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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 224 People

    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    I'm here to not feel

    so alone in my experiences and to offer support to others whom I identify with. It feels like I've hit a low point, that I can't be myself on here.
    MsInvis MsInvis 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Do I?

    The only person who can answer that question is me. And I do matter to my loved ones.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Mar 20, 2012

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    To Her At All????

    We have grown apart over the course of years and now it is coming time to get back together or..................................................................   We used to love but she isn't comfortable at home or around me any more and we are not sure how to get back if...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 7 Responses May 13, 2009

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 36-40, M Nov 9, 2011

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    Actions Speak Much Louder Than Words

    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    If I vanish in a flash, will history crash?

    A nameless cog in a machine that is bogged in interminable computation? Merely a simulation in a giant game, an automaton, and we are all the same. If history be the judge, will it be harsh, on the path we trudge across our boggy marsh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 16, 2013

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    For so long I’ve only filled with bad luck αи∂ ι ωσи∂єя why? Why I am never noticed? I try so hard!! But no……. No matter what I do,i’m still known as the...
    AjaxJaxson AjaxJaxson 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I am often left wondering what is my purpose of living. This does happen quite often in one point of someone's life, 1-4 to be exact. But the extremity of ones dark thoughts come...
    RoseDani RoseDani 16-17, F Feb 8

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    And I hate it. I'm not sure if I'm pissed off, depressed, happy, disgusted... I think I'm alone. Completely alone. I don't know who I am. I have no identity. None. Absolutely no...
    BigBlittleb123 BigBlittleb123 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I love to lay in my bed sometimes and night and reflect on the wonderful people and events that have brought laughter, love and joy into my life. There is one person in particular...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 7 Responses Feb 16

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    So here I am, 47, never married and no children. I have been in relationships, but they hadn't worked out. It wasn't anything I did wrong other than take a chance at something. I...
    Doeyz1967 Doeyz1967 46-50 1 Response Feb 9

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    Have you ever wondered if all those bad guys from those movies who desire world domination would ever say lol and mean it? Like it would totally ruin their badguy reputation.well...
    NarutoShippudenFanGirl NarutoShippudenFanGirl 13-15, F Feb 3

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    It's just another situation in my life where people would pay me a thousand dollars for a kiss and 50 cents for my soul. Almost 200 comments on my "I want to know if you think I'm...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 17

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    The real struggle is to live , to keep going no matter how many times you get knocked down . It's hard to keep fighting . I attempted before , if it wasn't for my kid and my family...
    Shaadoww Shaadoww 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    Honesty and integrity are too important to leave to others Having these of yourself and possessing them truly is too crucial to leave to others Life needs to be lived whole...
    Astrucbmt Astrucbmt 22-25, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I'm not sure if he loves me yet, it's not been very long. But I know for sure he truly cares and adores me. It's the best feeling I could ever hope for. He's the most genuine...
    strawberryblonde89 strawberryblonde89 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    All make mistakes. All of us!!! No one is perfect. My husband make the worst mistake of his life. He has trouble living with the fact that he hurt so many many people for...
    Mylifesover Mylifesover 46-50 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Sometimes the connection you had with another soul changes. When that happens holding onto the previous relationship will hurt as you try to change it back. No matter how much it...
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 26-30 Feb 6

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    I'm half asleep when I write this but I have to say, the connections that I make on EP are so wonderful and I'd hate to live without them
    KevinAdams123 KevinAdams123 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    Alice asked the Cheshire Cat, who was sitting in a tree, “What road do I take?” The cat asked, “Where do you want to go?” “I don’t know,” Alice answered. “Then...
    LaraLuulu LaraLuulu 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I want someone to take the time to truly know me and love me for me. I don't want to be just used. I want to be loved by someone who will love me the way I love people. No holding...
    briannalynn190 briannalynn190 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    On 5/14/14, I was blessed with a beautiful baby boy. Although I had a difficult pregnancy, I was confident he would change my life for the better. I was terrified and certainly not...
    SecretAngel6 SecretAngel6 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 20

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    When we were children going through the two year old phase of asking "why" did we really leave that time period of asking why I find myself always asking why this and why that...
    Alicehath Alicehath 56-60, F Feb 8

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    I wonder if the process to get married was as lengthy and tedious as the one to divorce, would anyone really bother? Today I took one more step in this long drawn out divorce...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    Sure do. It doesn't matter if friends are over, or I'm staying at a friends house. They accept my nudist life style and are comfortable with me sleeping naked. Most of the time...
    ethan96 ethan96 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 10

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    idk how to explain but I can't seem to give her up no matter how bad I want to this might sound like bs to people oh your a kid you don't know anything about love well I do and I...
    Nerd94 Nerd94 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    I sometimes worry I repel some friends when I bring up personal matters
    guiocopiano guiocopiano 56-60, M Feb 11

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    I always sleep naked no matter what. I live in Florida and have great weather and temperatures. I love sleeping with my family.
    tallmomwithkids tallmomwithkids 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 12

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    I don't care how old someone is. I've dated a girl more than 5 years older than me, and I've dated girls younger too. Age really doesn't define a person to me, and I'm willing to...
    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    WHat I mean by this is that I can learn something from you, no matter your age. We are all wise in different ways.
    KnightMoves KnightMoves 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Not to say that I wont ever.. But.. It is so nasty to see sometimes how someone protects someone because of either love?, or because they lose support/love themselves?. Or their...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I need to step up and tell myself the truth. I need to face reality. My marriage wasn't a marriage and it took an anonymous app, a stranger to open my eyes. Now they're open I...
    myownbox myownbox 26-30, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    'd Rather Have the Truth, No Matter How Hard
    goodnites1091 goodnites1091 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    Guys..?? men ,there mentality it makes me wonder.. what goes on in there heads? the one with a brain that is. regarding sex i guess and society's standards if they're accurate...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 5

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    Do you think about me? I think about you.I think about my lips kissing yours as we hold each other feeling our hearts beating.Have you ever wondered what it be like to be held in...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Feb 6

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