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I Wonder If I Deserve to Be Happy

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    Is Your Kilter On Or Off?

    do i deserve to be happy.? you know, i don't know what i was looking for when i came across this sight, but this question.. i had to stop. my question is.. from who's perspective? if i were to answer this question, i would say no. here in this tiny sample of my life, i will...
    compromised compromised 31-35 3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    I Wonder

    I have never been truly and honestly happy. Content, yes, but not happy. If you are deprived of something for so long, you question its need, you think that you don't need that. Everyone wants to be happy. Everyone needs it at times. But not everyone thinks they can get it, or...
    jlsmonkey jlsmonkey 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 28, 2010

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    I Sometimes Wonder If I Deserve To Be Happy.

      The reason why I feel this way is because of a family member when I was growing up.  I felt that I was never good enough and that my brother could do no wrong.  This family member was always, my brother this, my brother that, brother, brother, brother...
    candles24 candles24 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    We All Deserve To Be Happy

    i have been dealing with this vehement and unyielding thought that i dont deserve to be happy, and i literally knew no one else who was dealing with this same problem, and there was no one i felt i could trust with this information, and no one i felt would understand. because the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Dual Diagnosis

    i am just curious as to whether anyone else has these labels before i bore anyone with my tales of woe. A couple others that sort of round the whole personality out are OCD and dry drunk. Strangely as much as i would enjoy having someone to communicate with...i really hope that...
    Charismat Charismat 61-65, M Sep 21, 2011

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    Nobody Deserves to Be Happy

    Bad things happen to good people, and good things happen to bad people. I don't think anybody deserves to be happy nor miserable. Happiness is not earned. It's just gained. I am happy, but I do not believe it is because I deserve to be.
    jacqdn jacqdn 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    Seems Not So Much!

    If you look at my life and everything I do on and off EP, and believe me my little sissy does, one would think that happiness would be raining down on me with furious enjoyment. She gets mad for me because she is my biggest fan in life and it makes me laugh because I always...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 16, 2011

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    I Want to Believe...

    i tell myself that i deserve to be happy but i'm not sure that self is buying it. i often experience feelings of intense guilt that are directly related to real happiness. the guilt becomes so unbearable at times that i have stopped creating art to sale, i have purposely...
    leftoversky leftoversky 70+, M 3 Responses Jul 13, 2008

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    Do I Really Deserve It?

    Sometimes I ask myself what did I do to deserve being unhappy?  I have a crappy job thankful I got one but nevertheless it's crappy.  Don't have no friends and no boyfriend.  What did I do?  It's like I'm being punished for something and I don't know what?  I try to be a...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2011

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    Unsure

        I'm not happy anymore. I want to be and I try, not to the best of my ability but I try. Sometimes I just don't think I deserve to be happy. I was once happy or happier and I left because I thought better things was out there and there wasn't. I left and now my...
    nurse2nice nurse2nice 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 10, 2008

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    Relapse

    I go in these constant waves of hopefulness and hopelessness. I can't seem to stop thinking about the what if's, the idea of death. It doesn't bring me fear, and that scares me. I just want to live, but I'm stuck on this endless one way street of regretting recovery and harmful...
    Brody1530 Brody1530 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 10, 2013

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    Everyone Deserves to Be Happy.

     Ben Franklin said, " Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy". I'm very unsuccessful jobwize. I deal with a lot of depression because of that. I don't think that I'm fated to be unhappy.  Life has ao much good in it. It is just so easy to focus...
    Beauphord Beauphord 46-50, M 1 Response May 27, 2009

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    The Answer Is

     yes you do. everyone deserves happiness.  Ben Franklin said, "Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy".
    Beauphord Beauphord 46-50, M 2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    angel510 angel510 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    There Must Be a Reason

    I used to think everyone deserved to be happy. Now I think I have changed my mind. I snubbed my nose at life for many years, doing whatever I wanted and not paying to much attention to the consequences. I thought once I turned my life around things would get better. And they did...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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    Change Of Heart

    after giving it alot of thought, i have decided that it doesn't matter so much whether or not i deserve to be happy...i don't think that i'm meant to be happy.. no matter what i do i end up feeling depressed.. i spend time with my girlfriend, and when i'm with her, i feel happy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jul 25, 2011

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    My Life And Confidence Babbling.

