I Wonder If I'm a Lost Cause

Does Anything I Do Really Make A Difference In The Long Run? 320 People

    No Matter What I Do, Its Still There....

    I was depressed. I went to counselling, took 6 months out from uni and started again from the begining of the year, i had fun, i relaxed, i am on very high dose anti-depressants, mmy personality has turned on its head, im not outgoing, confident, funny, social, and jolly. But...
    djpanda djpanda
    18-21, M
    Sep 30, 2011

    Never Ending Battle Inside Myself

     And the worst thing is i can never escape my own my mind because it alays comes back to haunt me. I can work myself into a good mood only to come straight back down the next day. I dont think ive got much hope despite a few people telling me that i do and have so much...
    bubblegum84 bubblegum84
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Nov 30, 2009

    I Wonder That Because...

      I've been in church since I was about 5 1/2 years old. None of has made me feel closer to God or the Earth. I don't feel spiritual. I would pretend and the more I would pretend the more everyone accepted me. Now, I'm done with it.  My pastor has been so nice and loving, but I...
    AmoreCalls4Help AmoreCalls4Help
    18-21
    Jul 23, 2011

    It'S Already Over

    I am a lost cause. I have thrown away everything I worked for...
    DookieMaster DookieMaster
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2013

    I Wonder...

    I really do wonder if I am a lost cause or not. I wonder if I am hopless at ever overcomming the changelles that I have faced all my life. Was my failed suicides really worth it, its there really something that I can do that would make this world better. I mean, what is all the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 27, 2009

    Everywhere I hear laughter

    and see smiles. They joke around and connect. But here I am. Lost. I try to conform. I try to smile and laugh along too. I've tried. And at too many times. I feel like an outsider. I feel like an entirely new specie with a population of one. No one truly understands me. They all...
    joyjuzenally joyjuzenally
    16-17, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    I always get underestimated.

    People always complain about my personality. It hurts deeply. People always view me as an excuse, a no one. People always see me as an insect compared to them. People always complain about how I'm an introvert and that I don't talk much. It must be absolutely fun to pick on...
    Abdulaziz94 Abdulaziz94
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 8, 2015

    Lost Cause

    Maybe I am for many people, and maybe I'm not for the rest.  ;) 
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 3, 2011

    I Wonder This A Lot...

    I used to get told that I'm a "lost cause". But, I was over-emotional and heavily into drugs back then. Now, I'm over 90% percent of those issues, but I still can't function in society. I can't stay in college and can't get a real job. So, I shrug my shoulders and hope I have...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    22-25
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2011

    Yeah

    If I'm a lost cause. What would happen?  
    mother1983 mother1983
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2009

    I'm 19 and still don't have my driver's license.

    I've failed the road test three times and have only one more try. I have confidence in many other aspects of my life, I'm good at talking to strangers, I love my body etc, but when it comes to that test, I feel lost. I panic. I don't panic when I'm driving outside of the test...
    coollame coollame
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015

    Everywhere I hear laughter

    and see smiles. They joke around and connect. But here I am. Lost. I try to conform. I try to smile and laugh along too. I've tried. And at too many times. I feel like an outsider. I feel like an entirely new specie with a population of one. No one truly understands me. They all...
    joyjuzenally joyjuzenally
    16-17, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    I Wonder If I'll Ever Get It Right.

    Sometimes i wonder if i am ever going to get my life right.  I am constantly battling, constantly fighting with myself to get things right.  It is all down to myself at the end of the day.  I am responsible for my own actions.  I am responsible for getting my...
    Angeleyes777 Angeleyes777
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Jul 20, 2009

    Never Ending Downward Spiral

    I'm done with everything, i've tried every method I know so far to prevent myself from further going down the wrong path, and so far all of my attempts have been constantly derailed by a force greater than myself...I'm an alcoholic, a failure in life, and to put it BLUNTLY a lost...
    Alan132 Alan132
    22-25, M
    Sep 24, 2012

    I Think Im Too Far Gone.

    My mind has changed and warped to adapt to sadness, and as that sadness increases, my mind warps still further, around the bends it has already formed, it has tangled into itself, and keeps the sadness going. I dont understand myself anymore, i dont know what im thinking or...
    djpanda djpanda
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Mar 17, 2011

    No one really ever wants to help me

    and the ones who do give up on me
    CookieMonsta17 CookieMonsta17
    18-21, F
    Sep 16, 2015

    I Wonder !

    If I'm a lost cause ? I always seem to drive away the people I care about ! Friends , Family , Love one Wifes . Even in groups of people I feel so alone ! The more I try to get close to people the more do stuff to drive the away ! It's like I don't want any one close to me so...
    RayofSunShine55 RayofSunShine55
    56-60, T
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2009

    Sometimes

    Sometimes,I wonder,About me,A lost cause,The **** life's thrown,Why me?What have I done?I don't deserve this,Or is it,I'm a lost cause?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 10, 2012

    you know, I really wish someone would respond

    to my posts but I can see that I'm bothering everybody sorry
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 9, 2015

    Oh, dig my shallow grave,

    It's not me you'll save, 'Cause I'm a lost cause!
    Scott1616 Scott1616
    22-25, M
    Feb 14, 2015

    misery to most feels like a heat~ray a

    smothering  of raw emotions 
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 28, 2015

    Too Fast

    Mom always told me the world moves too fast for me . I'm not dumb, in fact, I'm quite the opposite. People tell me I am brilliant. My IQ is off the charts, but none of this explains why I am sitting in a strange apartment that I now call home. None of this explains why I am...
    goldenlemons goldenlemons
    18-21
    1 Response Apr 12, 2012

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