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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 212 People

    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    To Her At All????

    We have grown apart over the course of years and now it is coming time to get back together or..................................................................   We used to love but she isn't comfortable at home or around me any more and we are not sure how to get back if...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 7 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    Do I?

    The only person who can answer that question is me. And I do matter to my loved ones.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Mar 20, 2012

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    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 36-40, M Nov 9, 2011

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Actions Speak Much Louder Than Words

    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    If I vanish in a flash, will history crash?

    A nameless cog in a machine that is bogged in interminable computation? Merely a simulation in a giant game, an automaton, and we are all the same. If history be the judge, will it be harsh, on the path we trudge across our boggy marsh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 16, 2013

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