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I Wish Someone Would Kill Me Now

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    Every day is a horror.

    I can't control the thoughts in my head; I replay trauma and conflict over and over. I have to drown it out by watching 12 hours of a TV a day. I rarely go to work, can't hold down a job. Too ashamed to kill myself, will pay someone 500,000$ to kill me. Cash.
    MEngineer MEngineer 26-30 9 Responses Jul 17

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    If someone doesn't do it fast I will.

    I'm done being sad and depressed, I'm done feeling the way I do and think the way I do. I lost everyone I loved and I have nothing anymore. You ******* think I'm lying? You think I won't do it. **** THIS WORLD!!!!! I'm hurting so much, there's absolutely no point in living now...
    ClassicGamer22 ClassicGamer22 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 4

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    Something I Once Learned...

    "Suicide isn't cowardly. I'll tell you what is cowardly; treating people so badly that they want to end their lives."
    cheygal10 cheygal10 18-21 1 Response Mar 26, 2013

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    I'm like failing everything.

    My friends don't wanna hang out with me anymore. I haven't gone out in ages. I'm really not confident, i hate myself i wish i could just loose 30kgs. My parents argue every night I'm lost.
    secretgirllll secretgirllll 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I honestly hold back this all the time.

    I want to yell in someone's face that I don't care, shoot me, stab me, hit me with a car. Just stop giving me this same "you mean nothing treatment." But that freaks people out. I shouted in several times for someone to kill me. I really just hope I die somehow. People's non...
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24

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    Death is my only wish.

    Someone please grant it...
    ItsPriscila ItsPriscila 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 19

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    I have never cut myself,

    nor tried to commit suicide in a serious way, but considered it many times. I don't want to be a "selfish, egoistic, mean" person, "the son they lost to suicide". It's so much better if it looks like an accident or a murder. I just dream about it, when I am getting older, if...
    dysfori dysfori 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    gypsyprince gypsyprince 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 3

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    I'm having such severe panic attacks lately.

    So bad I feel like I'm gonna die. Its like my throat closes up and I can't breathe... Oh wait I forgot no one give a ****.
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Want Someone To Kill Me.

    . After contemplating suicide for several years now and being unable to find a quick, painless way... I think being murdered is the answer.
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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    I Can'T Handle Anymore Life

    Everytime I try to do something someone knocks me down and wont let me back up.. And i can feel myself trying but I can't do it.. I don't feel very needed in the world, I honestly feel like I am nothing and that i can't do anything right. No one likes me and the only people that...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    I am depressed, no friends,

    I have acne, social anxiety, bipolar, anorexia on and off. I am 18 and male, I hate my life and wish there was a way to end my torment. I always tell myself that I'll stay alive for two reasons: Fallout 4 (should be king of games) and to lose my virginity. I don't want people to...
    konquerorbob konquerorbob 18-21 6 Responses Jun 5

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    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 8 Responses Apr 26

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    I'm miserable alone have a ****** family

    and the love of my life left me I honestly wish somebody would shoot me that my ugly *** wouldn't be a burden on everybody anymore
    Cgr1 Cgr1 18-21 1 Response Feb 8

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    I'd Pay For My Death.

    I wish I could find someone that would be willing to end my life, I seriously would pay A LOT of money for it. I don't even care how they do it anymore... I think I'd rather have someone else do it then myself...it's not even that, I just don't want to be alone at the time of my...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 16 Responses Jun 24, 2011

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    Heartbroken

    This is a complicated story to tell, but I would first like to thank the people who took the time to read it, your support is greatly appreciated. I am a 23 year old young man who had his entire life ahead of him, who always had a plan. Then she came into my life. This beautiful...
    MarioPeach MarioPeach 22-25 2 Responses Jan 3, 2013

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    Bring It To An End...

