I Wonder If It Is Worth Me Being Here

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 173 People

    All The Time.

    I feel that way all the time. There really is no point to my life or to my existence. If I didn't have my mother to take care of, my life would truly be meaningless. She probably won't live much longer, & when she's gone, there really will be no reason for me to be here. So I...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Apr 4, 2010

    I Have No Idea Why I'M Still Here

    I've never really had someone to trust, to talk to or turn to. I'm really just someone that's there, not really a friend not really someone you know. and I'm tired of it. Worst of all, I can't even talk to my dad, mom, or brother. My parents don't say anything to me but to go...
    AlwaysOrNever AlwaysOrNever
    16-17, F
    Feb 18, 2013

    Me.

    Im a liar. I tell long stories that tell far from from the truth. I don't know why I do it, but I do. I don't even think my friends even know who I truly am. Ive been piling lies on lies for ever, and I guess I just don't know where to stop. Recently, I found out that one of my...
    charlottemaryjones charlottemaryjones
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2013

    Do I Make A Difference Or Am I Just Wasting Time

    Who knows........ ..right now I think leaving for good would hurt no one . I find little that presses me to be here. When i do offer help it is never taken seriously ... which is fine........ but why do it over and over with no results?
    ELFINSONG ELFINSONG
    56-60, M
    50 Responses Feb 6, 2010

    Sometimes

    Wishing it away doesn't work, though lately the feeling does not "visit" as often as it has in the past. It's rare I'm happy to say. I remember all too well thinking "can I go now?" over and over throughout the years. Have I done enough? Can I please go to the place of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 31, 2010

    Am I

    Some times when I'm alone I wonder would it be better if I just vanished or if I was never born maybe my parents wouldn't be unhappy because they would have a better kid that makes them proud and doesn't have so many mental problems maybe my friends wouldn't even notice if I...
    brokenandalone brokenandalone
    18-21, F
    Mar 6, 2013

    Sometimes

    Sometimes,I wonder,is it worth it?Being here,Not happy today,but somehow,Give it a go,Nine outta ten times,Surprise myself,I pull through.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 2, 2012

    If I'm Worth Staying

    in this earth or should I go to space.
    mother1983 mother1983
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Feb 6, 2010

    Is it really worth it to keep living day

    after day with this pain? Am I going crazy? I just feel like the pain it getting too much to handle. My family hurts me. I'm never treated like my brothers. I keep feeling like running away would be the best thing to do, is that wrong? No longer am I getting to be the age I am...
    ToukaKirishima ToukaKirishima
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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