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I Wonder If I'm a Lost Cause

Does Anything I Do Really Make A Difference In The Long Run? 283 People

    I Think Im Too Far Gone.

    My mind has changed and warped to adapt to sadness, and as that sadness increases, my mind warps still further, around the bends it has already formed, it has tangled into itself, and keeps the sadness going. I dont understand myself anymore, i dont know what im thinking or...
    djpanda djpanda 18-21, M 8 Responses Mar 17, 2011

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    No Matter What I Do, Its Still There....

    I was depressed. I went to counselling, took 6 months out from uni and started again from the begining of the year, i had fun, i relaxed, i am on very high dose anti-depressants, mmy personality has turned on its head, im not outgoing, confident, funny, social, and jolly. But...
    djpanda djpanda 18-21, M Sep 30, 2011

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    I Wonder This A Lot...

    I used to get told that I'm a "lost cause". But, I was over-emotional and heavily into drugs back then. Now, I'm over 90% percent of those issues, but I still can't function in society. I can't stay in college and can't get a real job. So, I shrug my shoulders and hope I have...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 2 Responses Apr 6, 2011

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    I Wonder...

    I really do wonder if I am a lost cause or not. I wonder if I am hopless at ever overcomming the changelles that I have faced all my life. Was my failed suicides really worth it, its there really something that I can do that would make this world better. I mean, what is all the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 27, 2009

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    Lost Cause

    Maybe I am for many people, and maybe I'm not for the rest.  ;) 
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2011

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    I Wonder If I'll Ever Get It Right.

    Sometimes i wonder if i am ever going to get my life right.  I am constantly battling, constantly fighting with myself to get things right.  It is all down to myself at the end of the day.  I am responsible for my own actions.  I am responsible for getting my...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777 31-35, F 11 Responses Jul 20, 2009

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    Sometimes

    Sometimes,I wonder,About me,A lost cause,The **** life's thrown,Why me?What have I done?I don't deserve this,Or is it,I'm a lost cause?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 10, 2012

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    I Wonder !

    If I'm a lost cause ? I always seem to drive away the people I care about ! Friends , Family , Love one Wifes . Even in groups of people I feel so alone ! The more I try to get close to people the more do stuff to drive the away ! It's like I don't want any one close to me so...
    RayofSunShine55 RayofSunShine55 56-60, T 4 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    It'S Already Over

    I am a lost cause. I have thrown away everything I worked for...
    DookieMaster DookieMaster 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11, 2013

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    Everywhere I hear laughter

    and see smiles. They joke around and connect. But here I am. Lost. I try to conform. I try to smile and laugh along too. I've tried. And at too many times. I feel like an outsider. I feel like an entirely new specie with a population of one. No one truly understands me. They all...
    joyjuzenally joyjuzenally 13-15, F Oct 23, 2014

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    Oh, dig my shallow grave,

    It's not me you'll save, 'Cause I'm a lost cause!
    Scott1616 Scott1616 22-25, M Feb 14

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    I Wonder That Because...

      I've been in church since I was about 5 1/2 years old. None of has made me feel closer to God or the Earth. I don't feel spiritual. I would pretend and the more I would pretend the more everyone accepted me. Now, I'm done with it.  My pastor has been so nice and loving, but I...
    AmoreCalls4Help AmoreCalls4Help 18-21 Jul 23, 2011

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    Never Ending Downward Spiral

    I'm done with everything, i've tried every method I know so far to prevent myself from further going down the wrong path, and so far all of my attempts have been constantly derailed by a force greater than myself...I'm an alcoholic, a failure in life, and to put it BLUNTLY a lost...
    Alan132 Alan132 22-25, M Sep 24, 2012

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    Too Fast

    Mom always told me the world moves too fast for me . I'm not dumb, in fact, I'm quite the opposite. People tell me I am brilliant. My IQ is off the charts, but none of this explains why I am sitting in a strange apartment that I now call home. None of this explains why I am...
    goldenlemons goldenlemons 18-21 1 Response Apr 12, 2012

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    Yeah

    If I'm a lost cause. What would happen?  
    mother1983 mother1983 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2009

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    Probably am. thanks for the effort

    but dont bother, no one can help. i know myself better than you. not that i want to anyway. I'll be going to hell if there's one(which I dont think there is itsjust a crappy tale they tell to get you to be good) I'm a lost cause! I embrace the fact
    isohatetheworld isohatetheworld 70+, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    Never Ending Battle Inside Myself

     And the worst thing is i can never escape my own my mind because it alays comes back to haunt me. I can work myself into a good mood only to come straight back down the next day. I dont think ive got much hope despite a few people telling me that i do and have so much...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    Everywhere I hear laughter

    and see smiles. They joke around and connect. But here I am. Lost. I try to conform. I try to smile and laugh along too. I've tried. And at too many times. I feel like an outsider. I feel like an entirely new specie with a population of one. No one truly understands me. They all...
    joyjuzenally joyjuzenally 13-15, F Oct 23, 2014

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