I Wonder What Could Have Been If I Had Made Different Choices

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    A little boy said "Mom,

    did u know that Anna is an angel"? Mom said "U mean the maid, why do u say that"? The boy said "Well, because I saw her naked in your bedroom with her hands on the wall & she was shouting; "Oh God I am coming... I am coming ... I am coming...". If it wasn't for dad who was...
    Merlin266 Merlin266
    18-21, M
    Jan 7, 2016

    I want to know what would have been different

    if I had stayed away from drugs and alcohol...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 1, 2016

    I wonder each and every day,

    if I'd still feel the stinging down my throat, if I hadn't had sex with M. Because when I had sex with M, I was falling for you, L. I wonder, if I had told him no, would I have felt your hands against my throat, as I gasped for air. Would I have missed countless lessons at...
    Calixo Calixo
    22-25, F
    Mar 29, 2016

    Man . . .

    There are so many what-ifs in my life, I could probably write an entire series about them. Good news is, I'm trying to make up for it now. Here's hoping for a better year . . . . .
    Rookie009 Rookie009
    26-30, M
    Jan 31, 2013

    If I had a light bulb moment,

    I know for sure that I wouldn't have made about 90% of the decisions I made. I wouldn't have been sexually abused. I wouldn't have been bullied. I wouldn't have had so many heartbreaks. In saying that though, I wouldn't have learned what I've learned. It's because of my life...
    nightowl2015 nightowl2015
    26-30, F
    Feb 20, 2016

    The power of accurate observation is often

    called cynicism by those who don't have it.
    1ramrod 1ramrod
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Feb 14, 2016

    I always reflect back to a relationship

    that started my last semester of college I was 24 he was 33. All I dated was "guys." The 9 yr age difference then was I was dating a "man." He had long been out of college, he obtained a house, worked in corporate America, was years ahead of me sexual in experience. And yes to...
    Kyleegirl2015 Kyleegirl2015
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    If I had dated Nina, what would my life be like

    now? The possibilities with her were tremendous. I should have tried. No one else would date me and she was way far more awesome and attractive than any of the others. So, I really didn't think she would have dated me. I learned too late that I was wrong. I did have a chance...
    Mossonarock Mossonarock
    46-50, M
    Feb 11, 2016

    If I've hidden my sexuality from everyone,

    i bet i'll be miserable right now for suppressing myself from experiencing love, pain, joys, tears, heartaches and being lost again.
    hawksnravens hawksnravens
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 13, 2016

    I sometimes wonder what my life would have been

    like if I had followed my original plan and have attended law school. I would be a much different person than I am today. I wonder if I would have been happier, maybe not but I do think about it sometimes.
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2015
    Darkli Darkli
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    I wish I had known a few things.

    Mostly I wish I had known my wife wasn't interested in being a mother BEFORE we adopted our son. I love him dearly but I don't like being essentially a single father when I am actually married.
    Bernese15 Bernese15
    46-50, M
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    If I wasn't as sensitive to things,

    would I be a happier person?
    yellowsquares yellowsquares
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2016
    TheCroissant TheCroissant
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    I've been thinking about this a lot lately.

    There was one point in my life where if I had made a different choice, my entire life would be different. I wish I could jump into an alternate reality and find out...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    If I'd refused to answer his email,

    would I have dated someone I went to college with? If I'd walked away at the first major fight, would I have found a way to stay in school? If I'd paid more attention to how he spoke of his female friends, would I have avoided being abused? If I'd said no, would I have ever...
    midnitephoenix midnitephoenix
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 8, 2015

    If only i wasn't emotionally weak in the past

    and fell in love with a married man (separated but not yet annulled), maybe i wouldn't be in a situation right now where it feels like im not totally free to be happy. Maybe i would've given myself a chance to meet a better man. But what is better these days? Single men seemed...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    Things could have been better.

    Or things could be much worse than they are now. Sometimes, there is no right or wrong choice. Two choices may eventually lead to the same outcome or completely different ones. What if I chose a different school? Would I make friends? Would there be more work? What if I didn't...
    PinksTheNewBlack PinksTheNewBlack
    16-17, F
    Sep 23, 2015

    I guess it's like the butterfly effect,

    one outcome could change multiple ones..that'd be sweet.. I mean I want to keep certain aspects.. but overall I'd toss this out and start a new ...Wondering never has done much good.. I'd steal baby me and run for the hills.. FAR FAR FAR from this place ...that's for sure.. I...
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 25, 2015

    One wrong decision one mistake

    and my life have been changed for ever. Maybe it was meant to be
    pinelli111 pinelli111
    61-65, M
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015

    The way, your path always has breaks in it,

    forks in the road. You choose to do something or go in a direction and to what result. Some lurk at places opportune to their criminality, even in your own arrondissement. The way chosen becomes a nightmare of hateful history.
    Shafqat98 Shafqat98
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    Trapped by my profession

    because I'm trapped by my life choices. A quick sign onto work has resulted in 3+ hours of work. And I'm no longer billing by the hour :(
    Gwall1234 Gwall1234
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2015

    If I had the opportunity to go back in life to

    make different decisions, then my life would've been much better then it is now. But I can't dwell in the past and have to move on with my life by making better decisions that I will be happy to look back on when I get older.
    26-30, M
    Dec 25, 2015

    I've often walk down this street before.

