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I Wonder What Could Have Been If I Had Made Different Choices

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    Sometimes I think about being a better person

    and what it would be like if I wasn't around anymore, what would it be like then? (Loads gun) (unloads gun) thinks I'm better than that, puts gun back in safe!
    Josh1989 Josh1989 22-25, M Dec 5, 2013

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    THE OTHER PATH… I wonder what would've

    happened if I didn't go to college and took a job instead? I wonder what life be like if I went to university? I wonder what happened to me if I didn't have all the surgeries done… I wonder what happened if I let my car be written off… I wonder what happened if I didn't...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F Feb 3

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    I Wouldn't Have...

    I regret so many choices from my past. They're going to hunt me until the day I die, and I'm quite aware of that. I hope those who made me suffer can one day understand the pain that they put me through, and suffer it in their own flesh. If life came with a map...
    Katniss Katniss 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Oh, to Have a Crystal Ball.

    Don't you wish that when you were born you were given' a map?  One that showed the different paths your life could take you and what was at the end.  Would I have chosen the one that led me to were I am now?  I don't know.   I am married and...
    pheonix69 pheonix69 26-30, F Aug 10, 2009

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    To Rebuild A Bridge...

    To each his own, and may the ends justify the means. It seems to make sense, doesn't it? Even the most awful choices we make seem to justify the goal. I've reflected quite a bit on the things I've done. I'm pining...brooding...it's what you do when true love crumbles. You...
    TheHonestLiar TheHonestLiar 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 17, 2010

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    So many choices I've made the past few months

    and I can't stop asking myself how it would've been if I'd made different ones. I envision different outcomes, where they would leave me now. Though this isn't the best way to live in the present and move on from the past, one good thing about it is that it helps me realize that...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Even little things. 'What

    if I would have stayed just an hour longer...' 'If I had said yes to that one invite.' That choice to leave the house or stay in bed. I always wonder if I'm missing a once in a lifetime opportunity to meet someone that could impact my life greatly in a positive way, or did I...
    landhoee landhoee 18-21, M Jan 19

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    If I Could Go Back ....

    I wouldn't have been so harsh towards people who were just trying to love me. I wouldn't have drank, smoked, or done drugs at such a young age. I would have tried harder in school and would have been more outgoing. The biggest thing .... I wouldn't have hurt my family, I wouldn...
    flowersareweeds flowersareweeds 18-21, F Mar 16, 2010

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    Man . . .

    There are so many what-ifs in my life, I could probably write an entire series about them. Good news is, I'm trying to make up for it now. Here's hoping for a better year . . . . .
    Rookie009 Rookie009 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 31, 2013

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    And So She Disappears.....

    it has happened on more than one occasion that i would get to know someone on EP, shared experiences and then like a misty cloud, they disappear into thin air. (this time GoddessFM) without a trace....... We all have experiences that haunt us, stuff that happens where we do not...
    solarstruck solarstruck 41-45, M 3 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    Maybe?

    maybe i woulden't have made the friends i have.....but......maybe i woulden't always be in trouble......but .......maybe i woulden't have had a first love......but......maybe it woulent have ended in heart break....but.....maybe i woulden't have had the experinces i had.......but...
    LoveISHateHateISLove LoveISHateHateISLove 13-15, F Mar 7, 2011

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