    -There comes a time in every man's life, when he must admit defeat. To everything, there must come an end. ...but not to me. Never to me. No matter how many times life beats me down. No matter how may times I have lost sight of hope. I can never see the end. And in a way, people...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 22-25, M 3 Responses May 5, 2013

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    Two German standing in line one German sister

    yellowing what are they serving gather German says I don't know but it taste like *** and the other German says all their serving succotash
    BDbruce BDbruce 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    Sometimes I just think it would be easier

    than all this pain. Even if I have thoughts on suicide it's not a good way to go, I would rather someone killed me.
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    angelofdeath668 angelofdeath668 13-15, M 7 Responses Feb 1

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    Being 15 in a dominantly white society along

    with it being controlled by relativism, makes me wanna just give someone a gun and tell them to shoot me. Seriously I can't stand living like this.
    JubilantDayz JubilantDayz 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 28

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    I want to kill myself

    or someone kill me tonight
    Khowther Khowther 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    I Guess I Should ... Could Really Use A Little Advice

    I've been consistently suicidal for nearly twelve years running and have been suicidal since ten. Grew up in an abusive home, but seems a touch different from a lot of the other stories I read. I have a step dad and a mum. My read dad is apparently dead, but I never met him...
    cillianonymous cillianonymous 22-25 7 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Why?

    I don't want to trouble others I don't want to be a burden But I can't keep this inside I have to let it out. I've run to everyone I could for help People act nice but inside they hate me Why? I don't understand I've always been nice. I'd never hurt anyone unless they hurt me...
    sebastianxciel21 sebastianxciel21 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2013

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    I used to be a really happy person

    but that's all in the past there's absolutely no reason I need to be alive
    Cgr1 Cgr1 18-21 Apr 26

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    Just Let Me Go

    I'm too weak to do it myself I'm too tired to stay here alone too sick of watching everyone get theirs, watching the world fall down from the sky and in to their lap all they have to do is grab on and enjoy the ride I'm too dizzy from chasing the latest idea to come from...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 24 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    I Just Dont Have A Clue What To Do Any More Im At The End Of The Cliff And Ready To Jump

    Well  to start it off i have had a pretty rough life  parents are complete crap  my mother has been pretty much apsent  threw out my entire life and when i did  go to see her she  never stayed for long it was always to go  to the bar or get...
    akimbox akimbox 26-30, M 10 Responses Jun 27, 2010

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    34, male, no kids, single,

    straight, smoke, no drugs or alcohol. Never medicated. I'm fairly decent looking. I'm the same gender I was born. There's nothing about my physical self that would prevent me from living a full and successful life. I can hold a job. I'm a very much competent person. My problems...
    Dudustain Dudustain 31-35, M 4 Responses Jun 4

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    I constantly am reminded

    that Life is harder than Death. I should have died while I was doing Chemo. It is so hard to Live. I Wish Someone Would Kill ME Now.
    mooname mooname 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    People Hate Me So Much

    I can't even say HI w/o being @ risk for arrest. I'd rather be dead than to be tortured in the hands of the law. Seriously! My family hates me because of my disability, & all I gotta do is say HI once, & they'll lie on me, saying I was trying to flirt & was...
    otad12 otad12 26-30, F 7 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    I want to give up,but I don't want to fail at

    it again.How can I go for sure?
    smashancy smashancy 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 3

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    Why?

    Kill me now please this life im living is not worth any ****! trust me what i've been thru. Its worthless s hell i'm worthless like my family has told me i can't do anything in life thats right no one cares about me or loves my and no my family doesnt not even my friends there...
    GoAskBetty GoAskBetty 18-21, F 18 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    Selanis Selanis 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Pain Too Much To Bear

    Where do I start...I hate my life at the moment.  You wouldn't know it from the outside, but I am falling apart and have been for quite sometime.  I am on the verge of losing my house, business, and cars.  To make matters wose hubby is a cocaine addict who blames...
    Addictswife Addictswife 41-45, F 38 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    My Life.

    Ever since I can remember my father has beaten my mother, physically beaten me and my sisters, raped my grandmother and yet still, my mother refuse to leave him... My parents are alcholics and my sister has bulimi and my other sister used to be beaten by her ex.. I barely have...
    Mjaah Mjaah 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    In bed all the time because of my disease.

    . I can't get away. And I would have nowhere to go anyway. This world has become so horrible. Everyone suing for everything. People lying. And ruining medical help I need because no dr wants to get sued. So thank you to all the druggies, and liars who ruin it for honest people.
    Karmacaughtme Karmacaughtme 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    Sick And Tired

    i hate myself and my life! just got out of prison and am still on parole living with family that i havent seen in19 years. i dont know them they dont know me... im staying with my uncle and we fight. he wanted me to come hear..last night he got in my face and told me to shut my...
    waytostressed waytostressed 26-30, M 20 Responses Jan 4, 2010

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    What is the point of everything?

