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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 275 People

    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    Actions Speak Much Louder Than Words

    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    It's funny. I normally don't allow trivial

    things to bother me. I'm usually a happy person and I stay very positive about things for the most part. I am normally the one to say hi to people and wish them a good morning and what have you. But this morning, I was kind of quiet....and I realized something. No one, said...
    Pilotbob75 Pilotbob75 36-40, M 6 Responses Dec 4, 2015

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 41-45, M Nov 9, 2011

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    If I vanish in a flash, will history crash?

    A nameless cog in a machine that is bogged in interminable computation? Merely a simulation in a giant game, an automaton, and we are all the same. If history be the judge, will it be harsh, on the path we trudge across our boggy marsh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 16, 2013

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    I'm here to not feel

    so alone in my experiences and to offer support to others whom I identify with. It feels like I've hit a low point, that I can't be myself on here.
    MsInvis MsInvis 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2015

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    I am the weed in your garden,

    growing wildly and always out of place. You pull and remove me, each and every time, but can’t you see, I just want to be like every other flower, nurtured and loved, blooming alike. But I'm a weed and no one ever brings home a bouquet of weeds to brighten the day.
    cmyk323 cmyk323 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2015

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    To Her At All????

    We have grown apart over the course of years and now it is coming time to get back together or..................................................................   We used to love but she isn't comfortable at home or around me any more and we are not sure how to get back if...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 7 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I want to tell you a million things (more) about me, about my feelings, about the future, my plans.. ..the fact that there isn't an hour of my days, now, that i don't think of you...
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    Its good to get the truth no matter how hard. But if you are a christian you understand there are demonds in the world so we have to be careful. The saying "the truth hurts" is...
    AliChan25 AliChan25 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    I have had relationships with guys well over 45 years older than me. It didn't matter to me and it didn't matter to them. We both got what we wanted. It seemed to matter to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm a Swedish Finn, well into my 60s but with the same zest for life I always had as a teenager. I'm happy to answer any questions you like, no matter the subject nor how personal...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    So I saw some texts my bf send to his ex. It was over a course of several months. He said some things in the text that are inappropriate for people if they were just friends. He...
    CheerMeUp2 CheerMeUp2 26-30, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm a INFP personality.I have this complex mind and I get frustrated way easily.I'm much a thinker than a talker.I hate small talk but I'm very good at talking what I'm passionate...
    felicia123angel felicia123angel 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have a very stressful job, but nevertheless I like it. I have very nice, gently bosses, I like my clients, and my clients like me. Furthermore: I love the feeling to help other...
    Loretta78 Loretta78 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    That looking good matters is a good thing for the good-looking.
    silmarilion456 silmarilion456 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    wondering how far to go tonight
    Marydaze1 Marydaze1 31-35, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I woke up this morning and started wondering about basic instinct and human behavior - I know about the four f's but where did this basic learning come from one of the f's is food...
    g4it g4it 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    this is gonna be the one thing I'm gonna be looking for most in life. a guy who will stay with me no matter who complicated I am. as truly I'm a mess when it comes to things in my...
    dathglas dathglas 13-15, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I would love to hear someone else's story like mine, How do you deal with it, do you feel guilty? Is there truly a concrete answer on how to handle it. I have built my life in a...
    Kailey76 Kailey76 36-40, M a week ago

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    I met someone like that once. His name was Randy. He knew I struggled with mental illnesses and rook advantage of it every moment I spent with him. He would always say I was the...
    Nmetb Nmetb 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I wonder if I ever caught someone's attention. Even if I was just walking among the crowd, I wonder if they wanted to get to know me or anything like that.
    glassbonespaperskin glassbonespaperskin 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I think I want to quit life. I'm kind of sucking at it, I'm really unhappy, and I doubt anyone would care anyway. My parents would pretend to care because it wouldn't be...
    sting0611 sting0611 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I'd like to thank my therapist for suggesting that I should close my credit cards. I'm so impulsive and so shallow minded, that closing my 2 credit cards did not enter or even...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Feb 3

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    i get sick of people and their lies looks dont matter really come on i know looks matter i say it out loud when i see a girl i dont know about her personality i approach...
    lostpagesofM lostpagesofM 18-21, M Feb 1

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    Do you ever find yourself wondering how much you exists in other people's lives ? I am curious if people think of me when a certain song comes on, or when they pass through a...
    ExquisiteMind ExquisiteMind 70+, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    If age matters, then I'm messed up in life. from being 15 and dating a 21 year old... to be 17 talking to a 32 year old and sleeping with him when I turned 18.
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 28

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    Your dog is the only creature in this world that loves you just because you exist. He doesn't need you to change, to apologize, to pay him money to be with him, to buy him presents...
    natalypetrvicki natalypetrvicki 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Above, is a picture of what pure Love looks like. A beam of Hope, shining in a dark world, to show the way. Can you see it?I want to share with you this morning, a very odd and...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F Jan 27

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    I always wonder sometimes why I was brought to this world.. sometimes I wish I could just check out completely.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 26

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    Have you ever tried to fit a triangular shape into a circular mold? It just doesn't fit, no matter how hard we try. The bible says to be careful what you ask for, for when you get...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F 1 Response Jan 25

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