    I really think I live my life in a "what if" mode. I sometimes get annoyed that I'm not pleased enough that I have to remember the past, but if you had no past you would have no future. I've made mistakes but there has also been great things as a result. I really don't see any...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 24, 2015

    Don't we all...we wonder what would have been

    if we choose that other job, or to do something else with our life's...the truth is...we made our choices...now comes the next one......
    amisfitlady amisfitlady
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 7, 2016

    So yesterday I made the biggest choice of my

    life. I hope it all turns out the way I planned, but then agian maybe I chose wrong.
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls
    16-17, M
    1 Response Nov 20, 2015

    what if i stayed with him.

    I'd have a loving but busy boyfriend. I miss him but now he is gone..
    sahikat sahikat
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2015

    I wonder what my life would be like

    if I wasn't abused as a kid. Would I be able to trust people and socialize better? She ruined my entire childhood and now I can't connect with people. And what would my life be like if I wasn't the most confusing person I have ever met/if I didn't have 3 sides.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 20, 2016

    And So She Disappears.....

    it has happened on more than one occasion that i would get to know someone on EP, shared experiences and then like a misty cloud, they disappear into thin air. (this time GoddessFM) without a trace....... We all have experiences that haunt us, stuff that happens where we do not...
    solarstruck solarstruck
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Feb 6, 2013

    I really do wonder what my life would have been

    like if I had not goofed up so many things since 2002. I was newly single and had bought my deceased parents' home from my brothers. One day I realized that I would be living there alone the rest of my life and might even die there just like my mother did. The thought terrified...
    GrandmaNanma GrandmaNanma
    61-65, F
    3 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    To Rebuild A Bridge...

    To each his own, and may the ends justify the means. It seems to make sense, doesn't it? Even the most awful choices we make seem to justify the goal. I've reflected quite a bit on the things I've done. I'm pining...brooding...it's what you do when true love crumbles. You...
    TheHonestLiar TheHonestLiar
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 17, 2010

    The 3 C's of Life: Choices,

    Chances and Changes. "You must make a choice to take a chance or your life will never change."
    sumtone sumtone
    31-35, M
    Aug 6, 2015

    So I am now in a lot of pain.

    I don't know if what happens it my own body or if I seriously got hurt. I tell my mom, and she tells my dad, and he says I'm fine. Well if I was fine, why does it burn to breath? If I was raised like my friend, would things be different. Would I be free, or all stuck in...
    ToukaKirishima ToukaKirishima
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2015

    Put financial cops on the beat

    who have proven they are independent from Wall Street and have the backbone to hold giant institutions accountable. In Republican AND Democratic Administrations, way too many people have taken a spin through the revolving door ? passing back and forth between government and big...
    1ramrod 1ramrod
    36-40, M
    1 Response Mar 10, 2016

    Knowledge is precious,

    and being better informed helps make choices easier to deal with.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 27, 2016

    I cheated on my last girlfriend.

    Our relationship was amazing, far better than I could have ever hoped for or expected. I may be young, and some may argue I don't know what love is, but I truly loved my girlfriend (let's call her Melissa) to pieces. Like I said, our relationship was fantastic - she was my...
    AliBali123 AliBali123
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 20, 2015

    When I was twelve I was still of a mind to

    enter a convent and become a nun. I was at a religious school and my teachers were inspirational. I was still looking at saints like Clara of Assissi as my example, and hoped when I went behind the veil I would be able to have a name like Clara. When I was fourteen I was...
    Banyousbabe Banyousbabe
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Mar 9, 2016

    Is there anyone that doesn't,

    what if is a huge part of my life. What if I'd waited, what if I hadn't waited and so on and so forth.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jan 19, 2016

    I finally got the opportunity to fulfill a long

    time dream of mine, which was to get a home where both my girls would have their own rooms. I moved a month before my daughter graduated high school and she was supposed to come out right after graduation. There was one delay and excuse after another. Since moving, my daughter...
    unbrokenground unbrokenground
    41-45, F
    Feb 11, 2016

    My life would be way different

    if I didn't quit football
    joshuaruiz1945 joshuaruiz1945
    1 Response Mar 8, 2016
    SpontaneousRecoveryLovely SpontaneousRecoveryLovely
    18-21, M
    Nov 28, 2015

    If we were all truly open & honest with

    ourselves & the people in our worlds this would be such a easy thing to admit you've wondered, thought about, wished with every bit of your being that you had done...For me, I have no problem admiting that I've made poor choices that will always haunt me, cause me to wonder...
    Tp8z Tp8z
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    Too much; not waiting,

    different majors in college, meeting different people, can only learn and move on.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Sep 23, 2015

    I often feel as if I have lived someone else's

    life. When I was younger, I was somewhat Idealistic, but very true to myself. I love nature, animals, physical challenges, witty people, silly senses of humor, simple times, being romantic, late night times around a fire and quiet times with a great non fiction adventure book...
    camabs camabs
    56-60, M
    Dec 30, 2015

    I wonder if there are an infinite number of

    "me" in alternate realities on different paths.
    InfernoGoodtime InfernoGoodtime
    36-40, M
    Nov 20, 2015
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