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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 210 People

    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 36-40, M Nov 9, 2011

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    Do I?

    The only person who can answer that question is me. And I do matter to my loved ones.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 22-25, M Mar 20, 2012

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    Actions Speak Much Louder Than Words

    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    Well my mom is 53 and today my dad would have 82 years, i dont think their relationship was easy in any way but they truly were in love and supported each other all the time so i...
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    I sometimes wonder what is the point in living. I really fill that human happiness was not considered in the the design of creation and life truly has no meaning.
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    It seems most posts on here have to do with relationships. Obviously a relationship full of lies is not a relationship that will last. I believe that honesty is very critical in a...
    HappyandSad20 HappyandSad20 18-21, F Apr 10

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    Always when I do something it will eventually always end the same with me feeling worse then at the beginning. It doesn't matter what I do or how much fun it is I will always...
    RedUnderground RedUnderground 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 13

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    There are a lot of people out there that would leave the person they love because of a 2-3 year age difference. I'm not like that. If I truly love someone I wouldn't leave them if...
    UltimateGamer11 UltimateGamer11 13-15, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    My name is Emily. And, I need help. I've been struggling with this for years now. Whether it was coming to terms with it or simply being able to tell someone. I am in pain...
    stellersjay stellersjay 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I'm really wondering what the point is in trying to do anything. I feel like no matter where I go, I lose hope. Can't go see my family because my dad is so pessimistic that I leave...
    RBH101 RBH101 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I wake up and do the same thing over and over again. Patterns patterns, obligations. Details of life pass me by as I indulge in societal humors. Nature, friends, adventure, living...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Does anyone here the cries at night of the girl drowning in her sorrow? She needs to be heard but her breath is too shallow. She knows that she's been wrong and created her own...
    Emrald18 Emrald18 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    We met when we were 18 and started dating when we were 21, but didn't marry until age 28. Before we got engaged, in my mind I was preparing to end the relationship because I was...
    lifetwistsandturns lifetwistsandturns 36-40, F Apr 5

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    "Cheating is NOT a mistake. If you’re truly in love with someone, you will not be able to kiss someone else without tasting your loved ones tears stain your lips. You will not be...
    SparklyRain SparklyRain 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I hate my personality. I wish I could just change, but sadly it really is a hard thing to do. I would often curse myself 'Why am I born like this?' Sometimes I would just cry all...
    SecretsNeverHidden SecretsNeverHidden 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I am feeling , I am so alone. All my shadows choke me by placing me into a corner. It is dark and I only see an ugly person in the mirror.. Why am I crying? Because I was not mean...
    Jackie192019 Jackie192019 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    It really seems almost insane. Millions of people doing similar things, feeling similar ways. Each of us experience the same things and we all play these little social "games...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    Ever since I was young I had a major problem with making friends. I just could not understand why most people seemed to hate me so much. No matter how friendly I was. It gets...
    CookiesNCupcakes CookiesNCupcakes 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    My first post on ep and here it goes.... This is slightly ironic considering it is my first time on here and this is a first time I have been in this situation. I have recently...
    freddys101 freddys101 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 27

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    Yikes, I hate admitting that I have problems, but I do... hugely. I can't control my anger, and I am tired of people around me telling me how worthless I am, specifically, in my...
    eleanor11 eleanor11 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I think living would be so much easier if only I could find a purpose for living. I think purpose creates meaning. Which tells us why we are here. I don't think its necessary to...
    akinhead akinhead 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    The point of life is much debated. But I think everyone needs to stop trying to answer it. Stop trying to tell people what they think it is. Life is everyone's own utopia, it will...
    CharleighBrazil CharleighBrazil 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 4

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    I'm being matter of fact here- What's the fing point? My son is grown- I work and sleep. For what?! To pay the bills? There should be more to life than this. I am broken and I'm...
    RagingAngel RagingAngel 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Today I went out with a friend, I haven't gone out since January. My husband urges me to go out but, like usual, I some how **** up. Today, since my friend has a little baby, I had...
    Silv3rstarz Silv3rstarz 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 7

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    ...every person I talk to that I have a great connections with and really want to keep in my life, has stopped talking to me out of nowhere. Something always comes up with them and...
    PandaHaven PandaHaven 18-21, F Apr 9

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    My ex and I were completely in love, we were perfect for each other and we knew it. The only problem was he continuously let his ex girlfriend walk all over him, me and our...
    Jaimedee Jaimedee 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    If I hadn't listen to my parents and recognizing that I am who I am today no matter what I can't change for nobody. God made me the way I am, and nothing or no one is going to put...
    gregs242 gregs242 18-21, M Apr 11

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    I wished to be your fountain of love where you could rejuvenate yourself discarding every odds of life. As you are to me ..The whisper on the wind ,the love that never ends. From...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 1 Response Apr 15

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    I had a relationship with a guy I couldn't see because my mother didn't allow it , he didn't give up and wanted to ask her for permission. I knew my mother wouldn't approve no...
    ashleysauceda ashleysauceda 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm a 26 year young woman in a relationship with a 38 year old man. I'm starting to fall in love,which is VERY hard for me considering I'm not that trusting of a person anyway...
    likeyoungerwomen likeyoungerwomen 31-35, F a week ago

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    All throughout my life I've always been the friend of that friend that made you a part of the group and now that I am older I still feel that way. I have no idea why this has...
    couriouslyconflicted couriouslyconflicted 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Does it happen to everyone? Or is it just me. I'm not sure but one thing I do know is that I feel like no one truly likes me. I like to think Im a good person, that I'm nice and...
    xSummerofBiohazardx xSummerofBiohazardx 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I know deep inside that I am a good person. I am often afraid I am not good enough. And I try even harder to be better. I struggle so much to forgive myself and be kind to myself...
    cailinAlainn cailinAlainn 36-40, F Mar 31

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    Last night I told a good friend of mine how I truly feel. She proceeded to tell me that I was none of those horrible things and I deserve happiness. I deserve someone to treat me...
    EmptyAgain EmptyAgain 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I wonder if you miss me. I wonder if you ever think of me. I wonder if I will ever hear from you again. I wonder if I am right. I wonder if I am wrong. I wonder if you are happy...
    MsRack MsRack 36-40 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I Wonder!!! I wonder what will happen when the day returns to night! I wonder what will happen as one year follows the next! I wonder what will happen when my kids grow up and...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 6

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