

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    Where's the Off Switch?

    Where's the ******* off switch?!?! Enough is enough! Make it stop! Too many sweet words, too few actions backing them.  Promises are just lies when not fulfilled. Stop the Merry go Round, I want off of the constant hoping, waiting, roller coaster of empty promises. Let me...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 5 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    Please Psot Address To Get The Switch

    as much as i do not want to forget most of my past. i would love to beable to turn off the pain of the loss of my wife so many years ago
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 27, 2011

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    I just wish I did't have feelings.

    I avoid intimac like the plague and I have no social circle. I have social anxiety and it is stinting my growth as a human. I could be better if I had no low self esteem, depression, etc. If I'm destined to be alone so far the I wish the desire for intimacy wasn't with me.
    Raptorpsychologist Raptorpsychologist 22-25, M Feb 4, 2014

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    matters of the heart change.

    cruel but true. and there are sooo many beating hearts. its not always easy .. well OK hard. but if u really want one pressed on yours keep looking!
    fairone fairone 46-50 3 days ago

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    True Story

    I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call It's just another call from home And you'll get it and be gone And I'll be crying And I'll be begging you, baby Beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waiting...
    Joni84 Joni84 26-30, F Nov 15, 2013

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    Then Everything Will Be So Simple....

    I wish my heart had an on-off swith... then everything will be so simple... But what if you chose to turn it off and turn your back on "THE ONE"?
    heartofanoldsoul heartofanoldsoul 31-35 1 Response Oct 5, 2012

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    Kill myself every time life gets too unbearable.

    Flatline, no Dreams, no self awareness, nothing and then when I'm needed just flick it again and I'm alive once more. I'll only be alive when I'm needed, so when I'm alive my life will have a purpose; when I'm not needed I'll be perfectly dead and taking up nobody's time- and...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Feb 21

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    Yes

    It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. ♥
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 17, 2009

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    Well I can't stop my feelings

    but I harbor them. I bottle them up and become emotionless when I'm sad or angry maybe that'll help
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F Aug 31, 2014

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    It Would Be Easier

    Oh, it would be so much easier if I could just find that stupid switch!!  If I could, my life would simplify in an instant.  I could let go of him.  Finally let go.  Not hurt anymore knowing he's already decided to spend his future with another...one that...
    dyin2live dyin2live 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 16, 2010

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    My Heart

    I Wish My Heart had a on-off switch, I would turn it off and that way I would never get Hurt
    countryboy52 countryboy52 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 10, 2009

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    I Do And I Don't Want To Flick The Switch...

     I sometimes wish I could flick the switch on my heart to a permanent off setting. But then I remember the person responsible for crushing my spirit thoroughly enough to make me feel this way. And then I also remember that he seemed to have his heart on a permanent off...
    parasitehostess parasitehostess 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    Will I ever find someone I loved

    as much as I loved you then? Will I ever find someone who loves me the way you told you you did? Will I ever feel complete in a relationship again? Can I love for real again? Am I lovable? Is something wrong with me?
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Protective ...

    My heart is in retreat and protect mode right now.  This is very unusual because my heart is usually open and unquestioning.  But, for the moment at least, I am being cautious, trying to look after myself.  Following the advice I usually give others.  Take...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 16 Responses Sep 28, 2009

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    Make Life A Little Easier

    It would make life so much easier if my heart had an on-off switch. That way, when I feel tired out and trampled by the world and all of the emotions around me, I could just flip the off switch and have one little moment to myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 29, 2009

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