I Wonder What You See In Me

I have always wondered what you saw in meThere are times where I think you love me but I just don't know anymore.What do you see when you look into my eyes? Do you see the pain and abuse I have endured? Do you see how much you have...

This love you feel for me
Is it true?
I can't believe it. Why would anyone feel for me like that? Even though I've tried to push you away, you stayed. Even though I know it pains you to hear me say "I'm not ready," over and over again...

...i think a lot of people get this feelling, like they dont deserve to be loved or cared for...i get that feeling alot. then when someone comes along and tells you that they love you, that they care for you, that they want to be with...

I am dating a woman and I have no idea why she is willing to occasionally spend time with me. I don't think that I am particularly smart. I know that I am not good looking. I spend my life broke so she can't possible come around because...

This is something I say a lot, but I don't know if I think about what I mean..... I do think eyes give a lot away, but I think that perception plays a large role in what you see in others. I see myself in quite a negative light, I have...

If I talk about the things in our relationship that I wish we could change, you say it makes you feel de-valued.

If I don't talk about our relationship, you say it makes you feel de-valued, even if you never bring it up either.

If I...

I love that feeling you get when you meet someone who you know is going to change your life. That spark, like an electric current running through you, that instant attraction you feel towards that person. Very few people have had this...

Love is a funny thing, in fact, I think I would say it is mind boggling. Everything you can perceive in someone changes when you are in love. The things that drive you crazy in someone can be one of those things that you find...

it is weird what you think of yourself....is totally different from the people around you...
most people discribe me as weird...artistic...crazy, physco...loud...different.
they havent seen me sad...with tears burning into my skin...

Finding you has been the luckiest day in my life so far.
All this time I thought I've always had the best friendships in the world but boy, did I know nothing.
Then you came along, poking and prodding me, calling me names, telling me...

Each day is different. Just because I was smiling yesterday doesn't mean I'm alright today.
I'm a boring son-of-a....
I've got a $^%& load of baggage.
I contradict myself. A lot.
I'm hypersensitive. Sometimes the slightest bad thing can...

Especially my past love interests, current people who have crushes on me, and the boy who currently says that he's in love with me. What qualities do I have, or appear to have, that make these people have any interest in me? I have the...

Well, what do you see in me? Who am I to you? Why do you all care about me enough to talk to me. I just think it would be nice to know why people put up with me and my randomness... :D

How is it that someone like me was so fortunate enough to have someone like you? Why you chose me of all the fish in the seas, oceans, deltas, rivers, ponds, dams, lakes, waterfalls, fountains, fish-tanks and fish-bowls, is a mystery to...

To my awesome friends on here I can assure you, it does get better. I haven't been on here for a while and I apologise, I do owe you that.
A quick update (not to bore you all) is that my awesome boyfriend proposed to me a few weeks back...

Is it my looks?
You haven't seen me yet.
Is it my words?
Words can be somehow deceiving. Don't read between the lines. Magnify each letter.
Is it my story?
If you are spellbound with the paragraphs, most of them are fantasies and...