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I Wish Someone Would Kill Me Now

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    I survived childhood cancer

    and I wish I didn't. Why live as a slave to money, forced to work an entire lifetime with nothing to show for it? Now, I'm in my 30's and it's almost been a decade since I felt a woman's warm embrace. There is nothing for me to live for, no-one to live for. Dying from lukemia...
    LifeisCancer LifeisCancer 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 3, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 28, 2015

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    I Guess I Should ... Could Really Use A Little Advice

    I've been consistently suicidal for nearly twelve years running and have been suicidal since ten. Grew up in an abusive home, but seems a touch different from a lot of the other stories I read. I have a step dad and a mum. My read dad is apparently dead, but I never met him...
    cillianonymous cillianonymous 22-25 8 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I just don't know what to do anymore.

    ..I'm pretty much done with everything, I can't really take it anymore, family, friends, school, everything is bringing me down, I'm sick of being down all the time because of people, especially my parents. How are they gonna ask me why I'm always depressed when they talk trash...
    ForgottenLyric ForgottenLyric 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 18, 2015

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    Can someone please come here

    and kill me. I'll give you, everything I have. I can't take it anymore. I would do it myself but I only have one way I want to do it, but I don't have the thing to do the job.
    Bean2015 Bean2015 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 7, 2015

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    I just don't get it..

    . I do everything right and I still can't find true love... I just want a woman to spoil and raise a beautiful family with
    Depresssion Depresssion 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel like just giving up on life.

    I got hospitalized for depression and I am still miserable
    Cammy1317 Cammy1317 13-15, F 2 Responses May 14, 2015

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    I know I need help...

    But I don't know who I can trust.....
    jaywu jaywu 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    I wsh someone would kill me know

    so i die I want to be shout
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M Jul 20, 2015

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    To The Land Of The Living

    I 'm broken. Nobody can tell though. In the outside world I smile...I guess more for their sake than mine. Seeing me smile makes them happy. It's always been this way, and it's almost always just been a facade. I have nothing to be upset about, they say, I have what so many could...
    orchid00 orchid00 26-30, F 10 Responses Jan 14, 2013

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    If a friend of mine who said "me too" Really

    wants killed... She knows who she is... I can in a way obligue... Let us meet. Let me hold you, embrace you. Let me do my best to treat you like a LADY. THIS is how I see you. What this has to do with murder? Simple... Your self doubt would be suffocated and the only reason you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 27, 2015

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    Omfg kill me now ahhhhhh someone shoot me idc

    anymore I just want to die life isn't worth living
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2015

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    I feel I'm done! I'm ready to go!

    Just kill me now. I'm a stupid Syrian who traveled to the states to attend graduate school although I'm a terrible student but I didn't find any other way. Call me a lier but I saw the war coming so I left 7 years ago. I was treated bad by my professor and when the war started...
    Mike3891 Mike3891 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 22, 2015

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    is anyone near Alabama

    that would kill me? I want to die but I'm too much of a coward.
    sweettlc sweettlc 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    I need to escape from this mess

    and darkness. I really don't give a damn if someone stabs me or blows my head off... Go ahead. Do it. Do me a favor. Just kill me now. Come find me. I'll pay you for killing me. I am in L.A.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I have never cut myself,

    nor tried to commit suicide in a serious way, but considered it many times. I don't want to be a "selfish, egoistic, mean" person, "the son they lost to suicide". It's so much better if it looks like an accident or a murder. I just dream about it, when I am getting older, if...
    dysfori dysfori 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    Pain Too Much To Bear

    Where do I start...I hate my life at the moment.  You wouldn't know it from the outside, but I am falling apart and have been for quite sometime.  I am on the verge of losing my house, business, and cars.  To make matters wose hubby is a cocaine addict who blames...
    Addictswife Addictswife 41-45, F 36 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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    Can someone just kill me?

    I'm fed up of this f***ed up life. I'm letting everyone down and they're not afraid to tell me that.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 26, 2015

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    Fuckit9 Fuckit9 22-25, M 1 Response May 7, 2015

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    i dont want to live. im not

    who i used to be and i dont want to go back. im a hideous mashup of who i used to be and who i am now. a mix of suicidal and reality warping comedy. if i could find them i would drug myself to death
    caseygibson caseygibson 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2015

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    godsgab828 godsgab828 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    I am so sad. Mood swings

    now maybe, but i cannot deal. My life is a mess! I have been hit and had a controlling abusive father, grown up in dysfuntional family who i cannot turn to. I was constantly used for money by classmates and also used by friends and never actually had a friend which is a sad...
    LibriArte LibriArte 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Haymaple Haymaple 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 19, 2015

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    my two cousins came down

    and there 3 and 5 and their driving me nuts
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 7, 2015

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    I want to die, all I feel is emptiness

    and pain, someone please end my suffering, I beg of u. I don't want to have to fake it anymore, I want to smile, I want to feel like I'm not worthless, I want to feel happy, because I'm crying and I'm dying.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 6, 2015

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    Death is my only wish.