    Let me start by saying even when I had confidence it wasn't like OH MY GOD I'M BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE! No, it was more like just being able to have fun with out noticing the weird stares. I used to live in a little town called Roseville. Its in California near Sacramento...
    Wish2BeLoved Wish2BeLoved 18-21, F Sep 10, 2012

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    RUBYJUTT RUBYJUTT 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    I have stopped planning my life and whoever is planning it for me is doing a wonderful job
    mrnut mrnut 36-40, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I am so fed of this life I keep trying for everything even when I fail to do so sometimes but I try and dont give up that easily and I know you will believe if u had my life story...
    Blackangel4u Blackangel4u 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 27

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    I try very hard to stay positive with everything that's goes on in my life, however I don't seem to be able to keep it up for long. Life seems to be able to jump up and kick me in...
    Lightandshadows Lightandshadows 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    There have been a few that had their friends tell me in the past, but I always wondered who else had a crush on me.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 11 hrs ago

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    I wonder what people actually see in me. I don't know why so much people like me, I'm just funny and nice, is that really all you need to be for a good friend?? Ugh I don't know...
    Smexyshannonxo Smexyshannonxo 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I wonder if people talk bad about me and if they do why not say it to my face
    willieverbegoodenough willieverbegoodenough 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Departure – Invoice precise and processed competently. We walked over to the jetty with a Sri Lankan Manager so it had been pleasant to debate his suggestions for Sri Lanka...
    Willy52yt Willy52yt 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 29

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    Look all around and see things happening to people. not to me.. I am too awkward to even own a personality My social ineptitude brings forth all that i dont deserve. I am not happy...
    anisse113 anisse113 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    Finally what my dream was is becoming true and i can't be more happy than i am right about now Reminder that you should never lose hope or give up, give it a chance and it will...
    JamesLovato JamesLovato 18-21, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I saw my old friend hunter today. I'm so happy I haven't seen him in 5 months
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 7 hrs ago

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    I think I might of realized that I'm not alone. Finally. I realize this. I realize I deserve the absolute best; and this truly makes me so happy.
    shammypurry shammypurry 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    worst sound of happiness is a forced laugh from people trying to be happy.. even she's bleeding inside how ironic i see myself in her.. maybe it's just showing the wisdom in...
    shenghuidai shenghuidai 26-30, F Aug 27

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    It's funny how looking through old photos can really put your life into perspective....how clearly you can see your life in chapters. I'm in a weird chapter of my life right now...
    SupernovaxGirl SupernovaxGirl 26-30 2 Responses Sep 2

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    Im really happy that your settling in well and that people are talking to you, you deserve all the best and I hope you find happiness with your new friends.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M a week ago

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    I'm not perfect. I have my shortcomings. But I showed you love and respect like you have never experienced in your life. I put you before myself in all that mattered. I suffered...
    nipplelover43 nipplelover43 36-40, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    So I got married in June. I've known my husband for 7-8 years (lost track), been living with him for around 7 months, and dating for a year. We have a baby together. Last month he...
    Ealasme Ealasme 16-17, F Aug 19

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    I often catch myself thinking, 'he/she deserved better than that.' It usually comes with a heart pang or two, and also a great sense of injustice. The sad truth is that we all...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30 Aug 21

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    I really have no idea what to do in my life now. It feels like i have no destiny in life. A little background of myself is that im the youngest child in my family. I have 3 sisters...
    iambacknow iambacknow 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My boyfriend was spanking me and I teased him. I told him he was barely touching me so he might as well give up. He started spanking me harder than ever before. So hard I begged...
    Justdreamingxox Justdreamingxox 18-21, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I sit and wonder where you are, how you are, if you are even alive still. I feel like my guts are knotting up I just want to stop the pain. I want to spill my guts out over the...
    BookOfShadows BookOfShadows 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    2 1/2yrs togthr. Now its over. He is a stubborn man tht rarely shows emotion. He waited 2yrs to tell me he loves me cuz he wanted to mean it. We were happy, same life interests...
    Beckarae Beckarae 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Especially SSBBWs.Although I love women of all sizes,huge beautiful girls simply make me melt.If you're over 300 pounds or want to get there(NO upper limit!)and would love to be...
    jjb6560 jjb6560 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    There are commonplace wisdoms that go unquestioned more often than politics or religion now. I see people all the time bragging that they are not 'sheep' and then spouting these...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I do, so bad , but I'm still not over my ex. He was abusive and didn't deserve me, and the guys I have been seeing are so sweet. I'm still in love with my ex :/
    leaom22 leaom22 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Be honest no one deserves to live in lies. So tell me what you really think.
    CosplayPotato CosplayPotato 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I don't think people should be bullied or hurt by words! I think everything should be equal because war is not the answer. Yes I am a hippie and yes I am alone. But I am who I am...
    HopeBright44 HopeBright44 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I've tricked myself into thinking I could be something more. Something more than a miserable monster. Something more than a weak and pathetic person who deserves to die. For 11...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Why do I continue to suffer day in and day out? Everyone I know has abandoned me. What will be left of me when I'm dead? There was nothing when I lived. People assume it's never...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Iv realized just sitting around waiting for your life to turn around for the better isn't going to fix your anxiety/depression. Iv been battling both of these the last few months...
    ryanjoseph ryanjoseph 18-21, M Sep 5

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    I have had plenty of good things happen to me in life that most people would be grateful for, yet I can never seem to be happy for long and I continue to feel more and more...
    K3TTLE K3TTLE 31-35, M Sep 5

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    The Deluxe Seaside Villas with Jacuzzi dot the extensive seashores in the midst of the island. These villas aspect oversized picket patios with Solar loungers and daybeds, and...
    Augustina97sy Augustina97sy 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 21

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