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I Wonder If I Truly Matter

In the giant scheme of things & EP...Do we really matter? 214 People

    No Purpose Worth The Name

    I wonder if my life is of any real consequence at all despite the struggle and effort of living each day. As a family member I've been largely ignored and at times a downright nuisance. As a friend I haven't had anything to give anyone that they couldn't easily get from somewhere...
    CosmoLang CosmoLang 36-40, M Nov 9, 2011

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    To Her At All????

    We have grown apart over the course of years and now it is coming time to get back together or..................................................................   We used to love but she isn't comfortable at home or around me any more and we are not sure how to get back if...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 7 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Do.

    Any memories that others have of me dissolve slowly like kool-aid mix in water. In Holly Hobby's mind, I am "that girl". Later on, I am "that kid", then simply a shadow that she doubts existed. 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2011

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    If I vanish in a flash, will history crash?

    A nameless cog in a machine that is bogged in interminable computation? Merely a simulation in a giant game, an automaton, and we are all the same. If history be the judge, will it be harsh, on the path we trudge across our boggy marsh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 16, 2013

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    Actions Speak Much Louder Than Words

    My "ENTIRE" life I have lived for those around me. I have felt this immense pressure to try to be what others expect of me, and all it has ever done is make me so damned depressed that I feel my life has never been my own, and that I've wasted my most precious years (youth and...
    rrainfall rrainfall 31-35, F Aug 3, 2013

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    My Name Is Mike.

    My Name Is Mike. Posted December 2nd, 2011 at 10:45AM My name is Mike. As I'm writing this, I’m just two months away from turning 32 years old. The idea to write this book has been on my mind for a few years now. I always wanted to share my observations as a fat man in a...
    TheBMRP TheBMRP 26-30, M Dec 3, 2011

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    I Always Wonder This......

    I am single, have no friends left, no social life and yet I am in a job which requires a lot of me in a personal sense. I work with children. In the mornings I run a daycare and am responsible for a small group of children aged from 18 months up to 5 years. In the afternoons I...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    Sometimes...

    ...but then I remember none of you would exist if it weren't for me observing you.  Then, I feel a lot better about myself.  Ha!  Dance, puppets, dance. Heh.  Gotta love drunken quantum snarkiness.
    BrokenBear BrokenBear 26-30, F Mar 14, 2012

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    Do I?

    The only person who can answer that question is me. And I do matter to my loved ones.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Mar 20, 2012

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    I Don't Matter To Anyone

    I only matter to myself. Everyone else either lies or don't talk to me.
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Nov 2, 2011

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    Even Here...

    I feel like I'm invisible and it isn't because I want to be. I was actually a very outgoing person at one point, but things have changed in my mind. I actually feel like I am a different person, save my values of course. I am meek in a crowd and I am so far very unaccomplished in...
    Bubblegumblues Bubblegumblues 18-21 Jun 5, 2013

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    All For the Glory

    Counselor, professors, friends, they all act like it's their duty to protect me, but I think it's all a desire for self glory. I think they feel like it'll make them look better. In the end though, I only hear advice or end up in the ER, and never receive any actual help. And...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2009

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    More and More Lately

    Just like anybody else I am not perfect. I am fat. I am not beautiful. I have health problems. I am sensitive. I can be flaky. But you know what? I am sincere,honest,supportive,empathetic and loyal. I always wanted to believe my good qualities were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 17, 2009

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    I Can Be Easily Re-placed....

    I often wonder if I do truly matter to anyone. I mean, I can be so easily re-placed. There were poeple before, me, and if for some reason, I left the world soon, there will be people after me. I wonder if I am that important in someone's life, that they really need me, or that i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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    I Wonder...

    I wonder if I really do matter to anyone, the thought of wondering if I matter at all, crosses my mind very often, and I sometimes feel like I don't matter to anyone. Not such a great feeling to have.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    In the Big Picture.....

    Am I even a blip on the radar? I don't think so. I wonder how I got to this point. I wonder what is inside me that is so broken that I can not seem to repair it on my own. The saddest part is that no one seems to want to help me. I can't fix it on my own, & yet I'm expected...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2009

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    Jump.

    so, I just played 'Dear Esther'. (spoilers below, just letting you know) so, for a while now, I've been having...kind of daydreams about jumping to my death, and flying, I guess. I usually jump off buildings in these daydreams, and it just seems like such a good way to die, the...
    ResignedToSadness ResignedToSadness 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    Impossible It's been four months since I graduated from College yet I still don't have a job, while majority of my friends and batch mate who graduated in our university are now...
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    That intense, earth shattering feeling, where the only people that exist is you, and that only other person in which your very heart beats for? That intensity where your heart just...
    ThoughtFulMoments ThoughtFulMoments 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    I can see my mother getting to the point of exhaustion. I sometimes wonder when she says she can't take this anymore and wants to pack up and leave for a little while and just get...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    I can see my mother getting to the point of exhaustion. I sometimes wonder when she says she can't take this anymore and wants to pack up and leave for a little while and just get...
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    I once loved a man. He was smart and he was witty. He was funny and he was kind. He made me feel alive and he made me smile. But sometimes I wonder. Was it him I loved or the...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 22 Responses Sep 9

