I Wish Sometimes I Was More Cold Hearted

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    I Need to Be For Me.....

    I have the tendency to leave my heart open to hurt. I have always been like this my whole life. I want to learn now....to be cold hearted towards people that I know arent good for me or never really were good for me. I feel like Im being a cruel and horrible person for being cold...
    picgirl picgirl
    31-35, F
    14 Responses Dec 11, 2007

    Keep Getting Duped...!

    I just got out of a relationship. I dated this guy over a year ago. Then we broke up before i moved to another city. We dated only for 6 months. And during that time he was not available, showed no emotion, and put me down all the time ( called me useless and worthless). But...
    Amethysthidden Amethysthidden
    26-30, F
    Oct 17, 2009

    Because

    then I wouldn't get hurt as easily as I do.  I take way too much to heart.  I guess it comes from my fear of rejection.  I couldn't say for sure.  The upside to being more cold hearted is that I wouldn't get hurt as easily and as deeply as I do.  The...
    goddessone goddessone
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Apr 19, 2008

    I'd Say...

    I moved into a 2 bedroom apartment with my boyfriend, and our roomate. We became friends with our neighbors, a guy and a girl, both our ages. Before we knew it, they were getting evicted, and neither of them really had anywhere to go. His father wouldn't let him move back home...
    xMellyx xMellyx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2007

    I'm the type if person

    that will do something because someone else wants me to even though it makes me miserable. So while everyone if happy I'm just sad and no one seems to care . If I wasn't like this I wouldn't be pushed into things so much
    Justme2396 Justme2396
    18-21, F
    Mar 5, 2014

    I Really Do Wish

    I am a nice person with a heart of gold, i just want to give ALL the time and make people happy. Quite a lot of the time no one appreciates anything i ever do. No one appreciates me as a person. I just end up hurt. I wish i was more cold hearted so that i could stop trying to...
    SammyCymru SammyCymru
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2009

    I have such a warm heart,

    I care for others more then I do myself. I could be on my last ten dollars.. If I see a poor woman on the street I'd give her the full ten. BUT it has bitten me in the a** when it comes to ungrateful ex friends that I've had. Tell me really sad stories, play on my heart strings...
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective
    22-25, F
    Jan 12, 2014

    I Hope You Folks Don't Mind My Sharing...

    My story even though I don't wish I was more cold hearted. Maybe sometimes when I feel I've been trampled down, misunderstand, left out one time too often I wish I was cold hearted but mostly... I'm glad I'm not, and I'm glad there are others who wear their hearts right there...
    WendyWanderer WendyWanderer
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2007

    I'm reaching that point

    where I'm gonna shut the door and lock it only a few will make it in but to the rest you get no love
    Iamalostcause Iamalostcause
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

    Just a Bit Colder That's All

    I just hope to be a bit colder, just a bit...I don't want to keep getting hurt by every little thing I hear or see...really..I'm soooooo easily hurt, and I hate it
    Harmonyyy Harmonyyy
    18-21, F
    Dec 9, 2007

    Cold Hearted

    I have said many times that I wish I could be cold hearted, or heartless. I have been taken advantage of, pushed around, walked on, cheated on, lied too, given away money I needed, Knowing it would't be paid back.   so many times simply because I have to big of a heart...
    BlueGeorgia BlueGeorgia
    41-45, M
    23 Responses Oct 16, 2007

    AS Cold As Ice

    I wish my heart was as cold as ice. I wish I didn't care as much as I do. I feel like all the people I have ever loved have disappointed me in some cruel and unjust way. I feel like so much has happened in my life I have reach my thresh hold. I want it all to end. I want the lies...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jun 25, 2008

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