I Wonder If I Will Ever Fall In Love Again

i am terrified by the idea of dying alone, i had a couple of bad experiences relationship wise and don't see me feel myself falling in love too easily again, i just find it too hard to trust people now and i feel quite emotionally...

...that I am not ready.
...that I have too much work to do on myself.
...that I`m a bit of a mess, and no one wants to clean that up.
...that I don`t need a man.
...that I need this time to myself.
...that I`m not as good as...

WELL IT ALL STARTED OUT I WAS WITH THIS GUY FOR 5 YEARS AND WE LIVED TOGATHER AND ALL....BUT COME TO FIND OUT HE WAS SLEEPING WITH MY BEST FRIEND,AND THEN SHE GOT PREGNANT AND THEY HAD A BABY...I FORGAVE HIM THROUGH ALL OF THAT AND HE...

when i was only 21 I fell in love with my angel!!she was the best woman i ever knew and i loved her so much,Also she was a virgin when we met.we now have 3 children my oldest son 19 my 2 daughters 15 and 9 we are now split and she left...

we were together for almost five years.she left me for someone else.she left me four months ago.life makes no sense without her and i feel like the greater part of me has died..my heart is literally aching every day without her in my...

It's been a while now since I lost my love. He just didn't love me enough, and so I left him and everything else. That was more than a year ago and he recently got married. I gave him my support and advice throughout his engagement...

Why do CLOSE family members always turn out to be the ones that cause you the most saddness in your life. Why do they feel the need to interfere and cause you the most saddness. Why do they not care about your hurt and the saddness...