like a hypocrite, I wish I was always what I am perceived to be on the outside. If people only knew that behind my smile, my laughter, smartassery, and even encouraging words there is a person who counts the moments until she can be alone and until she can completely shut down...
that ruined things, I hadn't done.
I wish I knew how much of it is my fault, and how much isn't about me at all.
I wish that just for once, time would be on my side.
I wish I knew when to be quiet and when to speak up.
I wish I understood what other people want.
who I can tell my feeling and thought now. This person must be able to understand my affair and can relate to me so that he can give me some feedbacks and tell me the bright side of my prospects.
I keep having nobody related to me to share my feeling and thought. Outside school...
I wish my thoughts weren't jumbled.
I wish my heart wasn't hurting.
I wish I wasn't feeling hate.
I wish I wasn't feeling fear.
I wish I had the perfect words.
I don't even know what I wish anymore.
I wish that my relationship was a lot better.
I wish I had more money and that I could support myself.
I wish I had a much better job.
I wish I had a much better body.
I wish hatred didn't exist.
I wish I had real friends who weren't so fickle.
I wish my mom won't die until I'm...
for a day. Brush, curl, and tease my hair. Wear sparkly eyeshadow, dark eyeliner, red lipstick. Pour myself into a black dress, stand tall in a sexy pair of heels.
Then reality sets in and I remember that I really like to get dirty and cuss!
Not from everyone of course...only the people that I love or are consistent in my life.
I don't consider myself needy, or clingy..I don't even need to be with those people much. It's just sometimes I want to be seen..or get some feeling of connection. Or something.
I wish I meant everything to you. you say I do but they say action speak louder than words. I don't want your time I don't want your life. I just want to be a part of it for as long as I can be. You know the situation. I don't care if you put other things before me, Im not here...
I wish I was able bodied I wish I was good looking I wash I wasnt in constant pain I wish my body would work like I want it too I wish I could pee normally I wish I didnt have to use a catheter I wish my penis was bigger I wish I didnt have to worry about money, I wish I had...
I wish to be reborn into a world of endless wonder, where every turn holds something new, not necessarily new as in never seen before, but new in the way it's presented. A world where there is one large continent, and no racial division, no language barriers, and no gender...
for the sake of my daughter. I'm not saying 🤑, I'm saying comfortable. Where I can buy her clothes, take her to the movies. This year there won't be a tree 🎄 or a stocking even. I just wish for the little things in life, the simple things that most people take for granted...
and feelings of inadequacy weren't so easily brought out by my family. I know better than to let them inside, yet here they are, leaving their trail of negativity and toxicity in their wake. I'm better, stronger, wiser and just all around kinder, yet time spent with them seems...
jus cuz i miss sum of the things like the ultrasounds baby movin heartbeat n the first few months. I know what to expect now so itd be less stressfull but i cant right now. N i want twin boys. Then another lil girl:) my baby is now a toddler, shes one n 4 months, almost one n a...
I wish sadness didn't constantly intrude to color everything with its sad and gloomy colors.
I wish people were more honest with their words.
I wish people said what they think and meant what they say.
I wish I could take a break from bad news. It has gotten to the point...