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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 219 People

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    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    To Her At All????

    We have grown apart over the course of years and now it is coming time to get back together or..................................................................   We used to love but she isn't comfortable at home or around me any more and we are not sure how to get back if...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 7 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Do I?

    The only person who can answer that question is me. And I do matter to my loved ones.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Mar 20, 2012

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 36-40, M Nov 9, 2011

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    I'm here to not feel

    so alone in my experiences and to offer support to others whom I identify with. It feels like I've hit a low point, that I can't be myself on here.
    MsInvis MsInvis 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    If I vanish in a flash, will history crash?

    A nameless cog in a machine that is bogged in interminable computation? Merely a simulation in a giant game, an automaton, and we are all the same. If history be the judge, will it be harsh, on the path we trudge across our boggy marsh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 16, 2013

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    Have always had a dog since I was a little kid can't imagine life without one a dog is so loyal loves you no matter what truly is man's best friend the only thing sad about them is...
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    I wonder about my gender identity sometimes. It's truly Wonder and not Worry, which is unusual for me. Sometimes I have these odd moments where I remember I'm female, and I'm a bit...
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have seen some posts where some people say "I am psychic. Ask me anything." and it follows with smart-y comments by members with weird or obnoxious questions. That is truly weird...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    1. My life in General is great, but the number one wonderful thing in my life is my family. I don't have much family. But the relatives I do have are wonderful. And they are my...
    MinaMari MinaMari 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I often catch myself wondering from time to time what people see when they look at me. What the first impression was that they got upon seeing me, and if that ever changed at any...
    lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30 3 Responses Apr 4

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    For me the sadness of existence is the endlessness of the love ad the liking. Everything we have and feel will perish. What is there to die for? What is there to live for? In this...
    HoneyCue HoneyCue 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    To have found someone who loves me no matter what :)
    OneWithTheSkies OneWithTheSkies 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    We wonder at almost a constant basis and every living adult has asked themselves this question a million times by the time they're 50. We beat ourselves over this most complex...
    Happinessisthinking Happinessisthinking 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    It's those strange feelings that constantly run through my head. Suicide.... I have imagined and played out 101 different scenarios. I am not depressed, I don't have a mental...
    Silthill Silthill 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I have attempted suicide before. It's never honestly bothered me much if people fall to pieces or if they move on with their lives. I really don't care either way because I won't...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Classic Oldies Groups and Greats Mix: The Temptations, 1 My Girl 2 Just My Imagination 3 The Way You Do The Things You Do Frankie Valli And The 4 Seasons, 4 Let's Hang On 5 Can't...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I was in an unhappy marriage, we lost a son 22 years ago and had a daughter straight after. But our marriage took a nose dive, but we managed to live harmoniously for another 14...
    lifesabitchagain lifesabitchagain 61-65, M Mar 27

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    I was in an unhappy marriage, we lost a son 22 years ago and had a daughter straight after. But our marriage took a nose dive, but we managed to live harmoniously for another 14...
    lifesabitchagain lifesabitchagain 61-65, M Mar 27

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    Here is the scenario… Im in a committed relationship and have a friend who I believe has a crush on me…what do you guys think.. I am very femme, and I am not really outspoken...
    reyna35 reyna35 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I saw a question today asking this very thing and it caused me to think back over my life. There was a time when i believed myself to be truly in love, but as things happen in our...
    primnproper primnproper 46-50, F 7 Responses Apr 1

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    I very often struggle worn why I'm here.....why God hasn't taken me...why I haven't taken my own life. I'm truly trying to not be selfish and end my pain and suffering ....but I'm...
    mandy6b mandy6b 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Blessed with great parents, good education, decent job, lots of wonderful experiences, good friends..... Basically more than content with how life has treated me till now.
    SoulHealer9221 SoulHealer9221 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    A way that casinos and the movies conspire to intimidate players into expecting to lose is by implying there’s something mathematically mysterious about winning and keeping the...
    HaroldJenson HaroldJenson 31-35, M 14 hrs ago

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    I sit here, alone at night contemplating whether my friends would actually notice and/or care if I suddenly disappeared. My friends never call, care to keep in touch, invite me...
    VanityHorrorx VanityHorrorx 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    i have so much going on i dont know what im doing it doesnt matter what circumstances i change im never gonna get any better why did i think leaving was gonna make a difference i...
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I am a pretty impressive person once you really get to know me. I'm quite a comedian too. Normally I keep to myself, and I don't consider too many people as "loyal", so therefore I...
    Symone00 Symone00 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    most people think religion is one of problems in the society. I was born in a Muslim family. Then, automatically I am a Muslim. But, it does not mean that someone who is born as a...
    venusaquila venusaquila 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 9

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    Ladies Of Jazz Mix: Ella Fitzgerald: 1 Mack The Knife 2 A Tisket, A Tasket, 3 Night And Day 4 Blue Skies. Billie Holiday: 5 Travelin' Light 6 Summertime 7 The Very Thought Of You...
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