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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 218 People

    To Her At All????

    We have grown apart over the course of years and now it is coming time to get back together or..................................................................   We used to love but she isn't comfortable at home or around me any more and we are not sure how to get back if...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 7 Responses May 13, 2009

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    Do I?

    The only person who can answer that question is me. And I do matter to my loved ones.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Mar 20, 2012

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    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 36-40, M Nov 9, 2011

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    I'm here to not feel

    so alone in my experiences and to offer support to others whom I identify with. It feels like I've hit a low point, that I can't be myself on here.
    MsInvis MsInvis 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    Actions Speak Much Louder Than Words

    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    If I vanish in a flash, will history crash?

    A nameless cog in a machine that is bogged in interminable computation? Merely a simulation in a giant game, an automaton, and we are all the same. If history be the judge, will it be harsh, on the path we trudge across our boggy marsh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 16, 2013

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    I think I have finally figured out just what I want to write, I wondered for decades if I was doing the right thing in helping his father and others keep my husband under their...
    isis55 isis55 51-55, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Feeling Nostalgic and listening to musical melodies of Heaven Falls hard, I remember feeling just like this then walking into her place of employment I paid for my Food and...
    rainyraven rainyraven 31-35, T 1 day ago

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    What other people see? I see situations in my own way so everyone else must see the same situations in much different ways. (differing eye witness accounts tell us that). I wonder...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    not many people are capable of making me feel like i matter. idk if its just me not wanting them to or if its them just being self absorbed like everyone else. the world is full of...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    They say that just took make me feel better about myself when in reality, looks matter more than everything in the society we live in
    KidNova45 KidNova45 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I wonder what goes through everyone's minds here when they read my stories or look at the groups I'm in. I wonder what first impression I give. Most people see one thing they like...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I've always wondered what my future will be like. I wonder if I'll learn from all my mistakes. It's probably silly, but I write a lot. They're sort of journal entries, I suppose...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    most of the times I wonder how the things that people do r the same no matter where they live, who they r or what they do. simple things like seating if u attention most of the...
    Negiin Negiin 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I firmly believe that age gaps in relationships are natural yet have somehow become demonized over the last couple of decades. In a society that is applauding the rights of same...
    BertramGhandi BertramGhandi 41-45, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Walking around in nature. I could walk forever. In this national park that I find myself in, like so many hikes I've done before but, this one is different. I'm alone as I walk and...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Of course, it's not everything, and it doesn't buy happiness, dignity, intelligence, love etc. But I'd much rather have it than not at all, it would certainly reduce the stress out...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    People will always tell lies, whether it is little white lies or more serious lies. I'd much rather hear the truth than be lied to, but the reality is people will always be...
    Naala Naala 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I always say no matter how hard the truth may be or how much you think your gonna hurt me always be honest with me. I'd rather you hurt me with the truth than to hurt me with a lie...
    MayhemsTreasure MayhemsTreasure 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I had someone special to me leave ep. I will miss him. I wished I understood why. We had gotten close, and then his switch flipped and I was left to wonder. I'd rather have...
    frspch frspch 51-55, F 11 Responses 4 days ago

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    About a week ago I was sitting in my carport smoking a cigarette. A man walked up from behind my storage shed. This man was african american, in his 40's (I'm assuming), using...
    ShivaBrainard ShivaBrainard 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I find joy in reading. I used to read in the dark or under dim light at night even if my parents told me to go to bed. It gave me comfort in what I read and I have learned a lot...
    Artandabstarct Artandabstarct 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    To truly get to know a person, it seems like it is always difficult, even an entire life trying to get to truly know one person wouldn't be a wasted life - and yes this tiny...
    spark16 spark16 26-30, M a week ago

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    My boyfriend is 5 years younger than me. I don't care. Age only matters when some weirdo is after a minor.
    mvillevamp2013 mvillevamp2013 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    In any kind of ships, it matters.. the reason why we can love with all our heart.. the reason why words are nt needed and trying so hard is nt required.. I rarely give myself half...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M a week ago

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    I mostly hard to get to know because I don't like talking about myself. I have some very good freinds but they don't truly know what I think about.
    vnon123 vnon123 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    When someone looks at me , I'm always wondering what they are thinking, bad or good? It's tough to understand some people but in you're life your gunna meet nasty people and then...
    briannaamatias briannaamatias 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I'm also perfectly happy to accept, "I'm not comfortable with you knowing the truth." At least you're being honest about it, which is what matters to me the most.
    kasvelrising kasvelrising 22-25, T Jun 23

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    I didn't believe in ghosts as a child. I don't believe in them now. Except I sorta feel like one. And I feel like ghosts are all around me. And we're all kinda just floating...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I hate it when people tell me lies. I'm a lie detector.I can easily make out that the person is lying to me.And when someone who is very close does this, I feel really bad. People...
    lovemylife2210 lovemylife2210 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I am a big girl, I can always handle the truth. Honesty is so important no matter how hard. I have had so many people lie to me because they don't want to be hurtful. What others...
    lovelychickadee lovelychickadee 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 22

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