I Wonder If Anyone Else Could Handle Who I Really Am

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    My Shadow Is Long And Dark

    Thus far my shared experiences have only shown my best side and barely hinted at the dark side of my life. I have had many deeply moving spiritual experiences and from these I have developed a perspective that dismisses good or evil in favor of a more karmically balanced...
    hezpa hezpa
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 19, 2010

    based On Past Experience...

    I have to conclude that the answer is looking more and more like no.... or perhaps it is simply that I never really give them the chance?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 19, 2011

    We All Are

    In our own way we're all messed up. There's something about ourselfs we don't like, everyone has it some are good at hiding it some fake it an others let it fester like something rotting. Either way who cares ? Put on your big boy/girl panties an get over it. An I say this with...
    tellthetruth101 tellthetruth101
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 28, 2011

    I Don't Think They Could....

    I feel like a nobody. Even my own mother despairs of my life. I am single, have been left with no friends and have little of a social life. The only social life I have is doing exercise classes alone/sometimes with a co worker or spending time with family. I work in daycare and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 4, 2011

    Only Me.

    I think I am the only person who could ever really know, understand, & accept who I really am. I'm a very complex person & I know it's very hard for people to understand me. I worry that no one will ever even try. The more people understand me, the more they will accept me...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 5, 2010

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