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I Wonder What Could Have Been If I Had Made Different Choices

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    And So She Disappears.....

    it has happened on more than one occasion that i would get to know someone on EP, shared experiences and then like a misty cloud, they disappear into thin air. (this time GoddessFM) without a trace....... We all have experiences that haunt us, stuff that happens where we do not...
    solarstruck solarstruck 41-45, M 4 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    THE OTHER PATH… I wonder what would've

    happened if I didn't go to college and took a job instead? I wonder what life be like if I went to university? I wonder what happened to me if I didn't have all the surgeries done… I wonder what happened if I let my car be written off… I wonder what happened if I didn't...
    MilweePisces MilweePisces 18-21, F Feb 3

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    So many choices I've made the past few months

    and I can't stop asking myself how it would've been if I'd made different ones. I envision different outcomes, where they would leave me now. Though this isn't the best way to live in the present and move on from the past, one good thing about it is that it helps me realize that...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Oh, to Have a Crystal Ball.

    Don't you wish that when you were born you were given' a map?  One that showed the different paths your life could take you and what was at the end.  Would I have chosen the one that led me to were I am now?  I don't know.   I am married and...
    pheonix69 pheonix69 26-30, F Aug 10, 2009

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    Man . . .

    There are so many what-ifs in my life, I could probably write an entire series about them. Good news is, I'm trying to make up for it now. Here's hoping for a better year . . . . .
    Rookie009 Rookie009 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 31, 2013

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    To Rebuild A Bridge...

    To each his own, and may the ends justify the means. It seems to make sense, doesn't it? Even the most awful choices we make seem to justify the goal. I've reflected quite a bit on the things I've done. I'm pining...brooding...it's what you do when true love crumbles. You...
    TheHonestLiar TheHonestLiar 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 17, 2010

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    I Wouldn't Have...

    I regret so many choices from my past. They're going to hunt me until the day I die, and I'm quite aware of that. I hope those who made me suffer can one day understand the pain that they put me through, and suffer it in their own flesh. If life came with a map...
    Katniss Katniss 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Even little things. 'What

    if I would have stayed just an hour longer...' 'If I had said yes to that one invite.' That choice to leave the house or stay in bed. I always wonder if I'm missing a once in a lifetime opportunity to meet someone that could impact my life greatly in a positive way, or did I...
    landhoee landhoee 18-21, M Jan 19

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    If I Could Go Back ....

    I wouldn't have been so harsh towards people who were just trying to love me. I wouldn't have drank, smoked, or done drugs at such a young age. I would have tried harder in school and would have been more outgoing. The biggest thing .... I wouldn't have hurt my family, I wouldn...
    flowersareweeds flowersareweeds 18-21, F Mar 16, 2010

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    I know people do. My friends, my family, and my fellow soldiers. I have heard what they have said, and I only heard two people stand up for me. My mom and my ex girlfriend...
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    SecretsNeverHidden SecretsNeverHidden 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    ObiOneyouremyonlyhope ObiOneyouremyonlyhope 41-45, F 5 days ago

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    Really! If you have added me in the past present or future.. I really want to know! Please tell me! I often sit and wonder what about me was the reason you clicked that button...
    sadgirlwitharazor1 sadgirlwitharazor1 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    sabasaba06 sabasaba06 41-45, F Mar 24

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    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    TheOneWhoCouldnt TheOneWhoCouldnt 13-15 Mar 29

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    It it interesting to see the reactions of others to my situation. My family, friends, strangers, everyone has an opinion and a strong one at that. I married my hubby for the wrong...
    unexpectedlove15 unexpectedlove15 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    mrsherif mrsherif 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 30