    Why would I put up with the pain and suffer? It's so much easier to just die... It is so hard to go through the same sh*t every day... It hurts.. But I just can't kill myself.. I wanted, but then I start thinking about my friends and family, how are they going to deal with my...
    Teodora27 Teodora27 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 26

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    I am a coward. I fear pain.

    Tried it several times. I need someone who kills me NOW.
    SmoothSuicide SmoothSuicide 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 3

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    dead inside hope to find the meaning to my

    pain feeling worthless thoughts of only the always dark places in my life meaning nothing dreaming screaming begging and pleading just kill me already
    Nickinobunny Nickinobunny 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    I just want to feel the blade,

    go threw me. Slowly killing me fading away. I don't want to live anymore in this world where I'm worthless,****** up and misjudged i can just go on and on. So Please just kill me now
    Emmacvdk Emmacvdk 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I've been so angry with myself

    and the failure that I am that I deserve to be dead. People say I'm so wonderful...if only I could believe it. I wrote a letter to some people that I'd never send, but I secretly wished they'd find it someday. The letter was titled "How to Kill Me". I can't rewrite it here...
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 2 Responses May 30

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    I Don't Know What To Do...

    This will be the first time I've told someone... I've been diagnosed with depression and am taking pills for it, I have recently lost my sister to suicide and my dad has been missing in the army for a few years now, my mum is severely anorexic and is in hospital most of the time...
    NeverLetThemWin NeverLetThemWin 18-21, F 24 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    Many times I have wished to die even

    as a child Iso manty times,I"m at number thirty of trying to kill myself,sometimes I wish someone would just shoot me yea I help others but I never ask for anything nor want anything but to die was three when I first wanted not to live,I even tried to run away from home till I...
    anangelwithbrokenwings anangelwithbrokenwings 22-25, F 2 Responses May 26

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    I don't like to talk to people (I know) anymore,

    I like being around people I don't know. They don't talk to me, and I don't have to talk to them. Best be dead for that matter.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 22

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    To The Land Of The Living

    I 'm broken. Nobody can tell though. In the outside world I smile...I guess more for their sake than mine. Seeing me smile makes them happy. It's always been this way, and it's almost always just been a facade. I have nothing to be upset about, they say, I have what so many could...
    orchid00 orchid00 26-30, F 9 Responses Jan 14, 2013

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    All my life , I've felt unwanted ,

    like something is wrong with me . I ask myself what it could be , and why I'm not important enough for people to stay in my life . My dad walked out before I was old enough to even start pre-k . I have siblings I haven't even met . Everyone that I Love ends up leaving me . I...
    MirahThooo MirahThooo 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    I have to hang out with my bully during lunch

    and resses at 6th grade and it's bc my best friend hangs out with my bully so I hang out with my best friend and so i have to hang out who my ******* bully just **** MY LIFE 😫😫😫😫😫
    imnotthatspecia imnotthatspecia 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Falling Down Is Easy, Getting Up Is Hard.

    To start out im 15, and my problems are endless. i dont know how to keep living this life because i dont want to hurt anymore. Ive had Manic depression since an early age, and things just get worse. I cant be around people much because of social anxiety and i have PTDS. When i...
    asolas asolas 16-17, F 14 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    failing fate a haunted liar; I've seen my

    failing fate Empty, devoid spaces dark and cold, there is no other way I don't know a path lesser to follow death and decay, and desolate dreaming left in the ruins of my soul darkness runs rampant through my veins; the light quickly escapes and I am alone in the shadows...
    Nickinobunny Nickinobunny 13-15, F 1 Response May 28

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    I don't want to live anymore.

    I know I'm just 16 and what I'm going through is probably nothing. I committed a mistake that is considered as a crime in my family, And only my mom knows about it and she taunts me and threatens me saying she'll destroy my life. She says that she has the power to get me...
    stranger27 stranger27 13-15 4 Responses Apr 28

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    End

    If someone put a gun to my head now, I would smile and thank him. It would definitely be a good thing to everyone if I died. They wouldn't have to worry about me any more. And I wouldn't have a chance to hurt them.  Besides, I have a feeling that I am...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 53 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    I have no fear. Life is harder

    than death and in death I am not weak I am brave to face what awaits me on the other side.
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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