    Someone please grant it...
    ItsPriscila ItsPriscila 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    I Can'T Handle Anymore Life

    Everytime I try to do something someone knocks me down and wont let me back up.. And i can feel myself trying but I can't do it.. I don't feel very needed in the world, I honestly feel like I am nothing and that i can't do anything right. No one likes me and the only people that...
    HeartAndWings HeartAndWings 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 17, 2013

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    I'd Pay For My Death.

    I wish I could find someone that would be willing to end my life, I seriously would pay A LOT of money for it. I don't even care how they do it anymore... I think I'd rather have someone else do it then myself...it's not even that, I just don't want to be alone at the time of my...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 18 Responses Jun 24, 2011

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    Please. I can't do this.

    I can't I can't I can't.
    beatrice69 beatrice69 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 6, 2014

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    Why does nobody ever ******* understand!

    !!!!!!!! Sick if my parents trying to control MY LIFE thinking tye know what's best for me... Idc it's my ******* life not there's and I'm the one living it not them. Log me out of life. NOW!
    drawmysmile drawmysmile 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 7, 2015

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    if you want to be killed

    and need to chat please message me.
    Teutonicghost Teutonicghost 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    Why?

    Kill me now please this life im living is not worth any ****! trust me what i've been thru. Its worthless s hell i'm worthless like my family has told me i can't do anything in life thats right no one cares about me or loves my and no my family doesnt not even my friends there...
    MoonPrincessLuna MoonPrincessLuna 18-21, F 17 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    Many times I have wished to die even

    as a child Iso manty times,I"m at number thirty of trying to kill myself,sometimes I wish someone would just shoot me yea I help others but I never ask for anything nor want anything but to die was three when I first wanted not to live,I even tried to run away from home till I...
    anangelwithbrokenwings anangelwithbrokenwings 22-25, F 5 Responses May 26, 2014

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    gypsyprince gypsyprince 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    I just feel like total creep now.

    ( ._.) Considering I was Facebook stalking this person and I accidentally liked their picture from 7 months ago. >.> I think I'll just go crawl in a hole and die now.
    MichaelMyers1 MichaelMyers1 18-21, M 5 Responses Feb 21, 2015

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    I Don't Know What To Do...

    This will be the first time I've told someone... I've been diagnosed with depression and am taking pills for it, I have recently lost my sister to suicide and my dad has been missing in the army for a few years now, my mum is severely anorexic and is in hospital most of the time...
    NeverLetThemWin NeverLetThemWin 18-21, F 24 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    I hate myself. I hate everything about myself.

    I hate my voice. I hate how I look. I hate my internal organs, I hate how everyone else sees me. I hate how I have no redeeming skills at all. I hate how I can't make any friends. I hate how even at my age, I've never been able to form even the most stupid, short lived romantic...
    IComeWithKnives IComeWithKnives 18-21, T 2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    I want to give up,but I don't want to fail at

    it again.How can I go for sure?
    smashancy smashancy 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    End

    If someone put a gun to my head now, I would smile and thank him. It would definitely be a good thing to everyone if I died. They wouldn't have to worry about me any more. And I wouldn't have a chance to hurt them.  Besides, I have a feeling that I am...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 54 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    Can I just die now please?

    Please? I'm actually begging I don't even believe in God so who the heck am I talking to idk idc someone just kill me! Do it in my sleep or do it through torture I don't mind but if you chose torture don't take too long not because I don't like or can't stand it just because I...
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 9 Responses Apr 27, 2015

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    In bed all the time because of my disease.

    . I can't get away. And I would have nowhere to go anyway. This world has become so horrible. Everyone suing for everything. People lying. And ruining medical help I need because no dr wants to get sued. So thank you to all the druggies, and liars who ruin it for honest people.
    Karmacaughtme Karmacaughtme 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I wish someone would kill me now.

    ...before I get the news :(
    Tianalovesher Tianalovesher 18-21, F 1 Response May 17, 2015

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    I have a broken car no money

    for rent or my four other bills due. I am a failure at life can some just kill me now.
    Draconc89 Draconc89 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2015

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    I'm having such severe panic attacks lately.

    So bad I feel like I'm gonna die. Its like my throat closes up and I can't breathe... Oh wait I forgot no one give a ****.
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 23, 2014

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