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    I just don't know anymore who to trust, who loves me, if I would even recognize love if i had felt it. I have been through so much, so much numbness, i feel like everyone is just...
    tylersean tylersean 22-25, M Sep 11

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    people judge others without knowing them think they are better than people, when truly everyone is the same think skinnier girls are prettier think thicker girls are ugly seem...
    ilovemrfitz ilovemrfitz 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    No one seems to think the way I do. My mom was getting divorced again and I decided to give her some advice this time but she said that my ideas were a warped way of seeing things...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 13-15, M Aug 24

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    2 1/2yrs togthr. Now its over. He is a stubborn man tht rarely shows emotion. He waited 2yrs to tell me he loves me cuz he wanted to mean it. We were happy, same life interests...
    Beckarae Beckarae 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 9

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    She never thinks nor talks bad of me. Is that truly wonderful or what?! How many of you on here have that type of friend?
    BeckBeck65 BeckBeck65 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    Sometimes I wonder what people perceive me as, I know it shouldn't really matter but I like to feel approachable but confident as an individual, struggled for a long time with...
    chamlav chamlav 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I found these lines so apt for the time being.......... “He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 27

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    You have enemies? Good. That means you have stood up for something, sometime in your life. ~ Winston Churchill And so what if I am random? Who cares if I wear vintage clothes and a...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F Aug 30

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    All my friends are real, both online and off line. When I think of real friends though, I guess what I really mean is "true" friends. Those who are my true friends are always...
    MAT5629 MAT5629 41-45, F Sep 3

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    Looking back on my past, getting ready to share my story is not easy. Coming out with the truth of my life, makes me realize that I am lucky to be where I am. It helps me remind...
    Emifromaround Emifromaround 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    " I see it as passionate and dominant.. a controlling man who found a love who would love him no matter what and no matter how difficult it was to know him....a love that is...
    NonchalantEros NonchalantEros 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 6

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    The small, crucial, moment-by-moment choices we make have a huge impact in our lives. These series of small choices and decisions are what shape our character, the results we...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    ...usually that is my opinion. I have however came across one situation in which the number really was the deal breaker . I once was dating this gal, and she was great, gave me...
    YohKomori YohKomori 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    My 21 favorite song mix # 4 1 Fly Me To The Moon- Nat King Cole 2 What A Wonderful World- Louis Armstrong 3 Yesterday Once More- The Carpenters 4 I Wish It Would Rain- The...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    I don't understand what is wrong with people wanting to share their girls with others to get 'turned on', to have countless affairs (I.e. Cheating), lying,... etc. I don't know why...
    StupidM StupidM 22-25, M 4 Responses Aug 26

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    I have no idea if I can get any support here. I suffer with body dysmorphic disorder. This has affected my life for over ten years. Right now I'm suffering badly and have barely...
    bec78 bec78 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 28

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    Saying "sorry" doesn't fix the problem. It's what you do after that truly counts...
    charmee26 charmee26 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I am truly curious how many have dreamt about me.
    marchdan marchdan 16-17, M Sep 10

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    I've tricked myself into thinking I could be something more. Something more than a miserable monster. Something more than a weak and pathetic person who deserves to die. For 11...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Why do I continue to suffer day in and day out? Everyone I know has abandoned me. What will be left of me when I'm dead? There was nothing when I lived. People assume it's never...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I know how to be truly happy in my life, work, and raising my kids on my own, But I do not know how it feels to be in a truly loving and happy relationship with a woman! I want...
    wjk1849 wjk1849 46-50, M Sep 5

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    Sitting on the porch swing listening to the birds sing the only thing that’s missing is you, yea you So lonely on this old swing, wondering what it all means swinging on this...
    michael1971 michael1971 41-45, M Aug 23

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    Not much more than that question? Why is it no matter how well we try to treat others we always end up alone?
    Arcentine Arcentine 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    I'm becoming a licensed professional counselor. I question this role because I do not enjoy my life. I dread my life. Each day. Waking up to see the sun is like torching my eyes...
    rainty98 rainty98 31-35, M 3 Responses Aug 29

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    What if it was like the movies? What if you woke up one day and suddenly he is waiting for you downstairs saying he's sorry saying he loves you, always had and always will. From...
    Claire212 Claire212 16-17, F Aug 31

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    The real you is waiting. In here. Not out there. You can't patch your Soul's truth together with workshops, and a wardrobe, and identity choices. You'll likely spend half of your...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 1 Response Sep 2

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