I Wonder If I Deserve to Be Happy

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    I Sometimes Wonder If I Deserve To Be Happy.

      The reason why I feel this way is because of a family member when I was growing up.  I felt that I was never good enough and that my brother could do no wrong.  This family member was always, my brother this, my brother that, brother, brother, brother...
    candles24 candles24
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 9, 2010

    I Wonder

    I have never been truly and honestly happy. Content, yes, but not happy. If you are deprived of something for so long, you question its need, you think that you don't need that. Everyone wants to be happy. Everyone needs it at times. But not everyone thinks they can get it, or...
    jlsmonkey jlsmonkey
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2010

    There Must Be a Reason

    I used to think everyone deserved to be happy. Now I think I have changed my mind. I snubbed my nose at life for many years, doing whatever I wanted and not paying to much attention to the consequences. I thought once I turned my life around things would get better. And they did...
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Jan 12, 2009

    My Life And Confidence Babbling.

    Let me start by saying even when I had confidence it wasn't like OH MY GOD I'M BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE! No, it was more like just being able to have fun with out noticing the weird stares. I used to live in a little town called Roseville. Its in California near Sacramento...
    Wish2BeLoved Wish2BeLoved
    18-21, F
    Sep 10, 2012

    Unsure

        I'm not happy anymore. I want to be and I try, not to the best of my ability but I try. Sometimes I just don't think I deserve to be happy. I was once happy or happier and I left because I thought better things was out there and there wasn't. I left and now my...
    nurse2nice nurse2nice
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 10, 2008

    Nobody Deserves to Be Happy

    Bad things happen to good people, and good things happen to bad people. I don't think anybody deserves to be happy nor miserable. Happiness is not earned. It's just gained. I am happy, but I do not believe it is because I deserve to be.
    jacqdn jacqdn
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

    Do I Really Deserve It?

    Sometimes I ask myself what did I do to deserve being unhappy?  I have a crappy job thankful I got one but nevertheless it's crappy.  Don't have no friends and no boyfriend.  What did I do?  It's like I'm being punished for something and I don't know what?  I try to be a...
    tngurl25 tngurl25
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2011
    angel510 angel510
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2014

    We All Deserve To Be Happy

    i have been dealing with this vehement and unyielding thought that i dont deserve to be happy, and i literally knew no one else who was dealing with this same problem, and there was no one i felt i could trust with this information, and no one i felt would understand. because the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Jul 1, 2011

    Everyone Deserves to Be Happy.

     Ben Franklin said, " Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy". I'm very unsuccessful jobwize. I deal with a lot of depression because of that. I don't think that I'm fated to be unhappy.  Life has ao much good in it. It is just so easy to focus...
    Beauphord Beauphord
    46-50, M
    1 Response May 27, 2009

    Dual Diagnosis

    i am just curious as to whether anyone else has these labels before i bore anyone with my tales of woe. A couple others that sort of round the whole personality out are OCD and dry drunk. Strangely as much as i would enjoy having someone to communicate with...i really hope that...
    Charismat Charismat
    61-65, M
    Sep 21, 2011

    Seems Not So Much!

    If you look at my life and everything I do on and off EP, and believe me my little sissy does, one would think that happiness would be raining down on me with furious enjoyment. She gets mad for me because she is my biggest fan in life and it makes me laugh because I always...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Mar 16, 2011

    Is Your Kilter On Or Off?

    do i deserve to be happy.? you know, i don't know what i was looking for when i came across this sight, but this question.. i had to stop. my question is.. from who's perspective? if i were to answer this question, i would say no. here in this tiny sample of my life, i will...
    compromised compromised
    31-35
    3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

    I Want to Believe...

    i tell myself that i deserve to be happy but i'm not sure that self is buying it. i often experience feelings of intense guilt that are directly related to real happiness. the guilt becomes so unbearable at times that i have stopped creating art to sale, i have purposely...
    leftoversky leftoversky
    70+, M
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2008

    Change Of Heart

    after giving it alot of thought, i have decided that it doesn't matter so much whether or not i deserve to be happy...i don't think that i'm meant to be happy.. no matter what i do i end up feeling depressed.. i spend time with my girlfriend, and when i'm with her, i feel happy...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Jul 25, 2011

    The Answer Is

     yes you do. everyone deserves happiness.  Ben Franklin said, "Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy".
    Beauphord Beauphord
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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