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I Wonder If I Deserve to Be Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 220 People

    Seems Not So Much!

    If you look at my life and everything I do on and off EP, and believe me my little sissy does, one would think that happiness would be raining down on me with furious enjoyment. She gets mad for me because she is my biggest fan in life and it makes me laugh because I always...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 16, 2011

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    I Wonder

    I have never been truly and honestly happy. Content, yes, but not happy. If you are deprived of something for so long, you question its need, you think that you don't need that. Everyone wants to be happy. Everyone needs it at times. But not everyone thinks they can get it, or...
    jlsmonkey jlsmonkey 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 28, 2010

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    I Want to Believe...

    i tell myself that i deserve to be happy but i'm not sure that self is buying it. i often experience feelings of intense guilt that are directly related to real happiness. the guilt becomes so unbearable at times that i have stopped creating art to sale, i have purposely...
    leftoversky leftoversky 70+, M 3 Responses Jul 13, 2008

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    Unsure

        I'm not happy anymore. I want to be and I try, not to the best of my ability but I try. Sometimes I just don't think I deserve to be happy. I was once happy or happier and I left because I thought better things was out there and there wasn't. I left and now my...
    nurse2nice nurse2nice 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 10, 2008

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    Relapse

    I go in these constant waves of hopefulness and hopelessness. I can't seem to stop thinking about the what if's, the idea of death. It doesn't bring me fear, and that scares me. I just want to live, but I'm stuck on this endless one way street of regretting recovery and harmful...
    Brody1530 Brody1530 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 10, 2013

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    Change Of Heart

    after giving it alot of thought, i have decided that it doesn't matter so much whether or not i deserve to be happy...i don't think that i'm meant to be happy.. no matter what i do i end up feeling depressed.. i spend time with my girlfriend, and when i'm with her, i feel happy...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jul 25, 2011

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    There Must Be a Reason

    I used to think everyone deserved to be happy. Now I think I have changed my mind. I snubbed my nose at life for many years, doing whatever I wanted and not paying to much attention to the consequences. I thought once I turned my life around things would get better. And they did...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 6 Responses Jan 12, 2009

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    My Life And Confidence Babbling.

    Let me start by saying even when I had confidence it wasn't like OH MY GOD I'M BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE! No, it was more like just being able to have fun with out noticing the weird stares. I used to live in a little town called Roseville. Its in California near Sacramento...
    Wish2BeLoved Wish2BeLoved 18-21, F Sep 10, 2012

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    I Sometimes Wonder If I Deserve To Be Happy.

      The reason why I feel this way is because of a family member when I was growing up.  I felt that I was never good enough and that my brother could do no wrong.  This family member was always, my brother this, my brother that, brother, brother, brother...
    candles24 candles24 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 9, 2010

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    Everyone Deserves to Be Happy.

     Ben Franklin said, " Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy". I'm very unsuccessful jobwize. I deal with a lot of depression because of that. I don't think that I'm fated to be unhappy.  Life has ao much good in it. It is just so easy to focus...
    Beauphord Beauphord 46-50, M 1 Response May 27, 2009

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    Nobody Deserves to Be Happy

    Bad things happen to good people, and good things happen to bad people. I don't think anybody deserves to be happy nor miserable. Happiness is not earned. It's just gained. I am happy, but I do not believe it is because I deserve to be.
    jacqdn jacqdn 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    Is Your Kilter On Or Off?

    do i deserve to be happy.? you know, i don't know what i was looking for when i came across this sight, but this question.. i had to stop. my question is.. from who's perspective? if i were to answer this question, i would say no. here in this tiny sample of my life, i will...
    compromised compromised 31-35 3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    We All Deserve To Be Happy

    i have been dealing with this vehement and unyielding thought that i dont deserve to be happy, and i literally knew no one else who was dealing with this same problem, and there was no one i felt i could trust with this information, and no one i felt would understand. because the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 1, 2011

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    Dual Diagnosis

    i am just curious as to whether anyone else has these labels before i bore anyone with my tales of woe. A couple others that sort of round the whole personality out are OCD and dry drunk. Strangely as much as i would enjoy having someone to communicate with...i really hope that...
    Charismat Charismat 61-65, M Sep 21, 2011

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    The Answer Is

     yes you do. everyone deserves happiness.  Ben Franklin said, "Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy".
    Beauphord Beauphord 46-50, M 2 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    angel510 angel510 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Do I Really Deserve It?

    Sometimes I ask myself what did I do to deserve being unhappy?  I have a crappy job thankful I got one but nevertheless it's crappy.  Don't have no friends and no boyfriend.  What did I do?  It's like I'm being punished for something and I don't know what?  I try to be a...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2011

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    its so true, i dont deserve it. im too much of a **** up to be happy.
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    I've been in my relationship for over a year. At no point have I ever seen a future in it. He makes me happy some of the time but I don't feel loved. I've never felt confident that...
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    Seriously, I wish I had met someone as sweet as him before. :O I'm enjoying it now. I can tell he likes me simply from the way he looks at me and encourages me. A man that prays...
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    Our relationship is still new and fresh.... We've been together a little less than 2 months... He's so sweet and cares about me. He came and made me tea when I was sick... He...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    If he deserves it, it's awesome.
    throughthedoorway throughthedoorway 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    Not necessarily "princesses," because I don't condone women acting like bratty children, but I think entirely too often some women settle for a guy who is completely worthless...
    loveVSlust loveVSlust 18-21, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    My husband treats me so great and I don't say how thankful I am enough for all that he does for me. I know many don't find a guy like mine in their whole lifetime which is so sad...
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    1. Cuddles 2. My family 3. Listening to music 4. Going to concerts 5. Hardback books 6. Meeting old friends/acquaintances I haven't seen in years 7. My favourite podcasts 8. Tea...
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    I deserve it but I also deserve to die
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 13-15, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I use to think this all the time.Years of struggling being a single father with full custody of two children.Dealing with a dead beat drama causing ex-wife.Working 50 hour six day...
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    I wonder how people see me ...I'm someone who has been ashamed of their physical looks most of their life . I never been happy with the fact that I have dark skin even though I...
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